I THOUGHT ' CHEERS ' AND A MAIN CHARACTER IN THE SERIES. A COMMON NAME.
I THOUGHT ' ADAM'S FAMILY ' AND WHAT WAS UNDER THE STAIRS.
I THOUGHT ' SOUTH PARK ' AND A SOMEWHAT ' REPETITIVE ' CHARACTER.
I THOUGHT ' THE FOUNTAIN HEAD ' ANN RAND AND SEVERAL ASPECTS MOST IMPORTANTLY ' COMMITTEES.'
THIS IS PART OF WHAT WAS ABOVE AND IN ' THE EVENT.'
LUCID DREAM/NIGHTMARE - SHADOW THING ON TOP OF ME/ I COULD NOT MOVE MY LEGS; MY ARMS, ALMOST USELESS, WOKE UP ON MY BACK, THIS ' THING ' ON TOP OF ME. I HAD TO USE ONE ARM TO GET OFF THE BED TO THE FLOOR. IT STOPED.
THE DREAM/NIGHTMARE
I FOUND MYSELF IN A DARK HALLWAY, A LARGE MAN/ MONSTER WAS CHASING ME; I SEEMED A LITTLE SHORTER AND WEAKER.
I RAN DOWN THE HALL STOPPING AND KNOCKING RAPIDLY AND LOUDLY ON THE DOORS. I WASN'T WEARING A SHIRT. MY ' SCARS ' ON MY HANDS AND ARMS, WERE NOT THERE. I RAN TO THE NEXT DOOR IT WAS OPEN AS WAS THE OTHER ONE FURTHER DOWN THE HALL. LAUGHING. MEN'S VOICES. I RAN DOWN THE HALL. A CURTAIN ON ONE DOORWAY CLOSE TO THE END OF THE HALL TO THE RIGHT THE BATHROOM ( NOW ) FACED THE END OF THE HALL???! NO EXIT.? MEN'S VOICES AND SOUNDS OF? PAIN?
THE MONSTER IN THE BACK OF ME, SOMETHING ELSE ATOP ME, ABOVE MY HEAD, AROUND ME, LAUGHING. SILENT THE FAMILIAR VOICE NOT QUITE RECOGNIZED.
I RAN AROUND THE MAZE, DOORS TO MY RIGHT ALL OPENED AS I RAN FROM THE BATHROOM; ALL THAT RUNNING WATER, EXTREMLY WET, HUMID AND HOT IN ABSOLUTE TERROR CLINGING TO ' REASON.'
RED LIGHT BULBS SHOWN IN THE DARKNESS FROM ROOMS WITH ONLY MEN, DARK FACES LAUGHING IN GLEEFUL HORID ANGERED ' SILENCED ' SCREAM MIRRORED THEIR HUNGERED BLOOD LUST. ANOTHER CURTAIN AS I RAN UP THE HALL AGAIN, TO MY LEFT AGAIN THE RED LIGHTED ROOMS????NO, TO MY LEFT WAS A HOT WALL AND THAT ' VOICE ' ABOVE ME. A WALL! THE WAY OUT WAS AT THE END OF THE HALL, NO! THE BATHROOM WAS AT THE END OF THE HALL, NO! I TURNED AGAIN, KEPT MY ' CALM ' AND RAN AGAIN,
THE DARKNESS, I WAS SCREAMING BUT COULD NOT HEAR MY VOICE, WAS I SCREAMING? THE NEAR FACE, THAT SMILE, ' TEETH,' SMILLING..." THIS IS WHO YOU ARE." THE VOICE SAID, THAT DARK ' PRINCE.' " I'M OVER HERE." IT SAID , I RAN THE OTHER WAY, LOOKING FOR A WAY OUT. I TURNED THE CORNER AGAIN!!! ' HELP! A SENSE OF FRANTIC....
NANO SECOND BETWEEN ABOVE BLENDED WITH BELOW
DEFUSED BLACK/WHITE, DID NOT KNOW ' MONOTONE,' YET - PART OF ME - OUTSIDE/THEN IN DUMPSTER.
PULLED - FELT - APART.
