THE SILENCE OF CHANGE

THE SILENCE OF CHANGE: HISTORY HAS NO MACHINE ONLY THE CURRENCY OF ' SOUL '

WAR IS SILENCE. WAR IS COMPLETE. WAR IS ONLY SEEN IN AFTERMATH. WAR IS THE RESULT, NOT THE ' PLAYING ' OF ONE'S ADVERSARY AS A CAT WOULD OF IT'S PREY. WAR IS NOT TORTURE. WAR HAS NEVER BEEN IN IT'S PUREST FORM, ABOUT TORTURE. ONLY THE ' RADICAL,' THE ANIMAL OF MIND AND SPIRIT HAVE DONE THAT; THE ' RADICAL ' AND ' LIBERAL ' OF THE LOWEST REALMS THAT THEY PRESUME TO BE THAT BY VISUAL OBSERVATION ONLY, WITHOUT ANY UNDERSTANDING OF THE ' BEING,' THE ABSENCE OF OCCUPANCY OF ' CONSCIENCE.' A MOLDING OF SPIRIT, MIND AND ALL ' SOUL.' THE HERD, THE CROWD, THE MOB WHO FOLLOW ISIS.

THEY, THE COMPLETENESS OF A LACKING OF ' GOOD SPIRIT AND SOUL.' SOAL, PERHAPS BETTER SUITS THEIR DEFINITION. 

I LISTENED YEARS AGO TO ALL ARGUMENTS WHICH DEALT WITH THE ' HANDICAPPED ' OF ' MIND ' AND BODY, AND EVEN PONDERED THE NECESSITY OF THERE EXISTENCE, AND SURMISED THAT WE, ' WESTERN CULTURE ' HAVE BEEN THE ONLY ONES TO HAVE HELPED THE ' HANDICAPPED ' REACH SOME POINT OF CLOSURE AS TO WHAT A ' WHOLE ' PERSON SHOULD BE; HOW THEY WOULD OF BEEN BORN IF THE HELIX WAS COMPLETE. I CONCLUDED THAT I MYSELF MUST BE HANDICAPPED BECAUSE I WAS AN ARTIST. BECAUSE I ' SAW;' I SEE THINGS THAT HAVE NEVER BEEN…AND MAYBE NEVER SHOULDN'T. YET, IN THE LOWER REALMS THE ' PEOPLE ' BUILD MACHINES FROM MEMORY BASED ON BODY ALONE, THE BRAIN ALONE AND CALL IT ' THEIRS,' AS IF god. I THOUGHT I WAS WRONG, INSTEAD. INSTEAD THE TERRORIST EXIST ONLY TO PLEASE THE MISLEAD CHILDREN WHO KNOW NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CHILDHOOD AND ADULT, ENVIRONMENT AND THE IDEALIZED RENDERINGS OF SOME ' GEEK ' IN CALIFORNIA OR CLERIC WHO THINKS HIMSELF ' EXEMPT ' FROM THE TWENTY TO THIRTY YEARS AFTER MOHAMED'S DEATH AND ' IS ' ISLAM. SO MUCH CHANGE, WHY NOT NOW AGAIN, THEIR PONDERINGS.

TO ' ERROR ' IN ' COMPLIANCE ' WITH THAT WHICH IS TAUGHT AS TEMPLATE AND KNOWING, IS SIN; TO ERROR IN COMPLIANCE WITH THAT WHICH IS ' INSECT ' IS THAT OF A NATURE OF ' BESTIALITY ' THAT HAS NOT BEEN SEEN OR DEALT WITH FOR MILENA WE ARE TAUGHT IN ALL SCRIPTURES. YET THE ' INSECT ' MENTALITIES ' OF THE LOWER REALMS STILL REMAIN. THE VERY FEW ' ENLIGHTENED ' CHILD ADULTS WHO TEACH CHILDREN TO TEACH CHILDREN ' THEIR ' MENTALITIES, NO MATTER WHO ' THEIR ' RELIGIOUS ' ELDERS ' WERE OR WILL BE OF THEIR OWN, SEEMINGLY, ' CREATION,' IS THAT WITHOUT ' MIND ' OR FUNCTIONING BRAIN THAT IS SOUND WITH ALL OF THE ' IDEA ' OF HUMANITY.

