SLEEPERS IN THE UNITED STATES

SLEEPERS

Years ago, " We need people in the homosexual scene to help identify terrorists," this is almost verbatim as to what I ' heard ' in my head.

" No." was my answer. I have never been ' forgiven ' because I was ' anointed ' ( argument used on me on one level ). I never had choice. Fuck you.

You got what you wanted, land, power and me on the streets, and ' your ' war.

All of you are cowards not to ' stand ' from government and churches down against ' Legion,' or even your own beliefs. What does an animal do but beg for more.

TICKET 8-CHINESE LUCKY NUMBER-OTHERWISE, EIGHT YEARS AGO

Today at Human Services after countless visits and different case workers, I finally gave up trying to get food stamps transferred to Hawaii. " I give up I said."

Hispanic or Black, Hawaiian or Gay, it does not matter; underground or bureaucracy, there really is no difference.

STANDDOWN

" I don't know what you are talking about." Army personal. " Go ask The Salvation Army." Your sleepers are your own.

THE REAL WAR

IF YOU ARE ' WHITE,' MEANING SKIN COLOR, DO NOT COME TO HAWAII. If anything should happen, money trouble, divorce, lost ID or ' misinformation,' you will find a form of discrimination that you are unprepared for. If you are even half Hawaiian, the same. You are nothing. If you are over forty ( any other city as well with large minority groups ) you are taking your life in your own hands. You must be prepared to kill, if necessary to defend yourself. The government's version of ' Jesus ' will not help you.

The ' massages sent in the State office, were clear, a security officer twirling a stuffed rat behind a cubical looking directly at me, this to any number of other small idiosyncrasies.

I's not worth being the ' inside ' joke. Your sleepers are your own.

AIDS

Today I took an AID'S test again and was negative. If you are homeless, most particularly, this must be done. Hepatitis too. The militant side of the Gay culture uses this disease, as well as ex-cons and other misfits to ' Hit,' or kill those who oppose them; simply to get even. This is well known and not urban myth; people are afraid to talk. Needles, cuts, bites, fingernail scrapes and any other methods are implied and have been ' voiced.' Of their experience, why find out. Stay away from them if you can, if possible.


I shook hands with a person who had his hand in his pants, groin, I was'nt really paying attention at the time, when I was showing him the engine of my 4-Runner. " Mano to Mano, brother to brother," he said.

You have to pay attention. What is being done to your kids, one can only imagine. I didn't have any cuts, luckily and washed my hands with sanitizer twice. I don't know if he is Straight, Bi or Homosexual. He did have a Biohazard tattoo though. I told him what it stood for in the Gay comunity. I learned this when I researched Child Abuse. ( spell check just went out again, imagine that. Again. )

I've heard no word from him regarding personal property ect.

Your sleepers are your own.

8 YEARS AGO-RV

Survivor-three times

Occupy-Once

This brought back the ' sight,' memory of the ' machette,' I actually bought one. I think I got rid of it in Austin, Tx.

The kid that I was working with that day, I don't think is a threat, but he sure had a strong resemblance to the person that bought my 4-Runner. If seen, I doubt anyone could denie it.

SHELTERS, JEWS, ARABS AND THE PEDOPHILE ' CHURCHES ' AND ALL THAT LIE IN BETWEEN

I will never accept your version of Jesus Christ. I will never surender my spirit or soul or body to you. You have never kept your hands off children. Fuck You.

I have a picture ( might post it ) of toilet paper that I threw in the bowl because it had blood on it ( not mine ). This is common ( two shelters, my experience ), and ' dots that move,' bugs.

The voluenteers roll them in pads to extend the life of the roll. I have always asked for two because of this reason.

The Reascue Mission is one, but the problem is addressed often.

The Opportunity Center is another and the bug issue was laughed at; the voluenteers are also homeless most of the time and do get paid in cash, I suppose to ' extend ' the value of the grant monies and donations. All shelters are this way. The two that I spoke of are in El Paso, Texas. Austin's Lake Side Family YMCA would be a good example of the Opportunity Center when I was there: the bath and shower areas, male.

