UPDATED 12 - 31 - 2014 ' MADONNA SPEAKS ' A SCULPTURE ABOUT HUMAN TRAFFICKING

TO THE HONORABLE:

Beto O'Rourke United States House of Representatives 1721 Longworth House Office Building Washington, D.C. 20515-4316

DC Phone:202-225-4831DC Fax:202-225-2016

ARTICLE ( IS IN ) 77

NOTE: THERE MIGHT SOME CHANGES UNTIL I DECIDE IT IS FIT TO BE MAILED TO THE CONGRESSMEN.

THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT WILL BREAK YOUR HEART IF YOU ' ALLOW ' IT; THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT WILL BREAK YOUR HEART EVEN IF YOU HAVE LOOKED AWAY FROM THE CHILD'S FACE WHILE SHE WAVED ' HI ' UPON ' ARRIVAL.'

IN A DREAM, I SAW A WOMAN ALONE IN A DESERT, SQUATTING UNDER THE HOT SUN WITH ' SO MANY FACES.'

WHEN SHE LEFT THE SHELTER, SHE OPENED HER JACKET AND GRABED HER SWEATER AT THE ' HEART,' AND I HEARD HER HEART'S PLEAS AND COMAND, " IT'S NOT ABOUT THE CROSS, IT'S THE HEART," AS SHE GENTLY PATED HER CHEST.

SHE WAS LEAVING THAT DAY, AFRAID. 

I SAW ALL ' HER ' CHILDREN AGAIN IN THE SLICE OF A MOMENT…..IN HER EYES.

I HAVE BEEN HOMELESS FOR FIVE YEARS AND HAVE SEEN ALOT IN MANY SHELTERS IN EL PASO, TX., ARIZONA THE STREETS, AUSTIN, TX., A SHELTER, AND CALIFORNIA, THE STREETS AND HAVE HELPED THE HOMELESS IN NEW MEXICO.

I HAVE SEEN THE FACES OF KILLERS IN NEW MEXICO BEFORE AND AFTER THE BODY WAS FOUND, SAME IN AUSTIN AND THE SAME WITH EL PASO AFTER THE BODY WAS FOUND IN SAN ANTONIO. THAT MAN I GAVE A BIBLE BEFORE HE WAS PICKED UP BY LAW ENFORCEMENT, FBI AND EPPD.

I HAVE HEARD THE BAGGING'S OF TORTURES AND MURDERS; NO FACES SEEN, JUST THE WHISPERS IN THE DARK VOICED.....

CENTER OF GRAVITY

AND AFTER A VERY YOUNG LADY WHO TOLD ME A STORY OF " THAT DOG WAS SNIFFING UP MY DRESS ONE DAY AND MY MOTHER SAID ' THAT'S ALL DOGS DO IS SNIFF. ' " I REMEMBERED WHERE I WAS WHEN SHE STARTED BY SAYING " I WORE A DRESS ONE DAY," AND THAT BROKE THE HAZE OF THE ETHER AND JAIL STREET TALK, AND AFTER I LISTENED I LOOKED AROUND IN COMPLETE AWARENESS. THE ' MEN.' SOME APPROACHING, NO WHERE IN PARTICULAR....AGAIN.

THE REAL DOG WALKED AWAY IN THE MIDDLE OF WHAT SHE WAS SAYING. YET THE ' MEN ' HUNG AROUND IN AND OUT OF THE ' HAZE.'

ARTICLE 77

TRUST

THE PROBLEM WITH CHILDREN OUT IN THE OPEN AREAS WITH NEWLY ARRIVED HOMELESS MALES AND FEMALES SHOULD BE OBVIOUS TO TRAINED STAFF. THE CLIENTS OF ANY HOMELESS SHELTER WHO HAVE NOT BEEN BACKGROUND CHECKED PROVIDE TO THE SHELTER AND IT'S CLIENTS A CLEAR AND PRESENT DANGER TO THE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL WELL-BEING OF ALL CLIENTS. MOST ESPECIALLY THE CHILDREN AND THEIR MOTHERS NOT TO EXCLUDE THEIR FATHERS ( IF PRESENT ).

THE VERY NATURE OF BEING ' HOMELESS ' SHOULD INDICATE A ' PROBLEM ' WITH THE CLIENT OF THE HOMELESS SHELTER WHO IS BEING OFFERED SHELTER IF ACCEPTED. THE SOCIETAL INTERACTION BETWEEN THE CLIENT AND SOCIETY HAS MANY ROOT INDICATORS FROM SEVER FAMILY ISSUES, ILLEGAL USE OF DRUGS, ALCOHOL USE, VIOLENCE, RAPE, MURDER, AND VIOLENT AND NON VIOLENT INTERACTIONS WITH POLICE AND OR RELEASE FROM JAILS AND PRISONS. UNDOCUMENTED SEX OFFENDERS AND THOSE WHO ' FAIL ' TO REGISTER. 

THE CONTINUED RELIANCE ON THE SHELTERS, IN BETWEEN ' ARRESTS,' OFTEN DRUG RELATED, UNTIL THE ' SECOND STRIKE ' MANDATE PLACED ON MOST COURT ARREST RECORDS AS TO LENGTH OF JAIL AND PRISON TIME ' SERVED.' ALSO, I MIGHT ADD THE ' SHELTERS ' FAVORITES, OFTEN LONG ASSOCIATIONS WITH BOTH STAFF AND VOLUNTEERS, THE EX-CONS WHO ' ALL BUT RUN THE SHELTERS ' AT NIGHT, ARE ALWAYS ALLOWED IN, NO MATTER ANY ROOM THAT MIGHT BE AVAILABLE.

I MIGHT ADD THAT SHELTERS IN GENERAL SEEM TO BE LOCATED IN AREAS OF TOWN WITH THE HIGHEST RF AND NOISE POLLUTION ' AVAILABLE ' TO ' FURTHER PUNISH ' ALL OCCUPANTS FOR ALL CRIMES THAT MAY OR MAY NOT OF BEEN COMMITTED, AS A WHOLE, INCLUDING CHILDREN AS YOUNG AS EIGHT MONTHS OLD. IF ACCURACY OF ' RECORDS ' ARE TRULY KEPT, THIS WILL PROVE SO, IF EVICTION RECORDS ARE EVEN KEPT IN ANY GIVEN CITY.IF NOT, MOTHERS WITH CHILDREN ARE UNKNOWINGLY TAKING THE FIRST STEP ON THE ' ROAD TO HUMAN TRAFFICKING.' I MIGHT ADD, THAT WHILE ALL GOOD ' INTENTIONS ' MIGHT BE IN FULL FORCE, MOST ' VOLUNTEERS ' ARE ETHER MILDLY MENTALLY ILL, AND OR HAVE ' OLD PRISON  ALLIANCES ' THAT HAVE PROVED TO, IN THE PAST, WITNESSED BY POLICE IN MY PRESENCE, TO EXCLUDE OLD WOMEN AND OLD MEN TO TEMPERATURES BELOW FREEZING AND WOMEN WHO HAVE TAKEN OUT THEIR CHILDREN WITH THEM IN THE SAME ENVIRONMENTS, OFTEN HIGH CRIME AREAS COMBINED WITH CLIMATE TEMPERATURES AFTER 10:00 AT NIGHT, PREFERRING THE STREETS TO THE ' SAFETY ' OF THE SHELTERS WITHOUT A POLICE ESCORT OR PRESENCE.

I MIGHT ADD, THAT I AM IN NO WAY SUGGESTING THAT ' VOLUNTEERS ' BE GOTTEN RID OF, THEY ARE NEEDED AS POLICE ARE SOMETIMES ' TO KEEP THE EAR CLOSE TO GROUND.' THE INTER ACTIONS OF GROUPS OF PEOPLES ( GANGS ) AND IMMIGRANTS WHO DO MAKE IT THROUGH FOR A NIGHT OR TWO, RUN-AWAYS, SOMETIMES WIVES ( SOMETIMES PICKED UP DURING THE NIGHT BY AN ' ESTRANGED BOYFRIEND OR HUSBAND ? ) AND THE RARE CHILD LOOKING FOR ANYWHERE TO ' CRASH,' OTHER THAN HOME. THE VERY REAL POTENTIAL FOR VIOLENCE AND DEATH IS ALWAYS PRESENT. THE REALITY IS THE NEED FOR RESPONSIBLE CLEAN ( FROM THE STREETS ) PERSONS WHO WILL NOT SECOND GUESS A CALL TO ANY AUTHORITY. WHETHER IT BE POLICE, AMBULANCE OR FIRE DEPARTMENT, WITHOUT FEAR OF REMOVAL FROM THE PREMISES OR LOSS OF EMPLOYMENT.

