G_D AND BABY KILLERS-THE PAST FEW DAYS

I WILL BE ONLY EATING BREAKFAST AT THE RESCUE MISSION FROM NOW ON. INCLUDING THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS.

I RECENTLY ALLOWED MY PICTURE TO BE TAKEN AT THE RESCUE MISSION, TWO OF WHICH WERE TAKEN NEXT TO THE MISSION'S CROSS; ON THE RIGHT HAND SIDE IF ONE WAS NAILED TO IT, AS CHRIST. I WAS GIVEN A MESSAGE FOR A MAN WHO WORKED AT THE WOOD SHOP AT THE MISSION FROM THE PHOTOGRAPHER TO HIM AND ASKED TO TAKE IT TO HIM. IT WAS THERE THAT I WAS GIVEN A WOODEN CROSS AND SANDPAPER, A GIFT. I THEN WAS TOLD THAT THE PHOTOGRAPHER WAS INTERESTED IN SEEING ME ON SUCH AND SUCH DAY AND THAT SHE NEEDED HELP WITH UNLOADING WOOD SO I AGREED TO GO BY THE MISSION AT ABOUT NOON BUT SHE GOT THERE EARLY AND MET HER AT WHILE I WAS HAVING LUNCH. THE CONVERSATION WAS NOT MUCH, OTHER THAN HOW I WAS AND DOING, AND I TOLD HER. SHE ' EXCUSED ' HERSELF, STATING THAT SHE HAD TO SEE A YOUNG LADY BEFORE SHE LEFT. WHEN I WAS DONE, I RAN INTO HER AGAIN AND ASKED IF ' WE WERE DONE,' SHE LEFT SO ABRUPTLY WHEN I WAS TELLING HER HOW MY WEEK HAD BEEN. " I WAS JUST CHECKING UP ON YOU TO SEE IF YOU WERE ALL RIGHT, I'M I ALLOWED THAT? " SHE CURTLY REPLIED. I LEFT, GIVING THE CRUMB CAKE ( ALSO, A GIFT FROM THE MAN WHO GAVE ME THE CROSS, " SHE WANTED YOU TO HAVE THIS." ) TO A VETERAN AS I LEFT THE MISSION.

YESTERDAY, A SUNDAY, I WAS WAITING AT THE MISSION FOR LUNCH, THE LAST TIME, AND WAS ASKED BY THE PHOTOGRAPHER IF SHE COULD INTRODUCE HER FAMILY TO ME AND I SAID YES, OF COURSE, SHE INTRODUCED HER HUSBAND AND TWO DAUGHTERS WHO WERE DRESSED IN PURPLE DRESSES AND HUSBAND WHO SAID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WHEN I SHOOK HIS HAND; HE DRESSED IN GREEN IN TONE AND SHADE THE SAME. THE YOUNG DAUGHTERS THEN RAN TO MEET THEIR FRIEND, THE YOUNG LADY WHO I HAD SEEN THE PHOTOGRAPHER MEET THE WEEK BEFORE, THE GIRLS HUGGED, EYE TO EYE THEN ' MIDRIFF,' TO THEIR NEW FRIEND; BOTH.

I HAD MET THE FATHER OF THE YOUNG LADY AND OTHER CHILDREN AND LEARNED THAT THEY WERE FROM CALIFORNIA, BAD MARRIAGE AND ALL; HOW THE CONVERSATION OF MASONS CAME UP, I DON'T REALLY KNOW, SO IT MUST'VE BEEN ME. ' THE RAINBOW SOCIETY ' CAME UP AND AND I EXPLAINED THE ' EVILS ' OF THESE PEOPLE WHO ' PROFIT ' FROM BLACK OR WHITE, EVIL OR GOOD; WRONG OR RIGHT AND SEE NO REAL DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ANY OF THESE ATTRIBUTES OR ' DEBTS,' AS THEY WOULD DESCRIBE IT. I ALSO EXPLAINED IN DETAIL WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME. HIS MIND WAS MADE UP AND HE IS THE FATHER.

AS THE FAMILY LEFT, THEY STOPED IN FRONT OF ME AND KISSED, THEN HE KISSED HER ATOP THE HEAD, I ALMOST SAID ' SHE.' SHE STATED SOMETHING BUT I WAS WONDERING WHY THIS WAS TAKING PLACE IN THE FIRST PLACE? A WEEK OF BEING ' MENTALLY RIDDEN,' FOR WHAT? I SAT IN THE WIND FOR THE FIRST TIME WONDERING JUST ' WHERE I WAS.' I THOUGHT OF ALL THE SHAPES OF THE CLOUDS AND THE ' CROSSES THAT I WAS GOING TO GIVE UP SOON AND ANOTHER FAMILY, THE WIFE THAT I HELPED HER DAUGHTER; I BOUGHT A BAG OF CANDY SO THAT SHE COULD BE IN THE ' RUINING ' FOR A PRIZE. THIS THE COUPLE WHO I HAD GIVEN THE CARD FOR CONGRESSMAN BETO O'ROURKE IN THE HOPES THAT HE MIGHT BE OF ASSISTANCE WITH THEIR IMMIGRATION MESS WHICH IS UP SOME TIME IN MAY, I THINK, IN THE COURTS; JUST A PLAN B, JUST IN CASE ( I HAVE SEEN AND KNOW HOW SHELTERS, FOR WHAT EVER REASON, REAL OR ' IMAGINED.' OFTEN BASED ON MONIES WILL THROW FAMILIES AND CHILD ( S ) INTO THE WINTER'S WEATHER, JUST AS THEY DO WITH OLD MEN; NOT LATE THIRTIES OR FORTIES ).

AFTERWARDS

SO, AFTER DECIDING THAT WATCHING THE CLOUDS IN SHAPES OF HEARTS AND CROSSES AND ' SLAMMING ' MINE ' QUITE,' I WENT IN SIDE AND SAT TO GAIN SOME WARMTH. THE WOMAN BEHIND THE DESK ASKED ME A QUESTION AS TO HOW I WAS BUT A BIT MORE DEFINED IN PLACE AND I RESPONDED, " I AM SLOWING DOWN; GOING DOWN." THEN I GAVE EXAMPLES OF WHY I DID HAVE CLARITY OF ' MIND,' WHICH WAS ALSO STATED FROM HER IN QUESTION OF MY ANSWER. IT PRETTY MUCH FOLLOWS AS SUCH: " MY LAST STAY HERE WAS SEARCHING FOR ANY WORK BOTH AT THE MISSION, WHICH WAS ALWAYS DENIED BUT UNTIL THE VERY LAST, SCHOOL AND ALL THE PROBLEM ENCOUNTERED THERE; WOMEN, ALL MEXICAN, WHO HAD ME GOING AROUND IN CIRCLES FOR A MONTH AND DAMN NEAR ANOTHER, UNTIL ONE MAN STOOD UP AND WAVED ME OVER AND IN TWENTY MINUTES, I WAS ENROLLED, NO ' MISTAKES ' AND ALL WAS PAID FOR; NO MYSTERIOUS BRUSHING OF ' EYEBROWS ' OR OTHER ' COMEDIES.' ALL PROBLEMS WITH THE VA REP WHO WAS OF THE SAME ' INK,' ASIDE FROM ' CLUMSILY ' THROWING PENS AND WADS OF PAPER AT ME, AND ALL THE WRONG FORMS WERE ALL SETTLED. GOT A JOB WITH THE ' ALLEGED PEDOPHILE ' BERT AT THE RESCUE MISSION UNTIL HE SHOWED HIS TRUE COLORS, EVEN KNOWING THAT HE WAS A CLOSE FRIEND OF MY CASE WORKER DEIAGO OCHOA ( NO RELATION ) AND HIS OWN WIFE ( BERT'S ) AT THE SAME CAMPUS WHO TAUGHT ENGLISH TO NON ENGLISH SPEAKING PEOPLE AT THE CAMPUS. AND THE LAST OF THE RELATIONSHIP WITH THE EL PASO LEGAL AID MESS COMING TO A CLOSE ( THE PEDOPHILE WHO WAS CAUGHT WHO WAS ALSO IN CHARGE OF THE MAIL AT THE OPPORTUNITY 

CENTER, WHERE I NEVER RECEIVED MAIL, MEDICAL RECORDS, VA RELATED, AND FOOD STAMPS. YOU NAME IT. ) ALL OF THIS I DID ON MY OWN INCLUDING CERTIFICATION WITH A FORKLIFT, WHICH I HAD TO OBTAIN A COPY OF THE PLACE OF BUSINESS FROM ANA MARIA FROM THE OPPORTUNITY CENTER, THAT I HAD GIVEN HER IN THE FIRST PLACE, WHICH WAS THEN GIVEN TO OCHOA SO THAT HE MIGHT ' HELP ' PEOPLE. I WAS UP AGAINST TIME, AFTER BEING SHOT AT ON THE BUS AFTER COMING BACK FROM THE EPCC COMPUTER LIBRARY AND ALL THE VETERANS FROM CASA VEDA WHO LOOKED HAVE STONED AND ALL THE REST OF THE SHIT INCLUDING CELL PHONE BEING HACKED, NO MATTER WHICH ONE ( ONE FROM AUSTIN, I DESTROYED, THEN STATE TROOPER AND COPS RUSHING TO COLLEGE, I THOUGHT, AND CYBER STALKING AT CAMPUS, RESCUE MISSION AND EVERYWHERE INCLUDING COMPUTER LAB. SO, I STARTED THE PROCESS OF ENROLLMENT IN THE LAKE SUPERIOR COLLEGE SYSTEM, BUT IT WAS TAKING TO LONG AND AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE WHEN FINALIZING THE SALE OF MY TOYOTA 4 RUNNER, MY LAST ' HOME ' AND WILL STAY THE SAME, AND DESTROYING ALL MY MAGAZINES FOR MY 9 M GLOCK, ALL THE WHILE THE ' SHIT ' KEPT ASKING FOR THEM, " I CAN SELL THEM! " AND THE ' LOSE ' AND INTIMIDATION OF THE TWO FOOLS, ON E OF WHICH WAS BUYING MY TRUCK, ' WHICH ONE TO STRIKE IN DEATH FIRST,' IF TOUCHED BECAUSE BLAKE BARROWS ( ? ) THE LAWYER ' MINISTER ' LOST MY TITLE UNTIL I SHOWED HIM WHERE HE PUT IT, THEN " LOOK UNDER THE FILES," I WAS THEN ON MY WAY TO ANOTHER DISASTER.

