UP-DATED - STILL PAYING THE PRICE FOR REPORTING SEXUAL CHILD ABUSE

 I WILL FINISH THIS LATER. 2005-2010. THIS MAINLY 2006-07.
ABOUT THREE TO FOUR NIGHTS AGO I WAS AWAKENED TO MY ANKLE ' BUZZING,' OR VIBRATING LIKE A CELL PHONE ??? I HAVE NO FUCKING PHONE THAT WORKS, MUCH LESS KEPT ON MY ANKLE

THE SHIT THAT WENT THROUGH MY MIND, I HAVE NO WORKING CELL PHONE, I HOPE THIS HELPS. ESCAPED CRIMINAL? TERRORIST/KIDNAPPING?

FOR DR. HUGHSON, I HAD AN IDEA OF WHO I WAS FIGHTING, SO I KEPT ALOT. I FELT THAT USING THE NUDES WOULD BE A LAST RESORT IN ORDER TO TRY TO PROVE THE DEGREE THAT MY AND OUR PRIVACY WAS INVADED ( YOU WERE A PART OF MY LIFE ) AND BY WHOM. WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT SKYNET WAS REAL, AND SOMETHING THAT MIGHT NOT OF BEEN IN THE MEDITATIONS, THEN I ' FELT ' THAT SOMETHING ELSE WAS GOING ON; I MUST OF HEARD IT ( MORE THAN ONCE ) AND DID NOT WANT TO BELIEVE IT.

CATRON WAS FOLLOWED TWO, AND THEY WERE NOT NICE PEOPLE. YOU ONLY ' SEE ' THAT CLEARLY WHEN YOUR LIFE IS IN DANGER. SHE IS PART BLACK, HER HERITAGE. BUT IN NM THE MEXICAN MAFIA, I DON'T KNOW IF THEY EVEN ANSWER TO ' REAL FAMILY.' MY EXPERIENCE IN THE PAST FIVE YEARS AND EVEN BEFORE WITH DEALINGS WITH MY LANDLORD, I WOULD SAY THEY DO NOT.

THEY ARE ABOVE THE WHITE SUPREMACISTS WHEN IT COMES TO DRUG DEALING. IF I HAVE KNOWN ANY ONE, INCLUDING FINEMARK ( USNS ), I DIDN'T KNOW THAT THEY WERE THAT BAD.

A LOT OF WOMEN GOT KILLED, AND FOR WHAT'S WORTH, ( ALL MY TIRES GOT SLICED ) I NEVER GOT A CHANCE TO GET BACK WITH THE STRIKE FORCE, THE MEETING ON TUESDAY, I WAS ' HIT ' HARD, AND IT NEVER STOPED ( FUNNY THING AT CITY HALL/STRIKE FORCE, THE HEAVY LAWYER POINTED AT HIS EYE JUST LIKE THE PRESIT AT JESUS AND MARY DID A FEW DAYS AGO HERE IN EL PASO, TX. ).

THE GANG BANGERS SUPPOSEDLY STOLE THE ' RANGER'S ' GUNS AND I FEEL THAT THEY TOOK MATTERS INTO THEIR OWN HANDS, AND IT NEVER STOPED.

AS FOR PRINCE, I SHOULD NEVER OF TOLD HIM ANYTHING OF CATRON, TO THIS DAY THAT REALLY BOTHERS ME. NEVER TRUST ONE OF THOSE.

I AM NOT TAKING THIS PAPERWORK WITH ME, IT WILL ALL BE DESTROYED. I LOST A WHOLE BOX OF BOOKS AND POSSIBLY BACK-UPS ( CD'S ) INCLUDING THE PHOTO'S THAT I WAS ' LEAD ' TO AND OTHER PERSONAL PROPERTY, AT THE RESCUE MISSION. I KEEP ' HEARING ' IT MIGHT BE ' UPSTAIRS,' FROM THE ETHER.

I HAVE WONDERED IF THAT WHAT WAS MENT BY ' LET'S HAVE A BOOK BURNING ' YEARS AGO IN A MEDITATION; " BART SOMETHING HAPPENED IN EL PASO THAT YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT." MY SISTER'S VOICE. I DIDN'T KNOW THAT MY BROTHER AT THE TIME WAS HOOKED ON COCAIN THAT HE WAS BUYING FROM A FAG.

WHY NOT REPORT THIS TO POLICE? THEY ONLY ANSWERED THE DRUG DEALERS CALLS, AND I FOUND ONE DATE. THERE WERE NO SHOTS FIRED THAT NIGHT, MUCH LESS FROM ME. THEY CAME ONLY TO INTIMIDATE, AT THAT TIME THEY ANSWERED TO, I THINK TWO HOUSES.
 KIM, MC CARTY'S KIM MADE THE CALL. CORNER WHITE HOUSE, LA VETA ST. ' INFORMATION GATHERER.' MY BELIEF, DRUGS. SHE GASPED WHEN THEY WHERE MOVING WHEN HER GRANDCHILD HUGGED ME, SHE WAS TERRIFIED. " MOMMY HE'S A GOOD MAN." I REALLY DON'T KNOW IF YOUR A CUNT OR A BITCH, BUT MYBE YOU LEARNED SOMETHING. HAVE A GOOD LIFE; YOUR DOG DIDN'T FOLLOW ORDERS ( SOMETHING ABOUT ATTACKING MY FACE, THOSE BLACK EYES, I ALMOST SHOT HIM WITH THE SLIGSHOT, THEN FOCUSED, HE PISSED. THANKS. ) VERY WELL, I TRYED EVERY SHELTER, NO ONE WOULD TAKE HIM. I PUT HIM DOWN.
NICE IDEA WITH THE CELL PHONE AND THEN WINDOW, I STARTED TAKING THE BATTERY OUT THEN OR ABOUT THAT TIME. BUT THEN YOU GUYS WERE JUST ONE OF MANY.

NOTHING WAS MIXED TO EXPLODE, I DIDN'T KNOW CELL PHONE AND HOME THEATER SYSTEM WAS BEING USED/INVASION OF PRIVICY BY EX-MILITARY.

GOOD WORK GUYS....HOW WERE THE KIDS? GOOD INTEL ! GOSH, VERY SMART....WE ALL FEEL SAFE.

IF YOU REPORT SEXUAL CHILD ABUSE....., WELL, WHAT CAN I TELL YOU....

SAMPLE OF SOME OF THE CRANK CALLS
I WAS RECEIVING DURING THE ATTACKS.

SAME HERE; CRANK CALLS.

UTILITIES WERE ALWAYS PAID TO GONZALES.
COLOR OF PAPER WAS SAME AS ' RECRUITMENT '
LETTER; COLOR AND WEIGHT AND FONTS.

BAD POLICE ABOUT THE TIME WHEN ALBQ. LOST ALMOST
HALF OF IT'S POLICE FORCE AND I WAS ALMOST RUN
OFF THE ROAD BY ANOTHER VET/COP AFTER WORKING
FOR CARSLE JEWLREY. RIOLIOS NOW I THINK.

' ELECTRONIC,' ' CHIP ' NOT UP TO PAR?

TWO WEEKS WITHOUT ANY SLEEP. PAGE TWO.
MY TIRES, ALL WERE SLICED.

PAGE 3.

THIS IS ' RECRUITMENT ' LETTER, A COPY
BECAUSE THE ORIGINAL HAD god KNOWS
WHAT RUBBED ALL OVER THE SIDES. SAME
COLOR AS RENT SHEETS MAILED.

PAULA'S BATHROOM SINK THAT WAS REPLACED AFTER ?
SHE LATER SAID SHE WAS ' BEING STALKED.' I TOOK
A PIC ' ANYWAY.'