The people who are ' cared ' for at all shelters are those who society have never ' forgiven,' although the crimes and sentences have been paid. New Criminals are picked up there also and ' mostly ' for good reasons; murder.

STREET- " HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RECIEVING FOODSTAMPS/SSI/WARD OF THE STATE? " AT THE TIME OVERLAPPED WITH  "WARD "-THAT WAS AT NIGHT

The ' sight ' was mine, now everybodys hearts are mended, how well do you see now?   " Rochelle," ( step son's female friend, who I housed briefly ) but this time has already happened. She got a ride on the back of ' Roger's ' Harley, or if still owened by SHALOM, his boss, friend to ' Steve,' owener of a coffee plantation, for lack of better expression ( also the guy who pointed at my croch, then eye and mentioned Michial Jackson and Farah Fawcet-part of the attacks about six years ago, which overlapped the year before ), he might of said Kona. Greek beard, blue eyes and short light brown hair. Thanks for pulling my pony tail. Now you know the type of people who run Hawaii.

STEVE I WAS LOOKING FOR A MISSING CHILD NICK NAMED ' BLUE.'-F---  YOU. What did your ' group ' think it was doing? In a month or two I'm going to decribe all the sexual perversion that was ' forced into my mind.' NOT OUR MIND!

And you are right, there are more....sleepers, I mean, but the thought occures, what ' encounter promotes ' such deviant behavioue? And for what purpose?

THE SLEEPERS ARE YOUR OWN.

For the Army and Navy Fucks, and those who ' lead ' them, I would keep an accounting of all peoples and or groups on the Islands that even hint of ' swinging.'

GOSH, WHAT COULD THE ' INCENTIVE ' BE...? Maybe they might keep a better look on thier radar screens at the very least. " Who put that ' thier.' Date.

FOR WHAT ITS WORTH, EVERYONE LIED...THIS HAS'NT HAPPENED YET. I HAVE SEEN ENOUGH TO KNOW THE VALUE OF MY LIFE IN THE ' EYES ' OF YOU.

For the value of whom? It certainly was not for my family or myself, or the ' Sleepers.' Goodbye for now.

BARACADING ' THE TERRORIST CELLS '- " FOREIGIN AND DOMESTIC "

9-24-'13

ALTHOUGH I DO NOT LIKE ADVERTISING FOR

GROUPS, I WILL SAY THIS MUCH FOR THE SMALL

BUSINESS ' UNDER HIS WING'S ' WHICH PROVIDES

DRINKS AND SNACK'S, HOPE OUT REACH,AND OTHER

SERVICES FOR THE HOMELESS OF HAWAII ( HILO ), THE

COMPANY WHO DONATED THE ' SEA SALTED POTATO

CHIPS,' THANK YOU.' DIRTY PHOTATO CHIPS.' I THINK
 OF THE CLOUDS, SNOWFLAKES

AND OTHER SMALL MIRACLES THAT I HAVE WITNESSED.

AND NOW A POTATO CHIP ( UNDER ' NAVIGATOR ' ).

 

THE ARTICLE BELOW:

 I HAVEN'T COMPLETELY ADJUSTED MY ABILITY TO UNDERSTAND FULLY; A COMPREHENSION IN TOTALITY.

I HAVE ALWAYS AWOKEN AT 3:00 AM FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER. SOBER OR DRUNK, SOMETIMES NOT KNOWING WHERE I WAS. SOMETIMES ' AROUSED,' BUT NOT KNOWING WHY. MAINLY ' QUIT OF MIND-' NO ONE.'

I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS BORN AT 3:00. IT WAS WITH FRIENDS AT A DINNER TABLE THAT I LEARNED FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT I WAS BORN AT 3:03 IN THE AFTERNOON. I HAD TO LOOK AT MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE, I WAS GOING TO MAZATLAN, MEXICO FOR THE FIRST TIME.

YEARS AGO MY MOTHER TOLD ME I WAS BORN AT THREE.

MY GRANDMOTHER OCHOA ALWAYS MADE IT APPOINT TO TELL ME THAT THE DOCTOR'S BUILDING WAS ' ART DECO ' AND THAT THE NUMBERS WERE MY BIRTH TIME. " YOU WERE BORN THEN BROTHER."  (THE NICK NAME MY SISTER GAVE ME.)