I MUST ALSO RELATE THAT THERE IS A SEGMENT OF THE POPULATION WHO WILL NOT GO TO THE HOSPITAL AFTER SEIZURES, MILD STROKES AND OTHER HEALTH CONDITIONS THAT REQUIRE IMMEDIATE CARE AND THEY SIMPLY MIGHT BE BETTER RELOCATED TO A MENTAL HEALTH FACILITY. THE REAL CONCERNS ARE TB, HIV AND OTHER PHYSICAL CONCERNS THAT MIGHT AFFECT ' WANDERING ' CHILDREN AND ADULT CLIENTS AS WELL.

BLOOD ( BLOOD PATHOGEN ) 

I SUGGEST, IF YOU REFUSE CARE ONCE, AGAINST THE EXPRESSED OPINION OF MOBIL HEATH CARE RESPONDERS, THAT'S THE LAST TIME. TO MANY PEOPLE ARE THEN AT ' RISK,' IF NOT HOSTAGE TO AN ONGOING DANGER.

ONE, I SUGGEST A COMPLETE DIVISION OF FAMILIES WITH CHILDREN, NO MATER AGE, UP TO THE CHILD'S AGE DETERMINED BY THE STATE; EIGHT TEEN OR TWENTY ONE. ONLY IF NO FELONY DRUG CONVICTIONS AND SEXUAL CONVICTIONS AND OR ARRESTS ARE FOUND. ERROR ON SAFETIES SIDE.
THE TEENAGER'S SITUATION THEN DETERMINED BY THE SHELTER'S MANAGING DIRECTOR UNDER THE GUIDANCE OF LAW ( PERSONS UNDER THE AGE OF EIGHT TEEN ARE ALWAYS SOUGHT FOR ILLEGAL ACTIVITIES BECAUSE THEY RECEIVE ' LIGHTER SENTENCES ' WHEN CONVICTED.THE ' ENTICEMENTS ' FROM THE STREETS ARE ARE MANY AND HI; IN THE CHILD'S MIND OF A DOLLAR'S WORTH ).

TWO, ABSOLUTELY NO SHELTERS WHO HOUSE BOTH SINGLES AND FAMILIES WITHIN 5,000 YARDS OF ANY SCHOOL, KINDERGARTEN, CHURCH OR ANY THING WITH ANY ' RELATION ' AND OR BUSINESS WITH CHILDREN.

THIS WOULD REMOVE THE ' EXCUSE ' OF LOCATION OF BUS STOPS AND ' PROXIMITY ' TO CHILDREN AND HELP LAW ENFORCEMENT INCLUDING JUDGES EXECUTE REASONABLE FINES AND OR PRISON TIME AS PER A CHILD MOLESTERS ' FREQUENTED TERRITORIES.'

THREE, ABSOLUTELY NO ' SMART ' CELL PHONES AND OR COMPUTERS, THIS WOULD ALSO INCLUDE THE NEW ARRIVALS UNTIL THEIR BACKGROUNDS HAVE BEEN CHECKED, THEN ' PROPERTIES ( CELL PHONES AND COMPUTERS ) ' RETURNED PROMPTLY BY THE HOMELESS SHELTER'S STAFF ( WHO HAVE ALSO BEEN ' CERTIFIED CLEAN ' BY THE STATE AND LOCAL GOVERNMENT AND LAW ENFORCEMENTS. ) WHO THEN WILL SET THE STANDARD FOR ' TRUST,' FOR AND BY ALL WHO PARTAKE IN THE VERY DEFINITION OF THE WORD; TO GIVE CREDIT TO; FAITH.

  
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THIS IS IT FOR NOW. I HAVE BEEN HOUNDED FOR YEARS, SLAMMED ON THE NET BY VETERANS, EX-CONS, PEOPLES FROM MYSPACE, FACEBOOK AND OTHERS; MY MOTHER CALLED WHORE, MY AND MY BROTHER'S CELL PHONE CONVERSATIONS RECORDED THEN SEGMENTS ' REPEATED ' TO ME AT VARIOUS SHELTERS, LABOR READY, MDT, AND OTHER TEMP SERVICES, LIBRARIES, AND POLICE OFFICERS. PEOPLE WHO I HAVE KNOWN AND MOSTLY TOTAL STRANGERS.

ONLY ONE POLICE OFFICER LISTENED IN HAWAII AND VOICED A ' KNOWING ' CONCERN.

MY CONVERSATIONS WITH MY BROTHER, AN ADDICT WHO IN HIS OWN WAY ' CALLED OUT FOR HELP.' BUT EVERY THING HE SAID I HAVE HEARD BITS AND PIECES IN ARIZONA,TEXAS, NEW MEXICO AND I'M VERY SURE AGAIN FROM OTHER MAKE BELIEVE VET REPRESENTATIVES. AND I HAVE NEVER RECEIVED SUPPOSED ' E-MAILS.'

I WILL OPEN COMMENTS AGAIN, I SHUT IT DOWN ABOUT 10 MONTHS AGO AFTER FINDING THAT IT WAS TRULY ALREADY OPEN. ?

JUST NOW 350:00 PM - CNN.COM-SHANNON....A TRAGIC STORY OF A YOUNG 17 YEAR OLD. 2005-6 MY BEST FRIEND SHANNON IN HIGH SCHOOL. THEN BEFORE RV OF THE NET, I GUESS INCLUDED IN THE LIBRARIES.

I PRAY SHE HAD A GOOD LIFE AND G_D BLESS HER FAMILY.

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BELOW: POSTED 12 - 30 - 2014

I WILL START AN OPEN LETTER TO BETO O'ROURKE REGARDING HOMELESS SHELTERS FOR FAMILIES, ALTHOUGH I WILL ALSO MAIL MORE DETAILED LETTERS TO HIM AND FOUR OTHER CONGRESSMEN IN REGARDS TO BETTER HOUSING AND ' RESPONSIBLE TRAINED STAFF ' TO MEET THEIR NEEDS. ADEQUATE AND SAFE DAYCARE ( YWCA - THE RESCUE MISSION ), AND REINTRODUCTION TO SOCIETY AND JOB TRAINING FOR THE PARENTS. 

IT IS NOT JUST THE VETERANS ADMINISTRATION THAT IS BROKEN.

I HAVE MYSELF HELPED, AS BEST I COULD, A FEW SINGLE PARENTS, MOTHERS WITH A SINGLE CHILD OR MORE. I WAS ABLE TO DO THIS WHEN I HAD FOOD STAMPS AND CASH IN HAND. THEIR ' TRUST ' OF THE SYSTEM AND THAT OF ' SURROUNDINGS,' ARE ALWAYS OF ISSUE.

THE PUBLIC AT LARGE DOES NOT KNOW THE HIERARCHY OF THESE SHELTERS AND JUST WHO ENDS UP WITH WHAT DONATIONS. I PERSONALLY WORK VERY HARD FOR ANYTHING RECEIVED AND HAVE WITNESSED SO MANY TIMES OVER, THE ABSOLUTE LAZINESS OF JUST ABOUT ANYONE WHO IS ASKED TO ' VOLUNTEER.' IT PROBABLY WOULD NOT SURPRISE YOU, BUT IT SHOULD. HAVING SAID THAT, VERY FEW PEOPLE HAVE ANY IDEA AS TO JUST WHO SHELTERS REALLY HOUSE.

EVERY ' PERSON ' THAT HAS STOLEN, RAPED, DEALT ILLEGAL DRUGS, MURDERED, KILLED IN DEFENSE THEN JAILED, WHORED THEMSELVES AND ' OTHERS,' MOSTLY THE VERY YOUNG, AND PEOPLE LIKE YOURSELVES. 