WE ARE TIRED OF WAR, WE ARE TIRED OF LISTENING TO THE ' ALL ' OF THE VIETNAM ' MAFIA,' WE ARE TIRED OF GOING TO WAR ONLY TO CREATE NEW ONES. WE ARE TIRED OF SENDING MEN AND WOMEN TO WAR ONLY TO WAR WITH OUR YOUTH IN THE ' COMPLETE ' ABSENCE OF LAW ENFORCEMENT TO THEIR ' REGULATION ' OF THE WAR-TORN VETERAN'S DISTRIBUTION OF ILLEGAL DRUGS, TORTURES AND PROFITING OF SUCH IDEAS THAT HAVE ALWAYS ' HELD ' BACK CIVILIZATIONS ONLY TO THEIR god OF MEMORY ONLY AND THEIR ' LEADERS, THE ' ABSOLUTE ' OBSCENE, THEIR god's PROFIT IN ELEMENTS AND BODY AND SOULS.

WE ARE TIRED OF THE RECREATION OF THE ' PRAISE ' TO AND OF TORTURE AND THE RESULTING ' god ' AND ALL PRAYERS TO ' IT.' AS ' IDEA ' THIS ALSO, IF NOT IN ' WHOLE, ' THE NEW ' FAD ' IN YOUTH CIRCLES TO BE AND AS, THE ' NEW ' PHALLIC SYMBOL OF THE ' HEAVENS;' THE ' NEW ' PLEASURE ' OF MIND AND SPIRIT, AS IF JESUS CHRIST OR MOHAMED OR ALLAH ' HIMSELF;' OR JUST SIMPLY PUT, THAT OF HOMOSEXUALITY AS CREATOR. TO ' PLEASE ' FOR ' HATES ' SAKE IN THE NAME OF AN ' UNNAMED G_D OR G_DDESS.' THE BODY ONLY, AS IF ATHEIST IN ABSENCE OF GOOD SPIRIT AND SOUL IN CONSCIENCE AND WELL-BEING OF OTHERS, LIKE MINDED OR NOT.

THE ' NEW ' FORUM OF PLEASURE IS THE BEHEADING OF REAL PEOPLES AS IF ' MODELS ' OF CHANGE, OBSERVATIONS OF AN INDIFFERENT ' MIND SET ' ALLOWED BY THE ' SPIRIT CENTERED MACHINE ' THAT HAS REPLACED THE ' HUMAN HEART,' BECAUSE, WELL…IF THEY ARE NOT MUSLIM THEN THEY MAY AS WELL BE JEW. WHO'S IDEA OF SOUL IS CENTERED IN THE ' CONQUEST ' OF ALL WHO AREN'T MUSLIM AND THE SHIT FOR BRAINS WHO DON'T LOOK DOWN TO ' MASS,' THAT WHICH IS INSTEAD ON THE BOTTOM'S OF CLERIC'S SOULS OF SANDALS AND SHOES WHO SUPPORT AND ' PUSH ' THIS MESS?

THE IDEA OF MEN AND MEN ONLY, ON THEIR KNEE'S, FACE TO GROUND, DIRECTLY BEHIND THE ASS OF ANOTHER MAN'S PHEROMONE ' PARLOR ' AND WASTE REMOVAL ' VALVE,' NOT TO MENTION THE VERY CARPETS THAT I'M VERY SURE ARE NOT CLEANED EVERY DAY AFTER EACH AND EVERY WORSHIP.

I AM VERY CERTAIN, IT WAS NOT G_D ( ALLAH - ARAB AND ARAB CHRISTIANS ) WHO DESIGNED AND CREATED THIS ' DESIGNATION ' OF WORSHIP, AND IT WAS NOT ' WOMAN ' ETHER. THE UNDERSTANDING OF VEIL AS TO EYE IS VERY MUCH UNDERSTOOD IN ' MIND ' AS TO BODY AS TO SPIRIT. ALL POOR WASH THEIR ASS WITH THEIR HAND, REGARDLESS OF TOILET PAPER, NEWSPAPER OR LEAVES; SHOWERS OR BATHHOUSES, IT DOES NOT MATTER. ' INSECT, ' SO YOU MAY UNDERSTAND.

THE TIME HAS COME TO COMPLETELY ' ERASE ' THIS ' MISTAKE ' OF PARENTAL ABSENCE BY THESE CHILD MINDED CRIMINALS AS AN EXAMPLE TO ALL PEOPLES CHILDREN, OF ALL NATION'S CHILDREN, THAT THIS IS NOT ALLOWED, NOT EVEN IN ISRAEL ( POLICE AND SOLDIERS SADISTIC KILLINGS AND BEATINGS ) OR THE UNITED STATES OR CHINA OR ANY CIVILIZED NATION. IF THEY ARE ' ANIMAL,' PUT THEM IN A CAGE WITH FOOD AND WATER, PREFERABLY. 

