LOOSING THE ' HOOK ' WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT

IN ONE OF MY CLASSES THE TOPICS WERE:

CYBER BULLING
CHILD OBESITY
ORGAN DONNER
AND ANOTHER RELATED TOPIC

' CHASING THE BAIT '

EIGHT YEARS AGO ( CLOSE ENOUGH )

ASH-' SHE SAID '

SOMETHING VERY CLOSE TO ' CAN YOU SEE? ( INSIDE MY HEAD, BUT DEEP )

ASH TREE AT STASSY POOL PARK, OTHER ' OMEGA ' (  A LITTLE OVER TWO YEARS AGO ), ALMOST CAUGHT AND POSTED AWHILE BACK, THE PEDOPHILE MASTURBATING IN THE SHOWER TO THE TEENAGER WITH YOUNGER BROTHER AND FATHER, HE WAS WALKING AROUND NUDE. THE ADULT ' SUIT ' PURPOSELY DIDN'T HAVE THE SHOWER CURTAIN SHUT, AND SAW AFTER HE LOOKED AT THE YOUTH. I LET LIFE GUARDS KNOW, THEY SEEMED MORE INTERESTED IN ME AFTERWARDS. NEVER TRUST THE ' MALE ' LIFEGUARDS SOMETIMES; DON'T WASTE YOUR BREATH IF THEY SEEM GAY, JUST CALL THE COPS. IN BETWEEN BILLS FOR ME AT THE TIME.

' ALIEN '- NONDESCRIPT ' VOICE SAID

IMAGERY - ' EVENT ( GLOBAL ) ' FUCK OFF FAGOT/BLACK MAN

ALL OF THIS, AT LEAST TWENTY ( ? ) LIVING ' PERSONALITIES,' VERY SMART PEOPLE AND SOME BORN WITH OR NOT TAUGHT THAT ' MINDS ' CAN'T TALK

HERE'S THIS INSTEAD

PURITY

A MEXICAN/ITALIAN MAN WHO HARASSED, INTIMIDATED, ROBBED ( BEAT THE HOMELESS, STOLE WALLETS, CASH AND ANY FORM OF ALCOHOL OR DRUGS HE COULD, RAPED OR AT LEAST THE GIRLS/WHORE-SOME SAID HE DID AND ' PIMPED ANYONE HE COULD ); INSPIRED BY THE ' POWER ' EMANATING FROM THE CAPITAL OF TEXAS'S HOUSE ONE DAY AND MIMICKED THE ' REP-' DAMN NEAR WORD FOR WORD, COMMANDING THE MAN ON THE BUS TO TAKE HIS WALLET WITH ID FOR USE IN THE ' UNDERGROUND ' MARKET....MET HIS MATCH ONE NIGHT.

A ' CHUBBY ' WHITE MAN WHO WAS FILLING UP HIS TRUCK WITH GAS, FINALLY HAD ENOUGH WITH THE VULGAR SHOUTS, " GIVE ME MONEY," AND THEN " BITCH," THAT HE BACKED UP HIS THREAT ( DEFENSIVE MEASURE ) AND SQUIRTED GAS UPON THE ABUSER. WHO THEN RAN WHIMPERING. " WHY DID YOU DO THAT? "

I WITH CELLPHONE IN HAND, NUMBERS HALF ' DIALED,'
TALKED TO THE ' VICTIM,' " YOU ALREADY MADE YOUR POINT, IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE TO CHASE HIM DOWN."
HE STATED HE WAS AND ALTHOUGH HE COULDN'T STILL ( ! ) FIND HIS CIGARETTE LIGHTER HE LEFT ' BURNING OFF STEAM.'

I SAW THE ' ITALIAN MEX ' LATER, HE WASN'T THE SAME PERSON.

THE PURITY OF THAT MOMENT, I WILL NEVER FORGET. SUCH A SIMPLE SOLUTION TO A PROBLEM; A ' CRIMINAL.'

THERE WAS A ' BEAUTY ' IN AND OF THE ' EVENT,' AND REMEMBRANCE OF THE SILENCE OF INDIFFERENCE, YET MEMORY SERVED ME WELL, YOUR REALLY NOT ' ALONE,' AND THERE IS NO ' JOKER,' NO ' SPIDERMAN,' OR ANY OTHER GARBAGE DEFINING TODAY'S CULTURE, JUST THAT ' WHISPER ' OF SPIRIT, THAT ' VOICE ' OF CALM THAT IS NOT YOUR ' OWN ' UNTIL LEARNT UPON THE ' THEN ' MINUTE ( NOT.2 SECOND SHIT ) ' WHEN YOU JUST SAY NO. 

