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I STUDIED REMOTE VIEWING AND VARIOUS OTHER MIND STUDIES BUT I WAS AN ARTIST FIRST. I WAS AN ARTIST SINCE  BIRTH AS I HAVE BEEN TOLD BY MY PARENTS, MY MOTHER AND FATHER. " GOD GIVEN TALENT " MY FATHER HAD ALWAYS TOLD ME. SINCE BIRTH. IT IS ALL THAT I REMEMBER EXCEPT THE ' SCARY ' TREES OF THE AREAS OF UT AUSTIN FROM THE VANTAGE POINT OF A STROLLER AND THE REAR VIEW FROM MY PARENT'S SHOULDERS; ALL THE BIRDS AND SQUIRRELS IN THOSE TREES.

I FOUND OUT YEARS LATER, REMOTE VIEWING WAS BEING RESEARCHED AT UT IN 1959, AUSTIN, TEXAS.

I REMEMBER THE THUNDERING SCARY WATER THAT I WAS FACE DOWN TO, ON A BRIDGE, THE LOUD VOICE SO ' FOREIGN ' IN WORDS THAT I HAVE NOT LEARNED YET, SEARCHING, SCREAMING, ' PUSHING ALL THOUGHT MAKING TRYING TO UNDERSTAND, WHY? THEN I ROSE. THEN I ROSE ABOVE THE PEOPLE WHO WERE HOLDING A, A WHAT? I COULD NOT COMPREHEND, I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY HELD; A BUNDLE WITH IT'S HEAD LIMP ONCE TURNED DOWN, EMPTY. 

THAT THUNDEROUS VOICE NOW SILENT. THE SILENCE OF THE MOMENT, THE SILENCE OF THE RISE, SO BEAUTIFUL A SILENCE. THE CLOUDS ABOVE IN ' LIGHTED DARKNESS.' THE LIGHT.

9/11

MY NEIGHBORS AFTER THE SHOCK, IF YOU WANT TO CALL IT THAT, THE SILENCE OF INCOMPREHENSIBLE SIGHT OF EVENTS UNRAVELLING IN FRONT OF ME, AS PEOPLE WHERE CHOOSING THE LEAP AND ESCAPE OF SMOKE AND FIRE OVER ANY FEAR OF HEIGHT AND ALL SUMS OF ANY FEARS THAT MIGHT MEET THEM. I WATCHED IN SILENCE AND SLOWLY CAME TO THE REALIZATION THAT THIS WAS WHAT I WAS FIGHTING. WHAT I SAW TO THE RIGHT OF TED KNOONING HEAD, AN AIRPLANE CRASHING INTO THE SIDE OF THE SKY AS WE WERE TALKING, OR THE ABSOLUTE NAIVETY OF A NASA EMPLOYEE WHO ONCE STATED THAT " THE WORLD CONSCIOUS ' WOULD NEVER ALLOW SUCH A LARGE SCALE ATTACK AGAIN AFTER THE FIRST AND THEN OKLAHOMA. THOSE BRIGHT EYES IN TOTAL CONFIDENCE. THE VOICE OF TJ TUCKER, A PHYSICS SCIENTIST HEARD MY CONCERN AS TO THE NASA GUY NEVER " REALLY HAVING BEEN ANYWHERE OUTSIDE THE UNITED STATES," AND THEN HIS REASSURANCES THAT " IT'S BETTER THAT WAR IS OVER THERE." I HAVE HEARD THE THE VOICED OPINIONS OF MEXICANS AND CANADIANS ALIKE IN REGARDS TO THE UNITED STATES AND HER POLICIES AND HER TREATMENTS TO OTHER NATIONS PEOPLES, AS WELL AS READ THEM IN THEIR NEWSPAPERS AND UNDERSTOOD TO AN EXTENT THE POINTS OF VIEW OF ALL.

" LETS ROLL," EPCC 2013.

AFTER THE VISION OF THE AIRPLANE AND LACK OF MEMORY OF WHAT TED AND I WAS EVEN TALKING ABOUT THAT DAY, A RETIRED POLICE OFFICER WITH DARK ' EVIL ' EYES WAS SPEAKING TO HIM WHEN I NEEDED MORE WELDING RODS. AFTER HE LEFT, TED MADE A COMMENT AS TO " I GUESS YOUR NOT THAT INNOCENT ( I REALLY CAN'T REMEMBER THE WORD ) AFTER ALL," AND I LOOKED AT HIM AND ASKED HIM WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT. HE NEVER ANSWERED ME, SOMETHING ABOUT THE COMPANY THAT I KEPT BUT NO ANSWER IN EARNEST.

SOME OF THE BEST ART THAT I'VE EVER MADE WAS WHEN I WORKED AT KNOONINGS, TED WOULD ALWAYS ASK ME ABOUT BARTON PRINCE AND I WOULD ANSWER WHAT I COULD, BUT REALLY DIDN'T KNOW THAT MUCH OUTSIDE OF HIS ' EGO.' " DO YOU THINK HE'LL BUY THIS ONE?" HE WOULD ASK. " I DON'T KNOW," I WOULD OFTEN ANSWER, HE WASN'T THE ONLY ONE THAT I TRIED TO SELL MY ART TO. IT WAS ALWAYS ' PICK AND CHOOSE,' SEE WHAT HAPPENS; TRY AGAIN, AND PRICE GOES DOWN, AND ALOT FARTHER THAN YOU THINK. A FEW HUNDRED.

THE ONLY ONE OR RATHER TWO, PIECES OF ART OTHER THAN TWO IN COLLEGE THAT I EVER GOT ' ASKING PRICE ' WHERE THE TWO PAINTINGS DEALING WITH 9/11.I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT I GOT, BUT I HATED SELLING THEM, BUT DIDN'T WANT TO ' HANG ' THEM FOR VERY LONG. " DON'T YOU HAVE ANY FEELINGS? "

 THE BIGGEST MISTAKE THAT I EVER MADE IN MY LIFE WAS THE DECISION OF A SCULPTURE OVER A PAINTING AND NOT ENTERING THE TWO PAINTINGS. I WOULD LOOK AT IT AND THINK FROM CONCEPTION TO THE ' MAKE BELIEVE ' FINALE PIECE, THAT ALL ARTIST FACE, HOW THIS ' THING ' FROM THE BEGINNINGS OF A VERY BAD ' MOTEL HANGING ( THAT'S WHAT THE ORIGINAL CANVAS WAS ) ' COULD BECOME THIS SEPARATION OF SPACE WITH LITTLE ONES AND ZEROS AND ACGT, OR RATHER ' HUMAN GENOME ' SYMBOLICS ' THAT I HAVE ALWAYS REGARDED WITH WHISPERINGS FROM ' CHILD LIKE ' SLICES OF BRAIN TISSUES FROM AROUND THE WORLD AS TO ' WHY? ' THEY WERE SEPARATED, NEVER TO BE.

THIS IS THE RIGHT HAND SIDE OF THE PAINTING
THAT WAS ENTERED INTO THE NMSF, I THINK,
BUT IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER, THE HOVER
VAC WAS IN THE WAY, BUT I CLEARLY REMEMBER
WHY I DIDN'T MOVE IT. THE PAINTING SCULPTURE
HAD A CONDOM IN IT AND SHOULD HAVE ' FBI ' IN
IT TOO, SOMEWHERE. I DID WORK ON THAT PIECE
FOR ABOUT A YEAR. WELD IN THE DAYTIME, PAINT
AT NIGHT.