PAGE ONE. THE FOCAL POINT IS THE DATE
THAT I STARTED ON, 14TH AND THE OTHER.

WHAT STARTED ALL OF THIS THEN COMBINED
IN ' VET ' FORCE WAS THE HOME INVASION OF
A GANG BANGER WHO ASKED FOR ME TO CALL
THE POLICE. I SAW ALL THREE PEOPLE WHO
EXITED THE HOUSE.

A GOOD FRIEND WHO PASSED AWAY, MR.
HENRY STREET WHO'S HEART PROBLEMS
STARTED ON 6-6-'06. I DON'T KNOW WHEN HE
HAD THE HEART BYPASS, BUT IT WAS VERY
CLOSE TO THE DATE OF MY FATHER'S THAT
I DID NOT KNOW ABOUT.

FOR WHAT'S WORTH, ALL THE FAGOT INVASIONS
OF PRIVACY, ALL THE ATTACKS, HE WASN'T THE ANTI
CHRIST EITHER. FUCK YOU!

I SHOULD OF LISTENED TO HIM IN THE ETHER,
NOT TO PUT THE IB TAB'S IN THE NEW BOTTLE.
I THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY. HE WAS FROM
ARIZONA AND OLD ARMY AND ALSO SANDIA
LABS. HE NEVER GAVE OUT ONE SECRET, THE
FAGS DID AFTER THE CHINESE.

' CHIP.'

WHAT APPEARED AT CASA VIDA WHEN MY MAC WAS HACKED
AND CERTAIN FILES WERE STOLEN OR WENT MISSING AND
READ. ' BETO,' ARNY VET WHO I WAS INTRODUCED TO BY
MY BROTHER WAS ONE OF MY SUSPECTS ALONG WITH THE
GUY WHO APPEARED BEFORE THEN LEFT AFTER OBAMA'S
EL PASO VISIT.

SORRY, UPSIDE DOWN. PEICE THAT I MADE AT UNM,
I DESTROYED IT. NOTICE THE CHECKERBOARD BACK GROUND
THAT MOST MAC USERS PERFER IN BACK OF THEIR SCREEN
SAVERS AND WALLPAPER.

OLD FRIENDS WHO WERE ALSO CONED BY
THE ' SHITS ' ON THE INTERNET. OLD PHIL
WOULD RUB HIS STOMACH UNTIL I TOLD HIM
THAT THE OLD WOMAN WHO TOLD HIM HE
WAS JEWISH WAS WRONG. THESE TWO ARE
GOOD PEOPLE. VET...WHAT A BITCH.

ALL THOSE YEARS, TEN AT LEAST AND THE
THE SHIT OF EATING ' COME ' THE JEWISH
WAY AND VERY HEAVILY PROMOTED BY
THE ' LUCIFERIANS ' AND QUEERS IN THE
ETHER AND SOUND TECHNOLOGIES.

I STILL NOT REALLY CERTAIN IF THEY ARE
FRIENDS BUT ONE THING THAT I'VE LEARNED
IS THAT MONEY IS THE AMERICAN god.

THESE GUYS WORK HARD. THE TRAIN THING
IN CANADA AND NORTH, ARE A BIT MORE
THAN PEOPLE REALIZE.

ALWAYS BE PREPARED IN HAWAII, ALL
THE TIME. AND FUCK THE ' REBELS ' THERE,
ALL IT'S ABOUT IS DRUGS, AND THE PEOPLE
WHO LEAD THAT MOVEMENT AREN'T EVEN FUCKIN
HAWAIIAN !

I TRYED TO CENSURE A PICTURE OF PAULA H. BUT WAS
UNABLE SO I TRYED TO TAKE A PICTURE OF MY FIRST
IMPRESSION AND THE RV AT THE TIME AND THE RESULT.
IN THE BACKGROUND WAS THE COUCH THAT I HELPED
MOVE; WHILE I WAS WITH HER ( DATING ) SHE SAID A " POLICE OFFICER "
CAME TO HER HOUSE WITH GUN DRAWN, FOR WHATEVER
REASON. SHE WAS VERY FRIGHTENED. I WAS ' LED ' TO THAT
PAGE, ' EXTORTION ' WAS EVERYWHERE IN THE STATIC.

WHERE I WAS PLACED IN A NEIGHBORHOOD FILLED
WITH VERY BAD FAGS AND DRUG DEALERS TRYING
TO TAKE EVERY ROOM FOR THERE SELLS AND ALSO
A HOUSE THAT I HAVE BEEN TOLD ALSO HOUSE
PEDOPHILES.

WHAT A SHOT IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD.

BALL PARK THAT THE ' MASON'S ' HAVE EXCEPTIONAL
SEATING ARRANGEMENTS.

ACROSS THE STREET WHERE ALIVANE TRYED TO
PLACE ME ALONG WITH GUATRIUZ ( VA REP ) ALONG WITH
THE HOUSE I'M IN NOW. D. OCHOA PLACED ME HERE
FROM THE RESCUE MISSION.

AS FAR AS I KNOW THIS WAS NEVER POSTED UNTIL NOW, I WILL REMOVE SOME LAST NAMES, ONE IS A MATTER OF PUBLIC RECORD IN NM COURT. THE REASON IS ON ACCOUNT OF A GOLD NUMBER EIGHT THAT WAS LEFT IN THE EL PAS LIBRARY AND I RETURNED IT TO LOST AND FOUND. TODAY I TRYED TO SEE IF IT WAS STILL THERE AND I GUESS IT WAS CLAIMED BY THE OWNER. THE DAY THAT I FOUND IT THE ONLY PERSON THAT KEPT HIS EYE'S ON IT WAS A PATRON WHO WORE A RED SHIRT, BLOOD OR GAY CULTURE. 

THIS WAS PART OF WHAT WAS GOING ON IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD DURING THIS TIME, I DIDN'T FIND OUT UNTIL LATER.

ON THE POST OF THE NUDE PHOTO'S CONCERNING PAULS H., I FOUND A WAY TO CREATE A BLACK CENSURE BOX TO OBSCURE MOST OF HER.HOWEVER THE PIC. WAS STOLEN.

A MENTAL ( FOOTPRINT ) IMPRINT WAS OVER ALOT OF MY BACK-UPS AND OTHER IDEMS IN MY SEABAG ALONG WITH THAT OF THE PERSON WHO TOOK CARE OF IT BEFORE, HIS SISTER IS A POLICE OFFICER. THE FIRST PERSON WAS ANGIE OF ' A FREINDLY PLACE ' IN HAWAII.

THE NEW ' EFFICIENCY '-12-25-09

EIGHT

The new efficiency, a newer and more improved version, of intervention in the dealing with, and freedom of speech, is the enhanced capability of the government's ( The United States Military Apparatus ) concerning the capturing and quieting of all the ' terrorists ' in the United States of America, the common citizen; those who go against the grain and report child abuse.



I might one day ask this of Patrick  and Kim, a couple of whom I place and hold such admiration for, like that of Mr. John X. Gonzales; theirs, a profession of such high regard in the United States of America, ( as they are all teachers, and, of both the males, ex-Army; retired. Kim's parents, CIA and NASA.-I might also add, that about this time, I was also asked to speak of my knowledge of another Patrick, a couple of friend's thirty-plus kid, about what an assistant district attorney thought were probable reasons for child abuse, and at the bequest of the defense lawyer for Patrick, in fairness. Gee what are the chances?) Of course, I tried and did the right thing, all the while putting up with drug dealers and their benefactors, their landlords, or at the very least, the holders of the title and or mortgage of the house they're tenant's were renting to buy. When David Barry ( Not to confused with the Mayor of Albuquerque, NM and APD , just a ' neighbor,' ' mafia on motorcycles,' Albq. style) screamed from a parking lot that he was going to get even with me, I guess he meant it, or at least, about, eleven people will never be able to talk about it. Gosh, a baby too!