THEN FINALLY A JOB AT THE RESCUE MISSION IN THEIR SEEMINGLY ENDLESS BUILDING AND ' REMODEL,' BUT NO COMPLAINTS UNTIL MAUI, WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WAS UNWANTED. NO WORK, SLEPT AT THE AIR PORT, THEN DECIDED WHAT TO DO. LEFT THE SCULPTURE HEAD WITH THE SMALL AIRPORT AND ASKED THAT IT WOULD NOT BE PUT IN THE HANDS OF ' HOMOSEXUALS,' I HOPE THAT THE YOUNG LADIES ( ADULTS ) UNDERSTOOD THAT THAT MEANT WOMEN TO BY ' DEFINITION ' TOO.THE SECOND LOSS IN IDENTITY, THE FIRST MY IDENTITY CARD IN TEXAS STATING THAT MY NAME IS AND WILL BE BARTOLOME NOT THE ENGLISH VERSION BARTHOLOMEW AND THE ' NIGGERS ( SELF DESCRIBED ) AND SPICS ( BEHAVIORS ) LAUGHING IN THEIR DRUG INDUCED STATES IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD ALONG WITH THE ' SHIT SHEET ' WHITES; AS THEIR FATHER'S HAD LEFT THEIR MOTHER'S TOO FOR PUSSY AND ' GREENER PASTURES THAT ' SEEMINGLY ' GO ALONG WITH IT TOO, ONLY TO FIND LIFE WITH A LIKENESS OF ' MIND ' AND BODY, IF NOT ILLUSION AS OPPOSED TO THE PRISON'S ALLUSIONS.

THE NEED OF TRAVEL WAS TEMPERED WITH THE NEED TO STAY IN ONE PLACE AND NOT ARM MYSELF AGAIN IN ' THIS FLAG,' THE NEED TO ADDRESS THESE ' MOSQUITOES ' WHO BLEED ALL SPIRIT DRY. THE MEMORY OF HOW VIOLENT AN UPBRINGING I HAD BOTH OF MIND AND TO MY BODY. I HAVE A NEAR 18 INCH NECK BECAUSE MINE AS A CHILD WAS ALMOST BROKEN, WHIPLASH AT THE LEAST. AND I REMEMBER. TO A ' SISTER,' NOT A FAG, YES SOMETIMES HE HURT MY ' HEAD ' ( LOOK AT ME IN THE EYES, FOR MINUTES, UNTIL YOU HAD TO TURN; IT HURT INSIDE ) TOO. BUT IT MAKES YOU STRONGER, TO LOOK AT DEATH WHEN ALMOST ALL OTHERS RUN. BUT YOU HAVE TO KNOW WHEN TO GO, UNTIL YOU NO LONGER CARE. SO I ATE AND ATE AT RESTAURANTS AND BOUGHT A CROSS AFTER THE COLLEGE WAS GOING TO SCREW ME AGAIN. I BOUGHT A JACKET. AND I ATE AT DIFFERENT PLACES TO ' HEAR ' OTHERS IN QUIET WITH THE ' SECOND BRAIN ' OF THE DINOSAURS OF WHICH I WAS TAUGHT; THE STOMACH. AND I SAW OTHERS OF FAMILIES, FATHERS, BOYFRIENDS AND PRIESTS AND PASTORS AND POOR HYGIENE AND ALL WAS KNOWN AGAIN IN ' TIME ' WITH TIME; THE CRIMINAL.

OF COURSE THAT IDENTITY ' LOSS ' WAS TEMPORARY.

ALL, WELL REALLY NOT ALL, THIS ONLY ABOUT TWENTY PERCENT OF THE INTENSITY, IF THAT. ONLY TO FIND MY TELLING OF YESTERDAY'S LUNCH. I SAT WITH ACQUAINTANCES AND UPON MY RETURN WITH BEVERAGE AND BREAD, A VIETNAM VETERAN WHO I KNOW LITTLE OF OTHER THAN HIS WHIMPERING OF JOHN LENNON'S DEATH SO MANY YEARS AGO OF WHICH I COULD NOT BELIEVE OR ' UNDERSTAND,' AND ENCOUNTERING HIM HERE AND THERE, AT EPCC WHEN I WAS TAKING THE WELDING CLASSES, MADE A COMMENT AS TO HIS RECENTLY ACQUIRED ' COVERALLS ' CAMOUFLAGE, " NOW I CAN SIT AT A CORNER AND BEG FOR MONEY." THE THE NEAR PLACEMENT OF HIS HANDS ON MY BREAD. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH MY FOOD MUCH LESS QUEERS. SO I ' BEAT THE FLASHES OF WHITE ' AND MOVED TO ANOTHER SEAT AND TABLE.

I LATER SAW HIM AT THE CORNER STORE THAT I WAS ASKING FOR CHANGE AND HE ASKED ME " WHERE'S YOUR COVERALLS," I SAID THAT I DIDN'T WEAR THEM YESTERDAY AND DID NOT NEED THEM AND ALSO STATED THAT I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS A SICK QUEER. HE WAS WALKING ON, SO HE CAN READ THIS. UPON HIS RETURN I ASKED HIM IF HE WAS DRAFTED OR JOINED? HE SAID THAT " MARINES DON'T GET DRAFTED, THEY JOIN," I FELT NOTHING FOR THAT WHEN IT LEFT. I KNOW DIFFERENT FROM OTHER VETERANS AND REPS BUT LEFT IT AT THAT. I JOINED MYSELF AND FOUGHT BEST I COULD TO STAY IN. I'M DONE WITH VIETNAM AND THEIR ' AL QAEDA.' THEY HAVE GIVEN NOTHING BUT PAIN AND MANY SHOULD NEVER OF GONE AND MANY SHOULD NEVER OF RETURNED. THEY HAVE ' STOLEN ' AND NEARLY DESTROYED THE VA. SO FEW….HONESTLY, HELP, ' GUIDE,' AND INFORM ALL VETERANS OTHER THAN EDUCATION AND ' ENLIGHTENMENT ' INTO THE MAFIA OF THEIR ' DESIGN.' ( THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS, LIKE A MOTORCYCLE RIDER ON A HARLEY POINTING TO THE GROUND AFTER I LEFT THAT LUNCH ON MY WAY TO THE CORNER STORE; ' YOUR GOING DOWN!,' OR LIKE TODAY ABOUT 4:30 TO 5:00, A QUEER FROM THE MISSION WITH BACKPACK, BUT WHEN GOING BACK TO MISSION, WHERE'S THE BACKPACK? GEE, ALL THE METH AND COCAINE WHERE DOES THE ' MAGIC ' OF ILLUSION BEGIN?, MAYBE ' SETUP ! ' OOOOO-AHHHHHH. OR, LETS GET HIM TO PRINT THIS! OR HOW ABOUT WHO OWNS SEGMENTS OF LAND AROUND RAILROAD TRACKS? UNION PACIFIC OR THE TRACKS OWNED BY BASF DOWN BY PAISANO BLVD. AND THE DERAILMENTS AND SLAMMING INTO TOWNSHIPS UP NORTH? GOSH! SHIT! THAT ' COFFEE ' WAS GOOD!!!!!!!!

THE MARINES TRUCK. I OFERED TO HELP HIM WITH.

SOME OF US DO NOT WANT TO BE GANGSTERS, DRUG DEALERS OR ANY TYPE OF ' PREDATOR,' MUCH LESS TERRORISTS.

I WOULD RATHER ' ASK ' FOR CHANGE THAN ' BE ' ANYTHING THAT I HAVE SEEN OR ENCOUNTERED IN THE LAST YEARS SINCE 9/11.

' SIDEBAR '

AND FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, THE HELL WITH ' THOR. WHATEVER ' TOO. THOSE CYBER STALKERS SUPPORT TERRORIST ONLY, MUCH LIKE THE CREATOR OF FACEBOOK. WHY COMMUNISM? AND ' GOING DARK ' TO BETTER THE CYBER STALKERS IN MURDER AND REMOTE INFLUENCING SUICIDES. MORE CHILDREN'S DEATHS AND INJURIES, WHAT A GUY!