THEN THE BATTLE WITH THAT ' LIVING SPIRIT '....OF A REAL PERSON'S MIND BEGINS. ALL THE CHURCHES WILL NOT TELL YOU THIS AND I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT A OR THE ' IDEA ' OF A ' GOLEM.' ANOTHER WORD FOR A ' PERFECT ' SOLIDER.

I HATE ' CUNTS ( BODIES WITHOUT MINDS THAT DON'T QUESTION ),' MALE OR FEMALE. I DO NOT LIKE MOST MEXICANS AND NEGROES, THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE. MY SKIN IS ' WHITE,' AND FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH, I DON'T LIKE MANY WHITES EITHER.

I ADMIRE PUTIN BECAUSE HE SAID WHAT NO AMERICAN PRESIDENT WOULD ' UTTER ' BECAUSE OF THEIR ' PURSE STRINGS.' AND HE DID IT WITH AN AMOUNT OF ' ELEGANCE,' AND THE THIRD WORLD IS LISTENING. THEY REMEMBER THE MOST RUTHLESS INDIFFERENT OF  THE ' SERPENTS.'

AS FOR THE ' BITCH ' IN HAWAII AND THE/MY RESPONSE REGARDING MY BROTHER AND MY KIDNEY, HOW THE HELL DOES ANYONE KNOW THAT THE WHOLE THING WASN'T A SET-UP ? 

WELL HERE IT IS, SET AND UP.

WHAT I SAW HAD VERY LITTLE TO DO WITH MY FATHER OR THE ' CUNT ' WHO OWNS THE WHITE THREE GRACES IN ' QUILT.' HE DIDN'T HELP ME OR REFER ME TO A LAWYER IN ARIZONA OR ONE WHO COULD PRACTICE LAW IN THAT STATE. HE'S JUST ANOTHER ' RACIST PIG.' MORENO.

NOW HERE'S WHAT WASN'T EXPECTED, ONE BACK OFF.

WHY ?

IT WAS DEMOCRATS WHO WERE ASKING ' WHY EDUCATE EX-CONS. AND ALOT OF THEM, WHY ' ELECTIONS;' WHATS TO BE ' COMPROMISED. WHAT DOES IT MEAN,...EDUCATION, ACCESS TO COMPUTERS, BOOKS, JUST ABOUT ANYTHING DEALING WITH ' COMMUNICATION.'

I ' INTERRUPTED ' IN MY ( NOT ' OURS, THIS WAS CONSTANT, THEN ' COPIED ' BY OTHERS ) MIND, BEFORE MY FATHER'S HEART SURGERY, " NO ONE THOUGHT THE DEMOCRATS WERE THE NAZI PARTY."

DURING THIS TIME I TOLD MY FRIEND T.J. TUCKER, " THE LAST PLACE YOU WOULD WANT A REMOTE VIEWER IS IN JAIL/PRISON."

YOU STUPID FUCKS.

THOSE OF YOU WHO WERE ' PLAYING ' WITH MY PHONE THEN, ' HAVE FAMILIES ? ' SECOND STRIKERS ? '

OR ARE THE KIDS GONNA STILL SELL DRUGS

AFTER LOOKING AFTER THE BUS CAMERA HARD, AND LISTENING TO THE BUS DRIVER, JUST ABOUT OPENLY COMMENT ABOUT AND IN APPROVAL WITH THE MEXICAN/ITALIAN BECAUSE THAT ' VICTIM ' WAS WHITE; HER SMILE.

THE STATE OF TEXAS APPLIED ' PLASTIC ' OVER AND TOTALLY COVERED THE PINK GRANITE. IT'S PRETTY MUCH ' QUITE ' NOW.

AS FOR THE OLD NEIGHBORHOOD AND THE COLONEL, I DIDN'T GO TO NORTE DAME OR UT AUSTIN TO FIGURE OUT WHAT HAPPENED, I KEPT READING, I ASKED QUESTIONS, I LOOKED DEEPER INSIDE MYSELF THAN 99.9 PERCENT OF THE US DOES AT ANY GIVEN POINT AND I FOUND THE TRUTH. I WENT BACK IN ' TIME ' ( I WAS ' WARNED NOT TO GO BACK TO MY MOTHER'S DEATH BED WINDOW- THE ' PLANT ' - MAN WITH THE WHITE BEARD WAS NOT ME - SO FUCK YOU AGAIN - SLIGHT FOREIGN ACCENT AND BLURRED, ONE EXCEPTION THOUGH, AND THAT ' TRUTH ' IS MINE-YOUR NEXT ' VICTIM, MAYBE PAY ATTENTION NEXT TIME, GROUP, PHD'S-MILITARY-THEN THE ' GANGSTERS ) TRUTH HURTS, THIS ISN'T A NOVEL, THE ARMY WILL NEVER EXCEPT ANY RESPONSIBILITY AND IF IT EVER DID, IT WOULDN'T REALLY MATTER A GENERATION DOWN THE LINE WHEN ANY LAWSUIT CAME TO BE, ONLY THE CRIMINALS WOULD WIN.