I HAVE YEARS OF NIGHT MARES, JESUS HELP!, MERCY! SEXUAL SHIT,ON AND ON AND ON, TO THE POINT OF, ........


IN THIS TECHNOLOGICAL WORLD AND WHEN I POSTED THE ' IRAQI WAR PICTURES,' WHOEVER YOU WHERE ( FEMALE ), ASKING ME ' DOESN'T THAT/THIS BOTHER YOU? '

YOU FIGURE IT OUT. THERE ARE OVER FIFTEEN ' HITS ' IN THIS HERO'S ACOUNTING FROM CNN BELOW.

THANK YOU.

A QUARTER OF MY LIFE MAKES SENSE.

I'M GOING TO STAY AWAY FROM THIS FOR A WHILE AND THEN PRINT ALL THE ' HITS ' AND WHAT THEY MEAN TO ME, AND MIGHT FOR THE REST OF YOU.


I SPENT OVER TWO YEARS DEFENDING THE RIGHT PEOPLE, MEN RAISED BY THEIR MOTHER'S AND LABELED, AGAINST A HOMOSEXUAL NETWORK, IN ALBQ.,NM. I DID THIS YEARS AGO, THEN ASKED A FRIEND ABOUT THE MEMORIES OF WAKING UP EVERY MORNING ' BEING QUESTIONED, DEFENDING MYSELF AND OTHERS;' OVERWHELMING THAT IT WAS, JUDY MENTIONED THAT IT SOUNDED LIKE AN ' ABDUCTION, AND OR ATTEMPTS.'

MOST OF MY ' MILITARY ' FRIENDS WOULD JUST MENTION, ' LITTLE GREEN MEN.'

ONE HIT

PANSY-" YOU WILL BE USED AS A PANSY/PATSY ( OVERLAYED )" IF YOU EVER WRITE ABOUT THIS.'-THE OTHER, EVELYN'S RELATIVES, THE ' WALKER ' SISTER'S IN TENNESSEE, NEIGHBOR DOLLY PARTON.

VERY NEAR THE SECOND ROUND OF ' ATTACKS,' " I NEVER WENT TO SCHOOL WITH YOU." I THOUGHT ' WHITEY.' A BEAUTIFUL UPPER CLASS MATE. " I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO." BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS WAS IN REFERENCE TO BACK THEN.

ARTICLE-WENDY- THIS CONNECTED TO WILLIAMS ( ROBIN, MORK AND MINDY-TV SHOW ), PAN ( SCULPTURE AND CHILD'S STORY ) AND OTHER'S.

THESE TWO WERE INTERLACED AND ' OBSERVED.' AND I VAGUELY REMEMBER IN THE FIRST ROUND OF ATTACKS AND CLEARLY IN THE SECOND ROUND, " THAT'S WHY WE DON'T NAME OUR CHILDREN AFTER THE ' CHRIST.'" I HEARD THIS IN MY HEAD.

" YOU CAN DO THE SAME THING WITH PRAYER," AS WITH RV.-THIS ABOUT 2007-08.

SECOND HIT

DANIEL-A YOUNG LADY THAT I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH. HER BROTHER LOST HIS LIFE TRYING TO BEAT A TRAIN, WHILE CRAWLING UNDER IT, ALTHOUGH ' WHY SUICIDE ' WAS MENTIONED THEN, RAMONA ELEMENTARY.

YOUNG LADY WHO'S FATHER TRIED TO HANG HIMSELF, HER FATHER. HERE IN HAWAII.

EL PASO, TEXAS. I CUT UP ALL THE CLIMBING ROPE BEFORE I LEFT. I STATED " THAT I DIDN'T WANT SOMEONE TO USE IT FOR SUICIDE; TO HANG THEM SELVES."

" YOUR CRAZY." THE NUT SAID. THIS AT THE EL PASO RESCUE MISSION. DAY AFTER, I CHOOSE HAWAII.

I MIGHT PRINT REST LATER.