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU ' GOTTEN AWAY ' WITH SOMETHING ? I CAN COUNT HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE EVERY PLACE THAT I HAVE BEEN. YOU WERE NEVER ' CAUGHT.' THIS MIGHT NOT APPEAL TO YOUR THINKING AND A GREAT NUMBER OF YOU ARE ' INNOCENT,' UNTIL YOU SEE A BEGGAR, ' A VETERAN,' OR WOMAN ASKING FOR A HANDOUT, AS OPPOSED TO THE ' COMMON ' RAGGEDY, DIRTY AND FOUL SMELLING ' THING ' THAT ONCE WAS A PERSON. THIS IS THE ' BEAUTY ' NOT ONLY OF BROADBAND BUT THE ' REMNANTS ' OF SPIRITUALITY.

THE ' GUISE ' OF THE HOMOSEXUAL COMMUNITY AND CRIMINAL ELEMENTS THAT LAYED IN WAIT FOR AN UNKNOWING US POPULATION AS TO ' THE FURTHER POLLUTION ' TO THE ' AIRWAVES, WAS ONLY KNOWN TO THE LATE NIGHT CROWD AS FAR AS NATIONAL RADIO WAS CONCERNED OTHER THAN BORDER TOWNS AND CITIES. SECURITY CONCERNS AS PRIVACY ARE NO LONGER IN ANY REAL SENSE OF THE WORD, SECURE, NOT EVEN PRAYER, LEAST OF WHOM THE CHILDREN.

THE MISUSE OF CELL PHONES AND THEIR APPS., OFTEN FOREIGN IN DESIGN AND PRODUCTION AND THE ' UN KNOWING OR INTENT ' OF THE STORES THAT DISTRIBUTE THE ' FREE ' GOVERNMENT PHONES AND JUST PLAIN OLD FASHIONED ' HACKING,' I HAVE LEFT MY PHONE ON MY NIGHTS, ALTHOUGH SUSPENDED AND HAVE BEEN VERY SURPRISED AS TO WHO I HAVE HEARD AND THE ' NETWORKING ' OF PEOPLES AND THE LENGTHS THAT THEY ARE WILLING TO GO TO TO CREATE ' NEW CREWS ' TO MARKET ILLEGAL DRUGS AND THE NEAR ' EXTORTION WHICH INCLUDES THE USE OF CHILDREN'S ' FREEDOM,' MEANING NOT TAKEN AWAY FROM THE PARENTS AND OR PARENT AS ' LEVERAGE.'

IN A VERY REAL ' SENSE,' THIS REMINDS ME OF OLD COLONEL GATCHER AND HIS PREOCCUPATION WITH ME AND MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS RIGHT AFTER THE DIVORCE. THIS ' CONVERSATION ' WAS PART OF THE ATTACKS BEFORE 2006, WITH WHO I THOUGHT WAS MY SISTER, THOUGH I DO MAKE ROOM FOR THE ' IDEA ' THAT THAT ' PERSONA ' WAS MERELY THAT OF A MEMBER OF MY FAMILY AND ANY ' CORRUPT ' PERSON IN MY FAMILY MEMBER'S PRESENCE.

' I HAVE BEEN AROUND, ' AS THEY SAY; ' HE'S BEEN AROUND THE BLOCK.' I REMEMBER SO MANY EXAMPLES OF PHRASE AND LANGUAGE THAT IN THE WEST, ARE USED TO ' HIDE ' BEHIND, GIVEN TO ME BY MY FATHER WHEN I WAS WRITING THE SECOND LETTER TO PRESIDENT BUSH. 

THE CRIMINAL ELEMENT, MOST ESPECIALLY THE CHILD MOLESTERS ARE VERY PATIENT IN THEIR ' DESIGNS,' THEIR ' CONQUESTS.' THEY TAKE ALL THE TIME AS NECESSARY AND ARE IN THE COMPANY OF EX-CONS AND PEOPLE WHO'S EXPLOITS ARE NEAR SAME IN ALL ILLEGAL ' PRODUCTS ' THAT ARE AND CAN BE TRAFFICKED FOR PROFIT. WHY ? IT HAS BEEN MY OBSERVATIONS, THE FEW, INCLUDING THE ' GUT FEELINGS ' BECAUSE THEY ARE VERY GOOD WITH GUILT. WHY GUILT ? IN THE COUNTLESS TIMES THAT I HAVE BEEN ' ASKED ' ' DON'T YOU FEEL GUILTY? ' I STARTED TO ' SEE ' A FACE IN THE FUZZ/STATIC, IN MY MIND. WHEN I WAS ASKED ( ABOUT ONE AND A HALF MONTHS AGO ) AGAIN, BUT WITH AN ' ATTACHMENT ' ( BLUE SPOT, LIGHTED LIKE A SCREEN, ALMOST THE SHAPE OF A BOX ) THE FACE IS THEN ' OBSCURED.' MY GUT TELLS ME THAT THAT PERSON IS VERY GOOD AT WHAT HE DOES. WHY THE INTEREST IN CHILDREN? I WILL NOT MENTION WHO THE CHILD IS, THAT IS IN RELATION TO THE CROSS.

THIS ' PERSON ' CAN PUSH A FACE AND BODY, BUT NEEDS VERY MANY NIGHTS AND ' WHISPERS ' IN NETWORK WITH OTHERS UNTIL ' THAT INNER BITCH ' TO USE JAILHOUSE JARGON, RISES WITH THE REAL INTENT.

THE FUNNY THING IS THAT WHEN IT WAS ALL FUZZ AND STATIC, THAT PARTICULAR ' TONE ' WAS WHEN I WAS AT AND AROUND THE NEIGHBORHOOD IF NOT THE OPPORTUNITY CENTER ITSELF, THEN MOST RECENT WHEN I GOT BACK FROM HAWAII UNTIL NOW, AND ' NEAR ' THE SAME WITH CASA VITA.

THE PRE-TEEN YOUNG GIRLS AND BOYS ARE TARGETED IN THE SHELTERS AND HAVE VERY LITTLE IN THE WAY OF PROTECTION, AS OFTEN I HAVE HEARD THE THREATS OF ' REMOVAL FROM THE PREMISES,' IF POLICE ARE CALLED. I HAVE BEEN TOLD BY ONE RESIDENT MANAGER THAT " ONLY I CALL THE POLICE." EVERYTHING IS HANDLED ' INTERNALLY,' AS IN THE JAIL HOUSES.

ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT WHAT ' GOOD PRIESTS AND NUNS ' ALONG WITH GOOD FAMILY MEMBERS, OFTEN ELDERS, WHO GAVE COMFORT IN TIMES OF DURESS, THE ' OTHER SIDE ' CAN DO WITH INTENT AND IN EVIL LIGHT AND DARKNESS TOO. THE YOUNGER ' MIND ' MIGHT NOT KNOW THE DIFFERENCE, AND FOLLOW THE ' WHISPERS.'

FROM THE BEGINNING, I HAVE PUT ALMOST ALL MY EXPERIENCES ON THE INTERNET. I DID IT FOR A REASON. I ANSWERED A ' CALLING.' THIS I STILL BELIEVE. AND TO TAKE ' CORRUPTION'S ' FIRST, SECOND, AND THIRD STRIKES FROM THEM.....AFTER ALL, IT WAS THE POLICE AND ' MILITARY ' WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT ME, DESPITE MY POVERTY, THEY FAILED THE TWO AND SIX YEAR OLD FIRST, AND THE STEPFATHER/FATHER AND FRIENDS AND SUPPORTERS LAUGHED. 

I KNOW A LITTLE BIT ABOUT TECHNOLOGY, ALOT MORE ABOUT WHAT WILL BE. I AM AGAINST MOST OF THE ' NEWER ' TECH. IT WILL BE HANDLED IRRESPONSIBLY; A WAR WILL ENSUE WHEN WE WERE TOLD THAT WE WERE ' RIGHT.'

THE ' SEERS ' OF THE PAST, FOR THE MOST PART, ONLY WARNED ' THEMSELVES ' IN THE FUTURE. WE ARE SO LUCKY TO HAVE HAD GOOD MOTHERS WHO FOUGHT FOR THEIR CHILDREN IN THE COURTS TO GET RID OF THE BAD PRIESTS. AND SO LITTLE OF WHAT CHRIST SAID.