So, Patrick and Dave, how does it feel to be in the same league with black cocaine dealers, and all the glory and family support systems, you people, along with the police who are on the take, along with the never ending ' line,' pardon the pun, of politicians who profit from your hard work, sorry, there I go again, and revenues? Makes your mother's smile and fathers proud, I Bet! I guess when these people's children grow up, they can tell us of the ' TASTE ' of...victory, that must have been instilled in them. And Gosh! Proud of Dad too, as the girlfriends, wives, or what ever this sub-cultures definition of caring spouse is.



Perhaps, the architect, Barton Prince should design a monument for all these like-minded ' suitors ' of likeness, East Indian ( really Iranian ) ' gentleness ' and concern for children, especially the baby girls and dump all the sculptures bearing my signature, and do me this honor and quiet privilege. I no longer care to be in ' the mental whore house,' now that I know of ya all's ' rules,' an open mind really isn't all it's meant to be.

What extraordinary taste and judgement I've had in people, in the past. This is going to be a long post, with the likes of ex-underwater demolition experts and public safety officials, shrinks and various other make believe people of soulless concern for the well being of children nationwide and the globe over. So, there will be more, and yes, I will leave it up to you, you decide whether or not you can discern the difference between truth and, shit! I just can't believe this is true.

CIRCLE-A-SOCIAL ENGINEERING -AND YES CENSURED AGAIN.

In a sense, this isn't even worth writing about because I have been censured so many times by ex-military, Fem-a-Nazis and proponents of child molestation and their offspring, no doubt, who know no other life. What's probably best for myself, is simply to move out of the country and watch the country that I was born in, simply disintegrate from within and dissolve away from without, all brought on by the very people who in the beginning were those, who by way of revolution, yes the American Revolution, to protect us. Perhaps that's the reason, by way of acceptance to the Union as a State, Texas left a clause in their Constitution for ' country hood,' in an uncertain future.

In general,( pardon the pun John Gonzales ), the X generation-children, want Anarchy, so why not give it to them; ceased economy and all that it entails. In the end, cannibalism will suffice for a month or two. Then what? They're a smart bunch, teach them to eat the cheat sheets, that which has always been sacred; why not eat their drugs too and while doing so , figure out how everything works. Of course this might lend a need of knowledge, once found in books. Oops, no electricity. Oh well, Rand's ' Anthem ' never had it so good.( Ha! Inside joke for those who read it. )

I find it incredible that the ' well meaning,' long haired credants and the their oppressors, the short haired credants of the sixties found offspring, now of even less conscience encapsulated in a full knowing of a new slavery, held high to the alters of flat screens everywhere for acceptance of ' faceless peers ' as to what is right or wrong, or perhaps, better put, right and wrong, therefore, right, and not only in ' concept ' alone. The difference between thinking for yourself and the unknowingly ' accepted;' the unseen mouth of ' direction,' lent to many a ear, is simply that, ' reason ' in opposition, to simply following.

How can we possibly know the difference in today's world of millions of bits of information, bits of ' broken ' bites of little one's and zero's; can our minds comprehend this unseen competition between flesh and machine in search of audience. Why might I ask of the necessity to question? Well, did we question the necessity in the fifties ( forties too ), of the ' Mecca Boxes' in every home, where they were pumping out tons of bandwidths of radiation , a nice cross section too, for every child, mother and maid, not to mention babysitter, in ' unison,' as GOOD, but more importantly, quiet consumers. How many forms of abuse, adult or child was reported back then. We as a country were taught to BE and KEEP QUIET. In all definitions of the term brain washed, your brains were imprinted, thus the ' mind ' altered; re patterned: brain washed. Think of Hollywood's accomplice, the government, then ask yourself why, after anything you watch, anywhere you see it, and teach your kids to ask why? Commonality? All energies desired; profit or otherwise, at any cost. Ask soldiers what happens on battlefields and in towns and villages abroad; you shouldn't have to ask school teachers or antique dealers, retired military what happens in classrooms, their homes or their property in the West Mesa in Albuquerque, New Mexico, although, the children learn well...don't they?

BREATH...TO BREATH IN THE FULL EXPENDITURE OF A SINGLE STARS LIFETIME; ONE,...ONE OF COUNTLESS CHILDREN.

THE ' NEW ' EFFICIENCY

The divorce between my parents, in all it's apparent lackluster, was presented to me one night, when my father explained, quiet eloquently, the deceptive and evil nature of women, within a smile; gave me a poster of stars, that said: " you are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and stars' you have a right to be here," (as opposed to, " I raised you as if you were my own," in my junior year in high school. What can I say, I'm a product of racism; he declined a blood test back then.) he then said that he would explain later, told me to go to bed, and I didn't see him again for about three years; all five of us kids, that is. ( this right here is a ' flash back of sorts but in the RV RING then you find yourself answering, if not careful to ' prying eyes '; GRIDWALKERS. the last sentence is not true. ) This took place about the time of the Apollo moon landing ( 1969-70).

UNLIKELY NEIGHBORS, YET SQUABBLING, DISTANTLY

Gee, if IngoSwann could only ' see me now,' or the ' like mindedness ' of a ruling elite's patterning to any checkbook at hand, for any researcher with need to fill his or hers bellies as compromise for ' food for thought,' and any ' misgivings,' a literal concern, not to mention, conscience.

I mention this, only in passing, to further distance any obligation he or his friends, mafia and government employees, at the time, might have in way of responsibility to a handful of children ( I'm sure ), who by way of their talent, or who their parents were, and a good hardy, ' How dare those kids pick on the poor adults! How dare they!.' Government employees and subcontractors, who after all, are only trying to protect the world, and our poor country, from the meanies and then exact enough proper ' guidance ' so that we may know the ' right way' in which to travel then correct direction and destination. Economy.

Imagine my surprise, when I chanced a glimpse of an Artists painting, that Mr. Swann has on his web page; a piece of work with a couple of hooded figures, one of which is extremely reminiscent of a figure who placed a star in my chest a couple of times, years ago as an adult, and even further, a similar figure, when I was a child, more times than I care to remember. A woman wearing a scarf, or the hood of a cloak, a commonality in many cultures and religions, yes, but upon closer examination of the Artist himself, his life and work, which was comprised mostly of large scale sculpture and ' my ' memory of seeing them all before, but as a child in my childhood, as I was growing up, presented me with a problem. I didn't remember, and don't remember viewing this as a child; that is to say, that, I never saw this Artists work in any of the books that I grew up with, at home, at school or at relatives homes. I never saw his work on television either. How is this possible? Where did the memory come from? It took me almost a year to figure out the possibility of mental imagery, mental footprints, if you will, by way of ' exchange ' of data ( perhaps even feelings ), in the subconscious and unconscious mind.

If what I have described is true, and I believe it to be so ( I have no ' wants ' in this regard, or even ' needs, ' just complete understanding ), then what else could it be other than ' conversations ' with ' elders.' How can this be possible? Again, I suppose it would depend on who you are and how your brain is ' hard wired.'

To be so engrossed in a project or game as a kid, with other kids, to the point that nothing else lends interest at the time, is common for most children with inquisitive minds. Objectives within the game, and of the ' game ' might ' jump out,' the next day at play. The ' melding of minds ' is common during this age. ' Wow! I just thought of that! ' ' Me too! ' The children said, at play.