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. ERASE THE TERRORIST'S CITIES AND GIVE ALL WARNING IN ' EXAMPLE.' THOSE WHO STAYED, GIVE WARING ONCE MORE, THEN ERASE IN ' COMPLETENESS ' AS WAS THE INTENT WITH NEW YORK, AS CRAPPY THAT CITY WAS, AND STOP WASTING SOULS ON ' SHIT FOR BRAINS ' WHO WANT TO ' OCCUPY ' IN TOTALITY THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA.

PRESIDENT OBAMA, YOU ARE MUCH LIKE WHAT MY FATHER ONCE WAS, YET IN ALL THE ' ABSTRACTED IDEALIZED UTOPIAS ' THAT ONCE WERE AND SOME, PROBABLY NEED BE, THE ABSENCE OF ' BEING ' AND ' KNOWING ' OF THE ' IDEALIZED ' MINDSETS ON THE ' BOTTOM ' OF OUR SOCIETY AND THE ' PRAISE ' THAT YOUR RACE GIVES, WILLINGLY TO THESE ' FALSEHOODS ' IN ' TORY ' LIKENESS WHEN COMPARED TO OUR NATION'S HISTORY, THIS IS NOT WHAT YOU OR ANYONE WANTS TO BE REMEMBERED FOR; NEAR IN LIKENESS TO THE OBSOLETE JUDAEA CHRISTIAN ( ? ) ANGLO SAXON HISTORY'S BRUTALITY WITHOUT NEED, IN THE FACE OF THE MUSE OF " ALL MEN ARE CREATED EQUAL." THE CRIMINAL MIND SET IS ANIMAL, BOTH HERE AND ABROAD AND ' FUCK ' PACA ( PEOPLE AGAINST CRUELTY TO ANIMALS ), RESPECTIVELY. 

WOULD WE HAVE KILLED MORE THAN IF WE ' ERASED ' THE TERRORIST CITIES WITH THEM IN IT? WOULD WE OF LOST AS MANY MEN AND WOMEN? DID THE SYRIAN LEADER DEPEND ON THE HISTORIES OF THE WEST TO PLAN AND ENGAGE THE NEXT DECADES OF TERRORIST ATTACKS LONG BEFORE ANY COMPLIANCE WITH WEAPONIZED TOXINS KEPT IN THEIR COUNTRIES ( KUWAIT, IRAN AND SYRIA; IRAQ'S LOSS ) ? HE WENT TO HARVARD. WHAT OF CORPORATIONS? HAVEN'T WE LEARNED? WHY DOES ' FACE BOOK ' WANT TO GO ' DARK? ' NOW, IN RETROSPECT, ONE WONDERS IF BUSH AND POWELL REALLY DID LIE TO CONGRESS? HOW MANY MORE HAVE TO DIE BY ' REMOTE.'

DO WE REALLY NEED THE OIL OF ' ANIMALS ' AND ' THOSE ' WHO WORSHIP THEM AS god AS OUR CHILDREN ARE BEING TAUGHT FROM ' OUR ' MEDIA? IS THERE A BETTER ' COMPLETE ' UNDERSTANDING AND APPLICATION TO THIS ' WAR?' HISTORY HAS ONLY VICTIMS AND THE SADOMASOCHIST HOMOSEXUAL IDENTITY IN CHILD'S PLEASURES IN OUR STATES, VILLAGES, TOWNS AND CITIES LEADERS WHO PROFIT FROM THESE ' MEAT SLAUGHTER HOUSES ( WAR ) ' AND THEN ALL OF OUR SOCIETIES SUFFER IN THE END WITH EXCEPTION TO THE 1 PERCENT WHO PROFIT IN WEALTH ? AND THEN, FURTHER PROFITEERING IN THE VIETNAM MAFIA'S VA, WHERE IF THE SOLDIERS ARE NOT VERY CAREFUL, END UP POOR, LOST IN ' MIND,' ALL THE WHILE THE HOUSES AND SHELTERS THAT GOT RID OF THEM HAVE BOTH THEIR INFORMATION, MONEY AND STOLEN IDENTITIES FOR FUTURE ' RENTS PAID ' UNDER THAT VERY IDENTITY ALL THE WHILE DISTRIBUTING AND SELLING ILLEGAL DRUGS, HUMAN TRAFFICKING, CHILD MOLESTATIONS AND MURDERS, UNDER THE ROOM OR APARTMENT'S RENTER'S NAME ? WELL, WE MIGHT AS WELL BE ' ARAB,' LESS FED AND ON THE STREETS, DRUNK IN ROSE COLORED GLASSES WITHOUT BLANKET AND HOPE.