NO ONE OTHER THEN CURRENT VETS HAVE I BEEN ABLE TO UNDERSTAND AND SHARE WHEN ' LISTENED TO ' THE INTENSITY OF ' SNEAKING ' THOSE WHO WOULD KILL YOU AND HAVE THE ' HEART ' ' MIND ' AND ' SPIRIT ' TO READY THE ' SHOT ' WHEN OPPORTUNITY REVEALS ITSELF, TO PROTECT ONESELF AND ONE'S NEIGHBORHOOD AND TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE WHEN YOU CAN'T. EVEN WITH A ' BLACK MASS,' TRANSPARENT, SPIRIT ATOP YOU AND ' PIN HOLES ' OF LIGHT AND " PUT THE GUN DOWN! " 

FROM TOP OF A LESS THAN ONE FOOT CLEARING ABOVE POLOYCARBONATE WINDOW SHADES AND TOP OF THE WINDOW FRAME SIX FEET ABOVE, OR SO, GROUND. AND WHAT EVER ' THAT ' WAS IN MY LEFT EAR, WHERE THE NEAR COMMANDS CAME FROM IN THE ' MILITARY ' SENSE AND TEMPERANCE.

ANOTHER FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, WHILE ATTENDING EPCC THE FIRST TIME AT THE RESCUE MISSION, THE COOK BILL, FOR WHAT EVER REASON WAS SPEWING VILE AND WORDS IN SHOUTS AT ME AND I REACHED FOR MY SIDE ARM IN RESPONSE. IT WAS NOT THERE. ' I ' WAS THE COP IN CHINA AND SOMEONE ' ELSE,' MUCH TALLER. BEST THING TO HAVE HAPPENED. I WONDERED WHAT HAD HAPPENED AND IN THE 4 RUNNER I WAS ABLE TO CONCENTRATE AND RELAX, ALL THE WAY BACK TO THE HOME INVASION ACROSS THE STREET FROM ME IN ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO. THAT'S JUST ONE EXAMPLE OF HOW I KNOW THAT SOME OF THE ' FAKE ' IMPERSONATORS DURING THE HOME INVASION WERE OFF DUTY POLICE AND FIRE DEPARTMENT SHITS REVENGING THEIR RANGER FRIEND.

SO I WAS PUNISHED INSTEAD, IN HAWAII AND AT FIRST ' VISIBLY ' IN EL PASO, TX., AND AUSTIN AND ARIZONA BEFORE.

SO I WILL PUBLISH THE DD 149 AND MY COMPLETE REASONS FORE UPGRADE ON THE INTERNET INSTEAD. I AM GRATEFUL TO  KENNETH R. SKAGGS FOR SOME OF WEATHER PROTECTIVE GEAR ( NO FUCKING ARMY BACKPACK-THEY LAST- AS DO THE ASSAULT PACKS ) AND WHAT SUPPORT HE DID GIVE. I KNOW ' WE ' ALL HAVE BOSSES. ' SERGEANT MAJOR,' I GUESS I WAS ( MIGHT OF ? ) SUPPOSED TO OF SAID. BUT, TO BE FRANK, I DO NOT TRUST, AND I WOULD RATHER LEAVE MY ' GOOD CHILDHOOD ' MEMORIES OF FT. BLISS AND VA AS THEY ARE. I DID NOT APPRECIATE THE ' BROWN COUCH ' IN THE CODEX ( THIS A REFERENCE TO PAULA HUGHSON, FOR THE BENEFIT OF WHOM, NIGGER, SPIC OR WHITE SHIT TRASH, WHO KNOWS? SHE IS/WAS A DEMOCRAT, OR VOTED THAT WAY, SO THE ' REFERENCE WAS ' POLITICAL ' NONE THE LESS. ' FOR MY EYES ONLY.' I DID GIVE ONE OF YOUR CARDS TO A SOLIDER ( ? ) AT THE MISSION SO THAT HE WOULD NOT GET THE ' RUN AROUND ' AND MAKE IT HOME FOR CHRISTMAS IN MISSOURI OR MISSISSIPPI. I AM SO SORRY TO SAY THIS, BUT I HAVE LOST MY TRUST FOR MINORITIES AND NOW KNOW THAT SOME PEOPLE ARE ' BLACK.' THERE IS JUST NO WAY TO EXPLAIN THIS.

THIS MORNING ( 11-24-2014 ) I AWOKE WHILE IN A DREAM REGARDING MY EX-GIRLFRIEND AND OTHER ' CURRENT WOMEN ' OF WHOM I HAVE TRYED TO HELP. THE ' HEAD ' OF PAULA AND THE GROSSLY ' IMPLIED REPRESENTATION OF EATING ' COOKED ' FLESH FROM THAT HEAD AND OTHER SUCH NONE SENSE, SO REAL THAT IT WOULD PROBABLY HAVE SCARED OTHERS, AND THE ' VOICE,' FINALLY RECOGNIZED OF THE VIETNAM VET ALONG WITH OTHER'S WHO HAVE NO ' RESTRAINT.' I FEEL SORRY TO A CERTAIN EXTENT FOR THESE HOMO SAPIENS, THIS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW TO DEAL WITH THEM. THE PHOTO IS OF THE VET'S TRUCK ( I WILL ASK IF HE WILL POSE NEXT TO IT THE NEXT TIME I SEE HIM ), THE OTHER'S ARE OF THE PEDOPHILES TEMPLE AND BORROWED RELIGIONS IN REPRESENTATION TO THE SLAVERY'S OF ' MINDS ' WHO ARE ' PROUD,' ONLY. ' ALL THE PRIDE.' THE OTHER PHOTO'S SHOULD GIVE MY FATHER INDICATION AS TO HIS PAST AND ' MISHANDLING ' BY THE ' MOB.' THE NAMES OF THE STREETS ARE IMPORTANT AS MY FATHER GREW UP IN THIS NEIGHBORHOOD, THE SUNSET HEIGHTS; AN EXTENDED FAMILY, ALL IN ONE HOUSE ON MISSOURI ST. SANTA FE STREET IS IMPORTANT BECAUSE OF THE LODGE THAT THE BOOK THAT I WAS LEAD TO, BELONGED TO A ONCE MASON WHO BELONGED TO THE SANTA FE LODGE SEEN IN THE OTHER PICTURE. MY MOTHER WAS BORN IN NESS CITY, KANSAS, THEN HER FAMILY MOVED TO LEBANON, MO WHEN SHE WAS A YOUNG CHILD. IN ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO DURING AN ' ATTACK ' BARTON PRINCE AND ' LEGION ' STATED ' STICK TO ABRAHAM,' THEN THE UNDERLYING, CHILD/WOMAN'S ' VOICE ' OUTSIDE OF ME. THIS DURING THE THUNDERSTORMS AND THE INTRODUCTION OF ' BROADBAND.' THE ' CU ' WAS TO PLACE THE CHILD MOLESTERS ON TOP OF NOT ONLY THE EXECUTIVE AND ALREADY WON JUDICIAL BRANCHES OF OUR GOVERNMENT BUT ' COMPLETE ' THE ' ADVANTAGE ' OVER OUR MILITARY. " YOU BETTER PLAY ALONG." I'VE HEARD FOR YEARS SINCE BROADBAND, BUT HAVE BEEN DEFEATING IT SINCE THE ' CUSHION ' LEFT IN MY LEFT EAR SINCE THE COAST GUARD. THE QUEERS WANTED THEIR VERY OWN god. ALL FOR THE EFFORTS OF WAR ONLY AND PROFITS ' THEIR ' IN.

BASEBALL STADIUM DOWNTOWN, EL PASIO, TX.

MASONIC LODGE, DOWNTOWN/SUNSET HEIGHTS, EL PASO,
TEXAS.

MORAL AND DOGMA, THE BOOK THAT I BOUGHT IN
ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO. 707/1000.

ADD THE NUMBERS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE POLE
THAT IS DIRECTLY ACROSS THE MASONIC TEMPLE
AND YOU GET 11. INSIDE THE CONFERENCE ROOM
IN THE UPPER LEVEL, AS YOU ENTER THE ROOM IS
A PORTRAIT OF JFK ' BOWING ' HIS HEAD TO ALL WHO
ENTER.

THE LOOK ON THE FACE OF THE MEXICAN MASON AS
HE DESCRIBED THE FACT THAT JFK WAS NOT A MASON
AND OTHER PRESIDENTS ALSO. MY CAPITALS ARE NOT ' MECCA '
OR TEL AVIV, RESPECTIVELY.