IF ONLY THE MOTHERS GOT TO THE ' PROGRAMMERS ' ( ALL MEDIA AND COMMUNICATIONS )AND APP MAKERS TOO, BEFORE THE TECHNOLOGIES REALLY GOT ' STARTED.' THE VERY WORST IS ONGOING. ONLY ' DEEP COVER ' COPS AND FED'S MIGHT BE ABLE TO FURTHER DISCUSS AND WRITE A MORE UNDERSTANDABLE VERSION OF WHAT I HAVE TRIED TO LET PEOPLE KNOW OF AND HOW THESE ' PEOPLE ' COMMUNICATE AND NETWORK IN ALL THERE IMMORAL ENDEAVORS.

I HAVE NO GREAT LOVE FOR THE CAVE MAN DAYS, ETHER.

THE REST WILL BE IN A MORE FORMAL FORMAT. MOST WILL BE PUBLIC.

OF NOTE: ALL MY SPAM PROBLEMS STARTED AT CASA VIDA AND IF I'M NOT CAREFUL, IT WILL REACH IN THE HUNDREDS, AND OTHER PROBLEMS INCLUDED.

THIS WAS POSTED BELOW 12 - 29 - 2014

1965.

THE ABILITY TO ' LISTEN ' WHEN EXPOSED TO CERTAIN
BANDWIDTHS IS PRIMARY IN SURVIVAL. " LOOK AT THE
COLOR OF HER EYES " WHEN SPEAKING OF A YOUNG
MARRIED MEXICAN ' WOMAN ' OF ABOUT THE AGE 14-15.

MY FATHERS UPPER ' MIND ' WHEN I SCANNED THE HORIZON
OUTSIDE OF CHIHUAHUA, A SMALL TOWN NEAR COPPER
CANYON, " YES THOSE ARE FLOOD PLANES..."
THIS MY GIFT FROM MY FATHER FOR MEXICO, AND FUCK
THE TECHNOLOGICAL CORPORATIONS WHO WOULD
NEVER OF SAID ANYTHING OF IT REGARDING THE ' ICE CAPS
AND FLOODING, REGARDING GLOBAL WARMING.'

THE NOTE ABOVE IS FROM THE MOVIE WHICH I FOUND
AT THE RESCUE MISSION'S SILO, A CLOTHING HOUSING
UNIT FOR THE HOMELESS; I VOLUNTEER THERE SOMETIMES.
I'VE SEEN THE MOVIE BEFORE, BUT CHRISTMAS DAY I WAS
BORED, SO I BORROWED IT.

THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE, " DADDY WHY DID THEY SHOOT HIM?"
THE MAN ON THE BIKE, " JESUS GO TO BED, YOU ASK TO MANY
QUESTIONS." I WOKE UP LATER TO SEE ' HER ' SHOT AND THEN
' HE.' I TURNED AROUND AND WENT BACK TO MY BED.

THE LETTERS ON THE OBELISK WITH THE ' CAP ' ARE THE LETTERS
OF MY NM LICENSE PLATE, THE ' IS 12-77,' IF THE BOTTOM LEFT
OF THE NUMBER TWO WAS A ' CURVE ' INSTEAD OF ANGULAR, IT
WOULD BE AN ' S,' BACKWARDS. AND, OF COURSE, THE EVER PRESENT
77-ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE, YET THE ' DASH ' OR ' MINUS ' SYMBOL
FROM 12.....THE TWELVE ORIGINAL TRIBES? AND FOR WHAT?

707 WAS THE REMAINDER OF MY NM LICENSE PLATE. 707 WAS
ALSO 707/1000 IN THE BOOK MORALS AND DOGMA, THE BOOK
OF THE MASONS.

THE ' GIBBERISH ' TO THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE PAPER IS WHAT I
FIRST ' HEARD ' WHEN A GANG BANGER FIRST TOLD ME OF HOW
HE WAS ABLE TO " FOOL " THE SHRINKS IN BELIEVING THAT
HE WAS MENTALLY ILL, AND THIS IS WHAT HIS ' UPPER ' MIND
SAID. THE THINKING IS THAT THEY CAN COMMIT ANY CRIME
AND BECAUSE THEY ARE MENTALLY ILL THEY WILL ALWAYS GET
AWAY WITH IT. 

HE BRAGGED ABOUT THE 600.00 DOLLARS A MONTH THAT HE GOT, BUT
ALSO STATED THAT HE GAVE MOST OF IT TO HIS EX-WIFE AND LITTLE
GIRL.

THE FIRST OBELISK WAS OFF OF RIM ROAD, WHEN I WAS A CHILD, WITH
MY PARENTS, JUST AFTER WE MOVED TO EL PASO, TX.

THE FIRST REAL SCULPTURE THAT I BUILT WAS AN OBELISK, BUT THE
LETTERING WAS WRONG. NOW WE KNOW, OR RATHER I HAVE FOUND THAT
THE OLD WAS REMOVED AND THEN THE ' NEW ' WAS CHISELED IN, AND
STONES REPLACED. THIS AFTER '79. IN MY CASE ANYWAY REGARDING
THE ' MIDDLE EAST.'


I COULD CONTINUE ON ABOUT ' GAY ' PEOPLE AND HIJACKINGS OF
' RELIGIONS,' BUT I'M GOING TO WAIT AND HOLD ONTO OTHER ' CARDS.'

BE WARNED THAT THE MOVIE IS ANTI SEMITIC, WHILE PLACING THE
AUTHOR'S FAVORITES ' ABOVE ' BOTH G_D, ATHEISM AND WOMAN AND MAN; IDEALISM.

HINT.....RUSSIA AND THE CLINTON'S CHINA.

LEAVE OUR ' CHILDREN ' ALONE!

THE RECALL ' BILL ' FOR THE TOYOTA
4 RUNNER, THE FIRST PIECE OF PAPER
THAT I WAS ABLE TO FIND WITH THE
LAST LICENSE PLATE NUMBER ON IT.

SEVEN IS WAT THE NUMBER NEXT TO
THE BAR CODE REDUCES TO. THE OTHERS
ARE OF ' LESSOR ' IMPORTANCE.

A SCULPTURE IN PROGRESS.

A SCULPTURE IN PROGRESS; I'M AFTER THE
EXPRESSION OF ' SPEECH.' THE IMPLICATION
THAT ' SHE ' STILL HOLDS THE SWORD, IN
NO WAY TO ENDORSE ANY ' POLITICAL
CANDIDATE.'

G_D AND BABY KILLERS-THE PAST FEW DAYS

I WILL BE ONLY EATING BREAKFAST AT THE RESCUE MISSION FROM NOW ON. INCLUDING THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS.

I RECENTLY ALLOWED MY PICTURE TO BE TAKEN AT THE RESCUE MISSION, TWO OF WHICH WERE TAKEN NEXT TO THE MISSION'S CROSS; ON THE RIGHT HAND SIDE IF ONE WAS NAILED TO IT, AS CHRIST. I WAS GIVEN A MESSAGE FOR A MAN WHO WORKED AT THE WOOD SHOP AT THE MISSION FROM THE PHOTOGRAPHER TO HIM AND ASKED TO TAKE IT TO HIM. IT WAS THERE THAT I WAS GIVEN A WOODEN CROSS AND SANDPAPER, A GIFT. I THEN WAS TOLD THAT THE PHOTOGRAPHER WAS INTERESTED IN SEEING ME ON SUCH AND SUCH DAY AND THAT SHE NEEDED HELP WITH UNLOADING WOOD SO I AGREED TO GO BY THE MISSION AT ABOUT NOON BUT SHE GOT THERE EARLY AND MET HER AT WHILE I WAS HAVING LUNCH. THE CONVERSATION WAS NOT MUCH, OTHER THAN HOW I WAS AND DOING, AND I TOLD HER. SHE ' EXCUSED ' HERSELF, STATING THAT SHE HAD TO SEE A YOUNG LADY BEFORE SHE LEFT. WHEN I WAS DONE, I RAN INTO HER AGAIN AND ASKED IF ' WE WERE DONE,' SHE LEFT SO ABRUPTLY WHEN I WAS TELLING HER HOW MY WEEK HAD BEEN. " I WAS JUST CHECKING UP ON YOU TO SEE IF YOU WERE ALL RIGHT, I'M I ALLOWED THAT? " SHE CURTLY REPLIED. I LEFT, GIVING THE CRUMB CAKE ( ALSO, A GIFT FROM THE MAN WHO GAVE ME THE CROSS, " SHE WANTED YOU TO HAVE THIS." ) TO A VETERAN AS I LEFT THE MISSION.

