UP-DATED 3 - 6 - 2015 - ALL THE JOHN'S

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" CAGE " - FROM CNN.COM


THERE WAS A PICTURE OF ME IN THE ' LOBO ' NEWSPAPER AT UNM. JOHN CAGE WAS THE OTHER FEATURE ON THE FRONT PAGE.

ELECTIONS, SCHOOL, WERE BEING HELD AND JOHN CAGE PERFORMING THAT NIGHT WHEN THE PAPER WAS RELEASED EARLIER IN THE DAY.........THEY OR MOST OF THEM WERE STOLEN BECAUSE OF THE ELECTION, AT LEAST THAT'S WHAT I WAS TOLD.

I GAVE ONE TO BARTON PRINCE DURING THAT TIME.

THE PICTURE OF ME WORKING ON A SCULPTURE THAT WAS A STAND AGAINST RAPE. NEW MEXICO WAS ON THE ' TOP ' OF THE LIST AT THE TIME, OR WHAT I REMEMBERED WHEN I FIRST GOT THERE WHEN I STAYED AT A FRATERNITY.

3 - 6 - 2015 - THE PIECE OF ART WAS BASED ON SOMETHING I READ IN HARPER'S AND THAT I SAW ON TV. I STILL HOLD TO MY BELIEF SINCE THEN, SIMPLY BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT THAT THE JEWISH STATE DESERVED TO EXIST AND THE MAJORITY OF HER PEOPLES ARE GOOD PEACE LOVING AS WAS MY FEELINGS ABOUT EGYPT AT THE TIME AND SADAT; THAT FIRST STEP TO ' HUMANITY,' REGAINED ONCE AGAIN.

I REMEMBER WHEN THE EGYPTIAN LEADERSHIP WAS GUNNED DOWN; MURDERED.

I ALSO REMEMBER WHEN I WAS TOLD ALL THE NEWSPAPERS WERE STOLEN AND THE COMMENTS FROM MY CONTEMPORARIES IN CLASS, THE BEGINNING OF DIVISIONS AND LOSE OF FRIENDS. " I'M ON ISRAEL'S SIDE," I REMEMBER TELLING SOMEONE. I WAS GIVEN A BOOK AND READ MOST OF IT; EVEN JESSE JACKSON'S OPINION, BUT I DISAGREED. BUT I MADE MY POINT MADE IN ' GENERAL,' THUS THE TITLE AND BLOODY HAND, A REFERENCE TO NEW MEXICO'S ' BLACK HAND,' THE HEROIN CARTEL IN THE NORTH AND BLACK DENOTING ' EVIL ' IN GENERAL EVERYWHERE.

THE ' BIKE ' TIRE DENOTES ' TRAVEL,' SPEED AND ESCAPE BUT ALSO TWISTED IN THE AGONY WAS THE PLAY WITH ' SPACE;' ONE OF THE FIRST TIMES I THOUGHT OF A PIECE THAT SHOULD SOMEHOW ' HANG ' IN THE AIR WITHOUT ANY VISIBLE MEANS OF SUPPORT.......LIKE ' STATIC 'IN THE TREES, LIKE CICADAS, ' WHATS THAT SOUND ? "

THE SCULPTURE WAS ' GREEN,' WITH STAINLESS STEEL ELEMENTS DENOTING JUST THAT, INNOCENCE BUT ALSO ' STATIC.' I COULD NEVER FIND THE PROPER ' GRINDING ' MARKS TO MAKE THE PIECE ' REAL,' SO IT WAS PHOTOGRAPHED, THEN DESTROYED.

WHAT WAS OVER THERE IN THE MIDDLE EAST, HAS ALWAYS BEEN ' HERE,' IN NEW MEXICO, AT THE TIME.

MY ART WAS ALWAYS MEANT ' TO MEAN SOMETHING,' TO COME FROM THE HEART, THOUGH I HAVE BEEN ALWAYS ACCUSED OF BEING A ' ROBOT.'

I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN WHAT I CAN AND CAN'T ( ??????????????????? ) DO.

SOMETHING ELSE, I HAD A BOOK, TIME/LIFE ENTITLED ' ISLAM,' WITH SOME OTHER CRAP THAT I TOOK CARE OF FOR ALMOST THIRTY YEARS FOR SOME ' FRIENDS.' THE BOOK WAS ON TOP OF THE BOX. AN ' ODD FELLOWS ' PIN WAS ALSO IN THE BOX. I SOLD IT ONCE, BUT IT FOUND IT'S WAY BACK TO ME, I BOUGHT IT AGAIN FOR TEN DOLLARS FROM FINEMARK.

I ONCE HEARD RAMSEY AND MOSES TALKING IN A ' RAP,' " MY BROTHER THIS, MY BROTHER THAT." IT MADE MY HEAD HURT, BUT IN IT'S UN WINDING, A SIMILARITY WAS OBSERVED IN MY ' MIND,' AN ' UNDERSTANDING ' BOTH OF A DRUNK AND OF ' HIDDEN KNOWLEDGE,' I UNDERSTAND THE TERRORIST TO A CERTAIN EXTENT. SO I ASK IRAN, HOW CAN YOU STOP WHEN THE ' HEART ' KNOWS NO ' END ? ' ' HOW CAN I BE WRONG ? ' " HOW CAN THE CHILDREN ? " ' THE ENTIRE MIDDLE EAST ? ' IS WAR ALL ALLAH IS ? ' IS THAT THE ONLY PURE FORM OF PROFIT EXCLUDING ALLAH ? JUST THE ' GREY ' OF DUST UPON GOLD, THEN WHY THE INFIDEL'S ' CURRENCY ' AFTERWARDS; IF NOT THE DEATH ITSELF.

THIS IS MY BASIS FOR THE WORTH OF CURRENCY ' THROWN OFF A ROOF,' I DON'T LIKE THEM ETHER, BUT WOULDN'T DOLLARS BE BETTER?

INDIFFERENCE SHOULD NEVER BE A RELIGION, ISIS. SANE HUMAN BEINGS DO NOT KILL CHILDREN AND WOMEN WITH KNOWING INTENT. _________________________________________________________________________________

I STILL HAVE THE NEWSPAPER AND I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING IN THE HOUSE ON ALICE ST. WAS NOT ONLY VIDEO TAPED BY POLICE BUT PEOPLE IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD, WHICH WOULD EXPLAIN PART OF THE ' UNDERWORLD'S ' INTEREST IN THE PAST FIVE TO SIX YEARS. BANDITOS AND ' THEIR ' BOUGHT LAW ENFORCEMENT. LIBRARIES AND POLICE IN TWO OTHER STATES.