THAT IS HOW FAR I SAW, NOT EVEN MY FAMILY MEMBERS WON!

THE WORST THING THIS COUNTRY EVER DID WAS HAVE WAR AFTER WAR AND LET THE ' SUBCULTURE ' AND WOMEN CONTROL ALMOST IN TOTALITY THE ' SHRINK ' PROFESSION,' OH WHAT WHORES YOU ARE. YOU NEVER HELPED THE COLONEL, OR EX-CONS AFTER RAPE, ' JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOUR QUEER,' IS ALL IT AMOUNTS TOO. PAID OFF.

DELETE THE MEN, HUSBANDS, FATHERS, BROTHERS AND SONS AND ALL YOU END UP WITH IS " SHIT "-BARTON PRINCE, AS HE PICKED UP DOG SHIT WHEN I FIRST MET HIM.

NO ONE CAN ' HELP ' ME...I FOUND THE TRUTH, I CAN'T GO BACK IN ' TIME ' TO CORRECT, OR INTERFERE WITH A MAN WHO WAS VERY EDUCATED, EVEN BEYOND THE WORDING IN THE RV BOOK THAT I WAS READING A FEW YEARS BACK, SKIMMING THE THEORY OF QUANTUM MECHANICS, THEN I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT.

I UNDERSTOOD THEN, A FEW YEARS AGO, THAT THE ' WEED ' THAT I WAS TOLD TO PICK, ' BLINKED ' OUT ( TO WHERE ? ) IN TOTALITY, FOR WHAT SEEMED LIKE...?...TIME JUST ' STOPPED.' 

IT WAS NOT THERE, I DID NOT BLINK, THE SHADOWS WERE STILL MOVING AS WERE THE LEAVES.

MY BROTHER WAS HYPNOTIZED INSTANTLY WHEN I TURNED, I HAD TO SLAP HIM, HE WAS FRIGHTENED AND STUNNED " WHAT WAS THAT? " LOOKING IN THE DIRECTION OF THE WINDOW.

THE FOLLOWING TWO SUMMER'S WERE FAR WORST,...BUT I'VE ALREADY SPOKEN OF THIS BEFORE.

WE WERE JUST KIDS, THEN PRE TEENS AND EARLY TEENS.

YOU CAN ASK FOR THE WORLD, BUT BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU ASK FOR...YOU DON'T NEED TECHNOLOGY FOR WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. 

' SOMEBODY ' WOKE ME UP, I HELD THE WORLD, 'ALL OF YOU DIDN'T RESIST,' IF YOU WANT TO LOOK AT IT THAT WAY, HUMAN COLLECTIVE CONSCIENCE, AND A ROCK DIDN'T HIT THE OCEAN AND DENSER AIR.

WHAT'S ONE TWO THREE SECONDS ( EARTHQUAKES ) IN ROTATION TIME IN COMPARISON TO LAND WATER IMPACT ZONES?

NO ' SUBCULTURE ' HELPED ME, JUST EXTREME ' SILENCE.'

I'VE SAT BY THE OCEAN AND ' WISHED ' FOR DOLPHINS TO SPIN FOR ME, AND WHALES AND EIGHT TIMES OUT OF TEN THEY CAME ( DIFFERENT TIMES OF DAY )...THAT'S THE ONLY JOY THAT I HAVE EVER DERIVED FROM ANYTHING LOOSELY CONNECTED TO REMOTE VIEWING.

I DID WHAT I COULD WITH MY TWO LETTERS TO PRESIDENT BUSH.

THE ' REVOLUTION ' HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MANKIND APART FROM THE WORLD...IT WAS JUST AN IDEA... SALVATION. No shit hole god crap, something real.

Jesus Christ asked of the living waters for his thirst and the living Holy Sea answered through and without his bodies thirst; the living waters was also his sight in and without ' himself ( love, closeness of heart, not of ' just ' man; friendships );' one with G-D. THE SON: THE FATHER.

That simple, no shit religion malarkey; no blasphemy. No cross as threat from the heavens above AS MY ' CONTROL.'

You are born as you are born, entice none outside of your ' likeness,' especially children.

