PHAETHON STAR-SOBER OVER: UP-DATED-THIRD TIME LOSING EVERYTHING

Losing, everything isn't that bad, alone. I say that only because, you have to try hard first, to ' Make it.' To be a success in life. This time, it was worth it.

Mr. Adrianam Chavez of the El Paso times was probably a hoax, as was George at Coast to Coast AM.

Mr. Julio Gutierrez, a Veteran's Representative who helped me with the V-Rap in the beginning and more information later, though burdened with the ' headaches ' of the job which included countless interviews with not only Vet's but all the others who were only criminals looking for ' a free ride ' at EVERY ONE'S EXPENSE. I don't know yet, the E-mails were returned to me, error. I have been using a collage ' Apple,' after-all.

The others, most especially at Casa Vida, the only reason that I can imagine that you would want communication is/are the ' Falling Stars.' Yes, many criss-crossed, and some fell with in about six to eight blocks of the old Christian School which was turned into the homeless shelter/Rehab Center. Those people are lucky to be part of an event that will be remembered and has been a part of World History. If the ' stones,' are found. This focal point would be the immediate neighborhood of Casa Vida and the New school and Big Eight grocery store across the street. I truly hope that if found, needy families and not druggies find them. ( medical records might be missing/shot records/they were never shown to any one other than VST.P clinic here in El Paso, Tx., however nothing in mail or message.)

Grisham/lawless, I have no idea what you could want other than, yes I gave the couple ( PKW and girlfriend ) you're phone number and card, I was fooled, I'm ' Arab,' or Mexican in their eyes. Remember what I said they did to the Iraqis for fun, the man ( PKW ) said it himself. Electronic/physiological warfare.

7-3-13

( -WHAT I TOLD A FRIEND OF MINE ON 2-14 ALL THOSE YEARS AGO " YOU DON'T WANT A REMOTE VIEWER IN JAIL." Or care for the criminals afterwards, those who ' prompted this.' )

The ' Shadow Men '- a fluctuation of image-very tall, all seemed to wear suits.

The woman who appeared to be my mother, was at the center; she sat very still. I was on the counter sitting, she was on the other side, at the far end closest to the ' wall.' The opposite end of the ' Conference ' table, from me.

There were two ' men ' on either side of her. The reality of this ' lucid dream ' ( I learned later from radio and publications including books ) was as if near ' living experience,' with one exception, the color was off, more ' monotone.' It seemed that the energy required to keep the ' reel ' running, exceeded the mind's projecting it ( hindsight ).

' She,' said something to me that I have yet to understand, yet ' her ' lips never moved. I then noticed that there were two sinks, for what ever reason I asked in the dream " Why would you need two sinks? " I also noticed that they were sinks that you would find in hospitals or Labs. Labs is what entered my ' mind ' at the time.

Nothing really changed in the dream when I eased myself to the ' floor,' with exception to one of the ' men,' about a foot taller than me, came from behind and offered me a drink/" Here's what you asked for," I was looking at the woman/my mother ( ? ) and noticed that it glowed as I rose the cup/the double helix/as I drank/woke up/-compressed time, who knows. I say this because the dream only slowed when I asked the ' QUESTION,' then it sped up.

This was a very ' deep dream,' very close to Delta ( brain wave patterned music, I've listened to before, but not then. It is not on my I-POD now. ), I say this only for this reason...MOST, IF NOT ONLY SOME OF THIS HAS ' ALREADY HAPPENED.' this originally between 2001-2004, it is connected to other ' attempts,' in 1998-1999. I'm not going to focus much more on this because of my environment.

WHY THIS IS IMPORTANT

Last night ( 7-3-13 ) another dream, ' lucid,' I was opening a frig for what ever reason, saw brown bottles in the freezer, reached for it, but instead ' left this weakling,' took ahold of the refrigerator and pushed it to the floor, the bottles breaking, the liquid ' breaking the projection, ' thus revealing the floor to be a painted grey ' cement ' with a stainless steel drain, and light flooding/breaking the ' imagery,' and of the ' past, meaning-prior-dream state which included a woman and a house setting. All diminished in the rapid revelation that might of been another ' lab,' but I knew to be a real room flooded with light. The ' experience ' broke sudden.

The Dream was extremely ' real,' yet I somehow 'knew ' it to be a dream. Extremely Real.

I DON'T DRINK.