A group of children is always at an ends with it's self, as are adults within a grouping of the same size and under the no different life pressures. In a sense, the bosses are our parent figures who demand of us to ' perform,' and if we do well, we are then ' payed.' Both, are examples of ' a peaking order,' until an outsider is introduced or intercedes. And to what end, malice not withstanding; who we prosper, are our elite and possible ' idols.' Example: Michale Jackson, and the late singers ' relationship ' with his fans, despite all his troubles with children, media and his family.

THE BIG BANG MACHINE-YOUR HEAD

More to come.

WELL THERE IT IS, I SPOKE TO MR. STEVE LAWLESS ABOUT THE THREAT PATRICK DID WITH HIS HAND IN THE SHAPE OF A GUN AND POSTED IT AND REST IS HISTORY, I AM GOING TO TRY TO POST ALL THE ITEMS THAT HAVE BEEN MESSED WITH AND STOLEN.

WHEN I SAW THE STEP SON AT SMITH'S

 AND WHAT HE SAID, OR DIDN'T SAY. THE

GUY WITH HIM WAS ABOUT FIVE-FIVE TO

FIVE SIX, ALMOST WHITE HAIR, A LITTLE
LONG, MIRROR SUN GLASSES, WHITE SHIRT'
BLUE JEANS, AND TENNIS SHOES. THE
KID THEN SEVEN WAS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE

WITH THIS MAN. IT WAS ALREADY REPORTED.

ONE OF THE HEAVENLY BODIES THAT INTERACTED
WITH EARTH, ' THE G_DS ,' AND THE ICE THAT BE
ARE PART OF; THIS ABOUT THE TIME OF THE
QUESTION " WHO ARE THE ALIENS? " " MY ANSWER
" WE ARE." I PROBABLY SHOULD OF STATED THAT WE
ARE OUR ANCESTORS AND DESCENDANTS.

PAULA'S CATS WHEN I HAVE WATCHED THE HOUSE.
PAULA HUGHSON IS MIDDLE EASTERN AND AN AMERICAN
CITIZEN, AND YES AT TIMES A BITCH, AS ALL WOMEN CAN
BE.

MUSE OR RUSE II

THE SHADOW RAPE

I THOUGHT ' CHEERS ' AND A MAIN CHARACTER IN THE SERIES. A COMMON NAME.
I THOUGHT ' ADAM'S FAMILY ' AND WHAT WAS UNDER THE STAIRS.
I THOUGHT ' SOUTH PARK ' AND A SOMEWHAT ' REPETITIVE ' CHARACTER.
I THOUGHT ' THE FOUNTAIN HEAD ' ANN RAND AND SEVERAL ASPECTS MOST IMPORTANTLY ' COMMITTEES.'

THIS IS PART OF WHAT WAS ABOVE AND IN ' THE EVENT.'

LUCID DREAM/NIGHTMARE - SHADOW THING ON TOP OF ME/ I COULD NOT MOVE MY LEGS; MY ARMS, ALMOST USELESS, WOKE UP ON MY BACK, THIS ' THING ' ON TOP OF ME. I HAD TO USE ONE ARM TO GET OFF THE BED TO THE FLOOR. IT STOPED.

THE DREAM/NIGHTMARE

I FOUND MYSELF IN A DARK HALLWAY, A LARGE MAN/ MONSTER WAS CHASING ME; I SEEMED A LITTLE SHORTER AND WEAKER.

I RAN DOWN THE HALL STOPPING AND KNOCKING RAPIDLY AND LOUDLY ON THE DOORS. I WASN'T WEARING A SHIRT. MY ' SCARS ' ON MY HANDS AND ARMS, WERE NOT THERE. I RAN TO THE NEXT DOOR IT WAS OPEN AS WAS THE OTHER ONE FURTHER DOWN THE HALL. LAUGHING. MEN'S VOICES. I RAN DOWN THE HALL. A CURTAIN ON ONE DOORWAY CLOSE TO THE END OF THE HALL TO THE RIGHT THE BATHROOM ( NOW ) FACED THE END OF THE HALL???! NO EXIT.? MEN'S VOICES AND SOUNDS OF? PAIN?

THE MONSTER IN THE BACK OF ME, SOMETHING ELSE ATOP ME, ABOVE MY HEAD, AROUND ME, LAUGHING. SILENT THE FAMILIAR VOICE NOT QUITE RECOGNIZED.

I RAN AROUND THE MAZE, DOORS TO MY RIGHT ALL OPENED AS I RAN FROM THE BATHROOM; ALL THAT RUNNING WATER, EXTREMLY WET, HUMID AND HOT IN ABSOLUTE TERROR CLINGING TO ' REASON.'

RED LIGHT BULBS SHOWN IN THE DARKNESS FROM ROOMS WITH ONLY MEN, DARK FACES LAUGHING IN GLEEFUL HORID ANGERED ' SILENCED ' SCREAM MIRRORED THEIR HUNGERED BLOOD LUST. ANOTHER CURTAIN AS I RAN UP THE HALL AGAIN, TO MY LEFT AGAIN THE RED LIGHTED ROOMS????NO, TO MY LEFT WAS A HOT WALL AND THAT ' VOICE ' ABOVE ME. A WALL! THE WAY OUT WAS AT THE END OF THE HALL, NO! THE BATHROOM WAS AT THE END OF THE HALL, NO! I TURNED AGAIN, KEPT MY ' CALM ' AND RAN AGAIN,

THE DARKNESS, I WAS SCREAMING BUT COULD NOT HEAR MY VOICE, WAS I SCREAMING? THE NEAR FACE, THAT SMILE, ' TEETH,' SMILLING..." THIS IS WHO YOU ARE." THE VOICE SAID, THAT DARK ' PRINCE.' " I'M OVER HERE." IT SAID , I RAN THE OTHER WAY, LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT. I TURNED THE CORNER AGAIN!!! ' HELP! A SENSE OF FRANTIC....

NANO SECOND BETWEEN ABOVE BLENDED WITH BELOW

DEFUSED BLACK/WHITE, DID NOT KNOW ' MONOTONE,' YET - PART OF ME - OUTSIDE/THEN IN DUMPSTER.

PULLED - FELT - APART.

THIS WAS YEARS AGO, BEFORE I BOUGHT MY 38. WHICH WAS LEFT AT ALBQ. EVIDENCE BUILDING BECAUSE I WAS BEING FOLLOWED BY GUYS ON MOTORCYCLES. I THEN BOUGHT THE GLOCK. THE ' SHADOW RAPE ' WAS ME. ABOUT A YEAR BEFORE WAS ' WHO EVER' THAT POOR SOUL WAS.

THE ' HELP ' JUST ABOVE, THE REMINISCE OF ' !!JESUS!! ' WHEN I WOKE UP ALL THOSE YEARS BACK, THE DAMPNESS OF THE SHEETS, AND INDIFFERENCE AND WHILE URINATING THE REMINISCE OF NOT BEING ABLE TO HELP A ' PERSON ' IN A PLACE THAT I COULD NEVER FIND AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING THERE? GIRL? SMALL MAN? FAG? WHY ASK ME?

THE PRESENT, WHERE I LIVE NOW, THE FIRST DAY I SAW THE PLACE, BROUGHT BACK A MEMORY OF THE DREAM. IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT ' SOMEHOW,' I ' TRAVELLED ' HERE, WITHOUT EVER LEAVING MY BED. I'LL NEVER FORGET IT. I SAT IN THE LIVING ROOM FOR A LONG TIME, WONDERING WHERE I WAS IN THE DREAM, IN THE DARK.