YESTERDAY, A SUNDAY, I WAS WAITING AT THE MISSION FOR LUNCH, THE LAST TIME, AND WAS ASKED BY THE PHOTOGRAPHER IF SHE COULD INTRODUCE HER FAMILY TO ME AND I SAID YES, OF COURSE, SHE INTRODUCED HER HUSBAND AND TWO DAUGHTERS WHO WERE DRESSED IN PURPLE DRESSES AND HUSBAND WHO SAID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WHEN I SHOOK HIS HAND; HE DRESSED IN GREEN IN TONE AND SHADE THE SAME. THE YOUNG DAUGHTERS THEN RAN TO MEET THEIR FRIEND, THE YOUNG LADY WHO I HAD SEEN THE PHOTOGRAPHER MEET THE WEEK BEFORE, THE GIRLS HUGGED, EYE TO EYE THEN ' MIDRIFF,' TO THEIR NEW FRIEND; BOTH.

I HAD MET THE FATHER OF THE YOUNG LADY AND OTHER CHILDREN AND LEARNED THAT THEY WERE FROM CALIFORNIA, BAD MARRIAGE AND ALL; HOW THE CONVERSATION OF MASONS CAME UP, I DON'T REALLY KNOW, SO IT MUST'VE BEEN ME. ' THE RAINBOW SOCIETY ' CAME UP AND AND I EXPLAINED THE ' EVILS ' OF THESE PEOPLE WHO ' PROFIT ' FROM BLACK OR WHITE, EVIL OR GOOD; WRONG OR RIGHT AND SEE NO REAL DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ANY OF THESE ATTRIBUTES OR ' DEBTS,' AS THEY WOULD DESCRIBE IT. I ALSO EXPLAINED IN DETAIL WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME. HIS MIND WAS MADE UP AND HE IS THE FATHER.

AS THE FAMILY LEFT, THEY STOPED IN FRONT OF ME AND KISSED, THEN HE KISSED HER ATOP THE HEAD, I ALMOST SAID ' SHE.' SHE STATED SOMETHING BUT I WAS WONDERING WHY THIS WAS TAKING PLACE IN THE FIRST PLACE? A WEEK OF BEING ' MENTALLY RIDDEN,' FOR WHAT? I SAT IN THE WIND FOR THE FIRST TIME WONDERING JUST ' WHERE I WAS.' I THOUGHT OF ALL THE SHAPES OF THE CLOUDS AND THE ' CROSSES THAT I WAS GOING TO GIVE UP SOON AND ANOTHER FAMILY, THE WIFE THAT I HELPED HER DAUGHTER; I BOUGHT A BAG OF CANDY SO THAT SHE COULD BE IN THE ' RUINING ' FOR A PRIZE. THIS THE COUPLE WHO I HAD GIVEN THE CARD FOR CONGRESSMAN BETO O'ROURKE IN THE HOPES THAT HE MIGHT BE OF ASSISTANCE WITH THEIR IMMIGRATION MESS WHICH IS UP SOME TIME IN MAY, I THINK, IN THE COURTS; JUST A PLAN B, JUST IN CASE ( I HAVE SEEN AND KNOW HOW SHELTERS, FOR WHAT EVER REASON, REAL OR ' IMAGINED.' OFTEN BASED ON MONIES WILL THROW FAMILIES AND CHILD ( S ) INTO THE WINTER'S WEATHER, JUST AS THEY DO WITH OLD MEN; NOT LATE THIRTIES OR FORTIES ).

AFTERWARDS

SO, AFTER DECIDING THAT WATCHING THE CLOUDS IN SHAPES OF HEARTS AND CROSSES AND ' SLAMMING ' MINE ' QUITE,' I WENT IN SIDE AND SAT TO GAIN SOME WARMTH. THE WOMAN BEHIND THE DESK ASKED ME A QUESTION AS TO HOW I WAS BUT A BIT MORE DEFINED IN PLACE AND I RESPONDED, " I AM SLOWING DOWN; GOING DOWN." THEN I GAVE EXAMPLES OF WHY I DID HAVE CLARITY OF ' MIND,' WHICH WAS ALSO STATED FROM HER IN QUESTION OF MY ANSWER. IT PRETTY MUCH FOLLOWS AS SUCH: " MY LAST STAY HERE WAS SEARCHING FOR ANY WORK BOTH AT THE MISSION, WHICH WAS ALWAYS DENIED BUT UNTIL THE VERY LAST, SCHOOL AND ALL THE PROBLEM ENCOUNTERED THERE; WOMEN, ALL MEXICAN, WHO HAD ME GOING AROUND IN CIRCLES FOR A MONTH AND DAMN NEAR ANOTHER, UNTIL ONE MAN STOOD UP AND WAVED ME OVER AND IN TWENTY MINUTES, I WAS ENROLLED, NO ' MISTAKES ' AND ALL WAS PAID FOR; NO MYSTERIOUS BRUSHING OF ' EYEBROWS ' OR OTHER ' COMEDIES.' ALL PROBLEMS WITH THE VA REP WHO WAS OF THE SAME ' INK,' ASIDE FROM ' CLUMSILY ' THROWING PENS AND WADS OF PAPER AT ME, AND ALL THE WRONG FORMS WERE ALL SETTLED. GOT A JOB WITH THE ' ALLEGED PEDOPHILE ' BERT AT THE RESCUE MISSION UNTIL HE SHOWED HIS TRUE COLORS, EVEN KNOWING THAT HE WAS A CLOSE FRIEND OF MY CASE WORKER DEIAGO OCHOA ( NO RELATION ) AND HIS OWN WIFE ( BERT'S ) AT THE SAME CAMPUS WHO TAUGHT ENGLISH TO NON ENGLISH SPEAKING PEOPLE AT THE CAMPUS. AND THE LAST OF THE RELATIONSHIP WITH THE EL PASO LEGAL AID MESS COMING TO A CLOSE ( THE PEDOPHILE WHO WAS CAUGHT WHO WAS ALSO IN CHARGE OF THE MAIL AT THE OPPORTUNITY 

CENTER, WHERE I NEVER RECEIVED MAIL, MEDICAL RECORDS, VA RELATED, AND FOOD STAMPS. YOU NAME IT. ) ALL OF THIS I DID ON MY OWN INCLUDING CERTIFICATION WITH A FORKLIFT, WHICH I HAD TO OBTAIN A COPY OF THE PLACE OF BUSINESS FROM ANA MARIA FROM THE OPPORTUNITY CENTER, THAT I HAD GIVEN HER IN THE FIRST PLACE, WHICH WAS THEN GIVEN TO OCHOA SO THAT HE MIGHT ' HELP ' PEOPLE. I WAS UP AGAINST TIME, AFTER BEING SHOT AT ON THE BUS AFTER COMING BACK FROM THE EPCC COMPUTER LIBRARY AND ALL THE VETERANS FROM CASA VEDA WHO LOOKED HAVE STONED AND ALL THE REST OF THE SHIT INCLUDING CELL PHONE BEING HACKED, NO MATTER WHICH ONE ( ONE FROM AUSTIN, I DESTROYED, THEN STATE TROOPER AND COPS RUSHING TO COLLEGE, I THOUGHT, AND CYBER STALKING AT CAMPUS, RESCUE MISSION AND EVERYWHERE INCLUDING COMPUTER LAB. SO, I STARTED THE PROCESS OF ENROLLMENT IN THE LAKE SUPERIOR COLLEGE SYSTEM, BUT IT WAS TAKING TO LONG AND AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE WHEN FINALIZING THE SALE OF MY TOYOTA 4 RUNNER, MY LAST ' HOME ' AND WILL STAY THE SAME, AND DESTROYING ALL MY MAGAZINES FOR MY 9 M GLOCK, ALL THE WHILE THE ' SHIT ' KEPT ASKING FOR THEM, " I CAN SELL THEM! " AND THE ' LOSE ' AND INTIMIDATION OF THE TWO FOOLS, ON E OF WHICH WAS BUYING MY TRUCK, ' WHICH ONE TO STRIKE IN DEATH FIRST,' IF TOUCHED BECAUSE BLAKE BARROWS ( ? ) THE LAWYER ' MINISTER ' LOST MY TITLE UNTIL I SHOWED HIM WHERE HE PUT IT, THEN " LOOK UNDER THE FILES," I WAS THEN ON MY WAY TO ANOTHER DISASTER.

