UP-DATED-3-30-2015 - NOT BEHOLDEN TO CEASER

OF GOONS, GOBLINS AND ADDICTS AND CONS AT THE SRO, ' MISSOURI STREET 

RESIDENCE.'

THE ENTRYWAY TO THE DARK BASEMENT OF ' COOKS,'
' LOOKOUTS ' AND OTHER MISFITS BENT ON THE DESTRUCTION
OF GREATER EL PASO AND AMERICA IN GENERAL; " I AM
LOYAL TO MEXICO, JUAREZ ONLY." A ' CLIENT,' TENANT ONCE
SAID NOT TO LONG AGO. NOW BODY GUARD FOR A ' NUT,' IN
NUMBER 8.

NO NOT ME, THE OTHER ONE.

FOR SOME THE EXTRINSIC EXPERIENCE OF WAKING UP TO NATURES CALL, THEN WHEN WALKING DOWN THE HALLWAY AT THE MISSOURI STREET ADDRESS AND YET ANOTHER, WHEN A LARGE FAT MAN, ONCE AGAIN BENDS OVER R[GHT IN FRONT OF YOU IN WELL WORN BOXER SHORTS, I SUPPOSE WOULD BE CONSIDERED, FOR SOME, AN OFFERING ( ? ) EXQUISITE TOO. FOR ME, NO THANKS. HE MUST OF BEEN TYING HIS SLIPPERS,AS THE ' SLIPPER LACES ' GAVE.

SO AFTER URINATING AND FORCING BACK THE VILE OF WHAT COMES NATURALLY AFTER SUCH AN EXPOSURE AND THE ' SIGHT ' OF THE BLUE BOXERS, YET AGAIN, NOT WANTING TO RUN INTO THE THING OR EVEN LOOK IN ' IT'S ' DIRECTION. I MUST ALWAYS REMIND MYSELF THAT THIS WAS THE MAN WHO SPRAYED DISINFECTANT AFTER I WALKED BY HIS DOOR, YET LEFT THE LINE OF FECES ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WALL FOR BETTER THAN A HALF YEAR DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF HIS DOOR. NUMBER 11.

THIS, I SUPPOSE IS WHAT I GET WHEN I FIRST ARRIVED AND CLEANED THE TERRITORIAL MARKINGS OF FECES, CAKED BLOOD COMBINED WITH MOLD AND FLAKING URINE, OUT OF THE BATHROOM STALLS AND SHOWERS. ' ME FAMMILA, ' THE APT DESCRIPTION THAT NUMBER 1 WOULD STATE WHEN TYRING TO EXPLAIN THE ' COMRADESHIP ' OF ALL THOSE WHO LIVE IN THE BASEMENT, ' I GUESS.' HE NEVER IS SEEN WITH TOILET PAPER ON ANY EXCURSION TO THE FACILITIES. EVER.

NOW I KNOW THAT WE ARE ALL IN GREAT EXPECTATION OF THE ARRIVAL OF SUMMER AS THE SOUR METALLIC ' SUFFERINGS ' OF METH, I MEAN ' SKUNKS ' ON THE PROWL, AND THE NEW OFFERINGS OF THE SEASON'S NEW LINE OF UNDERWEAR AND WITHOUT, DOWN THE HALLWAYS ( WHICH IS PUBLIC ) AND I HOPE THAT IF I AM AROUND AND HAPPEN UPON ONE OF EL PASO'S FINEST, I MIGHT SNAP A SHOT TO KEEP THE WORLD IN TUNE WITH THE CURRENT ' UP-BEAT, ' ALTHOUGH ' WORN,' FASHION SENSE THAT DRIVES OUR ' YOUTH'S ' ENDEAVORS AS TO WHAT IS MORALLY ' ACCEPTABLE AS PER ' SOCIETAL BEHAVIORS ' AND THAT ' REHABILITATION ' HAS A LONG STANDING HISTORY OF ACCEPTABLE AND DESIRABLE EXPECTATIONS THAT HAVE ALL SURPASSED ANY COMMUNITIES' ETHICAL STANDARDS.