Veteran confronts rape, suicide: 'I am angry that others are going through this'

By Moni Basu, CNN

updated 2:22 PM EDT, Sat September 21, 2013

 

Jack Williams attempted suicide after being raped by his drill sergeant in 1966.

STORY HIGHLIGHTS

·         Sexual assault is one of two high-profile problems plaguing the military; suicide is the other

·         Jack Williams speaks out in "Justice Denied," which focuses on male victims of sexual assault in military

·         Study: Military victims of violent assault are six times more likely to attempt suicide

Seattle (CNN) -- Jack Williams rejects the table the hostess has chosen in the middle of the Mexican restaurant. He asks for the least desirable faux-leather booth in the back corner, where he can sit with his back to the wall. He can't stand to have people come up behind him. That's what his rapist, an assistant drill sergeant in the Air Force, did almost 50 years ago.

It happened three times, always at about 3 in the morning.

After the third time, Williams walked into the shower at his barracks at Lackland Air Force Base, tied a few towels together and tried to hang himself. Security guards found him unconscious.

A part of Williams died that day in 1966. He was 18. He has not been whole since.

Now 66, he looks back and ponders what his life might have been had he accomplished what he set out to do: to serve his country with pride. Instead, he has lived with rape for 47 years, with permanent injuries that make him depend on a walker, with words like "pansy" and "coward" ingrained in his head.

Sexual assault is one of two high-profile problems plaguing the military; suicide is the other: Twenty-two veterans take their lives every day.

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Female veterans coping with PTSD

Williams harbors both demons in his head. He is caught in the nexus of the military's two tragedies.

In May, the Pentagon released results of an anonymous survey on sexual assault: Twenty-six thousand service members reported that they had been sexually assault or harassed in 2012, up from 19,000 the previous year.

Women get most of the attention on this issue because, proportionately, their numbers are much higher. Women make up only about 15% of the active-duty force but account for 47% of sexual assault victims.

Headline-grabbing scandals have usually involved women. Two decades ago, at the Navy's "Tailhook" convention in Las Vegas, drunken aviators assaulted female recruits. Five years later, the Army brought charges against 12 commissioned and noncommissioned officers for the sexual assault of female trainees at Aberdeen Proving Ground in Maryland. Most recently, 22 instructors were convicted in the Air Force's worst sex scandal at Lackland, where Williams was raped almost five decades ago.

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It's men like him who make up most of the military's sexual assault cases, even though they are less likely to report their assaults. The Pentagon survey found 13,900 male victims. But 76% do not file complaints.

"There's an assumption that rape doesn't happen to men, or they must have been weak and not strong enough to fight (an assailant) off," says Sue Garrison, a psychologist at the Bay Pines VA Healthcare System in Florida.

Bay Pines is the only Department of Veterans Affairs facility in America that offers residential treatment for male victims of military sexual assault as well as women. Evidence suggests that men may suffer more severe symptoms and are less likely to get help, raising the specter of other problems, like suicide.

 

Williams recalls time spent on this fishing pier with his daughter as among the best days of his life.

Stuart Isett for CNN

The causes of suicide are complicated and not wholly understood, but a contributing factor among veterans is sexual trauma.

A study by former Air Force psychologist Craig Bryan found that military victims of violent assault or rape were six times more likely to attempt suicide than nonvictims.

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One key reason is the enormous sense of betrayal that service members feel when they are assaulted by a brother in arms. The loss of trust is magnified, says Bryan, because the military is such a tight-knit organization whose success depends on group unity and cohesion. And there is little action a victim can take other than report it.

"When it happens, you can't just quit your job or move barracks," Bryan says. "So victims feel more trapped and violated." They may worry about retribution and the impact on their careers.

A string of recent sexual assault cases has ratcheted up pressure on the military and Congress to curb the problem. One scandal involved the Air Force's former head of sexual assault prevention himself, Col. Jeffrey Krusinski, who was arrested in May after he allegedly grabbed a woman's breasts and buttocks.

For Williams, change will come too late. But it's long overdue.

"I am angry that others are going through this," he says. "If it isn't kept in the spotlight, it will go back to business as usual."