THEN FINALLY A JOB AT THE RESCUE MISSION IN THEIR SEEMINGLY ENDLESS BUILDING AND ' REMODEL,' BUT NO COMPLAINTS UNTIL MAUI, WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS UNWANTED. NO WORK, SLEPT AT THE AIR PORT, THEN DECIDED WHAT TO DO. LEFT THE SCULPTURE HEAD WITH THE SMALL AIRPORT AND ASKED THAT IT WOULD NOT BE PUT IN THE HANDS OF ' HOMOSEXUALS,' I HOPE THAT THE YOUNG LADIES ( ADULTS ) UNDERSTOOD THAT THAT MEANT WOMEN TO BY ' DEFINITION ' TOO.THE SECOND LOSS IN IDENTITY, THE FIRST MY IDENTITY CARD IN TEXAS STATING THAT MY NAME IS AND WILL BE BARTOLOME NOT THE ENGLISH VERSION BARTHOLOMEW AND THE ' NIGGERS ( SELF DESCRIBED ) AND SPICS ( BEHAVIORS ) LAUGHING IN THEIR DRUG INDUCED STATES IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD ALONG WITH THE ' SHIT SHEET ' WHITES; AS THEIR FATHER'S HAD LEFT THEIR MOTHER'S TOO FOR PUSSY AND ' GREENER PASTURES THAT ' SEEMINGLY ' GO ALONG WITH IT TOO, ONLY TO FIND LIFE WITH A LIKENESS OF ' MIND ' AND BODY, IF NOT ILLUSION AS OPPOSED TO THE PRISON'S ALLUSIONS.

THE NEED OF TRAVEL WAS TEMPERED WITH THE NEED TO STAY IN ONE PLACE AND NOT ARM MYSELF AGAIN IN ' THIS FLAG,' THE NEED TO ADDRESS THESE ' MOSQUITOES ' WHO BLEED ALL SPIRIT DRY. THE MEMORY OF HOW VIOLENT AN UPBRINGING I HAD BOTH OF MIND AND TO MY BODY. I HAVE A NEAR 18 INCH NECK BECAUSE MINE AS A CHILD WAS ALMOST BROKEN, WHIPLASH AT THE LEAST. AND I REMEMBER. TO A ' SISTER,' NOT A FAG, YES SOMETIMES HE HURT MY ' HEAD ' ( LOOK AT ME IN THE EYES, FOR MINUTES, UNTIL YOU HAD TO TURN; IT HURT INSIDE ) TOO. BUT IT MAKES YOU STRONGER, TO LOOK AT DEATH WHEN ALMOST ALL OTHERS RUN. BUT YOU HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO GO, UNTIL YOU NO LONGER CARE. SO I ATE AND ATE AT RESTAURANTS AND BOUGHT A CROSS AFTER THE COLLEGE WAS GOING TO SCREW ME AGAIN. I BOUGHT A JACKET. AND I ATE AT DIFFERENT PLACES TO ' HEAR ' OTHERS IN QUIET WITH THE ' SECOND BRAIN ' OF THE DINOSAURS OF WHICH I WAS TAUGHT; THE STOMACH. AND I SAW OTHERS OF FAMILIES, FATHERS, BOYFRIENDS AND PRIESTS AND PASTORS AND POOR HYGIENE AND ALL WAS KNOWN AGAIN IN ' TIME ' WITH TIME; THE CRIMINAL.

OF COURSE THAT IDENTITY ' LOSS ' WAS TEMPORARY.

ALL, WELL REALLY NOT ALL, THIS ONLY ABOUT TWENTY PERCENT OF THE INTENSITY, IF THAT. ONLY TO FIND MY TELLING OF YESTERDAY'S LUNCH. I SAT WITH ACQUAINTANCES AND UPON MY RETURN WITH BEVERAGE AND BREAD, A VIETNAM VETERAN WHO I KNOW LITTLE OF OTHER THAN HIS WHIMPERING OF JOHN LENNON'S DEATH SO MANY YEARS AGO OF WHICH I COULD NOT BELIEVE OR ' UNDERSTAND,' AND ENCOUNTERING HIM HERE AND THERE, AT EPCC WHEN I WAS TAKING THE WELDING CLASSES, MADE A COMMENT AS TO HIS RECENTLY ACQUIRED ' COVERALLS ' CAMOUFLAGE, " NOW I CAN SIT AT A CORNER AND BEG FOR MONEY." THE THE NEAR PLACEMENT OF HIS HANDS ON MY BREAD. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH MY FOOD MUCH LESS QUEERS. SO I ' BEAT THE FLASHES OF WHITE ' AND MOVED TO ANOTHER SEAT AND TABLE.

I LATER SAW HIM AT THE CORNER STORE THAT I WAS ASKING FOR CHANGE AND HE ASKED ME " WHERE'S YOUR COVERALLS," I SAID THAT I DIDN'T WEAR THEM YESTERDAY AND DID NOT NEED THEM AND ALSO STATED THAT I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS A SICK QUEER. HE WAS WALKING ON, SO HE CAN READ THIS. UPON HIS RETURN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS DRAFTED OR JOINED? HE SAID THAT " MARINES DON'T GET DRAFTED, THEY JOIN," I FELT NOTHING FOR THAT WHEN IT LEFT. I KNOW DIFFERENT FROM OTHER VETERANS AND REPS BUT LEFT IT AT THAT. I JOINED MYSELF AND FOUGHT BEST I COULD TO STAY IN. I'M DONE WITH VIETNAM AND THEIR ' AL QAEDA.' THEY HAVE GIVEN NOTHING BUT PAIN AND MANY SHOULD NEVER OF GONE AND MANY SHOULD NEVER OF RETURNED. THEY HAVE ' STOLEN ' AND NEARLY DESTROYED THE VA. SO FEW….HONESTLY, HELP, ' GUIDE,' AND INFORM ALL VETERANS OTHER THAN EDUCATION AND ' ENLIGHTENMENT ' INTO THE MAFIA OF THEIR ' DESIGN.' ( THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS, LIKE A MOTORCYCLE RIDER ON A HARLEY POINTING TO THE GROUND AFTER I LEFT THAT LUNCH ON MY WAY TO THE CORNER STORE; ' YOUR GOING DOWN!,' OR LIKE TODAY ABOUT 4:30 TO 5:00, A QUEER FROM THE MISSION WITH BACKPACK, BUT WHEN GOING BACK TO MISSION, WHERE'S THE BACKPACK? GEE, ALL THE METH AND COCAINE WHERE DOES THE ' MAGIC ' OF ILLUSION BEGIN?, MAYBE ' SETUP ! ' OOOOO-AHHHHHH. OR, LETS GET HIM TO PRINT THIS! OR HOW ABOUT WHO OWNS SEGMENTS OF LAND AROUND RAILROAD TRACKS? UNION PACIFIC OR THE TRACKS OWNED BY BASF DOWN BY PAISANO BLVD. AND THE DERAILMENTS AND SLAMMING INTO TOWNSHIPS UP NORTH? GOSH! SHIT! THAT ' COFFEE ' WAS GOOD!!!!!!!!

THE MARINES TRUCK. I OFERED TO HELP HIM WITH.

SOME OF US DO NOT WANT TO BE GANGSTERS, DRUG DEALERS OR ANY TYPE OF ' PREDATOR,' MUCH LESS TERRORISTS.

I WOULD RATHER ' ASK ' FOR CHANGE THAN ' BE ' ANYTHING THAT I HAVE SEEN OR ENCOUNTERED IN THE LAST YEARS SINCE 9/11.

' SIDEBAR '

AND FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, THE HELL WITH ' THOR. WHATEVER ' TOO. THOSE CYBER STALKERS SUPPORT TERRORIST ONLY, MUCH LIKE THE CREATOR OF FACEBOOK. WHY COMMUNISM? AND ' GOING DARK ' TO BETTER THE CYBER STALKERS IN MURDER AND REMOTE INFLUENCING SUICIDES. MORE CHILDREN'S DEATHS AND INJURIES, WHAT A GUY!