 I MUST ALSO POINT OUT THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO BECAME REPORTERS AT THAT TIME, FROM THAT UNIVERSITY. IN ONE PHOTO OF THE NEWLY IDENTIFIED TERRORIST FROM PAKISTAN,SYRIA,PALESTINE AND VISITOR TO THE UNITED STATES, HE LOOKS VERY FAMILIAR; THE PIRATES HAT, AND THAT ' LOGO ' WOULD INCLUDE ALOT OF OTHER PEOPLE IN FIVE STATES, INCLUDING OBAMA'S.

NUMBER 8 AND ' JOHN ' LOOK ALIKE, BUT THE INSTRUCTION WAS GIVEN ' INSIDE, ' OR MAYBE UNDER A ' TENT,' AS HE SLOWLY DECAPITATED HER, A FEMALE, UNLESS ' HE ' ( THE VICTIM ) HAD BREASTS.

THIS HAS GOT ' MASONIC ' SHIT FINGER PRINTS ALL OVER IT. ' SELL OUTS.'

I WILL TRY TO FIND THE PHOTO.

WHEN I ANSWERED THE PHONE, SOMEONE WAS TEARING PAPER UP. THIS WAS SOME TIME BEFORE THE MORNING I FOUND MYSELF TEARING UP ALL FORMS OF RENT RECEIPTS, ONE LEASE, PHOTOS, SOME FAMILY AND I FOUGHT WITH ALL I HAD TO REGAIN ' MYSELF; CONSCIOUS' THIS WAS ALSO AT THE TIME OF SOME OF THE WORST ATTACKS RELATING TO STEVE JOBS, ENDLESS ' PREACHINGS ' THAT HE WAS GAY. ALSO THE GAY RACE, AS ONE PEOPLE AND HOW TO ' HIDE YOURSELF IN THE ASTROPLANE,' ETHER,' BY USE OF SOUND IN PITCH FROM LOW TO HIGH SO THAT ONE WOULD NOT BE RECOGNIZED AND,OR ' PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE ELSE.' I OFTEN ARGUED BACK WHEN I COULD, AND LEFT ' IT,' WHEN " IF WE CAN'T INFLUENCE CHILDREN ( WHEN THEY SLEEP ) THEN HOW CAN WE REPRODUCE?!? " THAT CHILDLIKE VOICE, JUST ANOTHER FUCKED UP QUEER ADULT.   THEN MORE INSTRUCTIONS AS ' HOW ' TO HIDE. I WAS BEING TAUGHT ALL THIS UNWILLINGLY UNTIL I FORCED MYSELF AWAKE,THAT WENT ON FOR YEARS.

ALMOST WHAT I GO THROUGH NOW AT THE MISSOURI STREET RESIDENCE, BUT I KNOW 100% THAT THEY ARE ADULTS. ALWAYS TRUST YOUR BRAIN, YOUR INTUITION. I WAS RIGHT BACK THEN, AND I WAS A ' DRUNK.'

THIS WAS  ALSO AT THE TIME OF SOME BIG BUST AGAINST SOME BLACK OUTFIT, GANG, INVOLVING THE FBI AND DEA ALONG WITH APD IN ALBUQUERQUE. AND THE MEXICAN GANGS IN THE END, I GUESS.* HOME INVASION( MCCARTY'S RENTAL HOUSE, AJ RENTING ) CAME NEXT ON ALICE ST. THEN ALICE ( A REAL PERSON ) SELLING HER HOUSE ON ALICE STREET, ALL FOSSILS STOLEN FROM ALICE'S HOUSE, EQUIPMENT ' KINDA STOLEN ' IN FRONT OF ALICE'S HOUSE, " SECURITY QUESTION " AT ALICE'S WORK PLACE, WHEN I TOLD HER OF WHAT WAS GOING ON ON HER PROPERTY. SHOOTINGS THAT WEREN'T WRITTEN DOWN, SAN MATEO, EARLIER, ROCKET THAT WENT CONTRARY TO CURVATURE OF EARTH TO THE WEST ( WELDING ONE NIGHT), NEW SPY PLANE SAME YEAR ( EARLIER ), I THINK. ON ART BELL, RECORDING OF PILOT ASKING PERMISSION TO CROSS AIRSPACE, BUT LONG GONE WHEN RECEIVED BY A DISTANCE OF A STATE OR TWO WHEN ' PERMISSION ' RECEIVED.

*THE PERSON WHO TOLD ME OF THIS ONCE KNEW THE BLACK COOK WHO WORKED FOR BARTON PRINCE, I HAD A CELL PHONE. BARTON PRINCE, THUS RAMSEY AND MOSES, ' HE ' ALWAYS HAD MY NUMBER IN SO MANY WAYS. AFTER ALL IN THE EARLY NINETIES, HE WARNED ME ABOUT THE USE OF WIRELESS PHONES ( FIRST YEAR, CASA MORENA ). NO SUCH THING AS FRIENDS OR ACQUAINTANCES IN THIS WORLD.

' MOST ' OF THIS HAS BEEN ON THE NET BEFORE PRESIDENT OBAMA'S LAST ELECTION. I WAS AT CASA VIDA DE SAL, OFF OF MONTANA ST, EL PASO, TX. IT IS A SHELTER AND RE-HAB, THE OLD EL PASO ALLIANCE. AN OUTLAW ' HIDE OUT,' OF SORTS, THAT MOST OF THE POLICE DID NOT KNOW ABOUT UNTIL ONE OFFICER KNOCKED ON THE WINDOW OF THE KITCHEN AND I ANSWERED HER QUESTION, " WHAT IS THIS PLACE?," THAT OLD CHRISTIAN SCHOOL HOUSE. A MONTH OR SO LATER I WAS TOLD " BANDITO " IN A WISPER BY A RESIDENT, THAT EXPLAINED WHY AN ANGLO BIKER WHO WATCHED THE FRONT DESK AT NIGHT SEARCHED MY BACKPACK AND ASKED " NO GUN IN HERE, IS THERE? "

MY ' MEMORY ' IS MINE, EVEN ' IMPOSED OR IMPRINTED FROM THE 'ABDUCTION,' BUT YOU CAN STILL FIGHT THEM . WHO THE FUCK CARES ABOUT A ' PALACE ' ANYWAY, WITH EXCEPTION TO THE ' BUILDER?' PERHAPS THE VERY GOVERNMENT WE ' ENABLE,' JUST TO GET EVEN WITH ' WHITEY.'

I CAN TELL YOU ONE THING THAT IS A TRUTH IN ANY COUNTRY ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH. IF YOU HAVE ANY RESERVATIONS ABOUT ANY SECURITY, WHETHER IT BE GOVERNMENT, PRIVATE OR EVEN IN LIBRARIES, PERHAPS, EVEN MOST PARTICULARLY AROUND ' INFORMATION HUBS ' THEN YOU HAVE ALOT TO WORRY ABOUT IN TERMS OF ALL THE ' REMANNING FREEDOMS ' THAT YOU ' WILL ' LOOSE REGARDLESS OF COUNTRY. 9/11 CHANGED ALL SECURITY; THEY ALL WERE ' HIRED,' THE CRIMINALS. THE POLICE AND HOMELAND SECURITY ARE A ' JOKE ' BECAUSE THEY REFLECT THE AUTHORITY ' ABOVE.