FURTHER PHOTOGRAPH ' SESSIONS,' SOME MIGHT SAY, NEGATES ANY STANDARD OF ' JUST WHAT ART IS,' I'M SURE HAS ALREADY BEEN EXPRESSED ON THE INTERNET IN LUE OF, BUT, MAYBE NOT QUITE BECAUSE OF EXTORTION, BUT AN IDEA AS TO WHAT A ' MASTERFUL CON ' MIGHT BECOME OF IT ( ACT OF TAKING PICTURES WITHOUT THE PERSON'S KNOWLEDGE; IN THE BATHROOMS ) IS SURE TO ' ENLIST ' FURTHER ' EXPRESSIONS OF JUST HOW FAR ' THERAPY ' AND PRESCRIPTION DRUGS HAVE COME, IN REGARDS TO '  ' OF EL PASO'S POOR AND NEGLECTED ' PERSONA GRATA.' THIS ENDEAVOR, I HAVE LEFT FOR OTHERS, AS I DO NOT AND HAVE NOT AGREED WITH, WELL, BECAUSE IT'S NOT RIGHT AND ALSO NOT LEGAL; A MENTION OF THIS AGAIN TO KEEP ' UP WITH APPEARANCES,' WINK. WINK.

I MEAN, I'M NO CRITIC. SHIT, I MEAN G_D DAMN…..SORRY, NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY G_D. MY MISTAKE, I'M NO CRITIC.

THE EXCITEMENT OF THE BALLPARK OPENING UP AGAIN SOON AND ALL THE FIREWORKS MIXED WITH THE ' OCCASIONS ' OF GUNSHOTS AND OTHER ' TERRITORIES THAT ' GREATER EL PASO' ' DEMANDS OF HER CITIZENS FOR HER YOUTH OTHER THAN THE NEAR TOTAL DISCARD FOR ' POT ( MARIJUANA),' PARDON THE PUN, EXCHANGED FOR ECSTASY AND OTHERS INCLUDING ' ICE ( METH ),' AND ALL THE ' OTHER ' MEDICINES' THAT WILL AND STILL ARE ' EXPECTED ' OF IN THE RAISING OF TODAY'S MEXICAN AMERICAN'S YOUTH, WELL BECAUSE, ' IT'S JUST THE RIGHT WAY TO EN CURE ' RESPECT.' ' THE SRO ' HERD ' HAS GREAT EXPECTATIONS FOR A GOOD ' GAZELLE ' POPULATED ' WITH, WALLETS, CELL PHONES, COMPUTERS AND JEWELRY, NOT TO MENTION CASH; THE BAR DOWN THE STREET HAS GIVEN MUCH, BUT ' POPULARITY ' OF THE PREDATORS IN THE HUNT HAS TIRED THE ' DRESS CODE ' AND APPEARANCES FOR AN ALREADY STRAINED ' IMAGINATION ' IN CAMOUFLAGE. SORRY ABOUT THE INFECTIONS OF HIV, GUYS AND, WELL OCCASIONAL ' GAL,' BUT THINK BETTER NEXT TIME AS TO WHO YOU ' PICK ' UP, AS I'M SURE THE BAR'S ' PATRONAGE ' MIGHT ONE DAY, AS PER HEPATITIS TOO.

THESE GUYS LIKE TO BRAG, BUT, ' OH SHIT ! ' THAT ESP, GRID OR ' ETHER THING,' DOESN'T EXIST. MY MISTAKE. ' MARVIN THE MARTIN,' I KNOW.

AS PER THE SHIRT, WELL I ASKED NUMBER 1 IF ANYONE HAS BEEN IN MY ROOM, AND AFTER TAKING ' OFFENSE,' AND OUTRAGED IN DELEGATIONS AND BODY LANGUAGE AS TO JUST WHO IS ' GIVING ORDERS,' LOOKS ACROSS THE STREET TO THE BUILDING OPPOSITE OURS, THEN AGAIN TO THE ADJACENT. WELL, OF ALL WONDERS AND EXPECTATIONS IN GRATITUDE'S GIVEN ALL WHO EXCEL IN THE RETAILING OF ' ALL ' IN OUR BUILDING; TRUMAN'S WAY IS BEST, ' THE BUCK STOPS HERE.'