THE AMOUNT OF PAINT, PRINTING, GLASS, YOU
NAME IT IS IN IT; MONEY, PROBABLY EVEN TAPE
FORGOTTEN.

THE BENCH TO THE LEFT WAS MADE OF PARTS
FROM THE BLACK AGNESE RESTAURANT AND DATES
THE PAINTING IN PROGRESS PRIOR TO 9/11.
THE CHAIR WAS BOUGH AT THRIFT TOWN, I
GOT THE PRICE DOWN FROM 29.00, TO 15.00
OR 20.00. THE TABLE, ALL THREE 10.00.

THE PHOTO'S ON THE WALL ARE FRIENDS.

I WILL NOTE THIS, IN THE RV, AND FIGHTING THE
REMOTE INFLUENCING AND RV, I AM WELL AWARE
OF THE DANGERS INVOLVED IN POSTING THIS. BACK
THEN AND NOW.

HAVING ALMOST DEID A FEW TIMES, BEING SHOT
AT, HOUNDED BY MY OWN ARMY AND POLICE AND
ALL ' RIGHTS MESS AROUND WITH,' HELPED ME MAKE
THE DECISION AS THESE FUCKS GET AWAY WITH
EVERYTHING, TO PUT IT ON THE NET; I'VE NEVER
HAD ALOT OF MONEY AND WHEN I DID, I WAS BEING
FUCKED WITH BAD FROM PEOPLE WHO SHOULD
HAVE BEEN IN JAIL A LONG TIME AGO.

THANK YOU JANYA DAVIS.

AT THE TIME OF 9/11, I WATCHED THE PEOPLE AND TOWERS FALL, IN SILENCE, HARDLY HEARING ANYTHING THAT THE ' TALKING HEADS ' SAID AND LOSING ALL RESPECT OF THEM AND THEIR COMMENTARY. PETER JENNINGS WAS ALL I COULD STOMACH. THE NEIGHBORS, SOME WITH FAMILY I THE EAST, NEW YORK, WOULD SAY " DON'T YOU FEEL ANYTHING? " " DON'T YOU FEEL? " AS I TRIED TO EXPLAIN WHY THE TOWERS FELL SO FAST. THE METALLURGY AND MELTING POINTS OF DIFFERENT METALS. EVEN THE PBS PROGRAM STATING THE SAME SO MANY YEARS LATER WHICH SAID THE SAME THING, I ' ARGUED ' WITH ALOUD AND IN ' MY ' MIND; THEY JUST SAID IT BETTER.

LIKE THE PHOENIX OF LEGEND I STAND
ALONE IN SPITE OF FATE. THAT IS THE
NAME OF THE SCULPTURE BEFORE IT
WAS SOLD TO BARTON PRINCE, IT TOOK
A YEAR, AFTER I PUT IT ON THE NET. I
HAD CABLE AFTER 9/11.

THE SIGNS,.....JUST SIGNS.

I FOUND OUT LATER BOUT RANDOM NUMBER GENERATORS, CD PLAYERS AND DVD PLAYERS TOO, AND THE ' ENORMITY ' OF THE ' SPIKE ' THAT I WAS FIGHTING MOST ESPECIALLY IN THE LAST MONTHS OF THE PAINTINGS.

AS I CONTINUE TO ' FALL,' I HAVE VERY LITTLE TO WRITE OR SAY. I COULD WRITE ABOUT ANY GIVEN SUBJECT AND NEVER REACH THE VAST AMOUNT OF KNOWLEDGE OUTSIDE OF THE WHOLE OF THE ' HUMAN ' PERSPECTIVE. IT IS JUST SMALL, SIMPLY PUT. THE ' EGO.' THE PEOPLE AS OPPOSED TO ANIMALS, YET WITH SAMENESS OF FORM IS SIMPLY ' SMALL.' UNLESS YOU HAVE ' TRAVELED ' THERE IS NO WAY TO EXPLAIN IT OTHER THAN IT IS ' COMPLETELY ' OUT OF ' BODY.' THERE IS LITTLE FORM AND QUITE; SILENCE. ALL THAT BEYOND ' NOISE.' WE ARE SO SMALL AND ONLY COPY OURSELVES AND PRAISE INSECTS. THEY WERE HERE FIRST. WE ARE THE LATE COMERS.

ON MY WELDING HELMET THERE WAS THE 21 INFANTRY DIVISION, GHOST UNIT, THEN AN ENGLISH PORN STAR WITH NO HAIR ' BELOW,' THEN P-13, WHICH PUSHED THE BAR AS TO THE P-12 THE HIGHEST OF THE BABYLON 5 SI FY PROGRAM. THEN THE FOUR ' CIRCLES,' WHICH DENOTED THE FORTH DIMENSION. I TIED UP THE ' SHAVED BEAVER ' WITH TWO PAINTINGS OF SUCH, ABSTRACT THAT BARTON PRINCE BOUGHT, MIGHT OF BEEN THREE. THEY WERE SMALL PAINTINGS. I COULD NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW THAT BEAUTIFUL WOMAN PICKED THAT ' OCCUPATION.' KNOWING THAT I READ SOMEWHERE THAT ' THEY ' OFTEN ' ESCORTED ' OTHERS TOO, I GUESS MOVIES, FIRST SHOWINGS AND SUCH. THE ' PRISES ' OF THE WELL TO DO OUTSIDE OF HOMELESS KIDS.

AND LASTLY, THIS ' BROTHER ' SHIT, I AM NOT AND NEVER HAVE BEEN YOUR ' BROTHER.' THE EXPRESSION ' SHOOT,' WHICH MY FATHER STOPPED USING IN THE LATE SIXTIES OR EARLY SEVENTIES, IS STILL PREVALENT IN HAWAII TODAY. I REMEMBER THE ' WALKING TREE ' AND THE SEED I SWALLOWED.

FOR THE NEIGHBOR WHO LIVED NEXT TO JASON, A WOMAN WHO SURVIVED A HORRIBLE TRAFFIC ACCIDENT, I TOOK THE TIME TO ' CARE.' DIDN'T YOU READ THE SIGN. ' FOREIGN AND DOMESTIC.' DIDN'T YOU ' UNDERSTAND? I EVEN HAD ONE WARNING IN THE NMSF, A PAINTING AND I NEVER, NEVER STOPPED, I NEVER STOPPED……..