THIS WAS YEARS AGO, BEFORE I BOUGHT MY 38. WHICH WAS LEFT AT ALBQ. EVIDENCE BUILDING BECAUSE I WAS BEING FOLLOWED BY GUYS ON MOTORCYCLES. I THEN BOUGHT THE GLOCK. THE ' SHADOW RAPE ' WAS ME. ABOUT A YEAR BEFORE WAS ' WHO EVER' THAT POOR SOUL WAS.
THE ' HELP ' JUST ABOVE, THE REMINISCE OF ' !!JESUS!! ' WHEN I WOKE UP ALL THOSE YEARS BACK, THE DAMPNESS OF THE SHEETS, AND INDIFFERENCE AND WHILE URINATING THE REMINISCE OF NOT BEING ABLE TO HELP A ' PERSON ' IN A PLACE THAT I COULD NEVER FIND AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING THERE? GIRL? SMALL MAN? FAG? WHY ASK ME?
THE PRESENT, WHERE I LIVE NOW, THE FIRST DAY I SAW THE PLACE, BROUGHT BACK A MEMORY OF THE DREAM. IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT ' SOMEHOW,' I ' TRAVELLED ' HERE, WITHOUT EVER LEAVING MY BED. I'LL NEVER FORGET IT. I SAT IN THE LIVING ROOM FOR A LONG TIME, WONDERING WHERE I WAS IN THE DREAM, IN THE DARK.
THIS DREAM WAS IN BETWEEN STEEL SCULPTURE ABSTRACT BIRDS I BUILT BASED ON INDIAN DRAWINGS AND THE TWO DINOSAURS THAT I BUILT.
DURING THIS TIME THE ' FOREIGN ' IDEAS OF SUICIDE KEPT HOUNDING ME AND I TOLD BARTON PRINCE OF THESE ' ATTACKS ' AND ALL HE MENTIONED WAS " IT'S ALL IN YOU'RE HEAD." AND THAT SMIRK WHILE LOOKING TWO HIS TOWER OF ROCK, THEN THE DIRECTION OF MY NEIGHBORHOOD JUST TO THE LEFT; WE WERE STANDING IN FRONT OF HIS HOUSE.
JOHN GONZALESS-NATIONAL GUARD-COMMUNICATIONS.
BARTON PRINCE-AT LEAST TWENTY YEARS BETTER THEN TEN FOOT RADIO DISH-FROM ALL AROUND THE WORLD-SHORTWAVE-OLD HOUSE/RANCH-WHEN HAD POLIO OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT; FAMILY MEMBER.
I HAD NEVER BEEN THERE.
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| THE COLLAGE WAS ACCEPTED AT THE EL PASO CITY LIBRARY/CITY HERATAGE READING SECTION, I BELIEVE. |
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| LEFT OF EYE 707/8. I HAD NO IDEA THIS WAS THERE. ( THIS IS HIGH SCHOOL ) |
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| ANOTHER VIEW. 1909 -303. I PLAYED WITH NASA'S TOY ONLY ONCE THE POOR THING GOT STUCK IN THE SAND. ' SHE ' DIDN'T PULL THE ROPE TOO HARD, I IMAGINED. THE WINGS HELPED. 2006-2007 I WAS TRYING TO REMEMBER WHEN MY GRANDFATHER OCHOA WAS BORN...I HAD COMPANY. THE OTHER TWO YOU JUST ' WHISTLE.' |
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| E-6 AND STAR ? |
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| THIS IS IN A CORNOR WHERE THE BED USED TO BE; IT WAS UNDER BLOOD AND VILE THAT I CLEANED UP. I HAD TO CLEAN UP THE ENTIRE ROOM. THE ' WISPERS ' CLEAN THAT UP, NEVER OCCURED TO ME TO BE OTHER THAN IDOTS, OF COURSE I WOULD CLEAN THE FLOORS. THE SYMBOL WAS ON THE SCULPUTRE ' THE PROTECTION OF PRUDENCE BY CONSCIENCE,' THE SCULPTURE'S BASE. |
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| ANOTHER, THIS ONE INTERESTING, E-6 OR ' 86,' OTHER ODDITIES, I GUESS. |
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