NO ONE OTHER THEN CURRENT VETS HAVE I BEEN ABLE TO UNDERSTAND AND SHARE WHEN ' LISTENED TO ' THE INTENSITY OF ' SNEAKING ' THOSE WHO WOULD KILL YOU AND HAVE THE ' HEART ' ' MIND ' AND ' SPIRIT ' TO READY THE ' SHOT ' WHEN OPPORTUNITY REVEALS ITSELF, TO PROTECT ONESELF AND ONE'S NEIGHBORHOOD AND TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE WHEN YOU CAN'T. EVEN WITH A ' BLACK MASS,' TRANSPARENT, SPIRIT ATOP YOU AND ' PIN HOLES ' OF LIGHT AND " PUT THE GUN DOWN! " 

FROM TOP OF A LESS THAN ONE FOOT CLEARING ABOVE POLOYCARBONATE WINDOW SHADES AND TOP OF THE WINDOW FRAME SIX FEET ABOVE, OR SO, GROUND. AND WHAT EVER ' THAT ' WAS IN MY LEFT EAR, WHERE THE NEAR COMMANDS CAME FROM IN THE ' MILITARY ' SENSE AND TEMPERANCE.

ANOTHER FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, WHILE ATTENDING EPCC THE FIRST TIME AT THE RESCUE MISSION, THE COOK BILL, FOR WHAT EVER REASON WAS SPEWING VILE AND WORDS IN SHOUTS AT ME AND I REACHED FOR MY SIDE ARM IN RESPONSE. IT WAS NOT THERE. ' I ' WAS THE COP IN CHINA AND SOMEONE ' ELSE,' MUCH TALLER. BEST THING TO HAVE HAPPENED. I WONDERED WHAT HAD HAPPENED AND IN THE 4 RUNNER I WAS ABLE TO CONCENTRATE AND RELAX, ALL THE WAY BACK TO THE HOME INVASION ACROSS THE STREET FROM ME IN ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO. THAT'S JUST ONE EXAMPLE OF HOW I KNOW THAT SOME OF THE ' FAKE ' IMPERSONATORS DURING THE HOME INVASION WERE OFF DUTY POLICE AND FIRE DEPARTMENT SHITS REVENGING THEIR RANGER FRIEND.

SO I WAS PUNISHED INSTEAD, IN HAWAII AND AT FIRST ' VISIBLY ' IN EL PASO, TX., AND AUSTIN AND ARIZONA BEFORE.

SO I WILL PUBLISH THE DD 149 AND MY COMPLETE REASONS FORE UPGRADE ON THE INTERNET INSTEAD. I AM GRATEFUL TO  KENNETH R. SKAGGS FOR SOME OF WEATHER PROTECTIVE GEAR ( NO FUCKING ARMY BACKPACK-THEY LAST- AS DO THE ASSAULT PACKS ) AND WHAT SUPPORT HE DID GIVE. I KNOW ' WE ' ALL HAVE BOSSES. ' SERGEANT MAJOR,' I GUESS I WAS ( MIGHT OF ? ) SUPPOSED TO OF SAID. BUT, TO BE FRANK, I DO NOT TRUST, AND I WOULD RATHER LEAVE MY ' GOOD CHILDHOOD ' MEMORIES OF FT. BLISS AND VA AS THEY ARE. I DID NOT APPRECIATE THE ' BROWN COUCH ' IN THE CODEX ( THIS A REFERENCE TO PAULA HUGHSON, FOR THE BENEFIT OF WHOM, NIGGER, SPIC OR WHITE SHIT TRASH, WHO KNOWS? SHE IS/WAS A DEMOCRAT, OR VOTED THAT WAY, SO THE ' REFERENCE WAS ' POLITICAL ' NONE THE LESS. ' FOR MY EYES ONLY.' I DID GIVE ONE OF YOUR CARDS TO A SOLIDER ( ? ) AT THE MISSION SO THAT HE WOULD NOT GET THE ' RUN AROUND ' AND MAKE IT HOME FOR CHRISTMAS IN MISSOURI OR MISSISSIPPI. I AM SO SORRY TO SAY THIS, BUT I HAVE LOST MY TRUST FOR MINORITIES AND NOW KNOW THAT SOME PEOPLE ARE ' BLACK.' THERE IS JUST NO WAY TO EXPLAIN THIS.

THIS MORNING ( 11-24-2014 ) I AWOKE WHILE IN A DREAM REGARDING MY EX-GIRLFRIEND AND OTHER ' CURRENT WOMEN ' OF WHOM I HAVE TRYED TO HELP. THE ' HEAD ' OF PAULA AND THE GROSSLY ' IMPLIED REPRESENTATION OF EATING ' COOKED ' FLESH FROM THAT HEAD AND OTHER SUCH NONE SENSE, SO REAL THAT IT WOULD PROBABLY HAVE SCARED OTHERS, AND THE ' VOICE,' FINALLY RECOGNIZED OF THE VIETNAM VET ALONG WITH OTHER'S WHO HAVE NO ' RESTRAINT.' I FEEL SORRY TO A CERTAIN EXTENT FOR THESE HOMO SAPIENS, THIS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW TO DEAL WITH THEM. THE PHOTO IS OF THE VET'S TRUCK ( I WILL ASK IF HE WILL POSE NEXT TO IT THE NEXT TIME I SEE HIM ), THE OTHER'S ARE OF THE PEDOPHILES TEMPLE AND BORROWED RELIGIONS IN REPRESENTATION TO THE SLAVERY'S OF ' MINDS ' WHO ARE ' PROUD,' ONLY. ' ALL THE PRIDE.' THE OTHER PHOTO'S SHOULD GIVE MY FATHER INDICATION AS TO HIS PAST AND ' MISHANDLING ' BY THE ' MOB.' THE NAMES OF THE STREETS ARE IMPORTANT AS MY FATHER GREW UP IN THIS NEIGHBORHOOD, THE SUNSET HEIGHTS; AN EXTENDED FAMILY, ALL IN ONE HOUSE ON MISSOURI ST. SANTA FE STREET IS IMPORTANT BECAUSE OF THE LODGE THAT THE BOOK THAT I WAS LEAD TO, BELONGED TO A ONCE MASON WHO BELONGED TO THE SANTA FE LODGE SEEN IN THE OTHER PICTURE. MY MOTHER WAS BORN IN NESS CITY, KANSAS, THEN HER FAMILY MOVED TO LEBANON, MO WHEN SHE WAS A YOUNG CHILD. IN ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO DURING AN ' ATTACK ' BARTON PRINCE AND ' LEGION ' STATED ' STICK TO ABRAHAM,' THEN THE UNDERLYING, CHILD/WOMAN'S ' VOICE ' OUTSIDE OF ME. THIS DURING THE THUNDERSTORMS AND THE INTRODUCTION OF ' BROADBAND.' THE ' CU ' WAS TO PLACE THE CHILD MOLESTERS ON TOP OF NOT ONLY THE EXECUTIVE AND ALREADY WON JUDICIAL BRANCHES OF OUR GOVERNMENT BUT ' COMPLETE ' THE ' ADVANTAGE ' OVER OUR MILITARY. " YOU BETTER PLAY ALONG." I'VE HEARD FOR YEARS SINCE BROADBAND, BUT HAVE BEEN DEFEATING IT SINCE THE ' CUSHION ' LEFT IN MY LEFT EAR SINCE THE COAST GUARD. THE QUEERS WANTED THEIR VERY OWN god. ALL FOR THE EFFORTS OF WAR ONLY AND PROFITS ' THEIR ' IN.

BASEBALL STADIUM DOWNTOWN, EL PASIO, TX.

MASONIC LODGE, DOWNTOWN/SUNSET HEIGHTS, EL PASO,
TEXAS.

MORAL AND DOGMA, THE BOOK THAT I BOUGHT IN
ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO. 707/1000.

ADD THE NUMBERS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE POLE
THAT IS DIRECTLY ACROSS THE MASONIC TEMPLE
AND YOU GET 11. INSIDE THE CONFERENCE ROOM
IN THE UPPER LEVEL, AS YOU ENTER THE ROOM IS
A PORTRAIT OF JFK ' BOWING ' HIS HEAD TO ALL WHO
ENTER.

THE LOOK ON THE FACE OF THE MEXICAN MASON AS
HE DESCRIBED THE FACT THAT JFK WAS NOT A MASON
AND OTHER PRESIDENTS ALSO. MY CAPITALS ARE NOT ' MECCA '
OR TEL AVIV, RESPECTIVELY.