" IF YOUR LIKE US, IT'S MEMORY. " BARTON PRINCE 1988-89.*

I REMEMBER, " FALL ON YOUR SWORD," THEN THE YELLOW COUCH, WHO I THOUGHT WAS BUSH AND WIFE AND SOMEONE ELSE, AND THAT VOICE THAT I HAD SO UNWITTINGLY INVITED INTO ' MY HOUSE,' BY WAY OF SELLING A SCULPTURE AND THE COLLEGE TOUR A YEAR OR TWO EARLIER AND BARTON PRINCES COMMENT " HE'S THE ARTIST, THE ONE WITH THE SAMURAI PONYTAIL," AS I WELDED A SMALL SCULPTURE ON THE POLL OF HIS DRIVEWAY. THEN THE MASON IN HAWAII WHO PULLED ON MINE. THEN MARIE'S COMPLETE REVERSAL REGARDING HER FATHER AND REASONS FOR HER PARENTS DIVORCE AND WHAT ' HE ' DID, I GUESS ' MONEY ' BUYS FORGETFULNESS, ALTHOUGH, " HE'S MY FATHER." SHE SAID AT THE TIME. FOR PHIL AND MARIE, THE HAWAIIAN SYMBOL, THE PETROGLYPHS, ' MESSENGER ' WAS DESTROYED, BUT YOU ARE ARTISANS. NO ILL WILL TOWARDS THE HAWAIIAN PEOPLE, BUT IT WAS NOT RIGHT, I FOUND NONE WITHOUT THE PHALLIC SYMBOL BETWEEN THE LEGS IN BOOKS.

AND FINALLY, I SAW A VET REP YESTERDAY REGARDING RENT AND UP GRADE, THEN THE PROCESS AND HAVE BEEN INSULTED FOR THE LAST TIME BY ANOTHER VET. I WILL FILL OUT THE FORM FOR UPGRADE IN DISCHARGE. AS FOR THE COMMENT REGARDING THE WARS " AT LEAST YOU MISSED ALL THAT," THE LAST TIME I RETURNED FROM THE VA, I DIDN'T SEE ALL THE EMPTY YARDS AND BOMBED OUT BUILDINGS IN ' MONOTONE ' AND STATIC, AND NOT A SOUL AROUND IN THE ' SOUND ' OF THE BUS, NOR WHEN I WENT TO THE CHURCH TO PICK UP ' FOOD.'

YOU NEVER LISTENED THE FIRST TIME, AND ' HOLLYWOOD  WAGED IT'S TAIL,' AND ALL THE OLD ' MEN ( ? ) ' WANT MORE AND MORE, BUT GIVE NOTHING IN RETURN EXCEPT UNWANTED ' SWANS.'

I NEEDED SOMEONE TO HELP ME ' WALK ' THROUGH IT, I HAVE NEVER BEEN GOOD WITH GOVERNMENT FORMS AND ALWAYS GOT INTO TROUBLE, SOMEHOW……… IT'S A REAL MAZE. AS FOR THE REST, IF SOME ONE ' SHOOTS AT YOU, YOU SHOOT BACK, AND ALL THOSE AROUND HIM OR HER, WHO SHOW THE SAME INTENT.' IT'S SIMPLE, IT'S NOT HARD.

ATTACKS

AS FAR AS MY FATHER GOES, AND ALL THAT BULLSHIT YEARS AGO ( 2007-2008, AND EARLIER ), " YOU WILL DENY ME TWO TIMES BEFORE THE CROW SOUNDS," AND THE INTENSITY OF THE ARGUMENTS FROM TOP AND BOTTOM, SIDE TO SIDE, 360, THEN THE ' BROTHER SHIT,' THEN THE LUCIFERIANS THEN EVEN PEOPLE POINTING TO THEIR FOREHEADS AND IT WAS " YOUR FATHER, MONTHS AFTERWARDS, GRADUALLY GROWING IN NUMBERS.

" THE ' ALL ' OF YOU WHO WERE ' FOOLED,' FUCK OFF FAGS AND ' COWS ' AND THAT BITCH POPE SOON STOOD DOWN WHEN HE SAW THE ' LIGHT.' EVERYBODY WAS FOOLED WHEN BROADBAND WAS TURNED ' ON,' AND THE SATAN WAS WAITING FOR YOU ALL. DO I HAVE TO PAINT A ' PICTURE AGAIN? ' I'M MOVING AT THE END OF WINTER, IF NOT SOONER.

AND TODAY I FIND THAT MY FORMS FOR ' UPGRADE OF DISCHARGE ' WERE STOLEN FROM MY BACKPACK, MUST OF BEEN THE DAY WHEN ALL THE SLOBBER WAS LEFT ON THE COMPUTER BAG AND BACK PACK, BUT THAT'S ALRIGHT, BACK TO THE DAMN VA TO PICK UP OTHERS. ( UPDATED 1-6-2015 ) MY MOST RECENT TRIP, I SAW VERY LITTLE IN THE WAY OF ' SIGHT ' OF THE BOMBED OUT YARDS AS FAR AS YOU CAN SEE, AND ALMOST DIRT ROADS. I REPLACED THE DD FORM 293 THAT SOMEHOW WAS ' LOST ' FROM MY BACKPACK.

AND NO, I WILL NOT WORK FOR ' YOU,' TATTOOED FLAME ARMS, DO I HAVE TO MENTION ' THOR'S HAMMER ' AGAIN WHILE THAT PLASTIC TOY IS AROUND? I SAID ' NO ' TO THE MEXICAN AMERICAN SIDE TOO.

AND PANTHER, THIS IS OUT OF CONTROL.I HAVE PUT WITH VET'S FOR YEARS WHO HAVE STALKED ME PROTECTING ' SOMEONE ' WHO THEY ' PROBABLY ' DON'T KNOW, AND MOST IMPORTANT, YOU WERE NOT THERE AND DID NOT SEE, HEAR OR ' WITNESS.' MUCH LESS ENDURE THE TORMENT THAT IS DELIVERED TO THE ' ENEMY ' BEFORE AN ATTACK IN MOST CASES IN MODERN WARFARE!

FUCKIN SKYNET ?!?! ALBUQUERQUE AS IRAQI THEATER!?!?

THEN EL PASO, AUSTIN AND ARIZONA!?!? THEN AUSTIN AGAIN AND EL PASO?!?! THEN HAWAII?!?!

 WHO WERE YOU PROTECTING? 

THINK REAL HARD ON THAT!

SOMETHING WAS SAID BY A MIDDLE SCHOOL KID WHO DRESSED LIKE A FAG WHEN I WAS WELDING HIS GATE. I SUGGESTED HE CUT THE TREE LIMB THAT OVERHUNG THE SIDEWALK, " SOMEONE CAN CLIMB UP AND GET IN " HE SAID NO.

A RADIO DISH IN THE BACK YARD, AT LEAST 10 FEET WIDE USED FOR " I MOSTLY USE IT FOR RADIO," AND HE DID ALL THE WIRING IN THE HOUSE NEXT DOOR, EVEN PHONE LINES. I TOOK UP THE CARPET, AND ALL THE PHONE GAMES. " I SEE YOUR IN THE CLOSET AGAIN," HOW WOULD HE HAVE KNOWN ABOUT THE CLOSET I WAS ' TOLD ' TO GO INTO ' CAUSE SOMEONE WAS IN THE HOUSE WHEN I WAS A KID THE TIME WHEN EVERYONE WAS GOING CRAZY JUST BEFORE MY FATHER CAME BACK FRO DALLAS.??? HOW MANY EXPERIENCES DOES A PERSON NEED TO LABEL ALL THIS AS A ' NETWORK.' ????

ONE PAINTING HAS A CONDOM, FBI, ' IRAQI REPUBLICAN NATIONAL GUARD.' WHY DIDN'T YOU USE IT???????????????????  THEN AGAIN I GOT ATTACKED!
I DIDN'T EVEN, AT THAT TIME, KNOW WHO THE IRAQI REPUBLICAN NATIONAL GUARD WAS.