I GUESS YESTERDAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO FEEL SORRY FOR THE PEOPLE WHO ISIS THREW OFF THE ROOF IN SERIA. THIS A NEWS STORY THAT I HAPPENED UPON, BUT ALL IT REMINDED ME OF WAS A WHATABURGER MANAGER WHO THREW OFF SOME GUY FROM THE ROOF WHILE HE WAS IN THE ARMY. HE SAID THAT IT WAS SELFDEFENSE. A YOUNG WOMAN WAS SETTED NEXT TO ME AFTER HE STATED THAT, WE REMAINED SILENT. I FELT THAT I WAS WITH ' FAMILY,' THEN AND KEPT MY MOUTH SHUT. THE MANAGER LOOKED FROM HER FACE TO MINE, THEN BACK AGAIN, IN THAT WHATABUGER IN AUSTIN, TEXAS. HE WAS ANGLO SAXION. CELL PHONE, I GUESS.

TOMORROW I WILL MAKE A COMPLAINT ABOUT ONE MORE OF EL PASO'S LIBRARY STAFF WHO INVADES PRIVACY, SPACE AND BODY. THE IMPLEMENTS OF WAR THOSE PEOPLE SUPPORT AND HAVE ' ENABLED ' IN THE HANDS OF CHILDREN GIVES THEM PLEASURE.

THERE'S SO MUCH MORE TO THIS….

FROM CNN.COM

• ISIS images claim to show gay men being thrown off buildings
• Jessica Stern: Antidote to their bleak worldview will be long-term and hard-won

“Jessica Stern is executive director of the International Gay and Lesbian Human Rights Commission. The views expressed are her own.

”

(CNN)The Islamic State of Iraq and Syria is making headlines again. On Wednesday, images began circulating from the city of Raqqa in Syria of a man being thrown off a building, allegedly after a conviction for a homosexual act.

The scene is sickening and horrifying. And it's meant to be, because ISIS is not only killing individuals it accuses of homosexuality -- it is trying to spread terror among people who do not conform to traditional ideas about what women and men should look like, do, or say.

This latest execution is the eighth that ISIS has claimed it carried out for sodomy. In addition, the Syrian Observatory for Human Rights (SOHR) has reported the murders of four more men, also accused of sodomy, who were killed in similar style by ISIS in Syria. ISIS is allegedly also responsible for stoning at least three women in Syria accused of adultery.

It's clear that these chilling spectacles are staged with the intent to terrorize. Some of the men were photographed either being thrown from the tops of tall buildings or stoned or shot to death (and in some cases both). In its social media postings about the executions, ISIS shows victims being brought to a city center, with militants purporting to read from a self-styled "court" ruling before conducting the execution in front of a crowd. A final picture usually depicts a lifeless body.

The militia's propaganda machine gathers local communities and posts images on social media with a clear intention: to warn against any kind of transgression and spread terror.

The International Gay and Lesbian Human Rights Commission (IGLHRC), of course, condemns these acts. But it is also important to note that we have very little information on the executions themselves. Indeed, despite our efforts, and those of other independent observers, neither the accusations nor the exact nature, time, and location of the executions can be corroborated. We know nothing about the victims' sexual orientation or gender identity. Without evidence or independent confirmation, we must therefore be cautious about assuming anything about the individuals involved.

Still, whatever the uncertainties in these individual cases, as IGLHRC and the women's rights organization MADRE have asserted, the public and gruesome nature of these executions, and ISIS's previous threats against those who commit what they deem to be "sodomy," raise concerns for anyone in Iraq or Syria who does not conform to traditional ideas about "proper" women and men.

And the reality is that these most recent executions are certain to heighten alarm and psychological suffering among lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and intersex individuals -- and indeed terrorize the population generally -- in the areas under ISIS's control. For Iraqi individuals who are perceived to deviate from prevailing gender norms, living under the rule of ISIS means living with the constant shadow of a potential death sentence, as pointed out in our report with MADRE and the Baghdad-based Organization of Women's Freedom in Iraq.

Where do we go from here?

There are no shortcuts or easy answers to stopping the violence of ISIS. The antidote to their bleak worldview will be long-term and hard-won, rooted in the tenacity and wisdom of resilient local communities. However, the international community must act urgently to protect lives and help those fleeing violence today. Internal and external resettlement of persecuted people should be stepped up with greater financial support to U.N. agencies and human rights NGOs who work directly with vulnerable people. Meanwhile, applications for asylum by persecuted individuals should be expedited.

We cannot sit idly by while ISIS commits wanton violence in the name of protecting "morality."

THE ARTICLE ABOVE WAS WRITTEN BY JESSICA STERN, AND TO AN EXTENT I AGREE WITH HER, HOWEVER WHEN YOU ARE A VICTIM OF THE GAY ' MOB,' YOUR OPINION'S ARE NOT THE SAME.

I DO NOT LIKE THE IDEA THAT A BUNCH OF SHIT IN THIS WORLD HAS TAKEN MY LIFE'S EXPERIENCES AND PRIVACY TO THE EXTENTS THAT HAVE OCCURRED, ALL THE WHILE A THING LIKE MR. PRINCE HAS ' RUN FREE.' WHY? EVEN MOTIVE IS PRESENT FOR AN ALIBI IN REVERSE.

OUR GOVERNMENT HAS PLAYED ' DUMB ' IN IT'S EFFORTS IN INFORMATION GATHERING. GEE, LET'S SEE, NO PROFIT IN TERMS OF ' MONEY,' BUT ' WORTH ' IN TERMS OF ' EXAMPLED ACTIONS.'

I GIVE YOU 1.00 AND YOU PAY MY ' BROTHER ' IN, LETS SEE, RUSSIA 1.00; ACT OF FAITH IN STRENGTH OF IT'S WORTH. THE KEY IS, HIS MOTHER AND FATHER ARE NOT MINE, BUT GENETICS ARE, EXCLUDING ' FAITH.'

WHAT HAVE WE ' LOST? '

THE GAYS ' SHARE ' A SINGULARITY IN SAMENESS OF EACH GENDER.....

' MY ENEMY IS MY FRIEND,' UNTIL YOU BROUGHT ALONG YOUR ' TEMPLET,' 

ISIS; HOW MANY TATTOOS IN AMERICA AND EUROPE ?

I WILL TRY TO UPDATE AGAIN TODAY....

UPDATED 1 - 6 - 2015 - A GODLESS SKY - THIS MIGHT BE A TITLE TO A SONG. - UNDER CONSTRUCTION

GODLESS NET - SPELL CHECK GONE.