WHY DO WE ALL HAVE TO BE MAFIA,TERRORIST? IS NOTHING WORKING RIGHT ANYMORE?

HASN'T THERE BEEN ENOUGH ' PROCESS? ' ERASE THE ' RADICALS ' AND GET ON WITH SAVING OUR OWN PEOPLES FROM CORRUPTED LAW ENFORCEMENT AND THOSE WHO CORRUPT THEM ( POLICE ) OR WE MIGHT AS WELL DUMP THE FRAGMENTS OF ' OUR ' CONSTITUTION. BUT OH, NOT ' FACEBOOK ' OR ' GOOGLE,' AND MOST ESPECIALLY APPLE, THOSE WHO WOULD FURTHER THE CRIMINAL'S MINDSET; WE MIGHT AS WELL BE PALESTINE UNDER ALL TECHNOLOGIES ILLUSION OF SKY.

THE MACHINE HAS ALWAYS BEEN ' THE MIRROR.' REMEMBER 9/11.

THE PHOTO'S TAKEN BELOW IN SEQUENCE WITH EXCEPTION TO THE SCHOOL BUS, ON THE WAY BACK FROM BREAKFAST AT THE RESCUE MISSION. NO WORK, NOT MUCH EVEN WHEN I WAS LIVING THERE. EVERYTHING IS ' CONNECTED,' YET IF WE TRAVEL IN FEAR, THEN YOU ARE ONLY A FOOLISH VICTEM AS OPPOSED TO LAZY, LOUNGING SNOB GIVEN YOUR AGES, MOST UNDER 30 YEARS OF AGE. DRUGS RULE EL PASO, TEXAS ONLY BECAUSE PEOPLE ' GLORIFY ' THEM AS IF G_D.

I USED TO KNOW THE OLD ' HOBO ' LANGUAGE ' WRITTEN ON CURBS, MRS. ABBOTT WOULD POINT THEM OUT TO ME. TODAY'S IS MORE SYMBOLIC BECAUSE ' KIDS ' NO MATTER THE AGE, ETHER CAN'T WRITE IN ENGLISH OR CAN'T READ OR WRITE, THE VICTEM'S OF HOLLYWOOD'S GLORIFICATIONS OF THE DRUG DRIVEN POVERTIES OF A WHOLE GENERATION DRIVEN TO NEAR MADNESS AND LOSS DUE DRINK AND ILEGAL DRUGS AND DREAMS OF RICHES BEYOUND ALL COSTS AND CONSCIENCE. NOT TO MENTION THE LOST SOULS IN UNIFORMS.

A DOVE FOUND

WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT

JESUS AND MARY BEHIND

MUCH LIKE LOOKING UP THE CAPITAL'S WALL

I REMEMBER THE MORNING, ALL MILITARY GEAR
BACKPACK AND SACK IN THE DARK-VERY BLACK

ALBUQUERQUE, NEW MEXICO - THE ALPHABET HOUSE - THE WHITE BROTHERHOOD -198?

IF LAST NIGHT WASN'T BAD ENOUGH, THIS MORNING I READ THE ' NEWS ' AGAIN, UNABLE TO EXPLAIN THAT NAGGING FEELING THAT SOMETHING REALLY AWFUL WAS ABOUT TO HAPPEN. I FOUND THIS, BELOW ON CNN.

JANNA WAS A NEIGHBOR WHO HAD A BOYFRIEND AND TWO SONS. THE BOYFRIEND WAS MUCH MORE THAN A MESS THEN THE KIDS FATHER. DRUGS AND ALCOHOL. BOYFRIEND WAS ONE WHO TOLD ME OF SALT BEDS, AND WHO'S FATHER WORKED AT LOS ALAMOS. SILVER BRIEFCASE.

I'M NOT CLEAR AS TO HOW IT HAPPENED, BUT A MAN WHO WAS OVER WITH A FRIEND SHOT AND KILLED ANOTHER MAN, HIS FRIEND, I THINK, MRS. ABBOTT HAD TO CALL THE POLICE TO FIND OUT WHO COULD CLEAN UP THE HEAD MATER THAT WAS LEFT ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND WALLS , AS THE KIDS WERE LEFT WITH THE MOTHER. 