FOR YEARS I HAVE ' HEARD ' THAT JEWS ARE BISEXUALS. THIS GOING BACK TO THE YEAR OF ABOUT 2002. AND I SUSPECT EVEN FURTHER. THE RECENT ' EXPLOITS ' OF MAY IN THE LIBRARY IS ANOTHER INDICATION OF A PRESIDENT BEING ' MISLEAD ' BY HIS ' PRIDE ' IN THE FACE OF PEOPLES AROUND HIM WHO HAVE KNOWN THE DAMAGES THAT BROADBAND HAS DONE TO OTHER NATIONS, LIKE SWEDEN AND JAPAN, AND THEY LEARNED THEIR LESSON AND GOT RID OF MOST OF IT. BUT OURS WILL BE INTEGRATED WITH THE NEW ' COMMUNICATION NET DESIGNED FOR THE WAR THEATER,' THIS THE REASON I DECIDED THAT THE ' IDEA ' OF APPLE BAND WOULD NOT WORK FOR FINDING MISSING AND ABDUCTED CHILDREN. WHY COOK THE ' FROGS ' CHILDREN AS WELL AND FURTHER? ANOTHER WAY OF PUTTING IT.

THE DOORWAY FACING THE BASEBALL STADIUM.

THEIR ' CORNERSTONE.'

NOW YOU KNOW WHO RULES WHITLEY STRIBER'S MIND AND THEIR DESIGN BY WAY OF SEXUAL EXPLOITATION AND PHYCHOLOGICAL ' EXTORTION.' IT MIGHT AS WELL BE AN ENTIRE GENERATION, THE AGING ' BABY BOOMERS.' GAYS HAVE ALWAYS HAD RIGHTS, THEY WERE LEAD IN ' AGREEMENT ' AS SCAPEGOATS BY THEIR ' ELDERS ' AND CLOSET JUDICIAL LEADERS WHO PREFERRED THE QUITE LIFE UNTIL OPPORTUNITY ' MET ' THE ADVANTAGE OF COMPLETE PROFIT. IT WAS NOT JUST GAYS WHO HAPPENED TO BE JEW, IT WAS ALL THOSE BORN THAT WAY AND THE ' MEMORY ' OF DOMINANCE THAT GAVE THE ALLUSION OF ATONEMENT AS god IN GUISE OF TECHNOLOGY, MASS MARKETING ON ALL BANDWIDTHS, FOR A SUCCESSFUL CU.

JUST IN ' APACHE JUNCTION ' IN ARIZONA.

NOW, THIS ' ATTEMPT ' IS CALLED ' NATIONAL SECURITY.' EVERY ONE WAS ' FOOLED.' THE PROFITS OF WAR WILL NEVER ' REACH THE POOR OR THE ' FOOLED.' ONLY DEATH. I WAS LUCKY, I WAS ALMOST KILLED WHEN I WAS A CHILD. I WENT UP TO THE CLOUDS. IF YOU WANT WHAT I SAW AT THE ' BOTTOM ' OF THE ENTIRE WORLD, THEN CONTINUE. ' SHE,' WHO SOME HOW ' IS,' THE ENTITY OF ALL WE KNOW, WILL ' BIRTH ' ANOTHER SPECIES, AND WE WILL BE LEFT OUT. SO CONTINUE WITH YOUR EXPLOITS WITH THE CHILDREN AS ALL IN THE SAME ' LIKENESS.' NATURE PREFERS ' DIVERSITY.'

SO, THIS MORNING I LEFT A  PRESENT FOR THE RESCUE MISSION THAT WAS GIVEN TO ME BY THE LIBRARY IN EL PASO FOR FREE; AN OLD MAN WHO ANYTHING THAT I CHOOSE THAT WAS FREE SET OFF THE ALARM, JUST LIKE IN HAWAII. I WILL GIVE THIS MUCH OF THE ' THE FLAG ' THAT I AM CURRENTLY WALKING THROUGH, SEEN THROUGH THE EYES OF THE PED'S DERIVED MAINLY FROM STEPHAN SCHWARTZ'S ( IT WAS HERE AND THE USE OF A TEAM FORMALLY ASSOCIATED WITH MAJOR ED DANES, THAT ALL ' PORDICALS ' OPENED UP BEYOND HIS ' ADVERTISEMENTS.' ) GOLD STANDARD EDITION FOR REMOTE VIEWING; PEZ-A U-2 SONG AND DENTINE-A CHEWING GUM THAT MY MOTHER LIKED WHEN I WAS A KID. MY FATHER ALWAYS GAVE ME DOUBLE FRUITY, I LIKED THE MINT. I PLANTED IT BY MY BEDROOM WINDOW IN ALBUQUERQUE. THAT SHOULD ' INDICATE ' A BARRIER FOR THE INTRUSIONS OF ' THOSE ' PRETENDING TO BE MY FATHER. THEY DID NOT KNOW, ONLY HE ' KNEW ' WHAT WAS ' SUGGESTED. KNOW THY SELF.

I'M DONE PLAYING THE ROLES FOR ED DANES CHILD MOLESTER ' BITCHES.' MOSTLY ARMY, NAVY, PRIEST, MINISTERS, CORPORATE LEADERS, ALL AMERICAN FAGS.

BEING DISARMED HAS ' REMINDED ' ME ( JOHN C. ) OF HOW DIRECT AND BEAUTIFUL IN A SENSE, IF DONE RIGHT, THE KILL CAN BE. ' ABSENCE OF RESPONSIBILITY.' BUT THAT IS AN ' ILLUSION.'

SHRINKS, DOCTORS AND VA  MAKE BELIEVE REPS WHO SAY THAT ' HEARING VOICES ' IS A SIGN OF INSANITY ARE JUST LYING TO YOU, MUCH LIKE MY FATHER, WHO, SAID THE SAME OF MY MOTHER. IT'S JUST TECHNOLOGY AND THE EVER PRESENT ' PREDATORS ' WHO WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE ' WAR TORN.' THEY WILL DRUG YOU, IF YOU CAN'T ' QUITE ' YOUR ' MIND ' OR YOUR TONGUE, REMEMBER, ONLY THE RICH OR ' GANGSTERS ' ARE ALLOWED. IT'S ALL INTENSIFIED ' COMMUNICATIONS BANDWIDTHS,' MIND FUCKS, JUST LIKE A BARE LIGHT BULB TO ONE SIDE OF THE HEAD, TO MAKE YOU QUEER; THE LOSS OF SELF IN THE god GAME.

THE GOLD CROSS IS MINE WITHOUT
QUESTION, UNTIL I GIVE IT UP MYSELF.
THE WOODEN CROSS WAS GIVEN BY A
GOOD GUY, I THINK, AT THE MISSION,
BUT WILL BE GIVEN BACK, SO THAT
SOMEONE ELSE CAN MAKE IT THEIRS.

A MAN WHO USED TO LIVE AT THE HOUSE THAT I AM
AT. A GOOD MAN GAVE ME ABOUT TEN DOLLARS IN
CHANGE AND I SHARED IT WITH THIS OLD MAN, HE
RAMBLED ON UNTIL A ' CHILD'S ' VOICE ' COULD BE
HEARD ABOVE-' DOUBLE TEAMING,' AND HE JUST
ABOUT DROVE ME NUTS. IT WAS A MEMORY AND HIS
PELVIC THRUSTS BECAME VERY OBVIOUSE SO I
ALMOST ENED THE OR RATHER HIS ' CONVERSATION '
WITH A SHOVE. I LEFT INSTEAD.

IT'S AMAZING WHAT A LITTLE
BLEACH WILL DO TO BRING OUT
ALL THE ' VOICES ' OF THOSE
WHO ' WORSHIP ' THIS. I JUST
POURED IT ON THE ROCK, ALL
THE IDIOTS; NOT WHO MIGHT
THINK.

THE LAST OF THE COLLAGES
THAT WHERE MADE. THE DOVE
THAT NATURALLY ' APPEARED '
WAS CHANGED AT THE LAST
MINUTE. ONLY ONE ELEMENT
WAS CHANGED. WHAT WE ARE
LOSING TO THE WASTE OF WAR.

ANOTHER LOOK AT WHO ' WOMEN '
SERVE IN TODAY'S TECHNO CULTURE.

THE ' ALLUSION ' THE WEST IS FACING.
BRAINWASHING, EVEN BY MINISTER'S
AND PREISTS. THIS IS WHAT EL PASO IS
ALL ABOUT. BLACK.

UP-DATED 10-16-'14-WAS NOT ONGOING INVESTIGATION - UP-DATED 10-14-'14 - VIRGINIA - CAP - MARYLAND

BRAIN WASHING, VIRGINIA AND A MARYLAND BASEBALL CAP.
10-16-'14 - EL PASO, TEXAS.


WHAT IS FOLLOWING IS A BIT ' EMBARRASSING ' ONLY IN THE FACT THAT I COULDN'T REMEMBER IT BEFORE. THE PAIN THAT WAS CONNECTED TO THIS ' MENTAL BLOCK ' WAS INCREDIBLE. I'M NOT SURE ' EXACTLY,' WHEN IT DID OCCUR, THOUGH GENERALLY I KNOW IT TO BE AFTER THE DIAPER THING. I NOW KNOW THAT IT SURFACED, OR TRYED TO SEVERAL TIMES AND THE ' PEOPLE ' WERE NOT ' PHYSICALLY INSIDE THE HOUSE AT 5417 ALICE NE THAT NIGHT I'M SURE AND ALSO AS TO ' WHY ' I WAS GIVEN A ' TOUGH HOMBRE ' COIN, EARLIER...WHAT I'M GOING TO POST IS THE ' REASON ' THAT I GAVE IT TO DAN FINEMARK USNS, UNDERWATER DEMOLITION EXPERT; I HONESTLY DIDN'T KNOW OR UNDERSTAND THE ' DEPTH OR ? ' OF MY ANGER; I COULD NOT REMEMBER. I WROTE THIS AS BLACK AND WHITE AS I COULD, I HONESTLY THOUGHT THAT THE MAN AT THE BARNES AND NOBLE WAS THE ASSISTANT DA, " BRAD, ( I THOUGHT BART ? ) BUT WAS STILL IN A DAZE AND HAD BEEN FOLLOWED BY SOME PEOPLE FROM DAVE BERRYS HOUSE ON MARBLE ST. AND THEN HEARD HIM SAY " HE'S STILL ASLEEP, I DON'T KNOW..." I WAS THEN INSIDE THE BARN'S AND NOBLE IN THE WINDROCK AREA, BUT NOT QUITE THAT FAR.