I STUDIED REMOTE VIEWING AND VARIOUS OTHER MIND STUDIES BUT I WAS AN ARTIST FIRST. I WAS AN ARTIST SINCE  BIRTH AS I HAVE BEEN TOLD BY MY PARENTS, MY MOTHER AND FATHER. " GOD GIVEN TALENT " MY FATHER HAD ALWAYS TOLD ME. SINCE BIRTH. IT IS ALL THAT I REMEMBER EXCEPT THE ' SCARY ' TREES OF THE AREAS OF UT AUSTIN FROM THE VANTAGE POINT OF A STROLLER AND THE REAR VIEW FROM MY PARENT'S SHOULDERS; ALL THE BIRDS AND SQUIRRELS IN THOSE TREES.

I FOUND OUT YEARS LATER, REMOTE VIEWING WAS BEING RESEARCHED AT UT IN 1959, AUSTIN, TEXAS.

I REMEMBER THE THUNDERING SCARY WATER THAT I WAS FACE DOWN TO, ON A BRIDGE, THE LOUD VOICE SO ' FOREIGN ' IN WORDS THAT I HAVE NOT LEARNED YET, SEARCHING, SCREAMING, ' PUSHING ALL THOUGHT MAKING TRYING TO UNDERSTAND, WHY? THEN I ROSE. THEN I ROSE ABOVE THE PEOPLE WHO WERE HOLDING A, A WHAT? I COULD NOT COMPREHEND, I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY HELD; A BUNDLE WITH IT'S HEAD LIMP ONCE TURNED DOWN, EMPTY. 

THAT THUNDEROUS VOICE NOW SILENT. THE SILENCE OF THE MOMENT, THE SILENCE OF THE RISE, SO BEAUTIFUL A SILENCE. THE CLOUDS ABOVE IN ' LIGHTED DARKNESS.' THE LIGHT.

9/11

MY NEIGHBORS AFTER THE SHOCK, IF YOU WANT TO CALL IT THAT, THE SILENCE OF INCOMPREHENSIBLE SIGHT OF EVENTS UNRAVELLING IN FRONT OF ME, AS PEOPLE WHERE CHOOSING THE LEAP AND ESCAPE OF SMOKE AND FIRE OVER ANY FEAR OF HEIGHT AND ALL SUMS OF ANY FEARS THAT MIGHT MEET THEM. I WATCHED IN SILENCE AND SLOWLY CAME TO THE REALIZATION THAT THIS WAS WHAT I WAS FIGHTING. WHAT I SAW TO THE RIGHT OF TED KNOONING HEAD, AN AIRPLANE CRASHING INTO THE SIDE OF THE SKY AS WE WERE TALKING, OR THE ABSOLUTE NAIVETY OF A NASA EMPLOYEE WHO ONCE STATED THAT " THE WORLD CONSCIOUS ' WOULD NEVER ALLOW SUCH A LARGE SCALE ATTACK AGAIN AFTER THE FIRST AND THEN OKLAHOMA. THOSE BRIGHT EYES IN TOTAL CONFIDENCE. THE VOICE OF TJ TUCKER, A PHYSICS SCIENTIST HEARD MY CONCERN AS TO THE NASA GUY NEVER " REALLY HAVING BEEN ANYWHERE OUTSIDE THE UNITED STATES," AND THEN HIS REASSURANCES THAT " IT'S BETTER THAT WAR IS OVER THERE." I HAVE HEARD THE THE VOICED OPINIONS OF MEXICANS AND CANADIANS ALIKE IN REGARDS TO THE UNITED STATES AND HER POLICIES AND HER TREATMENTS TO OTHER NATIONS PEOPLES, AS WELL AS READ THEM IN THEIR NEWSPAPERS AND UNDERSTOOD TO AN EXTENT THE POINTS OF VIEW OF ALL.

" LETS ROLL," EPCC 2013.

AFTER THE VISION OF THE AIRPLANE AND LACK OF MEMORY OF WHAT TED AND I WAS EVEN TALKING ABOUT THAT DAY, A RETIRED POLICE OFFICER WITH DARK ' EVIL ' EYES WAS SPEAKING TO HIM WHEN I NEEDED MORE WELDING RODS. AFTER HE LEFT, TED MADE A COMMENT AS TO " I GUESS YOUR NOT THAT INNOCENT ( I REALLY CAN'T REMEMBER THE WORD ) AFTER ALL," AND I LOOKED AT HIM AND ASKED HIM WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT. HE NEVER ANSWERED ME, SOMETHING ABOUT THE COMPANY THAT I KEPT BUT NO ANSWER IN EARNEST.

SOME OF THE BEST ART THAT I'VE EVER MADE WAS WHEN I WORKED AT KNOONINGS, TED WOULD ALWAYS ASK ME ABOUT BARTON PRINCE AND I WOULD ANSWER WHAT I COULD, BUT REALLY DIDN'T KNOW THAT MUCH OUTSIDE OF HIS ' EGO.' " DO YOU THINK HE'LL BUY THIS ONE?" HE WOULD ASK. " I DON'T KNOW," I WOULD OFTEN ANSWER, HE WASN'T THE ONLY ONE THAT I TRIED TO SELL MY ART TO. IT WAS ALWAYS ' PICK AND CHOOSE,' SEE WHAT HAPPENS; TRY AGAIN, AND PRICE GOES DOWN, AND ALOT FARTHER THAN YOU THINK. A FEW HUNDRED.

THE ONLY ONE OR RATHER TWO, PIECES OF ART OTHER THAN TWO IN COLLEGE THAT I EVER GOT ' ASKING PRICE ' WHERE THE TWO PAINTINGS DEALING WITH 9/11.I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT I GOT, BUT I HATED SELLING THEM, BUT DIDN'T WANT TO ' HANG ' THEM FOR VERY LONG. " DON'T YOU HAVE ANY FEELINGS? "

 THE BIGGEST MISTAKE THAT I EVER MADE IN MY LIFE WAS THE DECISION OF A SCULPTURE OVER A PAINTING AND NOT ENTERING THE TWO PAINTINGS. I WOULD LOOK AT IT AND THINK FROM CONCEPTION TO THE ' MAKE BELIEVE ' FINALE PIECE, THAT ALL ARTIST FACE, HOW THIS ' THING ' FROM THE BEGINNINGS OF A VERY BAD ' MOTEL HANGING ( THAT'S WHAT THE ORIGINAL CANVAS WAS ) ' COULD BECOME THIS SEPARATION OF SPACE WITH LITTLE ONES AND ZEROS AND ACGT, OR RATHER ' HUMAN GENOME ' SYMBOLICS ' THAT I HAVE ALWAYS REGARDED WITH WHISPERINGS FROM ' CHILD LIKE ' SLICES OF BRAIN TISSUES FROM AROUND THE WORLD AS TO ' WHY? ' THEY WERE SEPARATED, NEVER TO BE.