THIS OCCURRED ON THE CORNER OF SILVER AND STANFORD, SE. SIDE.


DURING THE ATTACKS, SEXUAL AND OTHERWISE, FROM ALL DIRECTIONS, I'M VERY SURE BEFORE JOHN CASTLE'S DEATH/SUICIDE, WAS WHEN I THINK THIS WAS OCCURRING. MOST WERE ' MALE,' SOME ' FEMALE,' ONE OR ? ' ENGLISH ' WAS OFF. ' ABOVE ' THE CHUCKLE OF THAT I ASSOCIATED WITH BARTON PRINCE. 

THE ATTACKS WERE FROM HOMOSEXUALS. ONE MORE TIME, THE ATTACKS WERE FROM HOMOSEXUALS.

' THANK G-D WE GOT TO YOU BEFORE THEY DID ??????? ' AROUND TIME OF SCULPTURE, THIRD TIME, WHEN DATING HUGHSON, BUT NOT ' HER ' VOICE. NOT THE ' ESTENE.' ' SOMETIMES PALESTINIANS HELP THE JEWS,' LOOK FOR YOURSELF, HISTORICAL FACT.-GRID WALKER ? SOUND WAS TURNED OFF. ' BROADBAND.'

THE ALPHABET HOUSE WAS THE INFUSION OF ' SKINHEADS ' AT THE TIME. ONE OF THE CURRENT RELATIONS TO THAT TIME FRAMEWORK ( NOT BECAUSE THEY WANT ALL ' CREDIT, ' BUT ID'ED ) IS THE CURRENT ADDRESS THAT I AM AT. UNDERSTAND THIS, THE MEMBERS OF NOT NECESSARILY THE WHITE BROTHERHOOD HERE ARE MORE THAN LIKELY MENTALLY ILL AND CROOKED, AND HOMOSEXUAL; JEWISH. MAKE NO MISTAKE. THE ONE MALE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON IN ANY REGARD. I DO NOT KNOW IF US VETERAN, BECAUSE SO MANY FROM THE STREETS SAY THEY ARE, MANY TO CHEAT AND STEAL MONIES.

IN MY CASE, COAST GUARD, AND NEVER DEPLOYED, AND WHEN THE VA. PULLED THROUGH FOR ME ( RELUCTANTLY ) I WENT TO EPCC TO PAY LAST SEMESTER BILL, AND WAS CHEATED THREE TIMES TO THE TUNE OF ABOUT A HUNDRED DOLLARS.

I AT LAST ON THE BUS BACK HAD A LITTLE TIME TO REFLECT ON THE GUNSHOT THAT MIGHT OF TAKEN MY LIFE AND NO ONE WOULD OF SAID ANYTHING. THAT THE FIRST WELDING CLASS, AND MESSING WITH MY HEAD.

THE SECOND SEMESTER THAT I COULD ONLY TAKE AN ENGLISH CLASS AND A SPANISH CLASS, TO KEEP ENROLLED, AND THE TWO MEXICAN DIMES UNDER MY SEAT, THE HARASSMENT FROM EPCC INSTRUCTORS AND THE SEXUAL REMARKS, IN PARTICULAR FROM JESUS DE LIONE, THE SPANISH INSTRUCTOR. THE THREATS TO MY LIFE FROM BLACK STUDENTS (ONE ), AND OTHER CRAP, NO BOOKS ECT. ANOTHER INSTRUCTOR TOLD ME OF THE SEXUAL HARASSMENT CHARGES THAT DE LION HAD ALREADY FACED AT THE SAME TIME THAT MS. AGUILAR ALLOWED ME TO JUST HAND IN PAPERS. " I DON'T WANT YOU TO GET HURT." BEFORE CONVERSATION THAT HER HUSBAND AND FATHER HAD DIED IN SAME MONTH, BOTH VETERANS. THERE'S PROBABLY MORE, BUT I THINK TH ATS THE JUST OF IT.

WHERE I RESIDE NOW, LIFE HAS BEEN THREATEN BY A COUPLE OF PEOPLE BUT NOTHING HAS EVER BEEN DONE ABOUT OTHER COMPLAINTS, " IT WILL BE REPLACED," YESTERDAY BY A MAN WHO I WAS FIRST TOLD TO BE ' OMAR ' BY THE RESIDENT MANAGER NORMAN ( NORM, ALL THOSE YEARS AGO, DISTANCED BY ABOUT A YEAR ). ' EXTORTION ' OF WHAT, I DON'T KNOW, BUT KNOWING QUEERS IT COULD BE ANYTHING. I'M LEAVING IN A MONTH OR TWO ANYWAY.