G49/G *( ? )THE ' EXPERIENCE ' WAS THAT I WAS BEING HELD DOWN, AND A PENIS WAS BEING FORCED DOWN MY THROAT. SOMEONE WAS SPEAKING, TWO OF THE MEN WERE TALL, BUT IT WAS DARK.

I REMEMBER ' WAKING,' TO USE THE RESTROOM, HARDLY MADE IT. I KNOW THAT ONE VISIT, I DIDN'T TURN ON LIGHTS.

THE ' DREAM,' JUST KEPT ON GOING. ORDERS AS TO WHAT I WAS TO DO ( ? ) AND A NEAR AGREEMENT ON MY PART. THE ' RAPE ' CONTINUED, I THINK THAT THEY WERE WHITE; THE PENIS WAS WHITE.

' PRE PRO QUO,'  I REMEMBER, THIS SHIT WAS SO REAL, IN AND OUT OF ' BLACKNESS,' THAT EVEN WHEN I AWOKE AGAIN, AND RETURNED TO BED, NEVER GOING OUTSIDE, I ' FELL ' INTO THE SAME DAMN ' DREAM.' THIS HAPPENED AROUND 11:00 - 3:00; IT NEVER STOPED, THEN WHAT EVER THAT WAS OVER MY HEAD, A PRESENCE, A VOICE, CALM ' DICTATING ' WHAT I WAS TO DO, BUT I FORCED IT ' OUT OF MY HEAD,' I MIGHT OF SAID THAT OUT LOUD. YET WHEN I WENT TO THE KITCHEN IN THE NEAR MORNING AT DAWN, THE ' LOCKS ' WERE STILL ENGAGED, TOP, TWICE AT LEFT SIDES, THE HOOK WAS LATCHED AND THE BENT NAILS WERE STILL THERE.

I EVEN ' TESTED ' THE REINFORCED SCREEN DOOR.' LOCKED TIGHT. IF I'M CORRECT WITH MY RECOLLECTION AS TO TIME LINE, IT WENT ON FOR ABOUT SIX TO SEVEN MONTHS INTENSE, THEN ABOUT EIGHT TO TEN MONTHS GRADUALLY LOSING INTENSITY. 

I HAVE ALWAYS FELT THAT THEY WERE DRUGGIES, OURS, ( 40% ), BUT NOW AFTER STATE REP JASON BROWN, AND THIS MORNING ' IN A BIG COUNTRY,' MY MEMORY AND GAPS WAS TRIPED SOMEHOW WHILE LOOKING FOR ANY CONNECTION WITH " BART HE LOOKS LIKE UNCLE FESTER! " ALL THOSE YEARS BACK. AND THE FUTURE CONCERNS IN THIS ' REVOLUTION,' LITERAL SENSE, SEEMINGLY. BACK THEN I THOUGHT JASON, WAS MY NEIGHBOR, JASON.?! ? " YOU NEVER GIVE UP! "

MY BRAIN INJURY WAS AT THIS TIME WHEN DEFENDING MY HOUSE. WHAT ARE COPS DOING WITH ' SKYNET ' LINK UPS? THEY WEREN'T FUCKING COPS!

I NOW KNOW, AND FEEL CONFIDENT THAT THESE WERE ' MISGUIDED VETERANS ' AND ACTIVE SERVICE PEOPLE, THAT SOON TURNED INTO A FEEDING FRINZY. PKW AND HIS RIDICULES ' MOHAWK.' A THIRTY SOMETHING GROWN MAN WHO IS A FUCKING TEACHER?!?!

ONCE MORE, I DO NOT HAVE, ETHER, A YOUTUBE ACCOUNT. AND I DO KNOW THAT THERE IS A ' BART OCHOA, AND K OCHOA, IN CA. USA. ONE OF MY LAST POST'S APPARENTLY UPLOADED TO A YOUTUBE ACCOUNT.

THIS MORNING I FOUND OUT THAT P.K.W. WAS STILL AT THE SAME ADDRESS. 

YEARS AGO, I WAS THERE, I SAW ' THEIR ' BLOG, I HEARD THE CHILDREN, I SAW THE LOOK OF ' SHOCK,' ON THE FACE OF THE GIRLFRIEND AND NONE OF YOU SAW THAT, HEARD THAT; THE S&M BOX AND ALL THE ' TOYS,' OR WHY SOME ONE WOULD WANT A SPIT CUP TO ' SAVE ' TO PUT IN THE LEAF RECYCLING HEAP. ONLY TO BE FOUND BY THE GIRLFRIEND IN THE FREEZER, HOW I KNOW? MUST OF BEEN THE WEIGHT MACHINE WAS ' BUGED? '

AND PROCESS THIS AND PROCESS THAT, PROCESS, PROCESS, PROCESS. FOR ALL THOSE YEARS ALONG WITH, " MY FATHER DIED IN FLORIDA," " KIM COMMITTED SUICIDE," THE LOOK A LIKES IN AUSTIN, TX ( ONCE AGAIN POSTED, THE LAST TIME HACKED AND I WAS SLAMMED, ALMOST COULDN'T WORK ), " JOHN HAS MY OTHER SON YOU BASTARD! " I COULD GO ON AND ON, AND ALL THE SHIT THAT PROTECTED HIM, RECOGNITIONS IN LIBRARIES AND NEAR FIGHTS, STAFF AND PEOPLE OF BLACK AN WHITE, ALL ( 90%) GAY, SUPPORTING SEXUAL GROOMING AND WHAT I FELT WAS SEXUAL PERVERSION AT THE VERY LEAST; WHO KEEPS A HAND IN A DIAPER FOR OVER TEN MINUTES? WHO ALLOWS A SIX YEAR OLD TO ASK " BARTY WANT TO SEE SOME KIDY PORN?" " WHAT PARENT TELLS HIS CHILD " NO ------------- DON'T EXCITE DADDY." WHILE IN BED WITH HIM, CHILD'S BACK TO PARENT'S FRONT, WHILE LYING DOWN? WHO?

QUEERS SEE NOTHING WRONG WITH ANYTHING THAT GETS IN THEIR WAY OF SEX WITH ANYTHING, EVEN USED AS A FUCKING ' WAR WEAPON! ' WHEN THEY GET BACK!

AND BARTON PRINCE IN THE ' ETHER,' ABOVE, AND ' NETWORK.' ALL JUST BEFORE/DURING WIKI LEAKS, AND DEFENDING THE CHILD MOLESTERS/SEXUAL GROOMING AS THE ' NEXT ' ALMOST AS THE NEXT LIGHT OF THE WORLD.

2006
PROMPT " ARE YOU A COP? "

' MY BROTHER'S A STATE TROOPER IN TEXAS.'
WASN'T MINE, VERY ' CLOSE ' TO PKW'S
VOICE, BUT IN MY HEAD, UNDER IT
"....TH SHUT! "

DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY 10-14-'14, THEN I HAD TO DECIDE
WHAT TO DO. THEN YESTERDAY FOUND THAT PKW
STILL LIVES AT SAME ADDRESS....TODAY I CALLED
DISTRICT ATTORNEY IN ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO
AND WILL AWAIT NEWS OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED IF
ANY LEGAL ACTION. IF IT IS ALREADY SETTLED, I MAY
STOP WRITING ABOUT IT UNLESS IT HAS SOMETHING
TO DO WITH WHAT THOSE ' VETS ' AND DRUG DEALERS
DID TO ME ALONG WITH THE ' FEEDING FRENZY.'

BUT I WILL NEVER GIVE A PEDOPHILE ANYTHING, LEGAL
OR NOT, BECAUSE OF THE PAST ACTIONS OF LAW ENFORCEMENT
BASED ON WHATEVER HAPPENED IN EL PASO AT THE TIME
OF ALL THESE EVENTS THAT OCCURRED IN ALBUQUERQUE, NM.

A PHOTO THAT I USED FROM THE NET, THEN ' MORPHED '
AND FOUND THE FIG. TOSSING OUT BITS OF PAPER. WHAT
HIT ME MENTALLY WAS ' TEAR UP EVERYTHING YOU HAVE
AND GET OUT OF TOWN.' EL PASO PUBLIC LIBRARY. ALOT
OF THE PHONE PROBLEMS HAVE DISAPPEARED, I THINK,
WITH NEW ONE, BUT WE'LL SEE.

ENLARGEMENT OF ABOVE.