THIS IS THE RIGHT HAND SIDE OF THE PAINTING
THAT WAS ENTERED INTO THE NMSF, I THINK,
BUT IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER, THE HOVER
VAC WAS IN THE WAY, BUT I CLEARLY REMEMBER
WHY I DIDN'T MOVE IT. THE PAINTING SCULPTURE
HAD A CONDOM IN IT AND SHOULD HAVE ' FBI ' IN
IT TOO, SOMEWHERE. I DID WORK ON THAT PIECE
FOR ABOUT A YEAR. WELD IN THE DAYTIME, PAINT
AT NIGHT.

THE AMOUNT OF PAINT, PRINTING, GLASS, YOU
NAME IT IS IN IT; MONEY, PROBABLY EVEN TAPE
FORGOTTEN.

THE BENCH TO THE LEFT WAS MADE OF PARTS
FROM THE BLACK AGNESE RESTAURANT AND DATES
THE PAINTING IN PROGRESS PRIOR TO 9/11.
THE CHAIR WAS BOUGH AT THRIFT TOWN, I
GOT THE PRICE DOWN FROM 29.00, TO 15.00
OR 20.00. THE TABLE, ALL THREE 10.00.

THE PHOTO'S ON THE WALL ARE FRIENDS.

I WILL NOTE THIS, IN THE RV, AND FIGHTING THE
REMOTE INFLUENCING AND RV, I AM WELL AWARE
OF THE DANGERS INVOLVED IN POSTING THIS. BACK
THEN AND NOW.

HAVING ALMOST DEID A FEW TIMES, BEING SHOT
AT, HOUNDED BY MY OWN ARMY AND POLICE AND
ALL ' RIGHTS MESS AROUND WITH,' HELPED ME MAKE
THE DECISION AS THESE FUCKS GET AWAY WITH
EVERYTHING, TO PUT IT ON THE NET; I'VE NEVER
HAD ALOT OF MONEY AND WHEN I DID, I WAS BEING
FUCKED WITH BAD FROM PEOPLE WHO SHOULD
HAVE BEEN IN JAIL A LONG TIME AGO.

THANK YOU JANYA DAVIS.

AT THE TIME OF 9/11, I WATCHED THE PEOPLE AND TOWERS FALL, IN SILENCE, HARDLY HEARING ANYTHING THAT THE ' TALKING HEADS ' SAID AND LOSING ALL RESPECT OF THEM AND THEIR COMMENTARY. PETER JENNINGS WAS ALL I COULD STOMACH. THE NEIGHBORS, SOME WITH FAMILY I THE EAST, NEW YORK, WOULD SAY " DON'T YOU FEEL ANYTHING? " " DON'T YOU FEEL? " AS I TRIED TO EXPLAIN WHY THE TOWERS FELL SO FAST. THE METALLURGY AND MELTING POINTS OF DIFFERENT METALS. EVEN THE PBS PROGRAM STATING THE SAME SO MANY YEARS LATER WHICH SAID THE SAME THING, I ' ARGUED ' WITH ALOUD AND IN ' MY ' MIND; THEY JUST SAID IT BETTER.

LIKE THE PHOENIX OF LEGEND I STAND
ALONE IN SPITE OF FATE. THAT IS THE
NAME OF THE SCULPTURE BEFORE IT
WAS SOLD TO BARTON PRINCE, IT TOOK
A YEAR, AFTER I PUT IT ON THE NET. I
HAD CABLE AFTER 9/11.

THE SIGNS,.....JUST SIGNS.

I FOUND OUT LATER BOUT RANDOM NUMBER GENERATORS, CD PLAYERS AND DVD PLAYERS TOO, AND THE ' ENORMITY ' OF THE ' SPIKE ' THAT I WAS FIGHTING MOST ESPECIALLY IN THE LAST MONTHS OF THE PAINTINGS.

AS I CONTINUE TO ' FALL,' I HAVE VERY LITTLE TO WRITE OR SAY. I COULD WRITE ABOUT ANY GIVEN SUBJECT AND NEVER REACH THE VAST AMOUNT OF KNOWLEDGE OUTSIDE OF THE WHOLE OF THE ' HUMAN ' PERSPECTIVE. IT IS JUST SMALL, SIMPLY PUT. THE ' EGO.' THE PEOPLE AS OPPOSED TO ANIMALS, YET WITH SAMENESS OF FORM IS SIMPLY ' SMALL.' UNLESS YOU HAVE ' TRAVELED ' THERE IS NO WAY TO EXPLAIN IT OTHER THAN IT IS ' COMPLETELY ' OUT OF ' BODY.' THERE IS LITTLE FORM AND QUITE; SILENCE. ALL THAT BEYOND ' NOISE.' WE ARE SO SMALL AND ONLY COPY OURSELVES AND PRAISE INSECTS. THEY WERE HERE FIRST. WE ARE THE LATE COMERS.

ON MY WELDING HELMET THERE WAS THE 21 INFANTRY DIVISION, GHOST UNIT, THEN AN ENGLISH PORN STAR WITH NO HAIR ' BELOW,' THEN P-13, WHICH PUSHED THE BAR AS TO THE P-12 THE HIGHEST OF THE BABYLON 5 SI FY PROGRAM. THEN THE FOUR ' CIRCLES,' WHICH DENOTED THE FORTH DIMENSION. I TIED UP THE ' SHAVED BEAVER ' WITH TWO PAINTINGS OF SUCH, ABSTRACT THAT BARTON PRINCE BOUGHT, MIGHT OF BEEN THREE. THEY WERE SMALL PAINTINGS. I COULD NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW THAT BEAUTIFUL WOMAN PICKED THAT ' OCCUPATION.' KNOWING THAT I READ SOMEWHERE THAT ' THEY ' OFTEN ' ESCORTED ' OTHERS TOO, I GUESS MOVIES, FIRST SHOWINGS AND SUCH. THE ' PRISES ' OF THE WELL TO DO OUTSIDE OF HOMELESS KIDS.

AND LASTLY, THIS ' BROTHER ' SHIT, I AM NOT AND NEVER HAVE BEEN YOUR ' BROTHER.' THE EXPRESSION ' SHOOT,' WHICH MY FATHER STOPPED USING IN THE LATE SIXTIES OR EARLY SEVENTIES, IS STILL PREVALENT IN HAWAII TODAY. I REMEMBER THE ' WALKING TREE ' AND THE SEED I SWALLOWED.