I decided to go ahead and print this here, instead of sending another note to CIA ( thanks by the way for the donation to the Mission, although I don't know who you guys were, I JUST WOKE UP FROM A NAP, I'll post the ' plastic bag ' from the Agency if I find it. Had no idea CIA had a gift shop. The contents were donated as promised and message received. Contents: white long sleeve shirt, black pair of slakes and one brown belt. My bed sheet is white, my Army sleeping bag is black. Pillow, white. )

7-3-13-Despite the fact that ' an occurrence,' most likely is replicated in time by a countless number of people ( all around the world ) in one point in space/time, I have withheld this: I BRIEFLY WAS SLENDER OF ARM, WRIST AND HAND. WAS EYE HEIGHT TO THE BOTTOM OF THE BOTTLES IN ' THAT FREEZER,' AND WHEN THE BOTTLES BROKE ON THE ILLUSIONARY ( ALLUSION ) FLOOR, THE ' VAPOR,' MIST OR CLOUD OF GAS ( INTERACTION BETWEEN TEMP/CHEM/? ) TRAVELED THE LENGTH OF THE SPILL OF THE LIQUID AND FURTHER...IT WAS NOT BEER. THE ' LAB ' FLOOR WAS BARE OF ANY SPILLAGE. THE ' FEELING ' OR THIRST WAS RAPIDLY DIMINISHING....I REACHED THE ' HEIGHT ' OF MY ' OCCUPATION ' ABOVE THE REFRIGERATOR AS I PUSHED IT OVER, I NEVER SAW MY ' LIGHT BODY.' I SIMPLY GREW TO BE A FOOT ABOVE ' HER,' AND AS HER.

MY HOST, ' WOMAN.' SKIN, VERY LIGHT, IF NOT WHITE. ( ' RIGHT ARM ( ? )' SEEMED TO BE SOMEHOW ' MASCULINE, OF DARKER TONE. HAND HELD THE DOOR FROM THE TOP ) STRONG FEELING.

MIND...BEYOND QUITE, STILL AND NOT MINE.

WHEN I AWOKE, I THEN URINATED, ' I ' FORGOT TO DRINK WATER, I WASN'T THIRSTY. THEN WENT BACK TO BED. TIME ABOUT 12:30-1:00 AM.

I BELIEVE THAT WHO EVER ' SHE ' WAS, SHE WAS TARGETED. I HAVE NO DOUBT.

I WORKED FOR ABLEBODY UNDER THE ELECTRICIANS/BECK CONSTRUCTION WHEN AT THE UT ' RESEARCH ' CONSTRUCTION SITE. AUSTIN,TX. This is the extent of my real time experience in any lab. And I might add, before it's completion, and described the fiber optic cable apparently that was en route to replace that which was returned ( I saw the building light up, as if energy pathways ) when I first arrived.

MY TWO CENTS

I would also like to state that I have absolutely no ambition to ever step foot in Arizona again. When I was kid ' That Man,' told me to watch the TV as the troops returned home from Vietnam, I did as I was told. I witnessed the returning solider knell down and kiss US soil again...then I was ' released. ' later in life, I had the opportunity to shake the hand of Senator McCain. I voted for you and I called you when my civil rights were trampled upon, and I felt I was being ' stalked.' YOU DON'T FENCE IN STATES TO KEEP PEOPLE OUT. The battle against drugs starts from the top down, military if necessary. Arrest your own. Care for the soldiers returning from ' theater.' Expel or dispose of the drug dealers here if they can't be ' Rehabilitated." Better education for all levels of the US population, and an equal opportunity for all ' class ' systems or levels ( sure seems that way in Texas and Az. ) for employment and advancement. Get A VERY REAL GRIP ON HOLLYWOOD AND SOME FORM OF CONTROL WITH CELL PHONES AND ACCESS TO THE INTERNET FOR MINORS, UNTIL OF AGE. SEVERELY PUNISH THE CORPORATIONS THAT FEED ON CHILDREN, REAL CHILDREN, not the ' childlike mentalities,' TRY AND RETEACH THEM.