FOR BETTER OR WORST, THE PIECE OF BIBLE WAS FOUND
WHEN I OPENED IT, THE DATE WAS MR. HENRY STREET'S
TIME OF DEATH. A MASON'S SON, HE SETTLED HIS DIFFERENCES
AND NEVER SAW HIM SINCE, MAYBE FUNERAL.

I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT HIM TO BE ' AGNOSTIC ' BUT
HE WAS ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO ' WON'T WALK
AWAY WHEN HE WAS TRYING TO EXPLAIN SOMETHING.
HE WAS IN THE ' ETHER,' WISH I LISTENED WHEN I PUT
THE IB'S IN A NEW BOTTLE.

AND EVEN THOUGH, HE ' MIGHT ' EVEN END UP BEING
CONNECTED WITH THE OTHER ASSHOLES WHO HAVE
HOUNDED ME, HE WAS STILL THERE TO THE END, AND
DESERVED BETTER, FOR THE WORK HE DID FOR THE
COUNTRY, AS ALL ' REAL ' VETS DO.

THE PAINTING WAS OF THE ' RAGMAN'S ' DEATH ' IN
ALBUQUERQUE, NM; BURNT TO DEATH ON A MATTRESS.
A HOMELESS MAN, BOTH PARENT'S ARTISTS, DECEASED.

MY GRANDMOTHER AND SOME OF MY FATHER'S FAMILY,
AFTER MY MOTHER'S DEATH. A PROMISE KEPT. THANKS-
GIVING OR CHRISTMAS.


G49/G *I DON'T MUCH CARE ABOUT EL PASO AND FT. BLISSES IMMENSE BLACK, AND OTHERS,
DRUG PROBLEM AS TO DISTRIBUTION, THAT'S THE PRESIDENT'S PROBLEM.

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VIRGINIA

WHEN I WAS TAKEN TO AN APPOINTMENT TO CHECK MY HEARING, I HAD A BAD EAR ACHE; A ' CUSHION ' WAS PLACED IN MY LEFT EAR UNDER A FLAP OF CARTILAGE AND SKIN. WE PASTED ' TRUMP ' CASINO TO THE RIGHT AND AT THAT TIME IN '85, THERE WERE WHITE WOODEN SLATED BUILDINGS TO THE LEFT BEFORE WE GOT TO THE DOCTORS OFFICE, THE TURNS AND QUESTION " THEY LET YOU WEAR THAT DIVERS WATCH? " A SEIKO, A PRIDE OF MINE, SALE WAS OVER, BUT MY FATHER'S KNOWLEDGE OF LAW TOLD ME TO ASK FOR SALE PRICE, MORE THAN HALF OFF. THIS IN ATLANTIC CITY.

VIRGINIA ST. AND ' MARYLAND,' STREET OR BLVD. VERY CLOSE BY.

" HOW COULD HE POSSIBLY HEAR THAT," SHE SAID. A FEMALE'S VOICE. I THOUGHT IN MY HEAD. FOR SOME REASON I WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT SOMEHOW THIS OCCURRED DURING AN ' MRI,' BUT I KNEW THAT THIS WAS NOT THE CASE, I HEARD ALL I ' THOUGHT.'

DURING THE ATTACKS THERE WAS A SOUND, A LONG ' VARRING ' IN PITCH AND TONE, I STARTED ' COPYING IT.' A FEMALE SAID TOWARDS THE END, " IS HE COPYING THIS? " A FEW SECONDS LATER, MAYBE TEN OR SO, IT STOPED. 2007-08, BUT I HAD IT.

BUT I HAD IT.

I WAS IN A DEEP, SELF HYPNOSES.

WHEN THE CUSHION WAS PLACED IN MY EAR, THERE WAS NO DISCOMFORT, YOU COULD HARDLY FEEL IT, IT COULD NOT BE FELT.

EVEN IF EXAMINED, NO ONE FOUND IT, OR DID NOT TELL ME. CONSTRUCTION EAR PLUGS GAVE ME PROBLEMS, AS WELL AS ' CUE TIPS.' BUT OTHER THAN THAT THE ONLY THING THAT MIGHT OF ALMOST ' DAMAGED ' IT WAS THE GUNSHOT IN ALBQ., WHILE DEFENDING MY HOME, I COULD ' FEEL WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE INNER EAR OR BONE ' PUSHED TO THE FRONT OF THE EAR CANAL, AND THE TOP OF MY HEAD, I HAD TO PUSH BACK DOWN ' CRUNCH FROM WITH IN MY SKULL ' UNTIL ' IT SEEMED TO BE IN PLACE.' SOME TIME AFTER ALL THIS MY HAIR WAS SO
MATTED, SEEMINGLY WITH BLOOD, YET WHEN I SHAVED MY HAIR, ALMOST IN ' TRANCE ' I THOUGHT I SAW NONE. PROBABLY DIDN'T. I SAW NO APPARENT WOUND, BUT ' I HAD COMPANY.' I KEPT HEARING " YOU NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR."

I ENDED UP DATING ONE. ONE OF THE FIRST MOVIES PAULA AND I WATCHED WAS ONE WITH DUSTIN HOFFMAN WHO FENDED OFF HOODLUMS TO PROTECT HIS GIRLFRIEND AND NEARLY WENT CRAZY, I REMEMBER NOT TRUSTING, BUT ALSO, WELL I GUESS SOMEONE KNEW WHAT HAD HAPPENED.

STEVEN LAWLESS, ONE OF MY KINDA FRIENDS, A LAWYER I WENT TO AFTER PATRICK K. WARE POINTED HIS HAND TO HIS HEAD AND TWISTED IT, AND I HEARD " EARWIG " WITH THAT SATANIC NEAR SMILE.

I DID NOT TELL MR. LAWLESS THAT, BECAUSE IT SOUNDED ' CRAZY.' YET WHEN THE DAMNED THING FINELY BURST OR BROKE ON A BUS, AND THE TWO PIECES CAME OUT OF MY EAR, BLOODIED. THEN LATTER WHAT ' EVER ' THAT WHITE THING THAT ' NEARLY ASSUMED SHAPE OF HUMAN,' UNTIL THE IPOD WAS TURNED OFF, THEN SIX LEGS, AND ABSOLUTELY WHITE. ' THE CONVERSATION ' FROM IT, WHEN I WENT FOR TISSUE TO KILL IT, IT WAS GONE.

I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE IT BEFORE; YET I KNOW WHAT IT WAS ' SUPPOSED ' TO LOOK LIKE.

ABSOLUTE ' WHITE.'

BACK THEN, BEFORE ' YOU AREN'T THE ONLY ONE.' 2007-06, SOMEHOW, BACKWARDS.

THE REST AS FAR AS THE AUTHORS....' LEAVE THAT MAN ALONE! '  FEMALE " HE'S AN ARTIST."

TWENTY YEARS WITH THAT G_D DAMNED THING IN MY EAR. THANKS GUYS. POLITICIANS, BEWARE. BECAUSE WHEN THAT ' CAPSULE ' IS PUT IN, YOU JUST ABOUT CAN'T FEEL IT, THEN SOMEHOW, ' IT'S COMFORTABLE, ' AND FORGOTTEN.

AND YES, THIS AFTER ' SIMON SAYS,' LAST MAN STANDING." SIMON SAYS ATTENTION! " AT EASE. SIMON DID NOT GIVE THAT COMMAND! HIT THE DECK! AND GIVE ME... UNTIL TWENTY MINUTES OF SIMON SAYS THEY DID PUSH UPS, TWENTY MINUTES WHILE I WAS LAST MAN STANDING. UNITED STATES COAST GUARD.

SO, MY LIFES FUCKED. I KNOW THIS. LITTLE GREEN MEN. THE PUBLIC IS SO FUCKING DUMB.

FROM 2007-09, " KEEP AN EYE ON HIM, ' SEE HOW HE TAKES A SHOWER LONGER THAN HE NEEDS' " PURIFICATION."

ONLY ONE OF THE ' RUNNING COMMENTARIES,' AS I WALKED, DRESSED, SHIT, PISSED, ATE, EVEN PRIVATE MOMENTS. WELDED, UNTIL ' NEW YORK,' AND WORD SOMEHOW SPREAD, THE REPETITION OF SOME SONGS WELL BEYOND THOUSANDS AND ' MANUAL,' NEVER SYNC IPOD. AND RESTORE AND UPLOAD AGAIN.

I FUCKIN TRYED TO STAY IN THE USCG, BITCHES, ' YOU DIDN'T TRY TO WARN ANYBODY ABOUT WHATEVER WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.

OTHER DAY WHEN I DECIDED TO STOP, ONE STANDS OUT ' ACKMEN,' ( FIVE OTHER ' HITS,' CAN NO LONGER REMEMBER ) SURE SPELLING IS WRONG, OPPORTUNITY CENTER, NOW ' HAY RIDE,' HAY RIDE WAS BEFORE ALL THE NUDES ON THE BLOG PAGE, INCLUDING CHILDREN 6 YEAR OLD, AND WHO DO YOU THINK THESE SICK FUCKS ARE ' COPYING,' WELL, IF THE RVERS WEREN'T WORKING FOR THE UNITED STATES, THEN FOR THE BENEFIT OF WHOM?