FOR THE NEIGHBOR WHO LIVED NEXT TO JASON, A WOMAN WHO SURVIVED A HORRIBLE TRAFFIC ACCIDENT, I TOOK THE TIME TO ' CARE.' DIDN'T YOU READ THE SIGN. ' FOREIGN AND DOMESTIC.' DIDN'T YOU ' UNDERSTAND? I EVEN HAD ONE WARNING IN THE NMSF, A PAINTING AND I NEVER, NEVER STOPPED, I NEVER STOPPED……..

" IF YOUR LIKE US, IT'S MEMORY. " BARTON PRINCE 1988-89.*

I REMEMBER, " FALL ON YOUR SWORD," THEN THE YELLOW COUCH, WHO I THOUGHT WAS BUSH AND WIFE AND SOMEONE ELSE, AND THAT VOICE THAT I HAD SO UNWITTINGLY INVITED INTO ' MY HOUSE,' BY WAY OF SELLING A SCULPTURE AND THE COLLEGE TOUR A YEAR OR TWO EARLIER AND BARTON PRINCES COMMENT " HE'S THE ARTIST, THE ONE WITH THE SAMURAI PONYTAIL," AS I WELDED A SMALL SCULPTURE ON THE POLL OF HIS DRIVEWAY. THEN THE MASON IN HAWAII WHO PULLED ON MINE. THEN MARIE'S COMPLETE REVERSAL REGARDING HER FATHER AND REASONS FOR HER PARENTS DIVORCE AND WHAT ' HE ' DID, I GUESS ' MONEY ' BUYS FORGETFULNESS, ALTHOUGH, " HE'S MY FATHER." SHE SAID AT THE TIME. FOR PHIL AND MARIE, THE HAWAIIAN SYMBOL, THE PETROGLYPHS, ' MESSENGER ' WAS DESTROYED, BUT YOU ARE ARTISANS. NO ILL WILL TOWARDS THE HAWAIIAN PEOPLE, BUT IT WAS NOT RIGHT, I FOUND NONE WITHOUT THE PHALLIC SYMBOL BETWEEN THE LEGS IN BOOKS.

AND FINALLY, I SAW A VET REP YESTERDAY REGARDING RENT AND UP GRADE, THEN THE PROCESS AND HAVE BEEN INSULTED FOR THE LAST TIME BY ANOTHER VET. I WILL FILL OUT THE FORM FOR UPGRADE IN DISCHARGE. AS FOR THE COMMENT REGARDING THE WARS " AT LEAST YOU MISSED ALL THAT," THE LAST TIME I RETURNED FROM THE VA, I DIDN'T SEE ALL THE EMPTY YARDS AND BOMBED OUT BUILDINGS IN ' MONOTONE ' AND STATIC, AND NOT A SOUL AROUND IN THE ' SOUND ' OF THE BUS, NOR WHEN I WENT TO THE CHURCH TO PICK UP ' FOOD.'

YOU NEVER LISTENED THE FIRST TIME, AND ' HOLLYWOOD  WAGED IT'S TAIL,' AND ALL THE OLD ' MEN ( ? ) ' WANT MORE AND MORE, BUT GIVE NOTHING IN RETURN EXCEPT UNWANTED ' SWANS.'

I NEEDED SOMEONE TO HELP ME ' WALK ' THROUGH IT, I HAVE NEVER BEEN GOOD WITH GOVERNMENT FORMS AND ALWAYS GOT INTO TROUBLE, SOMEHOW……… IT'S A REAL MAZE. AS FOR THE REST, IF SOME ONE ' SHOOTS AT YOU, YOU SHOOT BACK, AND ALL THOSE AROUND HIM OR HER, WHO SHOW THE SAME INTENT.' IT'S SIMPLE, IT'S NOT HARD.

ATTACKS

AS FAR AS MY FATHER GOES, AND ALL THAT BULLSHIT YEARS AGO ( 2007-2008, AND EARLIER ), " YOU WILL DENY ME TWO TIMES BEFORE THE CROW SOUNDS," AND THE INTENSITY OF THE ARGUMENTS FROM TOP AND BOTTOM, SIDE TO SIDE, 360, THEN THE ' BROTHER SHIT,' THEN THE LUCIFERIANS THEN EVEN PEOPLE POINTING TO THEIR FOREHEADS AND IT WAS " YOUR FATHER, MONTHS AFTERWARDS, GRADUALLY GROWING IN NUMBERS.

" THE ' ALL ' OF YOU WHO WERE ' FOOLED,' FUCK OFF FAGS AND ' COWS ' AND THAT BITCH POPE SOON STOOD DOWN WHEN HE SAW THE ' LIGHT.' EVERYBODY WAS FOOLED WHEN BROADBAND WAS TURNED ' ON,' AND THE SATAN WAS WAITING FOR YOU ALL. DO I HAVE TO PAINT A ' PICTURE AGAIN? ' I'M MOVING AT THE END OF WINTER, IF NOT SOONER.

AND TODAY I FIND THAT MY FORMS FOR ' UPGRADE OF DISCHARGE ' WERE STOLEN FROM MY BACKPACK, MUST OF BEEN THE DAY WHEN ALL THE SLOBBER WAS LEFT ON THE COMPUTER BAG AND BACK PACK, BUT THAT'S ALRIGHT, BACK TO THE DAMN VA TO PICK UP OTHERS. ( UPDATED 1-6-2015 ) MY MOST RECENT TRIP, I SAW VERY LITTLE IN THE WAY OF ' SIGHT ' OF THE BOMBED OUT YARDS AS FAR AS YOU CAN SEE, AND ALMOST DIRT ROADS. I REPLACED THE DD FORM 293 THAT SOMEHOW WAS ' LOST ' FROM MY BACKPACK.

AND NO, I WILL NOT WORK FOR ' YOU,' TATTOOED FLAME ARMS, DO I HAVE TO MENTION ' THOR'S HAMMER ' AGAIN WHILE THAT PLASTIC TOY IS AROUND? I SAID ' NO ' TO THE MEXICAN AMERICAN SIDE TOO.

AND PANTHER, THIS IS OUT OF CONTROL.I HAVE PUT WITH VET'S FOR YEARS WHO HAVE STALKED ME PROTECTING ' SOMEONE ' WHO THEY ' PROBABLY ' DON'T KNOW, AND MOST IMPORTANT, YOU WERE NOT THERE AND DID NOT SEE, HEAR OR ' WITNESS.' MUCH LESS ENDURE THE TORMENT THAT IS DELIVERED TO THE ' ENEMY ' BEFORE AN ATTACK IN MOST CASES IN MODERN WARFARE!

FUCKIN SKYNET ?!?! ALBUQUERQUE AS IRAQI THEATER!?!?

THEN EL PASO, AUSTIN AND ARIZONA!?!? THEN AUSTIN AGAIN AND EL PASO?!?! THEN HAWAII?!?!

 WHO WERE YOU PROTECTING? 

THINK REAL HARD ON THAT!