START TAKING A REAL GOOD LOOK AT THE PEOPLE WHO ENTER THIS COUNTRY FOR A CHANGE ( NOT JUST GETTING EVEN WITH ' WHITEY,' 'CAUSE YOUR SKIN COLOR IS LIKE MINE-ONE, TWO-REPORT THE WHITEY THAT LETS THE DRUGGIE IN IN THE FIRST PLACE ) WITHOUT WAITING TO SEE WHO THEY ' MIGHT ' LEAD YOU TO, ' TO CATCH THE BIG GUY,' BECAUSE THAT NEVER SEEMS TO WORK ( OFTEN ), AND THE FUCKING DRUGS ( TRULY A METAPHOR NOW DAYS ) JUST SEEM TO MULTIPLY A ' BLOCK ' AWAY. GET RID OF POLICE OFFICERS WHO LIVE IN QUARTER-HALF MILLION DOLLAR HOMES THEIR SECOND-FIFTH YEAR OF SERVICE TO ANY COMMUNITY- A FREQUENT BITCH OF DRUG DEALERS AND FIND SOMETHING FOR THEM ( DRUG DEALERS ) TO BETTER OCCUPY THEIR TIME OTHER THAN LOUNGING ON THE PERCEPTION DRUGS PRESCRIBED TO THEM, WHEN IF ONE EVEN ASKED A DOCTOR WHAT THE ' EFFECTS ' OF THAT DRUG REALLY DOES, INCLUDING SIDE EFFECTS, SAYS " WHO HAS THE TIME."

AND START BUILDING AND PROVIDING MORE MERCHANDISE IN THIS COUNTRY PRODUCED BY US, UNITED STATES CITIZENS SO WE HAVE NO ONE TO COMPLAIN TO AND NO NECESSITY FOR A ' FENCE ' THAT CAN PROBABLY BE BETTER BUILT BY THE MEXICAN PEOPLE BECAUSE WE ' FORGOT ' TO AIM HIGHER AND TEACH OUR KIDS TO DO THE SAME.

REMEMBER...THEIR PRESIDENT DECLARED WAR ON THE CARTELS WHILE OUR YOUTH AND THE BUSINESS ' FRONTS ' PROFITED FROM THE SALES, OVER HERE.

DURING THE REAGEN YEARS A COMMERCIAL STATING FACT ( IN MY VIEW ) THAT IF ONE PARTOOK IN THE ILLEGAL USE OF DRUGS WAS AN ACT OF AND SUPPORTING TERRORISM. THE ACLU BY WAY OF LAWSUITS GOT IT OFF THE AIR WITHIN A WEEK.

' A MIND IS A TERRIBLE THING TO WASTE,' OF AFRICAN AMERICANS, MEXICANS AND ANGLO SAXONS...WHERE ARE YOUR CHILDREN NOW? AND OF WHAT VALUE...ABOUT A HUNDRED, MAYBE MORE, IN THE HUMAN TRAFFICKING TRADE, BEFORE THEY REACH THE BORDER...OR EN MASS TO THE NORTH OF THE UNITED STATES....IT ALL STARTED WITH THAT NEEDLE, PILL OR JOINT.

THE REAL QUESTION IS WHAT DO YOU DO WITH THE ' TERRORISTS ' AFTER THEY ARE CAUGHT? WHAT IS ' HUMANE ' IF THEY CAN NOT BE TAUGHT?

SOLDIERS COME BACK ' KNOWING ' THAT THEY CAN EXIST ANYWHERE AND PROFIT ( LIVE ) OFF THE ENVIRONMENT, ' ALIEN ' IF NECESSARY.

BUT TO ' FORMAT ' THIS ' CREATION, ' KNOWINGLY AT HOME IS AGGRESSION AGAINST THEIR OWN COUNTRYMEN WHEN THE VERY ' MOTHERBOARD,' SO TO SPEAK, ARE THE CHILDREN TO BEGIN WITH.

The candidate Mr. Obama lost my vote as per late term abortion. He is now and still our President. Governor Rick Perry has stated lately that new legislation dealing with abortion after 22 ( ? ) weeks to be illegal is a very good idea and State of Conscience for not only the country, but for The State of Texas. I'm sure that an old Ranger ( Az. ) who fought in Beirut, later a welder, whose ' voice,' mental footprint, I could hear all the way back to Austin, all those overpasses almost to Georgetown, will be pleased ( I hope you got your heart transplant, you old bastard. ). I'll never forget that Carp you caught, twenty plus lb. Golden Carp and all I caught was a rock, pieces of sticks whose shadow created a fish with a rock in it's mouth. I wish I never threw that Samsung in Chaparral Lake.

Perhaps in the future ( near future ), construction sites, when artifacts are come upon, ' Supervisors ' will not fire all employees from the top down or bottom up for the Dollar bill, who find and or, ' voice ' concern.

As for Travis Walton's family, I truly wish that I had met him in ' real time,' in person. I still can not believe the fossil, the shell was a true representation as to what ' he ' dealt with, but I sure would like to know who his Drs., psychologist were and where in the country they hailed.