FORGOT TO ADD THIS YESTERDAY. I WAS AT A CIRCLE
K, WHEN A KID WITHA YELLOW SHIRT LOOKED MY WAY
AND SHOWED ME HIS CELL PHONE. IT HAPPENED AGAIN
WITH ANOTHER PERSON.

THE ' IDEA ' THAT ENTERED MY HEAD WAS A ' YOU ' NEED
TO GET BACK ' HOME.' THIS WAS ACROSS THE STREET
FROM ' JESUS AND MARY ' CHURCH IN EL PASO, TEXAS.

THE PRICE YOU PAY ' ASKING FOR CHANGE ' IN THIS WORLD.

NOW, THE PROBLEM IS THAT ' STAFF ' GAVE ME THE BLEACH TO WASH DOWN THE STALLS AND TOILETS FOR THE ' POOR ' WHO ARE UNABLE TO WIPE AND DISPENSE OF THE PAPER TOWELS IN PLACE OF TOILET PAPER, HOWEVER, WHO EXCEL WITH THE PROPER DISPENSING, NEAR PROPER, DISPENSING OF THE TOILET PAPER CARDBOARD ROLLS DOWN THE TOILETS, I GUESS IS THE ZENITH OF ALL ACCEPTED ' REALITIES ' IN EXPECTATIONS THAT THIS SIMPLE HERD WILL EVER ' ACHIEVE ( OUTSIDE OF HUNTING, OF COURSE ).'

I HAD ONLY PINESOL IN THE SPRAYER BOTTLE AND HAD NOT REPLACE IT YET, THUS THE ASKING OF THE BLEACH ( SEE HOW THAT WORKS ).

NOW I CAN WONDER WHO MIGHT HAVE CHANGED IT, IF INDEED THAT HAD HAPPENED, I'LL CHECK NOW…..NOPE, STILL PINESOL. SO, WHEN THE ALL OF KID'S MOST WEARING ' YELLOW SHIRTS ' YESTERDAY, AND THE, WELL, LETS CALL IT ' IDEA ' THIS TIME, HITS ME THAT SOMEONE IS IN MY ROOM DOING SOMETHING WRONG, AND WHO IT IS, WELL, THAT'S WHY I CALL THEM ' STAFF.' EVERYONE IS EXPENDABLE.

I DID NOTHING WRONG TO ' DESERVE ' IT, BUT MY SHIRT MARKED BECAUSE ' STAFF ' HAD TO WORK. 

IN MY CONVERSATIONS WITH PEOPLE IN REGARDS TO PRIVACY, IN YOUR LIVES WHO HAS TOLD YOU THAT IT DOES NOT EXIST, THEN ALL YOUR INHIBITIONS ' DROP TO THE WAY SIDE.' 

WHO SOLD YOU OUT?

VETERANS ' GIVEN TO ' AND AS WASTE

LAST NIGHT WHILE ASKING FOR ' CHANGE,' A VETERAN CAME BY, AND WHILE NOT SURE OF HIS ENTIRE STORY, HE DID ALLOW ME TO TAKE A FEW PICTURES OF HIS KNEES, AND I DO KNOW THIS MUCH. AFTER A HOSPITAL OPERATES ON YOU, THEY LEAVE YOU TO THE STREETS IF THERE IS NO ONE TO ' CARE ' FOR YOU. MOST TIMES, IF YOU CAN STAND, THEY REPLACE THE WHEELCHAIR WITH CRUTCHES, IF THEY HAVE THEM AND ATTITUDE AND PROFESSIONALISM OF THE NURSE.

' PAYMENT ' FOR WHAT VETERANS HAD TO DO TO PROTECT
 THE US " FOREIGN AND DOMESTIC, " CAN BE SEEN BELOW.

THIS IS REAL. I HAVE SEEN MUCH WORSE.

THE ABORTIONS WERE REAL TOO. AS WERE THE IRAQI SOLDIERS AND OTHER ' FIGHTERS.' ALL THESE PEOPLE ARE DEAD.