SOMETHING WAS SAID BY A MIDDLE SCHOOL KID WHO DRESSED LIKE A FAG WHEN I WAS WELDING HIS GATE. I SUGGESTED HE CUT THE TREE LIMB THAT OVERHUNG THE SIDEWALK, " SOMEONE CAN CLIMB UP AND GET IN " HE SAID NO.

A RADIO DISH IN THE BACK YARD, AT LEAST 10 FEET WIDE USED FOR " I MOSTLY USE IT FOR RADIO," AND HE DID ALL THE WIRING IN THE HOUSE NEXT DOOR, EVEN PHONE LINES. I TOOK UP THE CARPET, AND ALL THE PHONE GAMES. " I SEE YOUR IN THE CLOSET AGAIN," HOW WOULD HE HAVE KNOWN ABOUT THE CLOSET I WAS ' TOLD ' TO GO INTO ' CAUSE SOMEONE WAS IN THE HOUSE WHEN I WAS A KID THE TIME WHEN EVERYONE WAS GOING CRAZY JUST BEFORE MY FATHER CAME BACK FRO DALLAS.??? HOW MANY EXPERIENCES DOES A PERSON NEED TO LABEL ALL THIS AS A ' NETWORK.' ????

ONE PAINTING HAS A CONDOM, FBI, ' IRAQI REPUBLICAN NATIONAL GUARD.' WHY DIDN'T YOU USE IT???????????????????  THEN AGAIN I GOT ATTACKED!
I DIDN'T EVEN, AT THAT TIME, KNOW WHO THE IRAQI REPUBLICAN NATIONAL GUARD WAS.

HOME GROWN TERRORISM! ASSHOLES, THAT'S WHAT YOU EMPOWERED!

AND ALL THOSE PAINTINGS ARE PROBABLY GONE. MOST OF THE PHOTOS ARE. WHY NOT PROTECT US INSTEAD OF YOUR FUCK BUDDIES, SAUDI PRINCES AND FELLOW LAW ENFORCEMENT AND MASONS? WHY?.......really, why? AREN'T WE ' AMERICAN ' ENOUGH.

CRIMINALS GET MORE ' RIGHTS.'

BELOW ARE ENLARGEMENTS ( A BIT CLEARER ) OF THE LAST PHOTO'S OF THE PAINTING THAT WAS NEVER ENTERED AT THE LAST MOMENT AND THE ' DEMONIC ' WHISPER FROM THE ' WEST ' IN ALBQ. NEW MEXICO.

THEY WERE MAILED TO THE GOVERNOR OF NEW MEXICO.

THE ' I ' IS WHAT GAVE THEM AWAY.
I WAS GIVEN A SMALL COMPUTER OR
BOUGHT IT, IT WAS A MAC. I COULDN'T
MAKE IT WORK. RAMSEY GAVE IT TO
ME. ALL I REMEMBER FROM IT WAS
MARCO, WHAT EVER THAT WAS.

HE WAS THE THE NAME OF THE PERSON
WHO SHOWED ME THE CIRCLES OF STONES
OF ALL THE FRIENDS WHO HE HAD LOST
AND SHOWED ME ' MINE ' WHEN I
DIED.

I GAVE THE COMPUTER TO A TENANT
AT CASA MORENA APTS. IN ALBQ. NM,
HE WAS A GRANDFATHER WHO SAID
HE WOULD GIVE IT TO HIS GRANDSON.

THE EIGHT WAS ? AND THE THREE, WELL
I'M THE THIRD. I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT
KINDA, OCHO IF THAT IS HOW EIGHT IS
SPELLED IN SPANISH, A DERIVATIVE OF THE
NAME OCHOA.

ONLY ' TIME 'TRIALS ' WILL TELL, BUT THEN
THERE'S THE ' LIE.'

FORWARDS OR BACKWARDS, SIDE TO SIDE, UP
OR DOWN. I TOOK THE OATH TO THIS COUNTRY
AND FOR THIS COUNTRY.

THE WALGREEN'S WHERE ROLLS OF FILM
WENT MISSING AND THE MASONIC SHIT
ON THE DVR AND PRINTS.

THE OLD LAMP MAC WHEN I WAS BEING HACKED AT
CASA VIDA BEFORE OBAMA'S VISIT PRIOR TO THE
LAST ELECTION.

M-9 ? IN THE GREEN TO THE LEFT OF ACTRESS.
THIS TAKEN AT CASA VIDA. ALL THOSE POSTS
GONE.

WHEN TAKING FORKLIFT TRAINING AND ALL THE MENTAL
SHIT I WENT THROUGH FROM BERT B., WIFE AT EPCC AT
THE TIME. I WAS STAYING AT THE RESCUE MISSION, THIS
BEFORE THE GUN SHOT TO THE CITY BUS THAT I WAS
RIDDING, ABOVE THE GLASS AND SEAT.

BERT WAS A ' HEAVY HITTER,' AND VERY GOOD, BUT
FALLING APART BEFORE HIS DEATH. WIZARD ABOVE HIS
COMPUTER AND DOUBLE EAGLE WHEN TURNED ON.

IF I LET THAT SON OF A BITCH HAVE HIS WAY THE
FORK LIFT WOULD OF GONE THROUGH THE WALL. IT
EVEN ' EFFECTED ' THE INSTRUCTOR WHO WAS AT HIS
SCREEN A QUARTER OF THE TIME. I DID VERY WELL,
BUT HAD NO MORE ' ENERGY ' TO LEARN THE UPRIGHT
FORKLIFT. I OFTEN WONDER WHO TOLD HIM, HOW HE
FOUND OUT?

THE INSTRUCTOR CHANGED THE NAME ON MY CERTIFICATE.

FUNNY THING ABOUT BERT, AN OLD MAN KNEW OF HIM AND
BOYS, TOLD, THEN VISITED HIS DAUGHTER AND WAS KIDNAPPED,
HIS NECK BROKEN AND BEATEN WITHIN AN INCH OF HIS LIFE.

HE LIVED, BUT WILL NEVER TELL ANOTHER SOUL......AGAIN.
THAT IS ' SHELTER LIFE.' I CAN'T TELL WHICH, THE SAME
WILL HAPPEN.

ED DANES, THESE ARE YOUR RVER'S, AREN'T YOU PROUD?
THE UTILIZATION OF ALL THAT ' CAPTIVE ' BRAIN POWER.

 " ST LOUIS " AND THE LAUGHING LAWYER AT
EL PASO LEGAL AID, AND COMMENTS ABOUT
COAST GUARD. PURPLE TIE.

I FINALLY RECEIVED THIS AT CASA VIDA, ALL
MAIL AT ADDRESS OF OPPORTUNITY CENTER
WAS NEVER RECEIVED. ALLEGED PEDOPHILE
IN CHARGE OF ALL MAIL.