HOME GROWN TERRORISM! ASSHOLES, THAT'S WHAT YOU EMPOWERED!

AND ALL THOSE PAINTINGS ARE PROBABLY GONE. MOST OF THE PHOTOS ARE. WHY NOT PROTECT US INSTEAD OF YOUR FUCK BUDDIES, SAUDI PRINCES AND FELLOW LAW ENFORCEMENT AND MASONS? WHY?.......really, why? AREN'T WE ' AMERICAN ' ENOUGH.

CRIMINALS GET MORE ' RIGHTS.'

BELOW ARE ENLARGEMENTS ( A BIT CLEARER ) OF THE LAST PHOTO'S OF THE PAINTING THAT WAS NEVER ENTERED AT THE LAST MOMENT AND THE ' DEMONIC ' WHISPER FROM THE ' WEST ' IN ALBQ. NEW MEXICO.

THEY WERE MAILED TO THE GOVERNOR OF NEW MEXICO.

THE ' I ' IS WHAT GAVE THEM AWAY.
I WAS GIVEN A SMALL COMPUTER OR
BOUGHT IT, IT WAS A MAC. I COULDN'T
MAKE IT WORK. RAMSEY GAVE IT TO
ME. ALL I REMEMBER FROM IT WAS
MARCO, WHAT EVER THAT WAS.

HE WAS THE THE NAME OF THE PERSON
WHO SHOWED ME THE CIRCLES OF STONES
OF ALL THE FRIENDS WHO HE HAD LOST
AND SHOWED ME ' MINE ' WHEN I
DIED.

I GAVE THE COMPUTER TO A TENANT
AT CASA MORENA APTS. IN ALBQ. NM,
HE WAS A GRANDFATHER WHO SAID
HE WOULD GIVE IT TO HIS GRANDSON.

THE EIGHT WAS ? AND THE THREE, WELL
I'M THE THIRD. I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT
KINDA, OCHO IF THAT IS HOW EIGHT IS
SPELLED IN SPANISH, A DERIVATIVE OF THE
NAME OCHOA.

ONLY ' TIME 'TRIALS ' WILL TELL, BUT THEN
THERE'S THE ' LIE.'

FORWARDS OR BACKWARDS, SIDE TO SIDE, UP
OR DOWN. I TOOK THE OATH TO THIS COUNTRY
AND FOR THIS COUNTRY.

THE WALGREEN'S WHERE ROLLS OF FILM
WENT MISSING AND THE MASONIC SHIT
ON THE DVR AND PRINTS.

THE OLD LAMP MAC WHEN I WAS BEING HACKED AT
CASA VIDA BEFORE OBAMA'S VISIT PRIOR TO THE
LAST ELECTION.

M-9 ? IN THE GREEN TO THE LEFT OF ACTRESS.
THIS TAKEN AT CASA VIDA. ALL THOSE POSTS
GONE.

WHEN TAKING FORKLIFT TRAINING AND ALL THE MENTAL
SHIT I WENT THROUGH FROM BERT B., WIFE AT EPCC AT
THE TIME. I WAS STAYING AT THE RESCUE MISSION, THIS
BEFORE THE GUN SHOT TO THE CITY BUS THAT I WAS
RIDDING, ABOVE THE GLASS AND SEAT.

BERT WAS A ' HEAVY HITTER,' AND VERY GOOD, BUT
FALLING APART BEFORE HIS DEATH. WIZARD ABOVE HIS
COMPUTER AND DOUBLE EAGLE WHEN TURNED ON.

IF I LET THAT SON OF A BITCH HAVE HIS WAY THE
FORK LIFT WOULD OF GONE THROUGH THE WALL. IT
EVEN ' EFFECTED ' THE INSTRUCTOR WHO WAS AT HIS
SCREEN A QUARTER OF THE TIME. I DID VERY WELL,
BUT HAD NO MORE ' ENERGY ' TO LEARN THE UPRIGHT
FORKLIFT. I OFTEN WONDER WHO TOLD HIM, HOW HE
FOUND OUT?

THE INSTRUCTOR CHANGED THE NAME ON MY CERTIFICATE.

FUNNY THING ABOUT BERT, AN OLD MAN KNEW OF HIM AND
BOYS, TOLD, THEN VISITED HIS DAUGHTER AND WAS KIDNAPPED,
HIS NECK BROKEN AND BEATEN WITHIN AN INCH OF HIS LIFE.

HE LIVED, BUT WILL NEVER TELL ANOTHER SOUL......AGAIN.
THAT IS ' SHELTER LIFE.' I CAN'T TELL WHICH, THE SAME
WILL HAPPEN.

ED DANES, THESE ARE YOUR RVER'S, AREN'T YOU PROUD?
THE UTILIZATION OF ALL THAT ' CAPTIVE ' BRAIN POWER.

 " ST LOUIS " AND THE LAUGHING LAWYER AT
EL PASO LEGAL AID, AND COMMENTS ABOUT
COAST GUARD. PURPLE TIE.

I FINALLY RECEIVED THIS AT CASA VIDA, ALL
MAIL AT ADDRESS OF OPPORTUNITY CENTER
WAS NEVER RECEIVED. ALLEGED PEDOPHILE
IN CHARGE OF ALL MAIL.

SAW SOME IN GARBAGE IN KITCHEN, TOLD TO
LEAVE ALONE AND " GET OUT OF HERE " SAME BAG
AND BAGS LIKE IT, AT LEAST TWO TIMES TAKEN
AWAY FROM DUMPSTER BY ' LITTLE OLD LADY.'

SHE NEVER LOOKED IN THEM.

*THERE IS A FAGOT IN ALBQ. NEW MEXICO WHO WALKS AROUND NEAR NUDE AND WHO, IF HE'S NOT CAREFUL, MY FATHER IS VERY MUCH STARTING TO LOOK LIKE. A FRIEND OF MINE WAY BACK SAID MOST QUEERS AND PEDOPHILES THINK OF HIM AS ' G_D,' IF NOT JESUS CHRIST, THAT OF THE MAN WALKING AROUND NEAR NUDE AND PROMOTING HIS ' CAUSE.'

AND TO MAKE THINGS WORSE, THANK YOU EL PASO FOR STEALING MY BIKE. HOPE MY KNEE'S MAKE THOUGH.

COPYRIGHT 2015 J.BARTHOLOMEW OCHOA III

A FEW DAYS LATER

AFTERWARDS, ' ONLY THE HERD '

I DO NOT CARE IF ALL GAYS ARE KILLED OR PUT IN PRISONS GLOBALLY. I WILL EXPLAIN THIS I N A FEW LINES. THIS IS HOW I ' FEEL.'

I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO VISIT MY FATHER A FEW DAYS AGO AND WE TALKED. I LISTENED TO HIM, HE DID NOT LISTEN TO ME WITH ONE EXCEPTION THAT ' BROKE ' THROUGH THAT ' MEXICAN ICE,' EQUIVALENT  OF ' IVORY TOWERS,' NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH METH OR NEW LABEL OF HEROIN  ' EBOLA,' BY SOME OTHER NUT.