THIS DREAM WAS IN BETWEEN STEEL SCULPTURE ABSTRACT BIRDS I BUILT BASED ON INDIAN DRAWINGS AND THE TWO DINOSAURS THAT I BUILT.

DURING THIS TIME THE ' FOREIGN ' IDEAS OF SUICIDE KEPT HOUNDING ME AND I TOLD BARTON PRINCE OF THESE ' ATTACKS ' AND ALL HE MENTIONED WAS " IT'S ALL IN YOU'RE HEAD." AND THAT SMIRK WHILE LOOKING TWO HIS TOWER OF ROCK, THEN THE DIRECTION OF MY NEIGHBORHOOD JUST TO THE LEFT; WE WERE STANDING IN FRONT OF HIS HOUSE.

JOHN GONZALESS-NATIONAL GUARD-COMMUNICATIONS.
BARTON PRINCE-AT LEAST TWENTY YEARS BETTER THEN TEN FOOT RADIO DISH-FROM ALL AROUND THE WORLD-SHORTWAVE-OLD HOUSE/RANCH-WHEN HAD POLIO OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT; FAMILY MEMBER.

I HAD NEVER BEEN THERE.






THE COLLAGE WAS ACCEPTED AT THE
EL PASO CITY LIBRARY/CITY HERATAGE
 READING SECTION, I BELIEVE.





LEFT OF EYE 707/8. I HAD NO IDEA THIS
WAS THERE. ( THIS IS HIGH SCHOOL )

 

ANOTHER VIEW. 1909 -303. I PLAYED WITH NASA'S TOY
ONLY ONCE THE POOR THING GOT STUCK IN THE SAND.

' SHE ' DIDN'T PULL THE ROPE TOO HARD, I IMAGINED.
THE WINGS HELPED.

2006-2007 I WAS TRYING TO REMEMBER WHEN MY GRANDFATHER
OCHOA WAS BORN...I HAD COMPANY.

THE OTHER TWO YOU JUST ' WHISTLE.'


 

E-6 AND STAR ?
 

THIS IS IN A CORNOR WHERE THE BED USED
TO BE; IT WAS UNDER BLOOD AND VILE THAT
I CLEANED UP. I HAD TO CLEAN UP THE ENTIRE
ROOM. THE ' WISPERS ' CLEAN THAT UP,
NEVER OCCURED TO ME TO BE OTHER THAN
IDOTS, OF COURSE I WOULD CLEAN THE
FLOORS.

THE SYMBOL WAS ON THE SCULPUTRE ' THE
PROTECTION OF PRUDENCE BY CONSCIENCE,'
THE SCULPTURE'S BASE.

                                                  

ANOTHER, THIS ONE INTERESTING, E-6 OR ' 86,' OTHER
ODDITIES, I GUESS.

 

 

 

 

 

                









MUSE OR RUSE

MUSE OR RUSE ?

ON THE NIGHT OF THE 21RST OF THIS MONTH I LISTENED TO COAST TO COAST HOSTED BY GEORGE NOREY CONCERNING THE POWER GRID AND TRANSFORMERS.

I CHECKED IN A COUPLE OF TIMES AND DURING THE SECOND TIME ( EVEN BEFORE ) I WAS RAPIDLY DRUMMING MY PENCIL ONLY TO HEAR ' HIT, HIT AFTER , HIT.' I THEN REALIZED THAT I WAS IN A ' POWER INFORMATION HUB ( AT THE TIME ).' MEANING THAT THIS WAS EIGHT YEARS AGO, THIS A CERTAINTY. I TURNED OFF THE RADIO.

I USED THE ' ROOM ' AFTERWARDS, THAT I'M IN, FOR A SOUNDBOARD AND SCRIBBLED DOWN THE ' DEEPEST ' OF MY MEDITATION THAT THIS PROGRAM ' ALIGNED ' ME WITH. IMAGINE CARRYING ON SEPARATE CONVERSATIONS, SOME JUST LISTENING, OTHERS JUST VISUAL, SOME I PARTICIPATED ( WITHOUT MUCH CONTROL AND FORETHOUGHT ) IN, OTHERS I WAS ' TUNED OUT,' THE TOTALITY OF WHICH SOMETIMES SEEMED TO EXCEED, WELL I LOST FOCUS AND COUNT AFTER ABOUT TWENTY SIX TO THIRTY SOMETHING.....SOME CONVERSATIONS WHERE IN THE FUTURE, THEN. ' YOU'RE TALKIG TO YOU'RE SELF.' SEVEN EIGHT YEARS AGO, BUT ' BACKWARDS ALSO.

THE SCRIBBLINGS

LOS ALAMOS, ALBQ. AND BOSKE FIRES, THE RED MOON ( THEN ) AND THE HOLLYWOOD MURDERS ( I ONCE KNEW THE MANAGER OF HOLLYWOOD VIDEOS ) AND THAT STORES STRANGE OCCURRENCES OF THE FRONT DOOR OPENING UP ON ITS OWN, ALMOST ALL THE WAY, BY ITS SELF, AND WHEN I ACTUALLY WITNESSED IT BY MYSELF AND THE ' HIGH PITCHED,' ALMOST BEYOND SOUND, ' THE SQUIRREL CAGE ' THAT I HAVE TYRED TO EXPLAIN BEFORE....THIS THE FIRST TIME; ALL OF THIS BEFORE ' THE SNEAK.'* PEOPLE AROUND DAVE BARRY'S HOUSE IMITATING THE ' SNEAK.'

DURING THESE NIGHTS AFTER, " NO THAT'S JUST A PSYCH-OUT," " THIS IS MILITARY/THOSE ARE SOLDIERS!" BOTH OF THOSE WERE AT THE SAME TIME; OVERLAYED. THIS I HEARD IN MY HEAD AND MAYBE OUTSIDE THE WALLS OF MY HOUSE, I CHECKED ONCE, NO ONE THERE. THE PI HOLES OF INTENSE LIGHT/NANO SECOND IN LENGTH. VIOLATION ! ABOUT YEAR LATER THE OBVIOUS LASERS AND FLASHINGS.*

ABOUT THREE MONTHS AGO ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WINDOW WHICH IS A STORAGE AREA NEXT TO MY ROOM A RED LASER ( I THOUGHT ) OR CELL PHONE VIDEO RED LIGHT* ( ? ) AT THE LOCATION ON MY SIDE, ON A MAP OF THE EASTERN SEA BOARD, CAPE MAY. ABOUT 12:00 OR 1:00, I DID NOT SEE WHERE THE LASER TERMINATED. I LOOKED BEHIND ME, NOTHING.

I LET MANAGEMENT KNOW, YET ONE WEEK AFTER THIS, THE FIRES AT THE JERSEY SEABOARD.

I AM LOOKING FOR THE ' TIME STAMP.'

WHEN THE WEIRD THUNDERSTORMS WERE OCCURRING AND THE TELEPHONE POLE AND TRANSFORMERS WERE BEING HIT BY LIGHTING AROUND MY HOUSE IN CLOSE PROXIMITY, AND THE ' APPRARITION ' IN THE CLOUDS POINTING NORTH, A FEMALE, ABOVE MY HOUSE AND LENT'S, HAVE ALWAYS BOTHERED ME AND FROM TIME TO TIME I HAVE WONDERED IF THE HEAVENS OPERATED IN SEQUENCED LAYERING'S TOO IN RELATION TO UNDERSTANDINGS OF A ' NEW APPROPRIATION OF THE IDEA OF CONSTANT TIME; EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME ( MUCH LIKE THE IDEA OF A QUANTUM COMPUTATION BEFORE THE RESULTING RESULT;FIGURE OR SYMBOL DEPENDING ON RACE OR SPECIES DEPENDANT ON FORETHOUGHT ( ? ) ).