SAW SOME IN GARBAGE IN KITCHEN, TOLD TO
LEAVE ALONE AND " GET OUT OF HERE " SAME BAG
AND BAGS LIKE IT, AT LEAST TWO TIMES TAKEN
AWAY FROM DUMPSTER BY ' LITTLE OLD LADY.'

SHE NEVER LOOKED IN THEM.

*THERE IS A FAGOT IN ALBQ. NEW MEXICO WHO WALKS AROUND NEAR NUDE AND WHO, IF HE'S NOT CAREFUL, MY FATHER IS VERY MUCH STARTING TO LOOK LIKE. A FRIEND OF MINE WAY BACK SAID MOST QUEERS AND PEDOPHILES THINK OF HIM AS ' G_D,' IF NOT JESUS CHRIST, THAT OF THE MAN WALKING AROUND NEAR NUDE AND PROMOTING HIS ' CAUSE.'

AND TO MAKE THINGS WORSE, THANK YOU EL PASO FOR STEALING MY BIKE. HOPE MY KNEE'S MAKE THOUGH.

COPYRIGHT 2015 J.BARTHOLOMEW OCHOA III

THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, THE NEAR TOTALITY OF BEING ASHAMED OF BEING AMERICAN

THE NEAR TOTALITY OF BEING ASHAMED OF BEING AMERICAN.

FOR OUR LEADERSHIP TO HAVE LET A BUNCH OF FAGOTS, FROM DAMN NEAR DAY ONE' ' FUCK ' THIS COUNTRY SO COMPLETELY FROM THE FIRST ATTACK TO THE SECOND ATTACK ON THE ' TWIN TOWERS,' WIKI LEAKS AND THE NEXT ONE TO COME.

I TOOK SOME TIME AFTER I  GOT MY V-RAP ( I FOUGHT FOR ) AND WENT TO PAY MY BILL ONLY TO BE ' FUCKED AGAIN ' TO THE TUNE OF 100 DOLLARS PLUS, IN PENALTIES THAT I WAS TOLD " SHOULDN'T BE THERE." ON THE TRIP BACK ON A CITY BUS, A ' BACK FIRE ' AND MY MIND WENT BLANK WITH HENRY STREET'S VOICE ' GET DOWN BOY!,' ' PUT YOUR DAMN HEAD DOWN! ' THE HAZE THEN LEFT ME, I WENT TO A CHINESE RESTAURANT AND PIGGED OUT FOUR A MONTH AND A HALF. AND I THOUGHT ABOUT THE GUN SHOT AND BULLET HOLE ABOVE MY HEAD AND OTHER TIMES THAT I WAS ALMOST KILLED, INCLUDING THE COAST GUARD. I TRULY WISH THAT I ' REMEMBERED ' THE INCIDENT ON LEAVE, BUT I DIDN'T SEE THE GIRLS HEAD AND FURTHERMORE, I DIDN'T EVEN REMEMBER THE INVOLUNTARY REFLEX AND FLASH OF SCALPEL WHEN SPEAKING TO THE CAPT. IN THE HOSPITAL .WHAT I DO REMEMBER IS THE WARNING FROM A COAST GUARD NURSE, A WOMAN, " CYA, CYA, AND I MEAN IT." THE MEN JUST LAUGHED. THEN I WAS ON A PLANE. I HAD NO IDEA WHAT IT ALL WAS ' REALLY ABOUT AT THE TIME.'

PTS IS A BITCH.

NOT ONE BEER, .......I ALMOST REGRET IT, AND HENRY STREET DEAD NOW, I HAVE LEARNED THAT A COUPLE OF ' FRIENDS ' HENRY AND PAMELA ENDED UP BEING NOT ONLY FRIENDS THAT YOU COULD DEPEND ON, BUT ' PEOPLE OR SOMEHOW ANGELS ' WHO SHOWN THE LIGHT, SO I COULD ' SEE.' THEY WERE JUST THERE AT THE RIGHT TIME.

IN COLLEGE IN NEW MEXICO, A BUDDY OF MINE ASKED IF BP WOULD LIKE TO SEE THE SHOE HORN CRAB HE MADE OUT OF STEEL. I TOLD HIM THAT HE WAS PROBABLY BETTER OFF NOT DOING IT, THEN YOU'D HAVE TO DO THE THINGS I DID..................LETTING GO OF YOUR ART. FUNNY THING, BACK IN COLLEGE, OLD FLETCHER AL MOST BROKE MY HAND IN SOME SORT OF ARM STRENGTH GAME; I NEVER GIVE UP.

I CAUGHT A MAJOR TERRORIST, FROM THE SCULPTURE WITH THE ALUMINIUM  EAGLE ON IT, TO DAMN NEAR ALL THE PAINTINGS ' IN ' FUTURE EVENTS DEPICTING ARAB FAGS BEING DIRECTED BY ARAB FAGS IN THE TOTAL DESTRUCTION OF THE ' AMERICA'S.' INCLUDING THE UNITED STATES.

Jayna Davis - Guests - Coast to Coast AM

http://www.coasttocoastam.com/guest/davis-jayna/6372

Shortly after 9:02 AM on April 19, 1995, Jayna found herself staring at the smoldering shell of the Alfred P. Murrah Building with a photographer by her side  ...

YEARS AGO I LISTENED TO TWO PROGRAMS WITH JANIS DAVIS, A REPORTER IN OKLAHOMA AND HER STORY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN MINE.

I F MY LIFE WASN'T WORTH ANYTHING ON A BUS, IN A HOSPITAL, DEFENDING MY HOUSE, SAVING A LIFE AND ALL THIS IN THE UNITED STATES THEN, ? ALL THE WHILE ' YOUR FAGGOTS ' ARE SELLING OFF AND DESTROYING HER THEN????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

I KNEW A MONTH AHEAD OF TIME WHO I WOULD TAPE WHEN ' LISTENING ' TO ART BELL. I HAD TWO HUNDRED TAPES. JANIS AND SOME WOMAN WHO DESCRIBED ' WAR GAMES ' THAT CIA USED.

THOSE TWO WERE THE REALIST OF ALL. LYNCH AND BLOOM WHERE ' EDUCATED ENTERTAINMENT.' HOWELL WAS ON TRACK WITH EARLY FORMS OF TELATRANSPORTING, NOTHING ' ALIEN ' ABOUT IT. WHAT'S LATIN AMERICANS WORTH ANYWAY? NOT MUCH.

ONLY MACHINES,' AI ' WITHIN TIME FRAMEWORKS OF RELIGION-FUCK YOU AGAIN.
IN THE FUTURE I SAW, NO WOMEN WERE ALIVE. WHAT WAS IN THE LABS, WELL IF THATS WHAT YOUR INTO.

MY LIFE HAS NO VALUE.; SO YOUR FUTURE. IS 12.