IT'S NOTHING BUT A WELL KNOWN DRUG ' BROTHEL ' ANYWAY, DESPITE ' NEW ( ? ) OWNERS ' ANYWAY.

AS FAR AS THE SHOOTING IN ALBQ, NM. THIS IS IMPORTANT, NOT BECAUSE ' YOUR TALKING TO YOURSELF,' BACK THEN, SOME TYPE OF TELEPATHIC OVERLAY, BUT OF SOMETHING THAT IS ALREADY, I FEEL IN ' PLACE.'

BARTON PRINCE AND NETWORK SHOULD OF BEEN PUT IN JAIL YEARS AGO ALONG WITH RAMSEY AND MOSES.

RECURRENCE WAS WHEN HUGHSON TRYED TO ' TAKE BACK THE COOK BRAND COFFEE GRINDER,' SHE WAS VERY SAD, THEN CHANGED DEMEANOR AND SAID IF IT GAVE ME AY PROBLEMS TO LET HER KNOW???? HER ' FEELINGS ' WERE INTENSE.

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Erbil, Iraq (CNN) -- Jana was a 19-year-old in her final year of high school, with dreams of becoming a doctor. Then, ISIS came to her village last August, and her world collapsed.

She described to me in chilling detail, how the jihadis first demanded that members of her Yazidi religious minority convert to Islam. Then they stripped villagers of their jewelry, money and cellphones. They separated the men from the women.

A United Nations report explained what happened next. ISIS "gathered all the males older than 10 years of age at the local school, took them outside the village by pick-up trucks, and shot them."

Among those believed dead were Jana's father and eldest brother.

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A different fate lay in store for the women.

Jana described how girls like herself were separated from older women, then bussed to the city of Mosul.

There they were put in a big three-story house with hundreds of other young women. The men of ISIS came periodically, and chose up to three and four girls at a time to take home with them.

"These women have been treated like cattle," explained Nazand Begikhani, an adviser to the Kurdistan Regional Government on gender issues.

"They have been subjected to physical and sexual violence, including systematic rape and sex slavery. They've been exposed in markets in Mosul and in Raqqa, Syria, carrying price tags."

Perhaps more importantly, Begikhani is also a researcher at the UK-based University of Bristol's Gender and Violence Research Center. According to the field research and testimonials of Begikhani's team, ISIS kidnapped more than 2,500 Yazidi women.

Meanwhile Narin Shiekh Shamo, a Yazidi activist based in Iraqi Kurdistan has compiled the names of at least 4,601 Yazidi women currently missing.

In the first month after the mass abductions, Shamo says she was receiving calls and messages from up to 70 different hostages a day. Now, she can't reach a single hostage.

After more than a decade reporting on conflict in the Middle East, I was still ill-prepared to hear about the scale of this kidnapping and modern day enslavement.

Suddenly, the words of a 19-year-old ISIS imprisoned fighter whom I interviewed last weekend in a Kurdish prison in northern Syria made sense.

The young man, horribly disfigured from bullet wounds to his abdomen and arm received during his year of fighting on the frontlines, described how ISIS attracted fresh recruits with the offer of cash and "wives."

ISIS actually justified its enslavement of Yazidis in its own online magazine.

"One should remember that enslaving the families of the kuffar -- the infidels -- and taking their women as concubines is a firmly established aspect of the Shariah, or Islamic law," the group announced in the ISIS publication "Dabiq."

The Kurdish authorities say they have rescued around 100 Yazidi women, in part through the payment of ransoms to Arab tribesmen who acted as intermediaries.

Thousands of women remain hostage. And with ISIS successfully defending its territory from a loose coalition of Iraqi military, Iraqi Kurdish peshmerga, Syrian Kurdish militants and US-led airstrikes, it doesn't look like a white knight will charge in to rescue these poor women any time soon.

Begikhani said all of the 100 Yazidi women rescued from ISIS appeared to have been systematically raped, likely by more than one man.

The 19-year-old girl I spoke with here in Iraqi Kurdistan was deeply traumatized, and incapable of showing any joy or humor. Her mother and two brothers are still being held hostage by ISIS.

Asked what she would say if she met the 70-year-old Arab man who took her home and ordered her to convert to Islam at gunpoint, she says: "I wouldn't want to tell him anything. I just want to kill him."

Jana says she has given up her dream of becoming a doctor.

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CNN's Gul Tuysuz contributed to this report.