NOT THE AMERICAN PEOPLE, AND FURTHER MORE, CATHOLIC CHURCH, ARE YOU SO FEARFUL OF THE TERRORIST TO BEND SO MUCH TO THE HOMOSEXUAL MOVEMENT THAT THAT POOR SON OF A BITCH THAT I REPORTED TO CRIMES AGAINST CHILDREN, AND YOUR OWN SIN'S, YOUR PRIESTS, THAT YOU SUPPORT THE ' OTHER ' OCCUPANCY AS TO THE HOST? SEXUAL GROOMING WITH/TO CHILDREN WITH ADULTS, GOSH MAYBE GLORIA STEINMEN SHOULD BE POPE.

SHAME THE ' SHIT ' ON YOU! I'M SORRY, EBOLA...HOW MANY ' PARASITES ' DO WE HAVE TO ' ADAPT ' TO?

AT DR. CELL AFTER I BOUGHT THIS PIECE
OF SHIT, I GOT ANOTHER RECEIPT, I HAD
THOUGHT THAT I LOST THE FIRST. A POLICE
OFFICER, MEXICAN, CAME IN AND SAID THAT
HIS DAUGHTER'S PHONE WAS STOLEN AND IF
THE OWNER HAD SEEN ONE LIKE HER IPHONE,
I MYSELF REMEMBERING HAWAII AND THE
OTHER ' MEXICAN,' MAFIA COP, JUST CON-
TINUED TO RESET MY PHONE ON ACCOUNT
THAT I HAD TO CHANGE THE NUMBER ALSO.

THE POLICE OFFICER TOOK A PICTURE OF ME
AS I DID THIS.

WELL AFTER PUTTING UP WITH THE PED.'S WHERE
I LIVE AND ALL THE OTHER BULLSHIT AND EVEN
THOUGH 275.00 IS ALOT OF MONEY WHEN YOU
HAVE NONE, WELL THIS IS WHAT A K-BAR DOES
TO THE ' ICON ' THAT EVERY CRIMINAL WANTS.

THE ABSOLUTE SHIT THAT YOU HAVE TO PUT UP WITH
IN EL PASO IS BEYOND COMPARE.

TODAY I'M GOING TO FT. BLISS, MAYBE THE ARMORY AND
SEE IF I CAN GET A BIGGER BACKPACK, EL PASO'S FAGOTS
AND APPLES HAVE HAD THEIR FUN; ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

ON THE STREETS FAGS ARE USED AS WELL AS PAGAN
WITCHES TO MESS WITH THE MINDS OF ANYONE THEY
SEE FIT. SAY A WORD ABOUT THEM OR THE DRUG DEALERS
THAT ' EMPLOY ' THEM, AND THEY JUST FUCK WITH YOU.

THAT IS THE REALITY. CHILDREN RUN PAST THE ADDRESS
THAT I LIVE AT. MOST ARE TOLD TO BY THEIR PARENTS,
I UNDERSTAND THAT MUCH SPANISH.

DO NOT DO BUSINESS WITH DR. CELL YOU MIGHT RUN
INTO A COP ON THE ' TAKE.'

I WILL PROBABLY DO THE SAME WITH THE COMPUTER TOO,
CAN'T LEAVE IT ANYWHERE. BUT NOW YOU KNOW HOW LONG
I'VE BEEN AT THIS.

THE SCULPTURE WAS ENTERED THREE TIMES, ONE TIME IT
WAS ' DISALLOWED,' I NEVER GAVE UP. PAULA HUGHSON
PAID FOR A TRUCK THE LAST ATTEMPT AND IT FINALLY
MADE IT IN THE NEW MEXICO STATE FAIR; NO ONE WOULD
LOOK AT HER FACE, THOSE WHITE EYES.

I HANDED OUT FIVE HUNDRED FLIERS, WITH PHOTO'S OF
SCULPTURE, WROTE THE PRESIDENT'S WIFE, UNITED
NATIONS, ABOUT EVERY AMBASSADORS I COULD, SENATORS,
STATE REPS, GOVERNORS, MAYORS, COLLAGES, UNIVERSITIES,
FRATERNITIES, SORORITIES, PEOPLE IN ENGLAND, THE FUCKING WORLD;
PEOPLE OUT OF THE PHONE BOOK, BUSINESS, ARTISTS, YOU NAME
IT AND TV AND NEWS PAPERS, COAST TO COAST AM, AND THE PEOPLE
WHO ATTACKED ME FROM THE GET-GO, FAGS AND MILITARY? FOR
PAINTING WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN? WHO WOULD I OF TOLD?
AND A FAG'S BOY FREIND, A COP, OR THEY THINKING I'M A DRUG
DEALER???????????CHILD MOLESTER??????????

FUCK YOU AND YOUR ' CONNECTED LIBRARY!'

THAT'S HOW YOU DO IT, ONLY THE GAY MOVEMENT LEARNED
AND PRIESTS WHO ' DICK ' CHILDREN; ONE AND THE SAME.

A LAW WAS CHANGED IN NEW MEXICO AND TEXAS, THAT THIS
LITTLE ANT HAD A SAY IN, AND I HAVE BEEN 'FUCKED ' AROUND
WITH BY ' MY ' OWN MILITARY, MY COUNTRY, POLICE AND
THE VERY CHILDREN WHO HAVE BEEN TOLD BY THE
BABY BOOMERS THAT ITS ALRIGHT TO ' FUCK ' ADULTS,
AND ALOT OF WOMEN AGREE WITH THAT VEIW.?????!

THEN I GUESS THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS RAPE. THAT'S WHO YOU ARE!


ALL OF THIS STARTED AFTER 9/11, " CAN I TAKE A PICTURE OF MY SON ON
THE STEGASORUS ? " PKW. AND MY LANDLORD BRINGING YOUNG GIRLS
AROUND UNTIL MY NEIGHBOR AND I CAUGHT HIM.


BELOW, READ AND UNDERSTAND HOW TWISTED THOSE SON'S OF BITCHES ARE! THIS IS NOT
A JOKE. OR MAYBE BECOME LIKE WENDY DAVIS AND JUST ' CUT 'EM UP,' THAT'S WHAT THE FAG'S WHORES HAVE BECOME IN AMERICA!

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 4, 2008

The Spirt Remains? Part 1

         This country (US) is a corporation. It would have to be to do business. What's the price of your soul? Your children's soul?

          As promised The Protection of Prudence by Conscience, a sculpture is being dismantled.

          One more piece will be made. It should take but a day to construct. I will utilize a sculpture that is already made. It will be altered. Remnants of the sculpture ' Conscious ' will be added.

           I was once told by an ex-patron about four years ago, that the pyramid represents sex. He is an atheist; he is a homosexual. This is his religion.

           While moving a sculpture in the company of  others and 

him, I ' witnessed '  direct influence by a stronger mind to a ' lesser,' weaker mind. A child. What his mouth produced in the way of words, was not what his ' mental projection ' was. Can this be proved? I don't know. You decide.

            The ex-patron also told me just before this period, within the space of a year, that Henry Ford said " it's all about perception. " I guess he could of told me this directly, " without the quote. I felt that I had been ' attacked ' in my sleep, his response was " it's all in your mind." I now know the loose determining constraint within the context of the conversation, fractals. Today I understand it's full meaning regarding human beings. Are there hidden agendas within this theory if accepted? You decide. ( A New Kind of Science, Stephen Wolfram, copyright 2002 -This book has nothing to do with the mind, I don't think. But can ideas be projected and retained on a subliminal level of the conscious? Do we as individuals have a choice? Or is it an illusion? )

            Far right fanatics ( left wing too, for that matter ) have never been people that I have admired. However, the honest ones who record lit. from various cultures and subcultures should be respected. No matter how graphic the opinions and information is. 

             Ms. Magazine, March 1974. Gloria Steinem-Editor. Number 7. " A child's bill of rights."

" Man's evil doings were not evil, but natural, considering the traumas of childhood and the conflict of the id and superego." Does the perception of the child ( not within ) have the same value as the perception of an adult? Are they the same level? What is a child in todays world?

             When I first studied self hypnosis I was soon bombarded with mental attacks and ' self examination.' The intensity was almost beyond my comprehension. I have now separated the identities, interrogations and memories. Some were outside, some were projections.

              A very short time latter, I was ' approached ' by a mind that spoke clearly, in english, with a vocabulary and use of words that I would associate with academia. I eventually looked where I was told ( this happened several times until I gave in ) in the holy bible to the chapter and verse. What little I will remember is a thousand years of light. That I was the one and don't you know who you are. ( he attacked my ego. I remember a female ' voice ' or projection too. ) And an argument in length supporting sexual child abuse with children. " If the child does not know it's sin..." I will say no more. I threw the bible down to the floor and broke the spell or state of mind.

              I have read bit's of the bible since. KNOW THY SELF. That is the first line of defense.

              Whoever that was, had a powerful mind. My ' perception ' served me well. I had a good mother and my fathers lessons served me well. The Bible has no value if someone is using it to project evil and false ideas. It can be thrown down and retrieved later. It is an important book.

               Whoever that was, he and his ' kind ' and like minded companions are SICKER THEN HELL. Do not be mislead. There are laws protecting children. I believe we need stronger laws. The ' higher mind ' ( if you can call it that ) in some people is not what you would expect.