FOR WHAT EVER REASON THE ' ANGLE ' HAS ALWAYS BOTHERED ME AS TO THE PLANES OF EXISTENCE AND THE COMPLEXITY OF HUMAN THOUGHT AND EMOTIONS IN CONCERN WITH ' TIME ' AND ' ALL ' PEOPLE.

THE EXTREME ' BACKGROUND ' OF THE RV ( MEDITATION, I DO NOT KNOW IF IT WAS MONOTONE ) WAS:

LIKE A RUNNING REEL OF REAL LIFE

VERY DARK - AND A VERY LARGE BLACK MASS MOVING FROM THE RIGHT TO THE LEFT ( THERE WAS NO ' FRAME,' NO EDGE OR HORIZON )

THE MASS SEEMED - FEEL - ' SUCKED YOU IN ' - NO SOUND AT ALL - FEELING WAS NO SOUND - ABSORPTION - NEAR COMPLETE

LARGE LIKE A SHIP - AIRCRAFT - CRUSE SHIP ( ? ) - LARGER

NO RUNNING LIGHTS

VERY CERTAIN -  FUTURE ( BACK THEN ) - THIS WAS WITHIN THE YEAR I TOLD ' JORDON ( NEIGHBOR ) ' WITH STICK IN HAND AND DREW THE ' BUG ZAPPER,' THE MACHINE THAT VAPORIZED THE DEAD BODIES TO ASH IN THE DIRT OF MY FRONT YARD ON ALICE STREET, TRYING TO REMEMBER WHEN I FIRST HAD THE REOCCURRING DREAM. THE DREAM,IN WHICH THE THIRD TIME I LOOKED INTO THE MIRROR AND SAW THE SURPRISE ON ' MY ' FACE THAT I WAS BLACK.

( IN MY BED I WAS FACING WEST - MOST OF THE TIME.)

THE FACE WAS NAVY YARD SHOOTER.....I RECOGNIZED HIM, ' ME.'

( DURING THIS TIME MY BED WAS FACING SOUTH )

THE NURSE THAT I MET AT HOLLYWOOD VIDEO SAID THAT ONLY TWO OF THESE MACHINES WERE IN THE UNITED STATES; SHE SURVIVED A HORRIBLE AUTO ACCIDENT IN HOUSTON, TX. HER UNCLE WAS HUBBLE WITH NASA.

WE WERE FOLLOWED OUTSIDE WALMART, WHITE TRUCKS AND VANS EVERYWHERE AND SHE SAID THAT SHE MADE THE WHOLE THING UP, SHE WAS VERY SCARED.

SHE WAS NUMBER ONE OR TWO IN THE NATION WITH VASCULAR SURGERY IF MEMORY SERVES, BEFORE HER ACCIDENT.

THE NEED FOR THE MACHINE, OF COURSE IS AFTER A CATASTROPHE THE BODIES WOULD HAVE TO BE ' HUMANLY ' REMOVED TO PREVENT THE SPREAD OF DISEASE.

WHAT MAKES THIS IMPORTANT, FOR ME PERSONALLY IS THE PERSON WHO SAID THAT ' SHE HAD AN ACCIDENT AND THAT IT WASN'T MY FAULT,' ( I HAVE DATE ), I RECENTLY WANTED TO SEE AND HEAR WHAT A HOLOCAUST SURVIVOR WANTED TO LECTURE AT A CHURCH HERE IN EL PASO AND I FOUND OUT A WEEK OR SO AGO THAT THE OLD GENTLEWOMAN HAD AN AUTO ACCIDENT.

THE OCCURRENCES OF THE MANY, TOO NUMEROUS TO MENTION, ALL THE COINCIDENCES THAT HAVE HAPPENED IN MY LIFE AND ' RV SESSIONS ' AND THE CONTINUED INTEREST WHICH BORDERS ON ' POSSESSION ' OF RELIGIOUS AND ' SOCIAL AND SEXUAL BELIEF SYSTEMS ' THAT ALSO INCLUDE THE INSANITY OF THINGS AND EVENTS THAT I'VE NEVER DONE, WISHED OR VIEWED; ' THESE EXPERIENCES.'

ALL IN CONVINCING STANCE ( SOMETIMES FOR TENS OF HOURS ) THAT ' THEIR ' WAY OF LIFE IS THE ' GOLDEN PATH.' SOME OF THESE ARE EVEN ' TORTURES ' AND JUST BEYOND ANYTHING THAT WAS ONCE ' TERMED RAPE ' UN TILL THE VICTIMS DYED; OFTEN WOMEN.

THE EVENT

I STILL BELIEVE THAT THE EVENT IS A COMBINATION OF MANY AND THAT THE PRIMARY ' TRIGGER ' WILL BE A MISTAKE, AN ORDER NOT FOLLOWED ( U-2 SHOT DOWN IN RUSSIA, 19 YEAR OLD RUSSIAN ) OR ' MISUNDERSTANDING.'

I HATE THIS SON OF A BITCH MORE THAN YOU KNOW, HOWEVER I DO THINK THAT PRESIDENT CLINTON'S COMMENTS REGARDING THE UNITED STATES ' TURNING THE CHEEK ' MIGHT BE WELL REMEMBERED IF A NATURAL WORLD CATASTROPHE OCCURS, EVEN IF IT IS ON US SOIL, AND AN AGGRESSION IS MADE FOREIGN OR DOMESTIC; THE DOMESTIC IS VERY LIKELY TO BE PATTERNED AFTER LUNAR AND EARTH LONGITUDE AND LATITUDE DIMENSIONS AND NOT NECESSARILY FOREIGN IN THE ' SHORT VIEW.'

THE FUTURES IDEA OF ' EXPRESSIONED AND LIFE AS VALUE IN LIBERTY ' WILL BE AT STAKE IN A WORLD THAT STILL HOLDS THE IDEA OF WHAT WE SHOULD BE  AND WHO WE ARE IN A TIME OF WELCOMED NEED.

BELOW ARE MORE PICTURES TAKEN FROM A PHONE THAT I BOUGHT IN HAWAII THAT WAS HACKED AS SOON AS I BOUGHT IT. IT IS MY ONLY CAMERA NOW AND SORRY FOR THE QUALITY. I HAVE NO SERVICE FOR IT AND ONLY KEEP IT FOR A CAMERA, AND I HAVE FOUND THAT IN THE ' BOARDING HOUSE ' THOUGH NOW MONTH TO MONTH, I CAN NOT GIVE THE ADDRESS.

MY E MAIL HAS ALWAYS BEEN PRUDENTSONG@GMAIL.COM ( SMALL CASE - AND AS I KNOW SOME PEOPLE HAVE SWORN THAT THEY HAVE E-MAILED ME ) AND YES IT HAS BEEN MESSED WITH IN THE PAST OR CLONED ( SUGGESTED BY ON TECH IN AUSTIN ); I WOULD LIKE TO BELIEVE THAT PRIOR US MILITARY OR ACTIVE, IS AND HAVE NOT BEEN INVOLVED AS FACEBOOK HAS, BUT I AM UNCERTAIN.

PLEASE KEEP IN MIND THAT I WILL NEVER GIVE MONEY KNOWINGLY TO A PEDOPHILE, EVER.I WAS SIMPLY OUTSMARTED, AND ACCEPT THAT.

I HATE THE MILITARY AND ALSO RESPECT OUR MILITARY IN THE POSITIVE SENSE; EVERY MAJOR GANG HAS BEEN CREATED BY PRIOR SERVICE PEOPLES. I HAVE HEARD ALL THE REASONS FOR THE HATE TOWARDS AN UNCARING GOVERNMENT THAT SUPPORTS ONLY ' RANK ' AND IN MY OPINION KILLS EVERYONE ELSE.