LIGHT PEOPLE-THE OBJECTIVE- MY MEMORY PRIMARY

Years ago, during the attacks upon me, " They are us." I said when asked about the ' Aliens,' who and what we were/are dealing with. I was ' punished,' and one memory was all but erased, and my OBE from childhood, I fought to keep ' intact.' I was all but ' literally ' dissected mentally.

When I was a child, I worked on a model of the Enterprise Star Ship, I changed it, I drew out planes for it, but changed, when I was ' showing-who ever ' it was, and asked " How does it propel itself/How does it move, when, at the same time, " what is that? " ' He asked.' The engine compartment ( This wasn't in Star Trek ' compartment ' ), I answered out loud " Light." But I didn't understand. ' Spinning.'

No one was there...with me on Franklin St. I remember tearing up the drawings/planes. It was during this time that I built cities time and time again only to burn from the ' weird ' laser blasts of the ' so called Aliens.' The Obelisk that I built, always stood in the background.

If ' they ' experiment on ' you ' first, who do you think they will attack first?

We are not the only country working on ' Transporters, ' although as far as I know, the US is the only country that has transported a partial segment of a laser beam. I would think that only non living materials would be able to be ' transported.' If not for lack of experimentation, what is the living flesh to ' us ' and how is it be ' regarded ' from others in regards to ' what is pure? ' That with ' soul.' Certainly not the ' brains ' and ' minds ' of a child. Sometimes a flat piece of cardboard is out of necessity, a box. Historically we as an ' organism,' prove this time and again.

WE MIGHT BE BUILDING SOMETHING THAT WE AS A WHOLE PEOPLE ONLY PRETEND TO KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT IN THE NAME OF ' DEFENSE ' WHEN THE ONLY REALITY THAT WE REALLY KNOW OF YET IS A NEW MEANS FOR AGGRESSION, THAT HAS ALMOST ALWAYS BEEN THE END RESULT OF A NEW TECHNOLOGY. IF NOT THE ' ONLY ' MUSE. I WRITE THIS TO ALL COUNTRIES.

' And the sapling was ' mended ' to the parent of great age, as yet to the creation of the other's. But are ' they ' truly others ? And of who's ' conscience,' if not only wholly metallic...... Are we then ' they? ' '

The photo below ( IRAQ-I-POD ) was posted before on BSS from a different angle, this is for effect, I admit. One of countess ' realities ' that man may ' will ' upon another. Yet the startling revelation between both the abortion photos and those of war, who is the enemy; who is truly represented as the ' real,' obstruction to ' all humanities ' evils ? A criminal mind set will always blame the ' mothers ' only.

IS IT, WANT OR NEED ?

OR IS IT, WILL ?

Are you using yours? DO YOU KNOW THE DIFFERENCE ?

Before ' My Mother's Eye,' but after the face in the seashell,
the fossil that was found in Stassy Creek. I wish that I met Mr.
Walton in AZ. My sister's very real voice and what we all
watched as kids. " Don't you know your own mother's voice? "

A representation of my visits to Egypt and the
many pathways of water underground and the
many mysteries...planetary bloodlines.

The ' Y ' or ' Tuning fork ' I kept because I thought that women
might be better equipted to protect children than the men in
America who have been only trying to ' turn ' them only to the
company of other men. In this, I might be wrong.

G-D's Eyes. The symbol is so much older than all the current
parties fighting. Albq.,NM.

LBJ's boyhood home. I remember him when my
father introduced my mother to him on the steps
of The Capital/House inside. " Giants live here."
I said to my parents.

LBJ's boyhood home.

Austin,Tx.-First trip. 2009.

' She ' said, " Take a picture." I did. 2009-'10.
The second trip to Austin,
I was almost pushed out off the balcony of the 29th ( ? ) floor
by a black man. NOW I KNOW WHY... MEASURE AND COMPAS.

The children...

DAY AND NIGHT, you have to fight.

Kept in the closet with other paper articles, and
canned goods, everything that was on the shelf
on top was ' cooked.' The drawing was done by
a neighbors friend while we fooled with the com-
puter that I had just bought from him. I always
thought that this was somehow related to my
father.

This is the other that she drew. I found this very
interesting because several people that I ran in to
all described the same feeling, ' as if something '
had grabbed them atop the head and tryed to make
surrender or give up. A couple of these people
described ' this thing ' as the devil or Satan.