IT WAS MY COMMENT REGARDING THE VISITS TO THE HOLOCAUST FILMS AT A THEATER THAT I REMEMBER TO BE THE MASONIC LODGE ( OR PERHAPS THAT WAS ANOTHER VISIT LATER THAT EVENING ). " THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES," OR SOMETHING TO THAT EFFECT. THOSE WERE REAL FOOTAGE, BIG SCREEN SHOWINGS OF WHAT HAPPENED BACK DURING AND AT THE END OF WW II.

THE ' ILLUSION,' AND PERHAPS FORETHOUGHT THAT I'M ALWAYS REMINDED OF, IS HOW CAREFUL ONE MUST ACT IN THE WORLD TODAY WHEN OTHERS DO NOT. REGARDLESS OF THIS THE VISIT WAS NICE. I DID HAVE TO SHOW HIM MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE MUCH LIKE A FOREMAN WORKING FOR BECK CONSTRUCTION IN AUSTIN, TX., ANOTHER ' MARIO ' WHO QUESTIONED MY ' IDENTITY.' I ALMOST GOT FIRED.

THE ' SPICS,' AS OPPOSED TO MEXICANS OR MEXICAN AMERICANS SEEM TO DERIVE A CERTAIN PLEASURE FROM THESE BEHAVIORS AS WELL AS THE ' SHEETS ' AND NIGGERS, AS OPPOSED TO THE GENERAL WHITE POPULATION AND THE AFRICAN AMERICANS, OF PICKING ON DEAD MOTHERS. NONE THE LESS, OUR MEMORIES DIFFER AND A FEW OTHERS WERE ' COMPLETED.' THE THRUST OF THE THIGHS, I COULD OF DONE WITHOUT AS I WALKED AROUND HIS LEGS IN ORDER TO LEAVE, ALSO. I HAVE NO IDEA AS TO WHAT THE MEANING WAS ( MEDICAL CENTER, ABOUT THE TIME THAT DAVE BERRY WAS SCREAMING SOMETHING ABOUT ' HILLBILLY ' AND ' BRICK LAYER,' ALBQ., NM., AFTER I LEFT I PICKED UP A BOOK OF POETRY BY COMBAT SOLDIERS AND WAS ASKED " WHAT WAS IN THE BOX? "BY A PERSON AT A YARD SALE ALONG THE WAY; ONE BLOCK FROM THE CENTER. A NEW SHRINK WAS MOVING IN THE OLD OFFICE THAT A CHILD/FAMILY COUNSELOR HAD DIED IN. I DO NOT KNOW WHO'S HYPNOSES WAS INTERTWINED WITH MY MEDITATIONS. BUT I DO UNDERSTAND TO AN EXTENT THE BULLSHIT THAT EX-CONS ARE FED, AND SOLDIERS. DURING THIS PERIOD, ANOTHER ' IMPLIED ' MEMORY, THAT WAS NOT MINE. TOO GROSS, AND COULD NOT TURN OFF UNTIL I MOVED VERY FAR AWAY FROM THE MED CENTER. BETWEEN A MAN AND A BOY. BUT, I DO KNOW THAT HYPNOTISE WAS USED, BUT CLIENT DOCTOR PRIVACY RIGHTS. HOW LEGALITIES, RANKS AND OTHER SHIT ALL REVOLVED AS ONE, I'LL NEVER KNOW. I HAVE NEVER LISTENED TO MOZART SINCE, BUT I DID QUITE A BABIES CRYS WITH MY ' MIND,' AND SHE THANKED ME, AT THE TIME.) BUT, THIS IS WHAT WAS BROUGHT TO MIND AND MEMORY.

IN AUSTIN,TX. A MAN IN LINE AT AN HEB TOLD ME THAT A 72 YEAR OLD MAN WAS TO BLAME FOR WHATEVER HE WAS TO BLAME FOR AND THAT ALL I HAD TO DO WAS LOOK IT UP WITH THE NEWSPAPERS.

AS THE WEEK CONTINUED, I ALSO VISITED FT. BLISS AND TWO ARMORIES TO TRY TO OBTAIN A LARGER BACKPACK, FOR I AM MOVING ON. I HAVE NO REAL WISH TO OWN A CELL PHONE ETHER, ON ACCOUNT OF ALL THE INVASIONS OF PRIVACY. THE COMPUTER, WHICH WAS HACKED OR SOMEHOW, ON THE FRINGES OF LEGALITIES, VISITED MORE THAN ONCE. IT IS NOT WORTH IT, PERSONALLY. NEEDLESS TO SAY, I WASN'T GIVEN A BACKPACK. THE COMPUTER WAS ' FIXED ' AGAIN, EVERYTHING WIPED OUT.

THEN, TODAY, I SIT OUTSIDE THE ' Y,' AND EMAIL MY FATHER REGARDING SOMEONE WHO IS IN NEED OF A SECOND LAWYER REGARDING AN IMMIGRATION ISSUE, JUST IN CASE, AND THE EMAILS GO ? THEY ARE SENT, AND ACKNOWLEDGED AS SUCH, BUT THEN A GUY IN A GREY TRUCK YELLS AT ME ' NO ME HABLES." SO THE GREAT WHITE ' SATIN,' TOOK SOME TIME TO POST THIS.

GLOBAL

BELOW IS A PHOTO OF A PIECE OF ART THAT HAS SINCE BEEN DESTROYED, ALONG WITH OTHERS, AND I WILL EXPLAIN HOW THIS WORKS. 

WHAT IS A CAPITAL?

' CAPITAL IDEA AT ALL COSTS ' REGARDLESS. ENVY?

EVOLUTION?

NO HEAD? GEE. ( HA! HA! INSIDE JOKE. )

NAVEL ON ONE ' CAPITAL.' THE OTHER? HUM, SE ( A ) ?

THE ' OTHER ' BENDING, GEE, HUM, COLOR SCHEME, NO WAIT, BLACK AND WHITE! REMEMBER WHEN YOU READ PAPER? GEE. " I FOUND YOU IN A DITCH." AT THE MOMENT, A BENT PIECE OF RE BAR ( ABLQ., NM ABOUT 2007? ).

WASHINGTON,DC? HUH?

WHAT COLOR ARE THE EYE'S WITHOUT A FACE, SORRY EDDY, AND THE SKY ABOVE WASHINGTON,DC.? UH, BLOOD PATHOGEN, OR MAYBE ULTRAVIOLET?

AND THAT PLANT THING WITH ' NEEDLES ( ? ),' GEE, HUM, WELL, HOW ABOUT AN AREA WERE THE WOMEN ARE SO BEATEN DOWN, BUT THE SINGLE ONES, ALWAYS MOVING, OTHER EXTREME IN THAT CLIMATE, ARE NO LONGER ATTRACTIVE ON BOTH EXTREMES; SUCH ARE MEN DRAWN TO DOMINANCE OF OTHERS IN THE ' WELL ' OF ENVY. RE DESIGN. MINUS ENVY?

WHAT WOMEN ARE JOINING TERRORIST GROUPS? IDENTITY ISSUES?

GEE, BUT OF WHOM?....HUM, GOSH, WONDER HOW LONG THAT FROG HAS BEEN THERE? POWER IN, OF CONTROL, BACKGROUND RED, LETS SEE.........FIRE?

DESERT, A LACK OF WATER?

HUMAN=ABOUT 70% WATER; CITY, ABOUT SAME, BUT WITH SUPER HIGHWAY, INTER NET, BOILING POINT.