And that means more men with the most honorable intentions are destined to suffer -- and maybe even die.

Study: Mental illness, not combat, causes soldier suicides

It's not just about the rape

Williams tells his story on a drive from the Mexican restaurant to a split-level brick house in the suburban city of Bellevue, the childhood home where he nurtured his dreams.

In 1966, some young men feared the Vietnam War enough to dodge the draft. Williams could have, too. A bout of rheumatic fever at 3 could have made him eligible for a medical exemption because the ailment can lead to heart damage. But Williams volunteered for the Air Force.

His grandfather fought in World War I. His uncle fought in the Battle of the Bulge during World War II. His father was in the Army. Williams figured it was his turn. He was suited for that line of work. At 14, he'd gone through rigorous training to become a police cadet. Besides, it was a matter of honor.

In June, he reported to Lackland Air Force Base near San Antonio, Texas. It was where the fresh blood was trained, transformed in a matter of weeks from frightened young men to warriors. There were no calendars, no watches allowed in boot camp. One cadet scratched marks on the wall to count the days.

The only respite from a brutal regimen came in the few hours of sleep. But even that was taken from Williams soon after his arrival.

Williams' disability stems partly from his rape. "Justice Denied" is a film focusing on male victims.

Stuart Isett for CNN

Some told their stories in the critically acclaimed documentary "The Invisible War," which featured victims of military sexual assault. Another emotionally exhausting film, "Justice Denied," focused specifically on male victims.

The men in "Justice Denied" believe that the power of the military, coupled with ignorance in society about the devastating effects of sexual assault on men, has resulted in government failure to address what they call a super-silent epidemic.

The pressure for male victims to keep it all inside is enormous, says Brian Lewis, 33, the first male rape survivor to testify before Congress.

He was raped in August 2000 by a superior noncommissioned officer aboard the USS Frank Cable. He was given a personality disorder diagnosis and discharged from the Navy after he reported the crime.

"Men are still invisible and ignored as survivors of military sexual trauma," Lewis told the Senate Armed Services Committee in March.

He believes that America as a culture has moved beyond blaming female victims for sexual assault but not male victims, and especially not men in the military. They are trained to be tough, to kill.

"I think the general public expects men in the military to defend themselves and are not seen as a victim of a crime," he says.

Or they are seen as being weak or homosexual.

"It's not about sex," Lewis says. "It's about power and control."

Some are perceived as liars. Lewis remembers a psychiatrist at the Naval Medical Center in San Diego telling him that he had made up his story.

"I was there to seek help, and he had basically put a knife in my heart. I don't think I have any words to describe what that moment felt like."

He, like Williams, tried to hang himself. He survived because he didn't know how to tie a proper knot.

"That is a horrible thing for a Navy guy to admit," Lewis says.

He can muster a joke now that he is speaking out, trying to get Congress to pass legislation -- known as the STOP Act -- that would take the reporting, investigation, prosecution and oversight of sexual assault cases out of the chain of command and place it under the jurisdiction of an autonomous oversight committee.

"The military is fundamentally incapable of addressing the crime of sexual assault because the entire justice system is rigged around a commanding officer's authority," Lewis says. "That officer has to choose between two people who are telling opposite stories.

"I carry my discharge as an official and permanent symbol of shame, on top of the trauma of the physical attack, the retaliation and its aftermath," Lewis told lawmakers on the Hill. "I fear it will be discussed when I apply for law school, when I apply to take the bar exam, even when I apply for a job, and I wonder what opportunities it may destroy for me. No one should be forced to undergo such painful and inappropriate treatment."

Williams knows how rape can destroy the life of a young man like Lewis. He stands as testament.

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A coward dies a thousand deaths

The car turns right onto 117th Avenue in Bellevue's Newport Hills neighborhood and stops at No. 5031. It's the house Williams' parents purchased after the family moved from California in 1965.

Williams steps out of the car, straightens his Scooby-Doo tie. He thinks he should be dressed well in public.

He looks at the towering oak in the front yard.

"I planted that in September of '65," Williams says. "It was only 6 feet tall then." Now, it stands at least 50 feet.