                Major Ed Danes once stated in an interview " You don't want to be in the head of a Pedophile."

                Don't be afraid of them. Do not be afraid of them. The mental door swings both ways when opened. They can be tracked. Do not fear those who should be imprisoned and will.  

                I believe in God, the unnamed. I believe in Jesus Christ. I have seen all arguments for disbelief that one can learn. I still chose to believe. I am also a secularist, a realist. Pedophiles don't belong in ether world.

                

                 Also of note: http://scarleteen.com

                 1. Blinders off: Getting a good look at abuse and assault.

                 2. Emergency Contraception

                 3. Saving Sarah? Or not.

                  I'm fifty fifty in regards to this site, however I have known people when I was younger who might of benefited from a site of this nature. I am pro choice, but I don't believe in mid term and of course late term abortion, it is murder unless the mother's life is in extreme danger. My opinion. For what it's worth, based on what I read, the name of the site is in need of change. In my mind I refuse to refer to young women in terms of ' Scarlet ( A ) letter.' It is an important site based on what I read.

                   I haven't made up my mind with first term.

                       

SUNDAY, JULY 27, 2008

The Sculpture-The Protection of Prudence by Conscience - 2007-?

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FRIDAY, DECEMBER 5, 2008

The Spirt Remains? Part 2

            FEAR AND INDIFFERENCE                                                                   From the time of puberty young women have the eyes of the world on them. So with the young men.

           Pheromones. What do you think goes on in their subconscious and unconscious mind? 

           Young girls and boys who are traumatized ( child abuse ) early in life, some with a large degree of consistency. What do you think goes on in their subconscious and unconscious mind?

           The last week of elite training for various military units in this country, consist of sleep depravation-constant. Live round drills/training-battle field conditions-constant. Among other disciplines ' applied.' In other groups of our military the initial training is longer. Fear of the unknown breeds adaptation, also indifference. What else do you think goes on in their subconscious and unconscious mind?

                                                                 What is Unity?

                                                                 What is culture clash?

                                                                 Survival? 

                                                                 What is the ' 100 monkey effect?

        How would this relate to children? How would the mentality of homosexuality and the swinger group mentality affect children as a whole, as a segment of the human organism ( age would be the commonality addressed ).

        Now think of the computer, a tool, alone in and of it's self (the internet ' can ' be bad enough). After sitting in front of the screen for hours, do you feel as though your brain is jumbled with useless (?) imagery; alot of ' static.' Did you feel a need to relax, ' decompress?'

Where did your mind go? Where did ' you ' go? What was your subconscious and unconscious mind doing? 

                                                                  Were you alone?

        Welcome to the early days of applied CRV and RV. The question is which? Who's applied technique or technology? Yours? Yours or others? The Act of Thinking is Technology In Use.

         The computer is a ' copy.' When you think, and teach your children; are you the leader? Are you thinking and in full use of your technology when applied to information? Information dissolute in substance as intent due neglect. If you are not, I can assure you that others are when your children are concerned. Were you alone? Think of your children. ( Another fact that you may not be paying attention to, We Really Are At War. )

        We as adults need to regulate children properly. The internet is in need of regulation too.

        Do you really want todays youth, a segment of the human organism forever linked with a mindset ( Which one? Mirror; ' copy ' or human, but not yours. ) that maybe completely out of your control. Are you really parents, or the child within? What is indifference? Would you know?

                                                                            

                                                                   Are you conscience? ( Right vs. Wrong )

                                             

                      

                                         

                          You decide.

                                         

        The pedophile organization, NAMBLA, ( Left ), National Man/Boy Love Association promotes the elimination of all age-of-consent laws for all sex. This is violence under the cover of proposed law. Violence to childhood.

Important web sites:

   

        http://www.jesus-as-savior.com

        Sometimes it seems only religious groups know the difference between right and wrong. Important articles on NAMBLA. Inform yourself.

        http://www.worldnetdaily.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=28336           Within the context there is a warning. Obey it. I did. Important information. Article deals with NAMBLA, but from the women who prey on young girls.

      

TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 15, 2009

WHAT IS VALUE? LOOK INTO YOUR CHILDREN"S EYES.

ANOTHER THIRD Tonight at 9:25 ( 9-14-09 ), my landlord at 5413 Alice N.E., and I had a ' sharp, ' heated conversation in my front driveway, about past rent and that I was supposed to have been out of the house on the 6th of last month. I corrected him, it was the 16th. The near impossibly of moving tons of steel and trashing and donating furniture and about a thousand books, has played a factor in the delay, although no legal action has been taken.

He stated that I owed him 20 thousand dollars for back rent. I told him that I didn't. He later recanted his number figure to 16,000 instead of 20 thousand.

I stated that I didn't want him to bring young girls by my house. He stated that he had never done so. He later recanted that " that was years ago."

He stated that he would have the police kick me out. I'm sure ' history ' might repeat itself, if that was the case.

I told him that I didn't want him on the property. He and his friend's have never given prior written notice, for any ' entry,' in the last ten years. If you think about it, this is how millionaires make their money.

He also stated that my comment in my house ( 8-16-09 ) of me blaming or accusing him of setting his white truck on fire was crazy. None the less, it's what he said at the time of the young girl in his truck, a few years back. Thereafter I had to pay rent, if I had cash in the parking lot of a restaurant ( Popeyes's-10601 Central Ave N.E. ), close to Del Norte High School, at least once.

There was a morning afew years back, in which I ' felt ' that I was almost someone else, until I broke the trance. It took alot of effort. I was shredding my receipts for payment of rent, half of almost every receipt that I had, almost everything of a written nature of my existence in this house. My first lease was almost next. Too bad for some personal photos and writing. I almost even destroyed my high school yearbooks and all Art ribbons. It was a picture of and the ' voice ' of my father. A pen and ink drawing. I broke the spell of someone ' telling ' me to do this. If the night before, was like the rest, then I was ' told ' repeatedly to do so. I consider these people and their minds, some in unison, to be in support of, if not pedophiles themselves.

A BLIND OF BRIGHT LIGHT HEARD A CRY

A woman pleading for help, " Please help me," almost a whisper, after being beaten mercifully and pleading for another person. " Please help me." A man and a woman, as if in the ' rafters,' speaking to each other in quite; softly, in observation? Then a climbing down, as if upon a ladder. The woman pleading " will you help me?" A woman's response, though not clear, not understood. The first, " Please don't hurt my baby..." Then the thunderclap of a gunshot. A very short, almost silent sigh, as if a last breath. It was so quiet afterwards.

I was on the ground with a thirty-eight in hand and something on my back, something not seen, in my hallway; heavy. For many years afterwards, in my mind, I've questioned ' the weight, ' the answer almost always " You would of been killed." " You might of gotten one, but you would've been killed." Threw the fear then and reflection now, I wonder if the heavy was my father."

That night was insanity. What people do. Another night, shortly afterwards, another woman beaten again, and taken away. The police were never called, yet the ' static ' was in the air. I ran out of minutes. Knowing that ' Downtown ' was somehow involved, lawyers; a complete loss of faith, yet I believe that freedom without law, is impossible.

A dispatcher once told me, never call us again ( The Police ). A Captain once told me, never call us again.

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The Sculpture-The Protection of Prudence by Conscience - 2007-?

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 16, 2010

NEW DIRECTIONS WITHIN CRITICAL MASS

THERE IS NO REAL ' HOPE '


Old ideas on the subject of ' mind control ' incorporated in ' new technology ' within broadband and it's use nationwide. The turning point and the core of the ' sixth district ' is of little difference in comparison with the capital area in Austin, Tx. The ' mind ' does not exist, but of course that would depend on who's side your on.


The Salvation Army is now being ' repaired,' at the expense of lost souls with no direction other than a ' prison mentality ' of by gone years and egos...from the streets to the Capital on both sides of the aisle. With ' hope,' to borrow a phrase, this will change all the way down to APD. This is needed in order to beat the child abuse problem. Why? Because we are the adults.






All children are GOD'S children, no matter race, creed or color.






I was told in my mind's eye as I looked into the eyes of a man who abused a child in language and in intent full terms as to sexuality. The rebutes were intense. As I stood in disbelief and when he felt my gaze, he stared back and I heard in my mind ' there's nothing you can do.' He then turned with a slight smirk and went inside.




I was about to discuss this with another man behind the lower level desk when I entered the building and I was immediately asked " what age do you think that kid was? " I shifted gears to answer " 15 ? " He replied, " about 14." The ' environment ' was that of a different bandwith.








OLD DEMONS ARE NOT DOCTORS





When I first got into town, all demons knew who I was, thus the play on words is employed here correctly. All art that was either sold or given to the homosexual community, from librarians to lawyers, from doctors to judges, from artists to scientist, even a capt. at the time, a dirty cop, I later found out, in Albuqurque, NM, are but trash, those made before The Protection of Prudence by Conscience, once a sculpture and idea, battled by cowards to protect paychecks and false reputations. I made alot of mistakes with some of the people I met, because I was raised to be ' open mined.' And yet I still try. All of you should of listened to me...I'm a natural when it comes to the ' mind.' But not for you.