ONE LAST THOUGHT, WE ARE STILL IN THE ' CROSSING.' IT GOES ON FOR ABOUT, I THINK A HUNDRED YEARS. THOSE IMPACTS ARE WHAT ' CREATED US ' WAY BACK THEN; THE OBSERVER WASN'T JUST US, IT WAS SOMETHING ELSE I CAN'T DESCRIBE, I DON'T AGREE THAT IT WAS A ' MACHINE,' ( SEVEN TO EIGHT, THEN FIVE YEARS AGO. )

NO FACEBOOK FOR ME, NO CELLPHONE, NOWAY ' COMMENTS ' ON POSTS ( THEY WERE THERE, PEOPLE CHOOSE TO HACK, OR ' CRASH ' MY COMPUTER ), NO TWEETS AND GRADUALLY NO MORE POSTS. THIS IS ABOUT THE LAST TIME THAT I WILL WRITE ABOUT ' CONNECTING THE DOTS,' NOTHING GOOD EVER COMES OF IT.

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME, I HAVE TO ACCEPT IT AND MOVE ON, AND I WILL.

I WILL NEVER ACCEPT THE ' SUBCULTURE,' GAYS, I ALREADY DEFENDED YOU AND FEMININE MEN, THEN READ A FEW BOOKS ON HOW TO ' CREATE ' THEM ( PUBLISHED IN THE LATE SIXTIES AND THEN SEVENTIES ). NO MORE, I DID NOT AGREE WITH THE ' OVERPOPULATION ARGUMENT ' EITHER AND ALL THE REST OF IT IN REGARDS TO ANY AGE OF ' PERSONS.' 

I COULD GO ON AND ON, I WAS ' ATTACKED ' FOR YEARS. NO MATTER ' YOUR ' TECHNOLOGY OR THAT OF THE HERD MENTALITY OF ' MIND,' EVEN IF ' ARMED.'

FOR THE ' PEOPLE ' WHO HELPED ME, PRAYERS, ' MINDS,' THANK YOU. BUT PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE.

FOR THE SUBCULTURE, WE DON'T SEE ' EYE TO EYE,' EVEN OF LACK OF BRIDGED GAP OF MALE AND FEMALE ' PERSONALITY,' IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW SMART OR EDUCATED YOU ARE, ALL YOUR ' IMAGERY ' COMES THROUGH ONE WAY OR THE OTHER. FOR ME IT IS DISGUSTING. THERE IS NO ' WE.'

AS FAR AS DEAD TERRORIST AND OR SOLDIERS AND ABORTIONS, I SEE NO DIFFERENCE OTHER THAN THE ' WILL.' THAT IS SAY ' TO CHOOSE.' IT DOES NOT BOTHER ME.

WHAT HAPPENED JUST BEFORE BOTHERS ME. THE ' CHOICE.' SOMEHOW IT WAS SMALL CHILDREN WHO I ' ENCOUNTERED ' FIRST. DISJOINTED CHILDREN, SOMEHOW, ASKING FOR MOTHER AND FATHER, VERY REAL SMALL STARS, ORBS DRIFTING. SPIRITS. I DID NOT KNOW NOAH'S ARK WAS SUSPECTED TO HAVE BEEN FOUND, SOMEWHAT FOSSILIZED. THE LIGHTING ALL AROUND AND ALL THAT I PHOTOGRAPHED. IN THE END ALL RELIGIONS WILL BE SOMEWHAT PROVED RIGHT, DATES JUST OFF. SOME MAYBE BORROWED, IF NOT ALL.
' INDIGO ' IS NOT THE COLOR OF EYES, IT IS THOSE CHILDREN BORN ' CLOSE TO GROUND AND SKY.'

THE RAPTURE OCCURRED AND NO ONE PAYED ATTENTION...HAS IT STOPPED?

I JOINED. THAT IS ME. I KNOW THAT I GET NOTHING,' I ALREADY WENT THROUGH IT,' SO TO SPEAK. I KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE, FOR THE MOST PART, I KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER MEET THEM ALL.

I CAN'T POSSIBLY ANSWER OR EXPLAIN ALL THAT I'VE ENCOUNTERED AND ALL THAT I WAS ASKED, AND I'VE NOT EVEN REALLY SPOKEN OF THE ' ROUGES,' RVers. IT'S IMPOSABLE. AND I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MAN MADE TECH AND ' THAT OF THE MIND.'

 I DO NOT WISH THAT I WAS BORN ' ADULT.' SEVEN TO FIVE YEARS AGO, ' YOUR NO ENOCH,' FINALLY ' YOUR ' ANSWER.

' MASKS ? ' WHO KNOWS ?

I THINK THATS IT, FOR NOW. 

I KNOW WHO I AM.