Williams likes to talk about the things he was able to accomplish in his early life. He boasts that he put up all the antennas in this neighborhood. He points to the living room of the split-level house. "I got married there, in front of the fireplace," he says.

A neighbor, curious about strangers parked outside, walks up to Williams. "May I help you?"

"Oh, we're just looking," he says. "I used to live in that house. I joined the military from there. I'm a Vietnam-era veteran."

It feels good for Williams to say that aloud. He lives burdened by guilt that he never shipped out for a combat tour with the rest of the guys; that he got to live when others died. Vietnam, he says, "That's unfinished business."

He borrows from Shakespeare. "A coward dies a thousand deaths; a brave man but once. When you are told you are a coward, you die those thousand deaths."

It's about to rain. Williams' wispy white hair flutters in the breeze. Tears stream down his gaunt face.

He doesn't know whether the assistant drill sergeant who raped him is alive still. He'd like to show him X-rays of his broken body. He'd like to tell him the horror within that will never die.

Outside his old house, he says goodbye to the curious stranger and begins to fold up his walker to put in the back seat. Things, Williams tells the man, aren't always what they appear to be.

As a symbol of his troubles, he wears an orange wristband on his left arm with the number of a veterans' crisis line. Next to it is another band with the name of the film he is in: "Justice Denied." He makes sure the two always overlap.

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I KNOW THAT I AM IN AN ' INFORMATION HUB,' AND TO A CERTAIN DEGREE SOME PEOPLE ARE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME, YET I AM GOING TO TRY TO TAKE ABIT MORE TIME BEFORE I WRITE.

I AM ALSO VERY AWARE OF THE DC SHIPYARD KILLINGS, BUT THERE HAVE BEEN TOO MANY ' HAPPENINGS ' WITHIN ' THIS EVENT.'

I ALMOST MET TRAVIS WALTON AND THAT JUST ' BURNS A HOLE IN MY HEAD.!'
 

THE CELL-UPDATED

Avoiding ' Staft infections.' Very common among the very poor and homeless.

( Sept 16, 2013 ) Bad case of '  jungle rot ' took these pictures after the worst

of it. Soaked them in Ocean then cleaned with soap and water.

Anti-bacterial afterwards, now a bit better. Was not able to change

socks. Didn't have any to change into. The hole was about a quarter of

 inch in the ' meat ' of the foot.

( Sept 16, 2013 )The watch ' changed time ' on me. 00-01, then I found the

year to be 2001. I guess the little fucks didn't know that I

made Art that predicted 9-11, if any one listened, and was 

shown in The New Mexico State Fair. What did you do ?

Let the planes pass and sit on your asses while picking on

 the homeless, OR DID ' YOU ' START THE WAR ?

WAR=GREED-DEFENSE
FOR THE BENEFIT OF WHOM ?
WHY NOW ?
HOME BASED TERRORISM ?

 "Look in the mirror now!" The black man I saw looking back, died yesterday. 95% match with the person that I thought ' I ' ( I was him, until I saw myself in the mirror ) was going through ' boot camp,' and my friend, partner ( the woman soldier who was by my side ) who was always by my side, the one who raised her rifle to shoot me when I did not shoot the kids who looked like collage kids trying to escape in the tunnel that was discovered in that ' lucid dream,' prior to 9-11-2001 ( Something had happened, I went through boot camp, we had black uniforms, replacements for M-16, black gloves, women showered other side of shoulder height wall, Extremely large machine, shape of an arch that was a ' Flash furnace,' but state of the art. Used for battle field, or any other catastrophes ect. clean up for disease control. This dream was so real, even the sun shine through the trees on our run, all the while she was talking. I spoke of this in The Protection of Prudence, maybe, a few years back. ). The ' dream terminated in a blinding white flash, I awoke in a sweat filled bed...knowing that I was dead. I HAD REFUSED TO SHOOT THE ' COLLAGE KIDS ' WHO WERE FOUND TRYING TO MOVE, OR ESCAPE THROUGH THE TUNNELS; SHE, MY PARTNER, FRIEND AND SOLIDER, MATE SHOT ME, after the second ' order,' she yelled from the gut. This dream was ' reoccurring.' I ' questioned the fires to my right when ' I was told to look there.' I concluded that ' I was being lead, " that wasn't in the original dream." I said in that state of mind. They stopped in 2009. Funny thing though, someone else said " Next time follow your orders." This was said just prior to ' the fires.' I vaguely recognized this person's voice. This was the third dream. 