CRITICAL MASS?

' CONTROL,' LITTLE BITTY PIECE OF ' YELLOW.' UMMM, ' CAUTION?'

IN THE SWEDE WATERS THERE'S A SUB BEING LOOKED FOR.

BOTH CAPITALS, US AND CANADA HAVE BEEN ' PLAYED ' WITH, IN REHEARSALS. THIS ALONG WITH TRAIN DERAILMENTS, BEFORE, AND WHEN IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE YEARS FROM TODAY, IT'S ONE GROUP OF ( ' STATES ' ) ' CORPORATION ( S ) ' REPLACING ANOTHER, THE UNITED STATES GOVERNMENT, THAT WAS ' SOLD OUT,' BY CHILDREN, BUT IF YOU LOOKED ' BEHIND ' THEM YOU WOULD FIND ALL THE ' SPECIAL INTERESTS;' ALL ' LINES ' OF COMMUNICATIONS.

CONCLUSION.

EXCESSIVE COMPULSIVE AND INSTANT GRATIFICATION AT ANY AND ALL PRICES, THIS THE ' SELL OUT.'

LIGHTING STORM-EL PASO,TX 10-19-2014.

ALL I WANTED WAS A BIGGER BACKPACK
THAT WOULD BLEND AND LAST, BUT ' I'M
NOT A VET.'

IN THE UNITED STATES THE WEAKEST POINT IS THE AFRICAN AMERICAN YOUTH ' ROBBED ' OF ILLEGAL DRUG PROMOTIONS AND SELLS, FROM AN ' UN CARING ' SOCIETY THAT SOMEHOW SIDES WITH, AND IN FAVOR WITH A HOLLYWOOD WHO'S ' MISDIRECTION ' TO THE ROOT CAUSES OF ' YOUTH'S REBELLIONS ' IN OUR NATION'S CULTURES, TO BE THAT OF A LACK OF COMMUNICATION BETWEEN THE NEW ' GROUPINGS ' DEEMED ' NECESSARY FOR THE TOTALITY OF THE ' CLEANSING OF ' FAMILIA;' NOW, EVEN YOUNGER; OH HOW ' VIRTUAL.'

JUST NOT ENOUGH ' RAPED ' MINDS, I GUESS.

APPLE STORE

AT THE APPLE STORE, YESTERDAY, THE HELP WAS MORE THAN I'VE RECEIVED IN A WHILE, WITH EXCEPTION TO THE ' LINGERINGS ' OF THOSE EMPLOYEE'S WHO'S HANDS SWIPING THE COUNTER WHERE I SAT TO THE POINT OF TOUCHING ME. THAT WAS UNCALLED FOR AND ' UN PROFESSIONAL.' THE QUEENS STATEMENTS UNDER THERE BREATH " PASSWORD," AND ANOTHER THAT I WILL NOT MENTION ALSO IN CONJUNCTION WITH THOSE THAT ARE MENTIONED LATE AT NIGHT BY SOME OF THE ' CLIENTS ' AT THE MISSOURI STREET RESIDENCE, WHO ARE ALSO TRYING TO HACK ANYBODY AND HAVE LONG HISTORIES OF ' GANG AFFILIATIONS.'

ALSO, WHEN I WAS EXPLAINING WHAT I HAD DISCOVERED AS FAR AS SECURITY GOES, I HAD TO RAISE MY VOICE TO THE PERSON " DO NOT LOOK AT MY PASSWORD." HE COMPLIED.

WE ARE LOSING OUR COUNTRY TO A BUNCH OF LITTLE SHITS THAT IF THEY SPENT MORE TIME AT WORKING, WHEN AT WORK, INSTEAD OF TRYING TO GET LAYED, WE WOULDN'T BE IN THE ' STATE ' THAT WE ARE IN. I CAN'T REALLY REMEMBER A TIME WORKING WHEN WE HAD THAT MUCH TIME WITH EXCEPTION TO LUNCH AND EVEN THEN.

OH, AND ED DAMNS QUIT, HE'S RETIRING. I GUESS I RVED IT. MIGHT POST THE NOTEBOOK PAPER WITH ALL THAT I REMEMBERED, AND THAT ' FEEDBACK ' THAT I HEARD WHILE I WAS RANDOM PUNCHING KEYS ON MY PHONE=FUTURE.

" PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE," AND THE OTHER I BELIEVE, WAS SOMETHING THAT WAS ONCE REFEREED TO WOMEN. " WHAM BAM, THANK YOU MAM."

BAM,BAM.BAM-HAWAII----FREEBEE.

THE FEEDBACK WAS INTERESTING, WAS IT THE RADIO ( ON THE WALL, PLUG IN TYPE WITH CORD, AND ' KNOBS ' ) OR WAS IT AN ANDROID? I MIGHT POST THAT PAGE OF ' PAPER.'

THE NIGHTMARE OF TIME IS REAL, AND BELIEVE ME MORE HAS BEEN LEFT OFF THE NET THEN WRITTEN, BECAUSE OF THE NEED OF ACCURACY. TIME PLACEMENT OF ' THINKING ' IS NOT WHAT YOU THINK AND VERY OFTEN WILL INCLUDE ' THE TROJANS.'

UP DATED 05 - 05 - '14 - ' HOME INVASION ' - WE LEARN TO LEARN

UP DATED - 05 - 05 - '14

BELOW DOD STRATEGIC SPECTRUM PLAN-NITA-NATIONAL, EXCERPT.

I'VE USED ALOT OF MOTHERBOARDS AND ELECTRONICS IN MY ART OUTSIDE OF PKW ' EVENT.'

IS IT POSSIBLE WHEN A SOLIDER ( OR VET ALONE, AND OR WITH ' BROTHERS ' STILL SEVERING THIS COUNTRY ) HAS OTHER ' AGENDAS ' AND FINDS LIKE MINDED OTHERS, EVEN OF OTHER BELIEF AND POLITICAL SYSTEMS, ' TRAGIC EVENTS ' MIGHT BE INDUCED AGAINST THE ' POPULAR NORM,' IF NOT LAW ( NATIONAL, STATE, AND LOCAL ).

MY OBJECTIVE: RIGHTEOUSNESS AND SAFETY FOR ALL CHILDREN.

THE ' NOISE ' AND ATTACKS AND PERHAPS PARTICLE RV RESIDUE, MEANING ' ENTRAPMENT OF ' MINDSETS ' DURING THAT TIME. PKW DID MENTION ' BABY MONITORS ', I DID BABYSIT THE TWO YEAR OLD FOR BOTH OF THEM AS I OWED ON ONE OF THE RV CD'S.

I KNOW THIS IS PLANE AS DAY, HOWEVER ' SOMETHING OTHER THEN ME, IN BACKGROUND.'

WHAT WAS ALMOST ' ERASED, ' I WANT TO SAY THAT I WAS GIVEN THE OLD BABY MONITOR, EVENTUALLY I MIGHT OF USED THE INSIDES FOR ART. I FEEL, I'M BEATING AN ELECTRONIC ' CLOUD ' EVERY TIME I THINK OF IT.