FOR YEARS I HAVE ' HEARD ' THAT JEWS ARE BISEXUALS. THIS GOING BACK TO THE YEAR OF ABOUT 2002. AND I SUSPECT EVEN FURTHER. THE RECENT ' EXPLOITS ' OF MAY IN THE LIBRARY IS ANOTHER INDICATION OF A PRESIDENT BEING ' MISLEAD ' BY HIS ' PRIDE ' IN THE FACE OF PEOPLES AROUND HIM WHO HAVE KNOWN THE DAMAGES THAT BROADBAND HAS DONE TO OTHER NATIONS, LIKE SWEDEN AND JAPAN, AND THEY LEARNED THEIR LESSON AND GOT RID OF MOST OF IT. BUT OURS WILL BE INTEGRATED WITH THE NEW ' COMMUNICATION NET DESIGNED FOR THE WAR THEATER,' THIS THE REASON I DECIDED THAT THE ' IDEA ' OF APPLE BAND WOULD NOT WORK FOR FINDING MISSING AND ABDUCTED CHILDREN. WHY COOK THE ' FROGS ' CHILDREN AS WELL AND FURTHER? ANOTHER WAY OF PUTTING IT.

THE DOORWAY FACING THE BASEBALL STADIUM.

THEIR ' CORNERSTONE.'

NOW YOU KNOW WHO RULES WHITLEY STRIBER'S MIND AND THEIR DESIGN BY WAY OF SEXUAL EXPLOITATION AND PHYCHOLOGICAL ' EXTORTION.' IT MIGHT AS WELL BE AN ENTIRE GENERATION, THE AGING ' BABY BOOMERS.' GAYS HAVE ALWAYS HAD RIGHTS, THEY WERE LEAD IN ' AGREEMENT ' AS SCAPEGOATS BY THEIR ' ELDERS ' AND CLOSET JUDICIAL LEADERS WHO PREFERRED THE QUITE LIFE UNTIL OPPORTUNITY ' MET ' THE ADVANTAGE OF COMPLETE PROFIT. IT WAS NOT JUST GAYS WHO HAPPENED TO BE JEW, IT WAS ALL THOSE BORN THAT WAY AND THE ' MEMORY ' OF DOMINANCE THAT GAVE THE ALLUSION OF ATONEMENT AS god IN GUISE OF TECHNOLOGY, MASS MARKETING ON ALL BANDWIDTHS, FOR A SUCCESSFUL CU.

JUST IN ' APACHE JUNCTION ' IN ARIZONA.

NOW, THIS ' ATTEMPT ' IS CALLED ' NATIONAL SECURITY.' EVERY ONE WAS ' FOOLED.' THE PROFITS OF WAR WILL NEVER ' REACH THE POOR OR THE ' FOOLED.' ONLY DEATH. I WAS LUCKY, I WAS ALMOST KILLED WHEN I WAS A CHILD. I WENT UP TO THE CLOUDS. IF YOU WANT WHAT I SAW AT THE ' BOTTOM ' OF THE ENTIRE WORLD, THEN CONTINUE. ' SHE,' WHO SOME HOW ' IS,' THE ENTITY OF ALL WE KNOW, WILL ' BIRTH ' ANOTHER SPECIES, AND WE WILL BE LEFT OUT. SO CONTINUE WITH YOUR EXPLOITS WITH THE CHILDREN AS ALL IN THE SAME ' LIKENESS.' NATURE PREFERS ' DIVERSITY.'

SO, THIS MORNING I LEFT A  PRESENT FOR THE RESCUE MISSION THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME BY THE LIBRARY IN EL PASO FOR FREE; AN OLD MAN WHO ANYTHING THAT I CHOOSE THAT WAS FREE SET OFF THE ALARM, JUST LIKE IN HAWAII. I WILL GIVE THIS MUCH OF THE ' THE FLAG ' THAT I AM CURRENTLY WALKING THROUGH, SEEN THROUGH THE EYES OF THE PED'S DERIVED MAINLY FROM STEPHAN SCHWARTZ'S ( IT WAS HERE AND THE USE OF A TEAM FORMALLY ASSOCIATED WITH MAJOR ED DANES, THAT ALL ' PORDICALS ' OPENED UP BEYOND HIS ' ADVERTISEMENTS.' ) GOLD STANDARD EDITION FOR REMOTE VIEWING; PEZ-A U-2 SONG AND DENTINE-A CHEWING GUM THAT MY MOTHER LIKED WHEN I WAS A KID. MY FATHER ALWAYS GAVE ME DOUBLE FRUITY, I LIKED THE MINT. I PLANTED IT BY MY BEDROOM WINDOW IN ALBUQUERQUE. THAT SHOULD ' INDICATE ' A BARRIER FOR THE INTRUSIONS OF ' THOSE ' PRETENDING TO BE MY FATHER. THEY DID NOT KNOW, ONLY HE ' KNEW ' WHAT WAS ' SUGGESTED. KNOW THY SELF.

I'M DONE PLAYING THE ROLES FOR ED DANES CHILD MOLESTER ' BITCHES.' MOSTLY ARMY, NAVY, PRIEST, MINISTERS, CORPORATE LEADERS, ALL AMERICAN FAGS.

BEING DISARMED HAS ' REMINDED ' ME ( JOHN C. ) OF HOW DIRECT AND BEAUTIFUL IN A SENSE, IF DONE RIGHT, THE KILL CAN BE. ' ABSENCE OF RESPONSIBILITY.' BUT THAT IS AN ' ILLUSION.'

SHRINKS, DOCTORS AND VA  MAKE BELIEVE REPS WHO SAY THAT ' HEARING VOICES ' IS A SIGN OF INSANITY ARE JUST LYING TO YOU, MUCH LIKE MY FATHER, WHO, SAID THE SAME OF MY MOTHER. IT'S JUST TECHNOLOGY AND THE EVER PRESENT ' PREDATORS ' WHO WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE ' WAR TORN.' THEY WILL DRUG YOU, IF YOU CAN'T ' QUITE ' YOUR ' MIND ' OR YOUR TONGUE, REMEMBER, ONLY THE RICH OR ' GANGSTERS ' ARE ALLOWED. IT'S ALL INTENSIFIED ' COMMUNICATIONS BANDWIDTHS,' MIND FUCKS, JUST LIKE A BARE LIGHT BULB TO ONE SIDE OF THE HEAD, TO MAKE YOU QUEER; THE LOSS OF SELF IN THE god GAME.

THE GOLD CROSS IS MINE WITHOUT
QUESTION, UNTIL I GIVE IT UP MYSELF.
THE WOODEN CROSS WAS GIVEN BY A
GOOD GUY, I THINK, AT THE MISSION,
BUT WILL BE GIVEN BACK, SO THAT
SOMEONE ELSE CAN MAKE IT THEIRS.

A MAN WHO USED TO LIVE AT THE HOUSE THAT I AM
AT. A GOOD MAN GAVE ME ABOUT TEN DOLLARS IN
CHANGE AND I SHARED IT WITH THIS OLD MAN, HE
RAMBLED ON UNTIL A ' CHILD'S ' VOICE ' COULD BE
HEARD ABOVE-' DOUBLE TEAMING,' AND HE JUST
ABOUT DROVE ME NUTS. IT WAS A MEMORY AND HIS
PELVIC THRUSTS BECAME VERY OBVIOUSE SO I
ALMOST ENED THE OR RATHER HIS ' CONVERSATION '
WITH A SHOVE. I LEFT INSTEAD.

IT'S AMAZING WHAT A LITTLE
BLEACH WILL DO TO BRING OUT
ALL THE ' VOICES ' OF THOSE
WHO ' WORSHIP ' THIS. I JUST
POURED IT ON THE ROCK, ALL
THE IDIOTS; NOT WHO MIGHT
THINK.

THE LAST OF THE COLLAGES
THAT WHERE MADE. THE DOVE
THAT NATURALLY ' APPEARED '
WAS CHANGED AT THE LAST
MINUTE. ONLY ONE ELEMENT
WAS CHANGED. WHAT WE ARE
LOSING TO THE WASTE OF WAR.

ANOTHER LOOK AT WHO ' WOMEN '
SERVE IN TODAY'S TECHNO CULTURE.

THE ' ALLUSION ' THE WEST IS FACING.
BRAINWASHING, EVEN BY MINISTER'S
AND PREISTS. THIS IS WHAT EL PASO IS
ALL ABOUT. BLACK.