.

IF METAPHORICAL, IS THERE A ARCH IN DC., OR IS FRANCE IMPORTANT NOW? Remember the machine, the bug zapper. 100,000's - 100,000,000 of white clothed bodies layed in wait. All around where we were stationed, the arch. I was told by ' another nurse ' who was related to a very important man who designed optics for NASA, that there were only two of these incinerator units in all of the world, both in the US, one in Texas. They are not ' offensive.'

Their are two more people responsible, one female, the other male.

Female, moved very comfortably in her ' skin.' Is dark or black.

Other, male, I think-unknown, second impulse. These were primary people in ' lucid dream.'

' I ' was part of a platoon.

OF NOTE: Over the weekend, a male ( six foot one ) and female ( five foot five and half ) Navy, dress whites, male wearing a badge, polished steal. Thumbs up, I said in gesture. Look of contempt, returned. - Heilo, HI. Bus Terminal. Cameras.

 Top story, CNN this morning, " badge."

Yesterday, some newscast, about twenty ' hits,' all people that I have known, things that I have owned seen, mainly people. I e-mailed it to myself, but it disappeared. Z.......the last name of a person that I knew years ago who I found out that her husband had died  while I was talking to her in Kroger's, time seemed to stop and did. The photo of the gun man was not published because the ' event ' was not concluded. Years ago-walking down the isles of the new Kroger store, ' Buy me,' and various endorsements from some products exclaiming superiority over all others. A child told her mother that I was talking to myself when I wasn't. However, the constant harassment of some unknown force that I could hear from time to time. The mother looked at me and ' thought,' " Shame on you." I knew then that the world was flipped flopped. I saw this later in another store a man state commands to a youngster and the child follow, until the mother intervened, but did not yell or scold the man. The child continued to pat his head like a ' dunce.'

THIS MORNING, CNN ' BADGE,'

THIS MORNING I THOUGHT IMMEDIATELY OF MAN IN THE MENTAL HEALTH CLINIC IN ALBQ.,NM. WHO POINTED AT HIS EYE, AND I ' HEARD ' VERY CLEARLY, I WILL ALWAYS BE WATCHING YOU. BLUE SHIRT, GOLD ' NAVY ' LETTERING. I had stopped there for directions about a week and ahalf after Feb 14 and spending a week with the Tuckers.

POIHIKI, HI.-LAST WEEK- ' ARAB OR JEW ? ' WHILE THE SMALL DOG THAT I WAS HOLDING SPOTTED MY SHIRT AS SHE SHIVERED AND NEVER TOOK HER EYES OFF THE MIDDLE EASTERNER ALL THE WHILE THE TALL WHITE HAIRED MAN THAT HAD A LITTLE BLOND LEFT, PETTED THE DOG ATOP THE HEAD ONCE OR TWICE. HE SEPARATED HIMSELF FROM THE OTHER THREE MEN, TWO OF WHOM, VERY QUIET OF MIND.

Photo taken in Muai,HI., when
I arrived. Something wasn't right; at UTEP, I wouldn't
get in to or comment in any great length about the Palestinians or the blacks
they seemed in concert; a reminder both in symbols here in HI and Az. and
Texas. Youth has no idea of just what global war is. Drugs were running
it all, now I guess Israel too.

'ARAB OR JEW ? ' SO DEEP WITHIN ME, BUT TREATED AS ARAB. I USED TO KNOW A VERY GOOD MAN YEARS AGO. HE FOUGHT IN THE FRENCH RESISTANCE IN WW II, HE SAID ONCE TO ME, OUT OF CONTEXT IN TOPIC OF CONVERSATION, " I PAY MY EMPLOYEES FIRST, MY FAMILY SECOND AND MYSELF LAST."