THEIR ' SPIRITS ' ARE SOMEWHERE ELSE. THE BODIES ARE DEAD.

WHAT EXCUSES DO ' YOU HAVE ? '

THERE MIGHT, NO ONE REALLY KNOWS, BUT MIGHT COME A DAY WHEN ' WE WILL DECIDE NOT TO FIGHT FOR YOU.'

WE JOINED, I CAN SPEAK FOR IN OPINION, ONLY.

REMEMBER, A MACHINE KNOWS NO DIFFERENCE ' OF SOUL,' AS FAR AS WE KNOW. CHILDREN, IN THE ' EYE ' OF THE MACHINE.

THINK ABOUT THAT, BOTH SIDES, AND ' SPIRIT, BODY, MIND AND SOUL.'

THIS IS NOT EL PASO, TEXAS. THIS IS IN IRAQ. THE
MAN CHOSE TO REACH FOR A WEAPON. THIS IS NOT
A HEAD, SEVERED FROM A BODY HANGING FROM THE
BRIDGE THAT JOINS THE CITY OF JUAREZ AND THE
CITY OF EL PASO,
TEXAS.

YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT TAKES TO PROTECT
' YOUR ' COUNTRY, SO THAT YOU CAN SELL ILLEGAL
DRUGS AND SELL TO MINORS.

AND THE LAST OF ALL INTERESTS; FLASH-DRIVE

MY FLASH-DRIVE WAS FOUND IN THE LAUNDRY BAG. WHY THERE? I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T PUT IT UNDER THE CROCK-POT ANYMORE.

THE SHIRT WAS ON TOP OF THE LAUNDRY BAG. I HAD ALREADY FOUND THE FLASH DRIVE. IT WOULD NOT OF MATTERED IF IT WAS WASHED, I'VE DONE IT BEFORE ONCE IN HAWAII, NOW I WONDER ABOUT THAT. COMPUTERS AND CELL PHONES; ' NETWORKING OF THE HOMELESS, AND GANGSTERS. '

I TRY TO MAKE ONLY WHAT I CAN CONSUME IN A DAY. THERE ARE GOOD REASONS FOR THIS, I HAVE LEARNED THE HARD WAY AND I WILL HAVE TO BE CHECKED AGAIN SOON. I AM ALONE AND ONLY TWO WOMEN HOLD INTEREST TO ME.

A BAG OF ' D E ' WAS MESSED WITH, AND SOMETIMES THAT IS USED TO ' CUT ' COCAINE.

 I USE IT BECAUSE I TRUST NO FOOD. I HAVE LEARNED. BACK IN ALBUQUERQUE WITH RED CHILE AND PORK, LEFT ON THE STOVE. THEY MUST OF LIKED IT.

YOU CAN ONLY WATER IT DOWN JUST SO FAR.

MY TASTE; ONE PATTY, 15 DRIED RED CHILIES HOT, CRUSHED, ON ONE SIDE, TWO-THREE LIMES, COOK BOTH SIDES. IT'S THE INTENSITY THAT KEEPS YOUR STOMACH ' HAPPY ' NEARLY ALL DAY.

MORNINGS; PROTEIN POWER, COFFEE, CREATINE, TAKES CARE OF THE REST.

TWENTY FIVE PLUS YEARS OF THIS AND CARBS AND ' STARCH.'

NOW, AS PER ROOM…………..' HOW WOULD THEY KNOW? ' HUH FACEBOOK, INSTA GRAM, AND OTHERS…….OR ENTRY?

I HAVE TO GO TO ' COMMITTEE ' NOW FOR ANOTHER ' HORRIBLE INCIDENT ' AS PER THE SRO THAT HAPPENED AWAY FROM THE SRO, BUT MADE SURE THAT IT HAPPENED IN FRONT OF A CAMERA.' IMAGINARY BLOOD AND GUTS AND BRAIN TISSUE WITH THE LINGERINGS OF ' HEP, HELP, HEP.......ME.' '

THE FIRST TIME I HAD THE FRONT END OF A ' STALKER.'

THANK G_D, IT WAS NOT CONGRESS IN THE REMOTE VIEWING, THEN OTHERS.