MY LAST PAPER

LAST PAPER

MY LAST PAPER ENGLISH CLASS WILL DEAL WITH DEPLETED URANIUM AND SOLDIERS TO SOME EXTENT, PO OR CON I HAVEN'T YET DECIDED.

I DID FIND ONE THAT WILL REMAIN WITH ME FOR AWHILE, ABOUT A UNIT OF SOLDIERS WHO ENTERED AN AREA AND TOLD LITTLE OF THE DANGERS, AND ALMOST AS SOON AS THEY LEFT, ONE BY ONE...DIED. I WAS WAS NOT ABLE TO FOCUS ENOUGH TO KEEP THE SITE. TO MUCH GARBAGE GOING ON.

THERE WILL BE ANOTHER ATTACK, TERRORIST OR OTHERWISE. I AM NETHER PO OR CON; SCHOOL OR BUILDINGS, WHO KNOWS.

IN EL PASO, TX, A BORDER TOWN, IT'S ALL ABOUT DRUGS. THE FEELING HERE IS IF IT'S WHITE WHO ARE INJURED, THAT'S ALRIGHT, BUT THAT'S THIS ENVIRONMENT. THE ' EMPOWERMENT ' OF EX-CONS IN THIS CITY FOR A YOUTH IS THAT THE GANGS ARE RECOGNIZED SOLDIER'S AND ALSO WHO SHOULD BE TREATED WITH THE SAME RESPECT AND BENEFITS THAT THE UNITED STATES MILITARY RECEIVES AND THE HOMOSEXUALS IN IT. IF YOU LISTEN, YOU KNOW IT AS FACT. THAT'S EL PASO, TX.

MEDITATION

' FREEDOM FIGHTERS,' AS RECITED YEARS AGO " WE ARE FREEDOM FIGHTERS," IN ALBQ., NM, HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THIS IN THE FUTURE. PERHAPS FORGOTTEN ON THE SURFACE BUT NOT IN THE UNDERWORLD. THIS WAS PART OF THE ' RAPE ' OF JOHN CASTILIE. THE ' BACKGROUND ' WAS REAL IN THE SENSE THAT I NO LONGER ' SAW ' WRITING OF WORDS THAT WERE ' DESCRIPTIVE.' IN MY MIND'S EYE, OR BETWEEN OR UNDER MY EYELIDS.

THESE ATTACKS WERE ' DOMESTIC.' WHAT TRIGGERED THIS WAS A RECALL OF A CONVERSATION WITH TED KOONING OF ALBQ. NOW DECEASED, WHO WHEN TALKING TO ME ABOUT ' WHATEVER,' TO THE RIGHT OF HIS HEAD AS IF THE SKY WAS SOMEHOW ONE TONE IN DIFFERENCE FROM A POINT ABOVE, DRAWN DOWNWARDS. A PLANE CRASHED IN THE SKY. WHILE TALKING WITH TED, I LOOKED BACK AND FORTH AS IT HAPPENED, THEN IT RAPIDLY FADED. HE WAS DEAD A FEW MONTHS LATER, I THINK, OF CANCER. I WILL LOOK IN MY CALENDER FOR THE DAY OF HIS DEATH.

THERE WAS A MAN OF MIDDLE EASTERNER DECENT, A MUSLIM WHO BUILT A RIFLE FROM SCRATCH, MACHINED TO THE PRECISION PRODUCT. I WAS BUILDING SCULPTURE, AND BUYING STEEL AT THE TIME. THIS WAS BEFORE 9/11, A FEW YEARS, AND AT THE VERY LEAST, ONE YEAR BEFORE TED'S DEATH.

THE LAST OF THE TRIGGER, A DEATH BEHIND THE HOUSE ACROSS THE FENSE, TO MY LEFT, IF FACING THE FRONT DOOR AT 5417 ALICE, NE. ALBQ. NM. SOMETHING HAPPENED AT A PARTY, SOMEONE TAKEN. A WOMAN, I THINK. THESE WERE NOT POLICE.

NOW TO MAKE SOME OF YOU FAMOUS IN THE ART WORLD. AT THE ' VERB ' AN ART GALLERY, WHICH TOOK UP THE SPACE OF THREE WALLS, CANVAS STRETCHED. A FACE OF A MAN WITH A BEARD AND A CIGAR IN THE UPPERMOST LEFT HAND CORNER, IS A GOOD RENDERING OF JOHN WHEN ' UNKEPT ' IN THE LAST OF HIS DAYS. AT THE TIME NEAR HIS DEATH, PERHAPS ' AT.' HE LOVED CIGARS.

I DIDN'T PAINT THE RENDERING. THE HUMMINGBIRDS WERE MINE AND MICE, AND WOMAN IN STATE OF PASSION.

AN ENGLISH MAN KEPT IT, A MUSICIAN. HE KEPT IT BECAUSE HE FELT IT WOULD BE WORTH SOMETHING ONE DAY. ' VERB ' WAS ON CARLISLE ST.

I LEFT EL PASO AUGUST 5 FOR HAWAII, I CALLED FRIENDS ABOUT WHAT I WAS IN, THE INFORMATION HUBS. THE ACCIDENTS THAT HAPPENED BEFORE ARE CLUE.