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TIME DIFFERENTIALS ARE AND IS WHEN YOU BECOME ALL WITHOUT THE KNOWLEDGE OF DOING SO WITHIN ONE DIMENSION ( NOISE ); ONLY IN THAT AWARENESS OF SELF, DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE. TO LEARN FORWARDS OF YOUR POSITION IS LETTING ' NOTHING ' UNRAVEL WITHOUT ANY EXPECTATIONS, TO FIND ALL DIMENSIONS.

THE EXCEPTION, IS KNOWING THE MEANING OF BRAINWASHING BEFORE ' INTENT.'

AJ ( ACROSS THE STREET ) HATED ME, YET HE ASKED FOR HELP, TO CALL POLICE AGAINST ' POLICE,' SOLDIERS.

No reason to keep much of this anymore.

BEFORE ALL THIS, A HOME INVASION ACROSS THE STREET FROMM 5417 ALICE NE. ALBQ.,NEW MEXICO

THE NIGHTS BEFORE FEB 14, 2006 ( I BELIEVE ), I WAS ON THE FLOOR LISTENING TO ' GANG BANGERS ' WHISPER AT MY WINDOWS " WERE GONNA KILL YOU. " IN TRUTH THIS WENT ON FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS.

BUT THE INTENSITY OF THE NIGHTS PRIOR TO THE 14TH OF FEB, ABOUT A WEEK AND A HALF TO TWO WEEKS HAD IMAGERY THAT, THOUGH I KNEW OF, I HAD NEVER SEEN BEFORE.

WISPS OF ' LIGHT,' VERY MUCH LIKE BULLETS PASSING MY HEAD, ' PINGS ' LIKE THAT OF SONAR. " I GOT YOU! " BUT THE ' PINGS ' WERE MORE LIKE ' WAVES,' OR SKIRTS OF LIGHTED SMOKE BUT VERY THIN. I HAVE THE DATES OF SOME OF THE THREATS THAT WERE GIVEN, BUT THE CONCENTRATION NEEDED TO KEEP TRACK I WOULD OFTEN LOSE IN REPEATED WORDS ' KEEP QUITE,' ' THERE'S A WAR GOING ON," ' STAY INSIDE,' AND OTHERS THAT I CAN'T RECALL AT THE MOMENT. ' KEEP YOU'RE HEAD UP, ' WAS ONE THAT WENT INTO DAY.

THE NIGHT OF THE THIRTEENTH OF THAT FEBRUARY, IN 2006, I WAS MOSTLY ON THE FLOOR AS OTHER NIGHTS WAITING WITH MY CASE .38, I HAD SPEED LOADERS SET IN ONE ROOM AND BULLETS IN ALL. ( RIGHT NOW, A MAN WHO JUMPED OVER THE BACK FENCE DRESSED IN BLACK, HIS HEAD TURNED, I THINK WHITE. I WAS WALKING TOWARDS AJ WHEN HE WAS TELLING ME  "CALL THE COPS, THOSE AREN'T COPS " )

IT WAS VERY REAL AND THE INTERROGATIONS AS IT WAS HAPPENING WAS WORST. I NEVER POSTED THIS IN DETAIL BECAUSE, ONE WHO WOULD BELIEVE IT AND TWO I THOUGHT THAT THERE WAS A STING OR SOMETHING GOING ON AND WAS NOT SURE. " DOESN'T HE KNOW THERE'S A STING GOING ON ? " I CAN'T REALLY GIVE A DATE FOR THAT BECAUSE IT WAS ' BELOW ' STATIC, LIKE A WAKI TALKI. THIS HAPPENED IN THE KITCHEN AT 5417 ALICE ST.

THAT NIGHT PROGRESSED, I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT ' POLICE ' WERE PROTECTING ME, BUT WHY? " LOWER THAT WEAPON !, "BUT WHY AREN'T THEY ENTERING? PEOPLE ON THE ROOF. " TAKE THAT WATCH OFF," WHEN I DID SOME OF THE ' COMMANDS," LEFT. THE WATCH THING HAPPENED ONE OTHER NIGHT TOO.

I CRAWLED TO THE BEDROOM AND WAS PLAYED MORE, THIS IS WHERE THE ' LOCATION DEVICE,' I THOUGHT WAS USED; THE ' PINGING.' THERE WAS NO SOUND JUST A HINT OF WHAT FELT LIKE ' LIGHT ' AND A SLIGHT VIBRATION THAT WEAKENED AS IT DISPERSED. I MOVED AGAIN AND KEPT STILL, NOT EVEN A BREATH.

THIS WAS ON GOING FROM ABOUT ONE THIRTY TO DAWN WHEN I LEFT AROUND EIGHT AM OR SO.

TWO PINGS CAME VERY CLOSE AND I DECIDED TO STAY PUT, I THEN DIVIDED MYSELF AND PUT THE ' IMAGE ' IN THE LEFT CORNER, THEN REDUCED TO ' CRAWLING ' TO THE CORNER.

THE ' SHOT ' WAS AT THE END OF THE BED OR JUST TWO OR THREE INCHES TRAVELING ALONG THE BED TWO THE LEFT WALL. I WAS REALLY ABOUT ONE AND A HALF, MAYBE TWO FEET AWAY FROM ME TO MY LEFT. " I GOT HIM." I HEARD IN MY ' MIND.'

THE IMPACT IN THE CRAWL SPACE UNDER THE HOUSE, I HEARD WAS REAL, THE SOUND WAS MUFFLED AND A SHARP METALLIC, BUT AT ONCE. SILENCER WAS MY THOUGHT, IT ALMOST ' SLOWED ' MY THINKING.

I VERY SILENTLY GOT UP AND MOVED TO THE OTHER END OF THE ROOM BY THE DOOR. I HEARD IN MY MIND, " I KNOW IT! " ANOTHER ' PING ' OR WAVE FROM THE ROOF OR CEILING, AND A WHISPER, AND I HAVE NO IDEA FROM WHAT DIRECTION, THAT CAME FROM," I HAVE MOVEMENT."

I CANNOT EXPRESS THE TIME DIFFERENTIAL DEALING WITH WHAT YOU SEE, SMELL AND WHAT YOU ' FEEL,' NOT IN TERMS OF EMOTION; EVERYTHING EXISTS IN NANO SECONDS. AND WITH SOLDIERS IN NEAR SAME SITUATIONS, AT THE SAME TIME, MOVEMENT AND ' SLIVERS ( TIME ) ' OF SMELL, SOMEHOW CAUGHT IN TIME.

AND FOR TOADY'S SOLDIERS, ONLY BITCHES SMELL GUNPOWDER, BECAUSE WHAT KEEPS YOU ALIVE IN THOSE MOMENTS ARE THE OTHERS ( SENSES ), THAT WHICH IS DIFFERENT, THAT WHICH HAS A ' BODY ' ATTACHED TO IT; THAT WHICH WILL KILL YOU, ANY SMELL OTHER THAN THAT WHICH YOU ' RECOGNIZE, ' IS WHAT YOU HAVE TO QUESTION.

I WELDED DAY IN DAY OUT, I ONLY USED SOAP.

AS THE NIGHT PROGRESSED I FOUND A PLACE NEAR A WINDOW IN FRONT OF THE HOUSE I WATCHED INTENTLY FOR ANY MOVEMENT. NEAR MORNING THE ACTIVITY INCREASED AND I FOLLOWED THE SOUND OF THE FOOTSTEPS, ALTHOUGH QUITE THEY COULD BE HEARD. I HAD POSITIONED MYSELF OUT OF VIEW BEHIND A COUCH WITH ACCESS TO AT LEAST TWO ENTRYWAYS AS ALL THE WINDOWS WERE BARED, AND TEXTURED POLYCARBONATE.