BUT ' THEY ' WEAR YOU DOWN, AND DEALING WITH SEXUAL DEVIANTS ( REAL WORLD BEYOND S&M FOOLS AND VERY REAL PEDOPHILES ) IS NOT MY IDEA OF FUN.

THE PHOTO BELOW I FOUND AND TRYED TO UNDERSTAND HOW IT REMINDED ME OF INGO SWANN, THE OTHER ' SYBOLES ' IN THE HAIR ARE IN THE ' CRRENT ' AND I REMEMBER AS I WAS DRAWNING IT, A GRUMBLE FROM MY FATHER, SOMEWHAT LIKE MERCY BROKE THE TRANCE. IT WAS AROUND 3:00 AT NIGHT I THINK, AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHY IT DIDN'T LOOK LIKE HEMINGWAY; A VAUGE ' THIS IS YOU.' SOUNDED FROM god ONLY KNOW'S WHERE.

THE EL PASO HIGH SCHOOL CREATIVE ARTS MAG. LIKED IT I GUESS AND THIS IS WHERE IT WAS PUBLISHED.

THE PHOTO IN THE GOLDEN STANDARD OF INGO SWANN ON A BOAT WITH A FULL BEARD AND THE WATER BEHIND HIM STARTED THE SEARCH ( ABOUT THREE HOURS AT THE ALICE ADDRESS ), TO THIS DAY I ONLY UNDERSTAND THAT ALL THE PEOPLE HE TAUGHT PROBABLY HAVE OR HAD THE ' PERSONA ' OF SWANN IN THE INTELLIGENCE FIELDS FROM TRAINING. MR. PAUL PRICE AND SWANN MIGHT AS WELL OF BEEN ' REAL ' BROTHERS, PRICE WOULD LOOK AT THE PICTURE OF THE NEW YORK BALLERINA WITH TEARS IN HIS EYES IN WONDERMENT AS TO WHY HE DID NOT ACCEPT MARRIAGE.

PAUL PRICE BOUGHT THE ' THE DYING SWANN,' A PEN AND INK AND WATER COLOR TAKEN FROM A POSTER THAT MY FATHER HAD GIVEN ME.

HE ALSO BOUGHT THE WOODEN CHRIST WITH THE DOVE DEEP IN THE EYE WELL. MY FATHER ASKED ABOUT IT AND I SHOWED HIM THE DOVE, ALL IT NEEDED WAS THE BARBED WIRE. I WISH THAT HE BOUGHT IT, I NEEDED GAS MONEY TO LEAVE EL PASO THAT VISIT ( FIVE, SIX STATE TOUR BEFORE RETURNING TO NM ).

MR. PAUL PRICE NEVER TRYED TO ' POSSESS ' YOU; HE WAS WHAT HE WAS. IBM/MILITARY COMPUTER TECH.

THE TOP OF THE HAIR, IF TURNED UP-SIDE
DOWN AND VEIWED FRON THE TOP AT AN
ANGLE, FUCKED WITH MY WORLD, 1909.

THIS IS THE ' SUPPOSED TO BE HEMINGWAY '
THAT WASN'T, IT TURNED OUT ALL WRONG AS
IF IMPOLDING FROM WITHIN AND I'M A DAMN
GOOD ARTIST, EVEN ACCUSED OF ZERROXING
DRAWINGS IN GRADE SCHOOL. OTHER SYMBOLS
ON A PEN AND INK DRAWING OF MY FATHER
ARE SUTLE LIGHTNESSES OF SYMBOLS ON ' MY
MOTHER'S EYE.'

THE EYE OF ISES WAS CHIPED OF A HUGE CRYSTAL
BOULDER IN AUSTIN, TX. WHILE AT WORK DIGGING
ON A POOL JOB. AFTER THE ' GROWEL ' OR WHAT EVER
THAT WAS ( EVERY ONE HEARD IT - LION ? ) THEN
THE LIGHT. WE WERE SENT HOME. " WAS THAT
YOU? " RYAN ASKED, NOT THE MDT MANAGER.
" NO." I SAID.
DURING THE SOUND AND IMEDIATLY AFTERWARDS
I WAS IN THE PROCESS OF SAYING " I'M SORRY." TO
THE EARTH. I DON'T KNOW WHY, BUT IT SEEMED THE
RIGHT THING TO DO.

THERE IS LIFE THERE AND NO ONE SHOULD KNOW OF IT....
REMEMBER I SAID THAT.

 

THE RV ( YEARS BACK - MY SISTER ) AND A FEW DAYS AGO.
THE BLUE MARBLE ( BIG BLUE MARBLE, WE ALL WATCHED )
LIT UP BIGHT,WHITE LIGHT AND MOVED FORWARD ABOUT
AN INCH. SARED THE HELL OUT OF ME OR AWE
I COULDN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT.

I MOVED THE DESK. NO WAY, I SHOOK THE DESK, NO PAPER
TO PUSH IT.........IT JUST MOVED.

I DID NOT DO THAT.

I REMEMBER READING, RE-READING THE PAPER THAT I
WRAPPED AROUND ' MY MOTHERS EYE ' A WARNING OF
CLEANING UP THE EARTH AND NOT ATTEMPING TO REACH
THE NEW WATER PLANETS ' IN ANY WAY,' INCLUDING ' IMPRINTING
IT, THEM WITH THE NEW DEVELOPING LIGHT TECHNOLOGIES STILL
IN DEVELOPMENT, ' ENCOUNTERING THAT WHICH CAN NOT BE
DESCRIBED,' AND THE ' UNDERSTANDING ' THAT WE DON'T TAKE
CARE OF THAT WHICH WE ' BORROW;' LIFE ' OF.'

I HAVE RELUCTANTLY DONE WHAT I'VE BEEN TOLD - OBE - IN PICTURES.

THE LAGUAGES AND SYMBOLS WERE ALL THAT WERE LEFT,
SOMETHING HAPPENED ABOUT FIFTY YEARS AGO.

I GUESS I'LL TAKE A PIC. OF IT AND POST IT, I WON'T
BE IN EL PASO LONG AND I KNOW THIS SOUNDS FOOLISH
BUT THAT SKY MORFING INTO ? BEFORE THE NEAR FACE
WAS REAL, AND GETS REALER EVERY DAY.

FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, IN MY OPPION, ALL PRESIDENTS ARE WHORES
TO THE MOB, THE PEOPLE AND OBAMA WHO I DID NOT VOTE FOR
IS DOING ALL HE CAN AND JUST ABOUT THE SAME THING THAT
ANY OTHER PRESIDENT WOULD DO IN CURRENT SIT - NO ONE WANTS
THE NEXT WAR.

 

I WAS LOST ONCE ( MORE THAN ONCE ) AND A VERY
TALL MAN TOKE ME FROM THE CANALS IN DOWNTOWN
AUSTIN AND FOUND MY PARENTS. HE WAS ALMOST A HEAD
TALLER THAN MY FATHER, AND A FULL BEARD, MEDIUM
LENGTH OF HAIR AND DARK. HIS SKIN WAS LIGHT. 5TH, 6TH
OR 7TH STREET. I'VE BEEN ALL OVER THOSE STREETS, THE
POLICE END SEEMS RIGHT.

LETS JUST SAY I SAW THE MOVIE, AND REPLAYED THAT
SCENE OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

A MAN KILLED ' THIS GOLDEN....' I DON'T KNOW WHY.