THE PERSON THAT I WAS WORKING FOR IN POIHIKI, IF YOU CAN CALL IT THAT, BELOW MINIMUM WAGE, NEVER PAID IN FULL....THE ' NAMES ' COINCIDENCE I KNOW TO BE ALMOST CERTAIN. YET THIS IS AN ' INFORMATION HUB/EVENT ' THAT IS ' DERIVED ' OF MIDDLE EASTERN CONCERNS, I THINK, IN VEIL.

I MIGHT BE WRONG. BUT I DO KNOW THIS, MR.PHEFFER IS MY STANDARD FOR A GOOD PERSON, EVEN THE ARTISANS THAT WORKED FOR HIM, RESPECTED HIM.

  - ALL THOSE YEARS AGO IN ALBQ., NM, ' SYLVIA ' " I'LL MAKE SOME CALLS." SHE SAID. " OH AND WHAT IS ' PRESSING? ' I ASKED HER OF THE FBI. ( I am adding this only because it happened, I still do not understand all of it. I tryed to keep all of my cell phones for Proof. The sim cards too.

During this time of the FBI, next to freeway, on my phone during and after, " That was not who you think you talked too/The call was re-directed, you are ( were ? ) on a cell phone. " " We are under fire, call this number ( numbers did not make sense ), WE ARE FEDERAL POLICE ! CALL THIS NUMBER ! ( number given again ) WE ARE UNDER ATTACK !

THAT PAST----THIS PRESENT-FUTURE ?

WHERE WERE YOU M-----FUCKERS ? sitting on your asses again ?

9-18-2013 AND FORWARD...HOW'S THE PRESIDENT ? NOW YOU KNOW THE UNDERWORLD'S AND MASONIC'S INTEREST.

 Personal recognition of word/event/label repetition, keyword ' TWO BITS.' Also, Four Days in November. Two people had heart attacks at the same time, one was my father the other, a friend; one Democrat the other Republican. Between the two, on that level...two combined PHD's and a wife " you're my Superman.."...for me, the hell of purgatory trying to find my way out of hundreds of minds, if not thousands. Thank you TJ, the silent guardian of the pair.

FINEMARK KEPT SAYING, " WOULDN'T YOU BE A LITTLE NAZI IF MILLIONS OF YOUR PEOPLE WERE KILLED." I NEVER KNEW WHAT PROMPTED THESE NAZI REMARKS FOR A FEW YEARS, back then ( about six years ago and forward ).

THIS IS ABOUT SAVING THE FUTURE.

These are Arab, Jewish sub-cultures all in tangled in the ' Gay ' web, not to mention the complete and total invasion of  privacy ( mine and those who were my friends ). I now have a better ' idea ' as to what the next attacks will be. Moses asked again and again, " Are you sure you're not Jewish? " One brother out of the three, I have never met. Only Ramsey.

I know that EVERYTHING was video taped in my house in Albq.,NM, I just don't know who. Probably both ' druggies ' and the Police Department. The RV of my life is ' blueprint ' much like the Art utilizing blueprints that Mr. Prince may still own, AND OR OTHERS.

IN MY ART I ' TRESPASSED ' THE ATTACK OF NINE ELEVEN BUT THEIR WAS MORE.

THE NUMBER IS UP.....AGAIN.

I fought so hard to save this, ' I ' lost my temper and destroyed
it.' Sounded ' like Mr. Prince's voice but someone else's overlapping
it. I told T.J.Tucker of this but I was overwhelmed by the 'attachments'
and the ' voice ' of what sounded like constant questioning.

For years I was referred to as ' fake Bart.' Even a check
or two in payment for Art.

Book I almost read after Footprints of G-d, by Greg Iles.
Attacks were too great. I should of read it then, good man
Crichton. Good man from a bad mold. I am now reading
the Iles book again, I never finished it, the attacks were too
great. All the memories are coming back again, I was dating
the Dr. then.

Missile or Submarine, behind the trench, why advertise or is it
something else? Whats high in the sky and flys ? (  Aug, 30, 2013 )

First week Hilo, HI.

I want a fucking pention for this. But ha ! I'll never really know that I'm right, was right. Now the ' Ball's ' in your court, so to speak.