AT THE TIME OF THE CRIMINALS TESTING DOOR ( SCREEN DOORS BOTH LOCKED ) I READIED MYSELF, THEN A SHADOW OF A PERSON, MORE SILHOUETTE THAN ANYTHING ELSE AND TALL PASSED BY THE WINDOW AND PORCH AREA. THE BREEZE MADE THE PLASTIC ON THE LIVING ROOM WINDOW FILTER SOME AND THE STATIC IN THE AIR WAS THICK. ALL POWER STRIPS WERE OFF. WHEN THE FIGURE PASTED BY ONE MORE TIME FROM THE LEFT OF THE HOUSE TO THE RIGHT, I TOOK AIM ONE MORE TIME AND IN DOING SO WHEN THE OTHER PASTED I ALMOST SHOT THE FUCKER, THE MAGAZINES SLIPPED. MY ELBOW WAS POSITIONED ON FOR SUPPORT. THE MISFIRE, THEN THE STATIC INCREASED AND I HEARD " THAT BETTER NOT OF BEEN ONE OF OURS." " MISFIRE," I ANSWERED THE ' VOICE,' NOT REALLY UNDERSTANDING ' WHY?' THE STATIC NEVER STOPPED.

THE RED STRAP ATTACHED TO THE RED NYLON BAG, MUCH LIKE A COLLAPSIBLE CHAIR, BUT SMALLER, FELL ALONG THE SIDE THE LIVING ROOM WINDOW FROM THE ROOF THAT MORNING....I'M STOPPING HERE.

AT JOHN CASTILIES APT. DRIVEWAY, ABOUT A WEEK LATER, I SAW THE THREE MOTORCYCLE RIDERS, ONE WITH THE RED BAG ACROSS HIS BACK. ALL THREE WHERE WHITE, CARHART APPAREL, HARLEY'S GOING DOWN LEAD. JOHN ' COMMITTED ' SUICIDE,' HIS LAND LORD SAID " ASSISTED SUICIDE." CIA, THAT WAS JOHN AND PART OF " WHO ARE YOU? WHO DO YOU WORK FOR? WHY ARE..?", I WENT THROUGH, NIGHT AFTER NIGHT.

THAT'S WHO I ANSWERED A FUCKING ' HACKED ' SPEAKER, OF MY HOME THEATER SYSTEM THAT NIGHT. OR ?

THE REST OF THE MORNING WAS A NIGHT MARE. WHAT I'VE COME TO REALIZE IS THAT THE MONTH THAT I'VE ALWAYS ' LACKED,' FROM MEMORY, IS RETURNING. I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT IT WAS 1-2 WEEKS NO SLEEP. I FIGURE THAT I HAD ABOUT 5, MAYBE, NIGHTS OF SLEEP FOR THIRTY DAYS.

AS PER PKW AND GIRLFRIEND KIM, THEIR FRIEND WAS SCHIMIER, A FRIEND OF PKW, WAS WORKING ON HIS NEXT GENERATION OF A GAME IN UNDER THE ' MUD ' CATEGORY AS FAR AS GAMING GOES, WHICH ALLOWS GLOBAL PLAYERS AND HIS INTENT, AT THE TIME OF APPLYING FOR WORK WITH THE CIA. I'M SURE HE GOT IT.
NOT A VERY FUNNY THING THOUGH, KIM'S MOTHER WORKED FOR THE CIA, SHE COMMITTED SUICIDE YEARS AGO, SHE WAS A PAPER SHREDDER.

PATRICK IS THE SOLIDER WHO I WROTE OF WHO IN TURN WITH OTHER SOLDIERS  " PLAYED WITH THE IRAQI'S HEADS " JUST FOR THE " FUN " OF IT, ELECTRONIC WARFARE.

AS WITH ' BRAD LOVELESS,' THE SOCIOPATH IMITATOR THAT MIGHT OF TRYED TO ' QUESTION,' THE TELEPHONE CONVERSATION, A PERSON THAT I'VE NEVER SPOKEN WITH, A PERSON WITH NO EMOTION IN HIS VOICE AS PER TONE.

YOU GUYS SURE ARE SOMETHING PROTECTING CHILDREN HUH ? !
HAND IN HAND, YOU KEPT YOU'RE PROMISE ABOUT MY SIDEARM....FOR NOW.

SINCE THEN, I SEE CLEARER. ' WHITE WASHED ' SHE AT FT. BLISS WAS RIGHT.

ONE OF MY CLASSES ' WALKING THE DOG ', ' GAMING,' ' THE HOMELESS,' AND TWO MEXICAN COINS UNDER MY SEAT THE SECOND TIME TO CLASS, THE INSTRUCTOR MADE ARRANGEMENTS, THE OTHER CLASS, SPANISH, THE MAN PLACES HIS HAND IN FRONT OF HIS MOUTH WITH HIS TONGUE OUT, AND MOVES HIS HAND BACK AND FORTH AS IF GIVING FELLATIO, AND WENT TO THE RESTROOM AS ANNOUNCED. I TRY TO GO TO THE TUTOR. THERE IS MORE BUT I'M TRYING JUST TO GET TO THE END OF THE TERM, I KNOW I'LL GET NO BENEFITS, IT SEEMS.

SINCE NINE ELEVEN, 9/11, I'VE BEEN PUTTING UP WITH THIS SHIT, ON A PROGRESSIVELY WORSENING SCALE.

THE ' TRIGGER ' FOR THIS WAS THE CLINIC, MEMORY OF A FAMILY/CHILD COUNSELOR WHO WAS FOUND DEAD OF APPARENT HEART ATTACK AT THE MED CENTER THAT T.J.TUCKER OWNED, THE OFFICE ONCE PAULA'S BRIEFLY.

THE MAN WAS ' SCARED' TO DEATH, A MAN, FATHER, OR BOYFRIEND, FOUND THE
OFFICE, THE MIRROR OR PHONE, MAYBE BOTH ' MENTAL FOOTPRINTS,' AND THE LAST OF THE KID'S DRAWINGS. A COUPLE I KEPT WHEN ASKED IF I WANTED THEM.

I'M STAYING AWAY FROM ' FUTURE EVENTS, ' AND I DON'T WORK OR HELP DRUG DEALERS OR CHILD MOLESTERS.


P.S. -  As per ' wavelenghts ' in bandwidths ( light ) and amino acids, chained neuro links and building blocks, and how to kill within this ' tooled ' focus, thanks Shimier, beneath your " I had nothing to do with that, I didn't know," mental footprint or other, I'm sure the number of bio tech/genetic researchers death numbers have risen since.

I was asked," can RV ( Remote Viewing ) kill," I sad " no." Both happened, question and answer, in my ' mind.' Thanks for asking and now I know better than help the ' Herd.'

But I had a weather band ( shortwave ) radio in my house. next to the bed. Now who would know that besides me, no other person has been in there other than the person who went through my mail.

Landlord, who the neighbors warned me about?

NO ONE LISTENED, NOT EVEN POLICE, THEY WERE PREEMPTED BY CHAVEZ'S CITY HALL.