 

MY UNDERSTANDING IS THAT THE EL PASO
CITY LIBRARY WILL ACCEPT THIS ' STAND '
AGGAINST CHILD ABUSE, A LEADING CAUSE
OF HOMELESSNESS AND I AM GRATEFULL.
THIS IS THE LAST ONE.

ONE EXAMPLE OF PEOPLE WHO I HAVE MET, THROWN
ON THE STREETS ABOUT THE AGE OF SEVEN OR EIGHT AFTER
BEING ' BRANDED ' WITH A IRON BY HIS MOTHER, FOR
PLAYING WITH HIS SISTER IN ' IMITATION ' OF WHAT
HER ' FRIENDS ' AND HER WERE SEEN TO DO ALMOST
ALWAYS IN A HOUSE WITH THIN WALLS AND CURTAINS
FOR DOORS; CRACK ALLEYS.

WHEN HE TOLD THE STORY IN TEARS TO AN INDIFFERENT
LISTENING EAR, I SUPPOSE HE THOUGHT THAT I FORGOT.
HE IS A FELON, IT DOES NOT MATTER WHAT RACE HE IS
BECAUSE TEXAS HAS SO MANY LIKE STORIES WITH-IN
THE PRIDE OF THE GREAT WHITE RACE.

AND THEY THROW THE YOUNG TO THE ANIMALS IN
THE DRUG AND SEX SLAVE TRADE WITH PRIDE.

HAVE YOU EVER HEARD A CHILD ASK IF
" DO YOU WANT TO BE A MASON?"

GO TO THE STREETS IN AUSTIN TEXAS AND IF YOU CAN
PEEL THEM OFF THE OLD MEN'S LAPS INSIDE CARS
WILL IT MAKE YOU PROUD?

THE CHURCHES HAVE HAD THE SAME PROBLEM IN
TEXAS TOO.

IT'S NOT JUST MIGRANT WORKERS WHO ' HOP TRAINS '
WITH THE GANG BANGERS.

 

AI AND THE CHURCH

WERE ALL OF DA VI CHI'S PLANES FOR THE
ROBOT REALLY DESTROYED.

WHAT ONCE WAS RED NEXT TO BROWN.
FOUR CARDINALS.

 

 

 

 

SUNDAY - EL PASO TIMES - SHELTERS

AFTER READING YESTERDAY'S HEADLINES AND A SIMPLE UNDERSTANDING OF THE PROBLEMS THAT TEXAS IN GENERAL IS FACING WITH ALL THE CHILDREN COMING OVER FROM MEXICO AND CENTRAL AMERICA AND THE DIFFERENCES IMPOSED ON THEM AS ' BOTH CATTLE,' AND THE BILLBOARDS IN AUSTIN'S CITY BUSES IN 2010 STATING THE REAL PROBLEM OF CHILD ABUSE IN TEXAS, I CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER WHY MORE SHELTERS ARE NOT BUILT FOR THEM INSTEAD OF HOUSING THE ' AFTER MATH ' IN SUB STANDARD BUILDINGS WITH NO ' GUIDANCE ' OR REAL HELP AT THE END OF THEIR LIVES?

I HAVE SEEN THE WORST OF THE WORST AND THEY HAVE NO PLACE TO GO, BUT ROT.

I HAVE SEEN THE WORST OF THE WORST WHO HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT AND THEY HAVE NO PLACE TO GO, BUT ROT.

I HAVE KNOWN THE WORST OF THE WORST, WHO IN THE END WERE ' INNOCENT ' BECAUSE THEY DEFENDED THEMSELVES, AND TOOK THERE OWN LIVES.

AND THE JUDGES AND PRIESTS, MEN WHO WEAR DRESSES AND WHO THEMSELVES HAVE CORRUPTED THEM, SOME IN THE FIRST PERSON, OTHERS FURTHER AND ' DAMNED THEM.' FACE DOWN TO THE EARTH, I SAY THERE IS ' SKY ' BENEATH THEM.

YOU WONDER WHY YOUR COUNTRY IS FALLING ?

SPELL CHECK OUT AGAIN, SOMEBODY ALWAYS WORKING AGAINST ME.

IN A WOMAN'S MAGAZINE

SAME WOMAN'S MAGAZINE OPPOSITE
PAGE, EXACT SAME SPOT. DURING WW II
HITLER GAVE AWAY THOUSANDS OF ' FREE '
RADIO'S TO THE PUBLIC SO THAT THEY
COULD ' TUNE  IN ' AND HEAR THE MESSAGE
OF THE THIRD REICH. THERE WERE SO
MANY OTHER EXAMPLES OF THIS USE OF
' SUTLE ' SUGGESTIVE THOUGHTS THAT
THEY NOT ONLY ENDORSED WHAT I HAVE
WRITTEN ABOUT BUT ALSO GAVE ME
IDEAS AS TO HOW TO BETTER MAKE SOME
OF MY ART WORK.

ONE DAY I MIGHT COMMENT ON THIS PIC. OF JESUS
AND MARY CHATOLIC CHURCH. ONE OF MY CHILDHOOD.

THIS TAKEN AFTER BREAKFAST AT THE REASCUE MISSION.
IF ONE TAKES A BETTER LOOK FROM THE TOP OF THE BIRD
ONE MIGHT FIND THE ' PLEADING FIGURE ' AS IF TO THE
HEAVENS.

I HAVE NO FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND THESE FROM CHILDHOOD'S MEMORY AND WHY ?

' UNKNOWN ' AND I HAVE NO FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND DID NOT ATTEND PURDUE UNIVERSITY. THE BUTTERFLY IN ' UNTITED IS IN REPLACEMENT OF THE WHITE DOVE/PIGON THAT LANED ON TPRESIDENT CASTRO'S SHOULDER WHEN HE WAS STILL A REVOLUTIONARY LEADER BEFORE THE COMPLETE TAKOVER OF CUBA.

SPELL CHECK IS OUT AGAIN.

 

NOTE THE MOUNTAINS, AS IF IN AWE OR ' A SOUNDING.'

 

 

 

I REMEMBER THIS AS A KID, MOST OF THESE
IMAGES. WHEN I STOOD BACK AND SQUINTED
MY EYES ?

 

 

DETAIL OF ' TALK IS CHIC.' I WOULD VERY MUCH
LIKE TO FINISH THIS PIECE AND WILL BE ADDING
THE LAST OF ' STRINGS ' EMANATING FROM EVERY-
WHERE, SEEMINGLY.

IT HAS FINALLY OCCURRED TO ME WHY THE MIDDLE
CLASS MIGHT BE ' BEING REDUCED,' MIDDLE BEING
OF COURSE A METAPHOR OF THE BUREAUCRACY; THE
WATERING DOWN OF ' ELEMENTS ' THAT ONCE THOUGHT
AS IN THINKING, TO THAT OF MEMORY ONLY. HENCE,
THE ' HOOK ' AS EXEMPLIFYER; BOTTOM OF THE QUESTION
MARK.

IT WAS SOMETHING THAT MY EX-GIRLFREIND ONCE SAID
AS I REALIZED AT THE SAME TIME TO JOKE OF THE PHD'S AND
MA'S LEVEL IN THE ' WRITTER'S MINDSET,' WHEN SHE WAS ASKED
BY ANOTHER WOMAN " I SEE YOU'RE BREAKING IN ANOTHER
ONE." I HAVE AN IDEA OF WHO EMPLOYED THAT WOMAN WHO
WAS A BIT TALLER AND BURNET. BUT OF COURSE THAT
WOMAN WAS ALSO JUST A ' STRING.'

 

 

BOTTOM OF ' TALK IS CHIC.'

 

          

DETAIL OF TOP OF ' TALK IS CHIC.'